I kinda just feel like crying. People have been trying to make me feel better but I can’t and I don’t know why. My older guy friend was trying to text me to give me advice and all I could think of is how I’m making his day worse. Everyone around me already has a hard enough time without me being a whiny bitch and yet I am one anyway. They would probably be happier in the long run if I hadn’t been their friend but I’m selfish enough to not leave. I’m mean to people all the fucking time and by now I just don’t know how to stop. I told my crush, who we will call cracker for now, about his and he challenged me to try and be nice and I just can’t. I really really wish I could. Not like anybody really cares anyways since nothing did change. If there’s nothing showing it happened,most people won’t believe it did.
#rant #sorry you got to be depressed by me #lets all go cry together #i kinda just want a hug but like whatever












