Nothingness and Angst

Young love is dumb love however it was still enough

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Unsure?

Hello Mr. A.,

It’s been 5 months! We’re nearing a month to mark half a year of being “together.” Although, there are times the way we talk becomes so stagnant i get really scared that it may be fading from here. I honestly have such high hopes for us... I just fear you’ll leave soon; which i don’t want you to do. I’m not even sure of what we are... it’s honestly so hard not being able to see, or touch you. Fuck... hope we can wait longer for that to happen... i lovee youuu

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PLEASE (A rant)

I DON’T FUCKING NEED YOU RIGHT NOW ANXIETY. It’s so fucking annoying how i want to be okay and i can’t because my thoughts are driving me crazy. I just wanna sleep this off... I just want someone to be there to listen now or even just be here by my side. I fucking can’t handle this anymore... IT’S TOO MUCH ALREADY. Why is my brain like this?!?! I wanna do well in school again... I wanna not think about the pressure school gives... or what my flaws give... I wanna be able to pinpoint what the actual fuck is wrong with me... It’s such a sinking feeling I don’t even understand... It’s so bad.... please please please dear 17 year old me... don’t give up on me yet. Losing your scholarship at uni will surely break you harder as it is now... Stop fucking crying please please please!!! Stop being so sad... stop comparing yourself... just stop it... stop it...

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PART 1: HELLO MR. A

It’s been exactly 2 months since we’ve started talking and I really didn’t expect myself to like you this much... hahah i just didn’t find you attractive at all... but... looking back... i’m so glad that i didn’t like you then... the way i like you now is so faken great... no consciousness whatsoever and i can tell you everything without holding myself back...

[i-saw-you-in-my-dreams-dar-ling]

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honestly....

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I don’t like this feeling... this is the first time i’ve felt so scared....

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FCK RICA STAPH IT

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Again

Hi sunset; saw you again last night. WIsh I could have talked to you but i didn’t. I was shy, and you were as well. Although, i know you’re not shy because of me, you were shy because of her. SIGH

[pokec0re]

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Best Feeling

I think the best feeling in the world is when you realize that there is more to life than being in a dark place. You asked me what i wanted more, sunrise or sunset, and i chose both not only because they are a beautiful masterpiece but because they give me hope. I think you were able to give me hope. To be able to find someone so passionate about God gave me some light. Are you my new guardian Angel?? HAHA as much as I’m starting to like you like crazy, I really hope this isn’t some delusion showing up. HAHA

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I think this is what all of us should learn. We should just be ourselves around people... I wanna be myself when im around myself but society fixated my mind on becoming someone else when im around someone else because they wouldnt like anyone weird or too loud...

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that feeling when you try to stop yourself from squealing hahah ugh i must look so crazy right now

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i get so “jumpy” whenever i think of you HAHHAHh WTF WHYYY

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I think the most annoying thing in the whole world is preventing yourself from falling for someone because,

1. It can destroy your friendship

2. He doesn’t like you that way

3. You’re scared of getting into a relationship that might fail

4. ugh u just suck :/

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One day.

One day I will be beautiful. One day I will be skinny.

I will be thin. I will be light.

My bones will show. My stomach will be flat.

One day.

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HAHAbitch

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I need one! ugh... i keep binging... i hate it

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pleasee