What if one day he wakes up & its not me that he wants anymore? Everything has been so perfect and he doesnt have a reason to leave but I cant help thinking he could. Hes always telling me "Youre still young, you have lots to learn" I wont be able to handle it the day he leaves. I never expected to be with him as long as we have but I also didnt expect him to stay either. I still dont expect him to stay honestly. Idk whats wrong with me. Im only 19 and Im VERY determined to spend the rest of my life with him.Never have I ever felt that way about someone as how I feel for him nor did I ever want to marry someone. Just needed to get this off my chest. He isnt going anywhere anytime soon but when he does Im gunna be a complete train wreck. Im not looking forward to it & I dont wanna jinks it. I just love him so much that I honestly dont see my future without him in it. Lossing him is my biggest fear. I almost lost him once & I cried for 3 days straight. I hope I can let these scary thoughts go..
