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I'm fading away...

[iwillneverwrite]

“They asked me why I don’t trust men, and then I said, ‘My father broke it first.’”

— I’m a daughter before I’m somebody’s girlfriend.

[forgottenbyeol]

I am nothing but a dead star.

[forgottenbyeol]

I stop writing poems since the day you left me...

[misakimei17]

[forgottenbyeol]

can I be that girl na hindi mo kayang iwan?

[hello-ellesworld]

“Kahit masakit. Kahit paulit ulit. Sayo padin ako masaya.”

—

[forgottenbyeol]

tangina, bakit ako na lang lagi yung iniiwan?

[permanent-ink-and-paper]

“He wasn’t the most handsome guy out there, but he had my heart. I just wish I had his.”

— 46 out of a thousand entries I thought I have stopped writing about you.

[forgottenbyeol]

ENTRY #1

Naalala mo pa ba yung mga panahong tayo pa? Ako'y hatid-sundo mo mula bahay, hanggang sa skwela, sabay pa tayong kumakain ng turon sa cafeteria at kapag uwian na, tayo'y dadaan sa ating paboritong daanan, at sabay na susumpa ng "walang iwanan." 'Kay sarap naman balik-balikan ng mga alala nating dalawa. Mga alaala na sabay natin ginawa, Mga alaala ng kahapon na siguro ngayo'y... limot mo na. Huwag naman sana.

Anong nangyari?

Ang lagi 'kong tinatanong sa aking sarili, sa tuwing sasapit na ang alas dose, habang nakahiga sa aking kama, nakatingala sa kawalan at pilit inaalala yung mga panahong kayakap pa kita, mga panahong tayo pa ay masaya, mga panahong mahal pa natin ang isa't-isa... Anong nangyari sa ating dalawa? Mahal, hindi ko alam kung paano ko sisimulan ito, pero sa totoo lang, wala naman akong balak 'pang manggulo, dahil alam 'kong masaya ka na... masaya ka na sa kanya. Ngunit hindi ko alam ba't sa tuwing ipinipikit ko ang aking mga mata, ang iyong mga ngiti ang akin nakikita... na ngayo'y alam ko pagmamayari na nya. Mahal? May karapatan pa ba akong tawagin kang Mahal? Mahal? Dapat pa nga ba kitang tawagin Mahal? Mahal? Ako'y kuntento na, na makita kang masaya sa piling ng iba. Kaya Mahal, papalayain na kita. At ako'y magmamahal na rin ng iba.

[forgottenbyeol]

Aasa ako, pero hindi na sayo.

[poppunklateatnight]

Neck Deep // In Boom

[forgottenbyeol]

Minsan talaga ang sarap manampal ng tanga.

[forgottenbyeol]

c r a m m i n g a t i t s f i n e s t

[forgottenbyeol]

2:04am

P U T A G U S T O K O N A M A T U L O G

[forgottenbyeol]

some people will have to learn how to appreciate you by losing you

[forgottenbyeol]

waited got tired lost hope let go

[sunsetablaze]

what if i don’t want to be loved? a revolutionary concept but hear me out: i would like to be set free i would like to be left alone i would like to be in peace and love doesn’t feel like yielding love feels like taking and taking and taking until i don’t have anything left for myself so maybe i am selfish but i am a bird whose feathers they always wanted to clip so it wouldn’t run away, and my soul has always oceans and space best because they are infinite and they are free stars are too far away for anyone to find me there and my lungs have been collapsing under the weight of confinement for so long maybe just once i wouldn’t like to see a boy at the end of my story just a ship ready to take me far, far away

i would like to be free, l.r.c. (via sunsetablaze)