reasons to stay alive
there are so many animals you haven’t seen yet
you have to see the finale of that new show you’ve been watching
if you don’t read all the books on your tbr list, who will?
yknow when there’s a thunderstorm and you’re inside and listening to the rain hammering your window and you’re all toasty warm watching the lightning flashes?
and after the storm, when you go out and the whole world smells so clean and fresh and pretty?
when you take a shower and you come out and your skin feels so soft and your hair feels so smooth it’s like you might be a mermaid
those super fudgy chocolate brownies you know the kind im talking about
think of all the dogs you haven’t petted! all the kittens you haven’t cuddled! what about them?
there’s so many new styles and aesthetics you haven’t even considered yet
all these awesome clothes that you haven’t worn enough and are just hanging in your closet waiting for their chance
who’s gonna keep the little succulent on your side table alive?
that fic you’ve been working on but haven’t updated in two months? it’s someone’s favourite and they love you for writing it
when you go to the countryside and the air smells so fresh and warm and clean
or when you go to the city and it’s so big and you feel so small and everyone is just going about their own lives and it’s just beautiful
that fuzzy feeling in your heart when you do something nice for others, like drop some change in a homeless persons’ cup, or pay for the person behind you in the drive thru, or give a little kid leftover arcade tickets and watch them light up
your favourite character would be devastated to think you could hate yourself and your life that much
the smell when you walk past a cinnabon, bonus points when you actually get to buy one and enjoy it after a really yummy dinner
there are so many bookstores you haven’t visited yet!!
the people who you game with online or talk to online will be devastated to hear it, especially because they won’t even get the closure of a funeral
some day, someone will love you so much and give you everything you wanted to the point where you’ll wonder why you even considered not being around to see it
the feeling when you turn to the last page of a book you’ve enjoyed reading so much
all those cool cities you’ve never traveled to!!
all the museums and bookstores and art museums that you haven’t seen yet!
that feeling you get when someone leaves a kudos or comment on your fic
the smell of your favourite soap mmm
the ice cream you get from that one parlour downtown
the owner of that used bookstore who recognizes you and knows you and is always so friendly to you
dancing in the rain. even if you’re alone and in your yard and nobody can see you
coming home to your favourite food after a long day
that new hobby you’ve always wanted to try but just never got around to
you know that feeling when you guess the plot twist of a movie and you get to watch your predictions come true? real fun
or when you guess whodunnit on a mystery show?
when you treat yourself to a nice purchase that you usually wouldn’t but it just feels so good
taking a nice walk to your friends’ house when the weather is just right and you guys have a blast
driving late at night and blasting your favourite songs
when your favourite song comes on the radio and you go “!!!”
sunflowers!! they’re so pretty!
melted chocolate? it’s perfect
when you fall asleep after a really good cry and you wake up and feel so much lighter and stronger
when you climb into bed after a long, exhausting day and you feel safe and warm and maybe not happy, but you feel a little less sad
i’m going through a pretty rough patch right now, and i started thinking in the shower how much simpler things would be if i really did just end it all. and then i remembered my favourite sitcom, and the brownies my mom wanted to make with me tomorrow, and the bag of chips next to my bed, and the new friend i just made, and i feel a little better now. these are fairly self-indulgent, idk how much they’ll help anyone else, but they’re helping me
