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Today is my birthday.

I never believed in the ‘time hits 00:00 and boom all your friends wishing u happy birthday’ bc i never found myself waiting for 00:00 to wish my special est of them all bc i either got distracted or forget and pass the time and eventually wish them at 00:13 or something.

But when i tell you i was dnd and my only bestfriend MESSAGED me she probably me i was on dnd. I went to ig for the littlest hopes of 2 other person wished me happy birthday on my dm i didn’t lie. Би горьдсон. I thought maybe someone loves me enough to wish me birthday in the first 20 minutes but i knew getting my hopes up and expecting something wont end up well. I knew that, I’ve been struggling with it ever since my started making sense in my brain.

They always let me down.

I wont lie when i tell u that i expected the kind of treatment like on nandias birthday bc i thought we were as equal in specialness in our line of friendship. I thought we served the same amount of үнэлэмж. But no.

Today is raining, heavy raining 20-35mm possibly үерт автах хэмжээний.

There was some kind of natural phenomenon always happening on my birthday. Last time it was also raining but it ended soon enough to be outside, lasts last was a rain but with a blazing storm. This is one is the worst of them all bc i cant even step foot out.

But a certain someone sent me a ss of my highlight and asked “энийг сторидчих уу?”

“Эсвэл өөр зураг өгхиму?” This might sound normal but at that point it sounded like it was almost forced, performative. So I replied “сторидмоор байгаму?”

-“tgyoo”…

The lack of wanting and desire to post it for me. This is all performative. Би найзыгаа намайг сторидоод өг гэж гуйхгүлдэээ. But man it stung.

I guess i was never that important to make effort for. But whatever im the one who’s expecting too much.