I AM NOT THE JEDI I SHOULD BE. // hiatus @forcepariah-blog - Tumblr Blog

#╰ ✧ ❛ ⁱ'ˡˡ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ˢʰᵘᵗ ᵘᵖ ( ooc. )#hi i'm an inactive trash can #who is gonna keep this blog on an indefinite hiatus #as i don't have any muse for vaderkin rn #but i'll return #till then #you can find me on my other blogs

forcebeacon-blog

A HIATUS NOTICE ! all of my blogs are going to be on a hiatus starting on next monday ( or earlier ) && it’ll last a well over a week . maybe even two weeks , depending on the circumstances . i’ll be available on mobile , obviously , && mutuals can also contact me on d.iscord . my username’s forcebeacon#9425 over there . please message me who you are when adding !

#╰ ✧ ❛ ⁱ'ˡˡ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ˢʰᵘᵗ ᵘᵖ ( ooc. )#hiatus notice.

hiya everyone , sorry for not really being here lately ——— i’ve been busy doing stuff on my other blogs + making a palpatine one . ( seriously , susanne ? you already had , like , six blogs ?! ) catch up with him on @forcesovran .

#╰ ✧ ❛ ⁱ'ˡˡ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ˢʰᵘᵗ ᵘᵖ ( ooc. )#also i like the psd i have for him #it's based on this one i have on ani ++ fem!luke

forcebeacon-blog

A LIST OF SUSANNE’S CURRENTLY ACTIVE MUSES.

ANAKIN SKYWALKER | DARTH VADER / star wars / active / @forcepariah

CASTIEL / supernatural / semi — active / @fealtydriven

CHUCK SHURLEY | GOD / supernatural / active / @omnipctens

JEDIKIAH PRICE / adapted to star wars / semi — active / @jcdikiah

LUKE SKYWALKER / star wars / active / @forcebeacon

TWELFTH DOCTOR / doctor who / active / @puddingbrains

#╰ ✧ ❛ ⁱ'ˡˡ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ˢʰᵘᵗ ᵘᵖ ( ooc. )#here's this #a list of my blogs #i always have tumblr app open on any of these blogs #blog drop.

╰ ✧ ❛ AMIDALC !

how could she CALM DOWN ??? the poor baby in her belly, t’was not his ( A BOY, SHE KNEW IT WAS A BOY ) fault that his mother was put in this state of UTTER DISTRESS. she was trembling all over, his words did anything but SOOTHE HER —— how could they when he terrified her ??? yet part of her, somewhere within her she yearned for the comfort of his arms, longed to have him hold her ( PULL ME IN. PULL ME IN. PULL ME IN. ) she wanted ANAKIN more than ever —— ani, her ani, not this yellow-eyed stranger before her. dainty hands ran through her unruly hair, tugging GENTLY as if it would soothe her —— she was BREAKING DOWN in front of him.

“ wh-why am i HERE ??? where’s obi-wan ??? “ the senator asked, voice TREMBLING as she spoke. finally she met his eyes —— BROWN EYES GAZING INTO COLD YELLOW. chest heaving up && down as she tries to calm down —— if only for the child inside her, he didn’t deserve to share his BROKEN mother’s internal scars. though unborn, the child was THE MOST IMPORTANT to her. “ do you REALLY THINK i will let you have anything to do with our child ??? do you think i will let him grow up around THAT MONSTER you have aligned with ??? i will die before i let sheev palpatine so much as L O O K at our son. “

it’s not just a trauma , he realizes as he watches her small frame tremble && her chest heave . she is truly terrified of him . LIKE THE YOUNGLINGS HAD BEEN BEFORE HE STRUCK THEM DOWN && DEATH CLAIMED THEM ALL AS HIS OWN . he can still hear them scream whenever he closes his eyes . but she shouldn’t be ! choking her was a mistake , yes , but why can’t she just understand he did everything , built an empire from the republic’s ashes && killed sidious , for her and the child in her womb ? his expression darkens when she asks about obi — wan . ❛ DEAD , ❜ vader tells her without even a hint of remorse in his amber eyes when her eyes meet his . ❛ i will not speak of obi — wan any longer . ❜ && he means it . he doesn’t wish to talk about this traitor who almost stole away the love of his life and their unborn child .

oh , he almost forgot : she still doesn’t know about sidious . ❛ sidious will never look at her because i killed him too . i decided i don’t need his help to save you . ❜ while she thinks the child is a boy , he is so sure it’s a girl with a kick THAT HARD . ❛ && he made me the emperor just before his heart stopped beating ——— why can’t you just see , padmé ? with me on the throne , we can change things . make the galaxy a better place for people and our child ! ❜

#amidalc #╰ ✧ ❛ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ⁱˢ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿⁱⁿᵍ ; ⁱ ᵃᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ʲᵉᵈⁱ ⁱ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵇᵉ ; ⁱ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵐᵒʳᵉ ( ic. )#╰ ✧ ❛ ᵗʰᵉʸ ˢʰᵃˡˡ ʳᵘˡᵉ ᵗᵒᵍᵉᵗʰᵉʳ ( alt verse 02. )#child murder mention /#q.

╰ ✧ ❛ PRINCESSORGANC !

she was POUTING at him despite the smile from the man who was her daddy —— well her new daddy, also her real daddy ( LEIA WAS STILL CONFUSED ) . “ papa, “ leia whined, brown eyes widening && pout still on face as her little arms begin to cross. though despite her SULLEN MOOD she already loves her ( NEW ) father, at times she forgot that he HADN’T been in her life from the start. “ i don’t like your guards, they are SCARY. “

his brilliant smile falters , fades away at the look on her face ——— && a small sigh leaves his lips . how is he supposed to explain this to a child ? then gets an idea . he stands up before crouching down to her level , looking leia in the eye . blue meets brown ( all from her ) . ❛ look , sweetheart . . . they are supposed to look scary to scare away the bad guys . && their job is to protect you , your brother and your mother . none of them will ever harm you , i promise . ❜ or it’ll mean a bullet to their skull , he thinks darkly to himself .

#princessorganc #╰ ✧ ❛ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ⁱˢ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿⁱⁿᵍ ; ⁱ ᵃᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ʲᵉᵈⁱ ⁱ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵇᵉ ; ⁱ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵐᵒʳᵉ ( ic. )#╰ ✧ ❛ ʰⁱˢ ˡⁱᵖˢ ᵏⁱˢˢ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇᵃʳʳᵉˡ ᵒᶠ ᵃ ᵍᵘⁿ ( alt verse 03. )#leia is too cute #q.

shockvvaves

abstract prompts.

thirty-five abstract prompts to inspire you. inspired by this meme.

Does it still hurt to think about?

It only comes at night.

Silence in the woods.

Your suitcase is empty.

Unconfirmed sighting.

It’s still heavy.

The war lasted five, long years.

The stars are going out.

She had feathers in her hair.

Silence so loud it deafens.

Invisible chains are the strongest.

Three years have passed, and it still feels like yesterday.

Uneven scales.

Just this once, the Universe responds.

Stealing to survive.

A mountain that only grows as you climb it.

Losing the ability to feel.

The taste of sunlight.

Never come back. Never.

Things only seen by the trees.

Something illuminated in the darkness.

Red, like life.

What sinks in water, and floats in air?

It was only a dream.

Sensing destruction before it happens.

Fleeting moments.

What happens while everyone sleeps.

It only exists when you look at it.

They returned alone.

Only one wish.

Stolen moments.

Unbelonging.

Footprints in the snow, stopping suddenly.

It lives in the woods.

Seeking shelter.

#mobile tbt.#please just send me these :)))#&& i'll write u a fucking novel

labors

am i bitter? yes. but do i try to move on and let go of past anger? well, actually, no

#╰ ✧ ❛ ᵃⁿᵈ ᵃˡˡ ᵗʰᵉ ᵏⁱᵈˢ ᶜʳⁱᵉᵈ ᵒᵘᵗ ᵖˡᵉᵃˢᵉ ˢᵗᵒᵖ ʸᵒᵘ'ʳᵉ ˢᶜᵃʳⁱⁿᵍ ᵐᵉ ; ⁱ ᶜᵃⁿ'ᵗ ʰᵉˡᵖ ᵗʰⁱˢ ᵃʷᶠᵘˡ ᵉⁿᵉʳᵍʸ ( musings. )

UNFINISHED BUSINESS with drug dealers && all sort of filth has brought vader to this particular city in the states . and honestly ? he wouldn’t have set his foot to the city ever again if it wasn’t for HIS BOSS . if sidious himself hadn’t demanded it from him , vader wouldn’t have done it . what this city has is bad , even painful memories from the time he was young && foolish . . . believed in words like righteousness && justice . in the past few years , his moral compass has drastically changed : he is no longer above the disgusting , vile acts he once despised .

VADER IS ABOUT TO GIVE HIS MEN AN ORDER when something ——— or rather someone ——— catches his eye && freezes him on the spot . blue eyes widen a little in surprise , confusion && something else . it can’t be her ! she is supposed to be dead by his hand ! but there she is , beautiful as ever with . . . children ? his eyes narrow a little , && he points at them with his index finger . ❛ bring them to me . ❜

@amidalc ♥’d

#amidalc #╰ ✧ ❛ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ⁱˢ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿⁱⁿᵍ ; ⁱ ᵃᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ʲᵉᵈⁱ ⁱ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵇᵉ ; ⁱ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵐᵒʳᵉ ( ic. )#╰ ✧ ❛ ʰⁱˢ ˡⁱᵖˢ ᵏⁱˢˢ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇᵃʳʳᵉˡ ᵒᶠ ᵃ ᵍᵘⁿ ( alt verse 03. )#here we go

❛ what is it , sweetheart ? ❜ his lips curve into one of those rare smiles as vader’s gaze falls down upon his daughter , one of the bright spots in his life . OH , HOW MUCH HE LOVES HIS CHILDREN ! he has spoiled them both , although he won’t admit it .

@princessorganc ♥'d

#princessorganc #╰ ✧ ❛ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ⁱˢ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿⁱⁿᵍ ; ⁱ ᵃᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ʲᵉᵈⁱ ⁱ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵇᵉ ; ⁱ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵐᵒʳᵉ ( ic. )#╰ ✧ ❛ ʰⁱˢ ˡⁱᵖˢ ᵏⁱˢˢ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇᵃʳʳᵉˡ ᵒᶠ ᵃ ᵍᵘⁿ ( alt verse 03. )#:')#up next; the starter for padmoo

like this for a starter featuring mafia!vader while i am iconing "jumper"

#╰ ✧ ❛ ⁱ'ˡˡ ⁿᵉᵛᵉʳ ˢʰᵘᵗ ᵘᵖ ( ooc. )

pistaschio

Don’t lecture me, Obi-Wan.

I see through the lies of the Jedi.

I do not fear the dark side as you do.

I have brought peace, freedom, justice, and security to my new empire.

#╰ ✧ ❛ ˢᵘⁿˢ ⁱⁿ ʰⁱˢ ᵉʸᵉˢ && ᵍᵃˡᵃˣⁱᵉˢ ᵃᵗ ʰⁱˢ ᶠⁱⁿᵍᵉʳᵗⁱᵖˢ ( aesthetic. )

MODERN MUSE INFO

NAME: anakin MIDDLE NAME: n/a LAST NAME: skywalker AGE: 19-44 years old GENDER: cis male SEXUALITY: demiromantic bisexual FAMILY: unnamed father, shmi skywalker (mother), padmé naberrie amidala (wife), luke skywalker (son), leia organa-solo (daughter), han solo (son-in-law), ben solo (grandson), owen lars (stepbrother), cliegg lars (stepfather), beru whitesun-lars (sister-in-law). BIRTHPLACE: stockholm, sweden HOMETOWN: stockholm, sweden CURRENT LOCATION: it depends, he is most likely in the states NATIONALITY: swedish ETHNICITY: swedish, danish && italian SPOKEN LANGUAGES: english, swedish, a little bit of italian RELIGION: christianity HEIGHT: 1,83 meters / 6 feet BODY TYPE: mesomorph HAIR COLOR && TYPE: blond to brown (dyed), curly if he lets his hair grow EYE COLOR && SHAPE: blue, almond-shaped TATTOOS: none PIERCINGS: none EDUCATIONAL BACKGROUND: high school && police academy PETS: currently none CAREER: underboss in a mafia family, formerly a police officer SOCIAL MEDIA USED: none SMOKING: never / occasionally / "party smoker" / often DRINKING: never / occasionally / often DRUGS: never / occasionally / often IF THEY DO DRUGS, WHAT KIND?: cannabis ATHELICS THEY ENJOY?: baseball VIRGIN?: yes / no IF NOT, HOW OLD WERE THEY WHEN THEY LOST THEIR VIRGINITY?: in his early twenties FAVORITE DRINK: manhattan (cocktail) FAVORITE FOOD: homemade swedish meatballs and mashed potatoes, just like his mother used to cook them. FAVORITE MUSIC: he thoroughly enjoys classic rock music && some classical music FAVORITE MOVIE: he likes thrillers and action-filled movies FAVORITE TV SHOW: crime && drama series FAVORITE BOOK: he doesn't read too much, but he likes science fiction books like the hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy CLOTHING STYLE: casual, formal UNDERWEAR TYPE: he just likes normal boxers? HEROES: shmi skywalker, qui-gon jinn.

#╰ ✧ ❛ ᶠʳᵒᵐ ᵐʸ ᵖᵒⁱⁿᵗ ᵒᶠ ᵛⁱᵉʷ ( headcanon. )#╰ ✧ ❛ ʰᵉ ᶠᵒˡˡᵒʷᵉᵈ ʰⁱˢ ᶠᵉᵉˡⁱⁿᵍˢ ⁱⁿˢᵗᵉᵃᵈ ( about. )#╰ ✧ ❛ ʰⁱˢ ˡⁱᵖˢ ᵏⁱˢˢ ᵗʰᵉ ᵇᵃʳʳᵉˡ ᵒᶠ ᵃ ᵍᵘⁿ ( alt verse 03. )

anakinskywalkrx

Welcome to the future

forcepariah-blog

╰ ✧ ❛ ANAKINSKYWALKRX !

“I know you are a general.”

Of course who he used to be insisted on using that title. He did not yet realize how true power felt like. Not yet. How his younger self had managed to come to this place was unclear but did it really matter? The future was set in stone and this is what he would become. And all of that because he thought he could safe her. He had not thought of her in a long time, undoubtedly the sight of hid younger self made old memories come back to life.

Vader was not scared of the lightsaber Anakin had ignited. He was more powerful then his past self not was he scared to die.

“Oh you will know me a lot better then you would expect.” His vocal chords did not allow him to express any real emotion through them. “I am your future.”

THOSE OMINOUS , SOMEWHAT SINISTER WORDS fill his mind with unease && anxiety , just like those visions ( he is very , very confident that they aren’t recurring nightmares of padmé dying in childbirth born of his inner fears ) bestowed upon him do . wariness is shown in the blue eyes as he watches the sith lord . what does this sith lord mean by that ? what do those words mean ? the answer hits him like a lightning bolt from the sunny sky , leaving his hands trembling && the grip tightening on the saber so he wouldn’t drop it out of the shock .

i am your future . i am your future . I AM YOUR FUTURE , the words echo in his mind , taunting anakin skywalker . && he opens his mouth to deny it , say that the sith lord is absolutely lying about this because that can’t be correct , but no words come out . thanks to the force , HE KNOWS IT TO BE TRUE as much as he loathes to admit it . but how ? how could this sith lord be his future ? why would he turn his back to the light && all that is good && become this ?

❛ what happened to you ? ❜ anakin asks , his throat suddenly feeling dry . he somehow knows he has to get to the bottom of this , to avoid this shocking future the force has in store for him . ❛ ———— && where is padmé ? is she safe ? is she alright ? ❜ he must know .

#anakinskywalkrx #╰ ✧ ❛ ˢᵒᵐᵉᵗʰⁱⁿᵍ ⁱˢ ʰᵃᵖᵖᵉⁿⁱⁿᵍ ; ⁱ ᵃᵐ ⁿᵒᵗ ᵗʰᵉ ʲᵉᵈⁱ ⁱ ˢʰᵒᵘˡᵈ ᵇᵉ ; ⁱ ʷᵃⁿᵗ ᵐᵒʳᵉ ( ic. )#( time travel au tba. )#:))) see what i did there #q.