Still Standing

28, lover of all things detailed in life.

[yamelcakes]

things I learned from community members recently:

ICE is tapping into Bluetooth. Turn off Bluetooth if you are observing.

ICE is following ambulances so they can arrest people at the hospital. At this point, it is safer for people at risk to be driven to the hospital by community members.

ICE might back off if you threaten to call 911. The relationship between local law enforcement and ICE is extremely tense right now. ICE agents are cowards and will usually slink off if they know local law enforcement is watching. They know Minnesota will prosecute them if Dems regain political power.

Likewise, if you are being tailed by ICE head to your local police station or other public space with many cameras. Do NOT drive home under any circumstances. Heard directly from folks that they are being stalked by ICE and ICE will make an “I’m watching you” gesture when they find them at their homes.

Choose between delivering items to people who can’t leave their homes OR observing ICE. Do NOT do both. If you are identified while observing, ICE will log your license plate and track you to the people you are trying to help.

Far right agitators are on the ground. Stay safe.

[thewellofastarael]

In general, you should keep bluetooth, location and wifi off unless you're actively using them. There's no point in making that data/connectivity available for the taking.

[foreverdrowningintears]

Also if your phone has a setting to remove airplane mode from the toolbar that is accessible when your phone is locked, please do that. If you can swing it, get a small body cam instead of recording with your phone (they really seem to hate seeing phones). I’ve seen a few that have solid magnetic backing too so you can cover the body of the camera and not the lense if you are planning to be an observer. I have also heard that agents are starting to go undercover as protesters and are tampering with food and beverages, people have reported getting sick from (unknowingly) consuming tampered food items. Do not eat or drink anything anyone hands you if they didn’t come with you to the protest. Stay safe out there everyone!

[foreverdrowningintears]

First successful attempt with my crochet flowstar! I cannot wait to learn more about flow and use different flow tools

[achillesinhighheels]

They hate it when u dont abide by the same imaginary rules that they force themselves to live under

[foreverdrowningintears]

I release you from the torture of unreturned love. Let whatever hold I have upon your heart be ripped out from within you as you dream. Let this night be the last you dream of me, and the last that you cross my mind. Let this be the night that my existence is snatched from your circle of awareness, so that my name will never cross your mind, or pass your lips on an errant breath. I release you from any memory you have of me whether it be ill or fond. I release you from any memory of what you believed us to be and from any hope or longing that it may ever be again. I release you from any bonds we shared and any promise made.

I release myself from all past versions of myself and any love she gave or commitments she made. I release myself from past pains; let this be the night any lingering hurt and anger is stripped from me through peaceful slumber and dreamlessness. Let tonight be the night that rest removes you from my circle of awareness; that you will dissolve completely from my life and memory.

I am not my past self and I refuse to allow her to burden me further nor allow her to trespass on my emotions.

[foreverdrowningintears]

I lay silently awake

Wandering through memories past.

These scars across my skin, across my heart,

Begin to itch at the thought of you;

Rising to the surface as if you’ve lashed them anew.

This is my reflection.

Scars raised and skin bruised;

Just like you left me, and I left you.

They are but thin lines now

Like stretched skin.

Faded like memories.

New ones made in love healed them,

and me.

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I have spent a long time learning these lessons and closing myself off from things that no longer hold purpose in my life. I have spent the last (almost) year unlearning the deceptions about myself that I created. Now I know that I am a reflection. the love I receive is the light I reflect. There will always be someone to love me, as there is a seemingly endless list of people to love.

It was well past time, but I have finally learned that I cannot always shine on everyone; my light is precious. now I guard it maliciously and effervescently; rabid dog-like.

I say this now, to let you all know I am kinda-still healing. I am mostly there now, but I still have the memories of being hunted, my flesh in the maws of a beast, my heart left in ribbons around my body cold-grown.

Now though, I am making memories of moonlit nights, snowy star-scapes, being wrapped around the sounds of my safe space, and finally beginning to feel complete.

I carry so much love with me, and I know now how to invest it.

[foreverdrowningintears]

Honeyed eyes

Catching the rays of love.

The gift bestowed upon me,

is you.

[foreverdrowningintears]

Mochi has been getting so big and now takes up so much room in this little hideout. I can’t believe how the time flies

[ur-daily-inspiration]

[parad0xymoron]

i bet it feels really good and cosy to be the gloop in a lava lamp. just getting swirld about!

[wolfhollowcreations]

A new crochet market bag is now available! Selling for $55 with shipping included.

Material: Red Heart 100% Acrylic Color: Anthracite Ombre Machine Washable: Yes, wash warm/gentle + tumble dry low. Bag Size: 11'' deep x 19'' wide with 10'' straps Payment accepted via PayPaI or Square

Shipping available within the US only

Made using the tutorial by Stephanie Zed on YouTube.

[letsbelonelytogetherr]

— Jay Vespertine (via letsbelonelytogetherr)

[foreverdrowningintears]

But it didn’t.

[foreverdrowningintears]

Brotha 🤢🤮

[foreverdrowningintears]

A cute little blueberry cow. I still have one more to sew together

[foreverdrowningintears]

Three things I have learned about my bearded dragon in the past few days of having him.

-He LOVES window time.

Whenever it’s time for him to come out of the tank I always put him on my shirt, and he will always climb off of me and go towards the closest window.

-He’s an adventurer!!

This goes along with his obsession with windows, but he’s not happy if he can’t see out of a window and always turns his head to look at everything.

-He’s very calm.

Once properly situated near a window I can pretty much free roam because I know he will stay put (don’t worry though, he’s never out of my sight)

I didn’t think I’d really be this happy over finally having a bearded dragon, but honestly I’m having so much fun learning his personality.

[foreverdrowningintears]

Rescued this sweet baby from the market while out selling some stuff!! Spent the rest of the day getting him situated and having bonding time. We got so comfy that I almost fell asleep with him still laying on me. I can’t wait to finally have a name for him.

[foreverdrowningintears]

I met you and your mess, and I let you make a mess of me.

I was a whole person once; now there’s broken glass in my veins. Open wounds on my body that still bleed. The sound of glass shards skittering across the floor haunts me at night.

I feel the healing; glass being pushed from skin, the bite still so fresh, and the wounds still silently weeping.

But I have found a space where I can be free, where I have begun to love myself again. This space I have is sacred and divine. A place to heal and to cry. A secret grove where I find every delicate part of the puzzle that is me which got lost along the way.

it’s sad to realize that no matter how much I still care, you just don’t fit into that picture anymore.

I still can’t forgive either of us.

[midnightportals]

You left me questioning my worth and wondering if I’ll ever be good enough for anyone.

[foreverdrowningintears]

Sometimes I spend my sleepless nights turning over thoughts.

Like planes the thoughts fly,

Like trains, they travel

Leave me wondering

Derailed.

Who am I?

Who are you?

Look in the mirror

There we are.

A collective,

Time

Memories

Love

They all pass me by.

Desolate

Leave me open

Rip my heart out

Love you dry.

I see you clearly now,

Maybe we were right.