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where your focus goes, energy flows 🧿♡🧿

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my ex’s ex messaged me, it was a very short but sweet (?) one, hindi ko lang alam irereply or should i even acknowledge it, i think oo kasi her messaged stopped my downward spiral this morning. anyway, happy to see her and her 2 kids, I don’t like to have kids, but i am happy seeing people who loves to have kids, be blessed with kids. pero nagulat ako kasi its been years and the last time i know isa lang anak niya, ngayon dalawa na? wow time flies. in my head, both of us already paid for everything, i am good. she’s good. that’s all that matters, i guess its an enough reason not to die today. 🤍

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I went back to boxing, and now I think they are offering ju-jitsu classes, which I may or may not be interested kaso scared ako for my back. hahahahha, it's free because I am helping out Pablo with some documents and at the same time he pays for my classes, 2 weeks ago I went back sa boxing class, and then a week after I realized that's the only sport I can do alone, because I don't have friends na malapit that I can play badminton with.

I finished The Meek One and Hippie, fucking finally. I still have 2 books sa TBR ko.

I also put up and updated my Goodreads account, I think next ko yung letterboxd ko, I get so intimidated kasi feeling ko kailangan may substance yung review ko, I don't deep dive with cinematography or color grading, either I like it or don't lang ang decision ko, if I enjoyed it and made me think, okay siya, if I feel meh, I don't like it. I want to put up my account because I love movies, lalo pag old ones. Ang problem ko lang, I seldom watch movies lately, kasi they are either adaptation of books I already read, or have a similar story line sa old ones, tapos sa trailer, di ko gusto, I can always sense it's a similar story then ayoko na. anyway, I think I need to open myself up with disliking movies and be okay with it. I don’t think letterboxd support series, I would really love to review series and discover new ones, ang hirap kunin ng attention ko, so I i like it, I can spend 1hr watching.

my new client sent a brand new Macbook pro (M5 sabi sa box) and full set up, with LG monitor and accessories, tama sila, I am adjusting, sobrang adjustment, ang laki ng 27inch monitor pala hahah, feeling ko auditor ako, tama din sila, apple's ecosystem is to die for. ang liit ng lamesa ko, feeling ko cramped kami.

I remember I just used to wish for a Macbook as a work laptop kasi ang bigat talaga nung TP ko before hahahah, while this one, mabigat din siya, hahahah, yung Air pala yung magaan but still, mas magaan sya sa TP and Dell ko, but yon, I just realized, I just prayed for this, you know? and feeling ko yung big prayer ko, malapit na din siya, kapag nangyari yon, I think pwede na ko ma deads talaga

I can't wait to stabilize my finances this year, mag start lang ang July, ma sstabilize naman ako by December, sobrang depleted savings ko but I am just so grateful that I have friends that helps me out, I always pray for their success, it's the only way I can give back. ukinam, tignan niyo next year talaga. hahahhahahahah

also, I got sunflowers again. heheh. ok Happy Monday, i guess.

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HALA ang ganda mo? You rock your short hair! GAGO GANDS MO.

thank ü

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long time no selfie. 🤷🏼‍♀️👋

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do you ever trashtalk your exes? online? how do you deal with seeing them online?

nah, not really my thing. super rare na you’d see me trashtalk any of my exes online (& offline), passing conversations lang if friends ask. i don’t check their socials, i unblocked most of them but that’s it. because why would you that? hindi ako masyadong interested sa life nila.

oh, I see one but di ko siya full blown ex. hahah may bago kasi siyang series, so I fucking see him through our mutuals. wala lang, mas affected ako don hahahahaha

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It's a reminder that I need to live and leave for myself, not for them, not for anyone, but for myself. I don't want to forget that, never again.

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people have a lot to say about lives they’ve never lived.

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[February] — slowly moving in ✨ & can you believe my blinds are pink? it is pink, like pink!! & I want to own a forest green chair or maybe an orange one. aaaaaaagh.

sharing with you a glimpse of books I loved and re-read whenever I get the chance & I put up all our toys (lowell’s) so I can feel his presence around me, knowing I am not alone. (this is me slowly sharing because I lost my spark and connection with social media, especially tumblr).

& say hi to my live plants!! I have taller ones coming in but I have this small plants for now!!

& sharing a little bit of information about me, na only people who truly spent time with me knows I love watching old Filipino films in youtube, like I would play any film every chance I get (every staycation, every airbnb check ins * flight trips) and February's pick is Judy ann and Rico Yan's movie; "Kay tagal kitang hinintay", followed by Sharon and Miguel's; "To love again", common theme ng top picks ko ay, patay na yung leading men. hahahahaha! crushing over dead people.

I know you know Rico Yan, kilig worthy, but have you seen Miguel Rodriguez??? Google him!! hahah. he's gorgeous!!

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told myself that this year, i tick off ko na yung nasa list ko na super short hair, bumili lang naman ako ng halaman tapos, nagpagupit nalang din ako. finally!! di ako mapakali na hindi ipa bob, sabi ng tricycle sakin, pogi. HAHAHAAH ganon pala masabihan ng pogi 😂

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i love surprise trips, because i like it when he plans, he leads, he decides & most importantly, he pays. ✨

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may the bridges I burn, light the way. 🔅

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ever since, I envy people who takes time to curate their lives, their social media feed, people who takes time to decide on something, kasi ever since, I just go with whatever I think is the best choice for me at the moment, while it have more cons than pros, may nag click lang sa utak ko when a friend mentioned na hindi daw niya ma gets yung theme ng ig feed ko, when that's exactly my intention. kaya siguro ever since may pagka messy ako when it comes to my creation, kasi, yun talaga yun intention ko, kasi I don't want to be tied to a specific theme, I am not just a person who loves to read, or who loves to go to places, who is a daughter, a friend or a girlfriend, I want people to know that I am a lot of things, I am interested in a lot of things, I am open to do a lot of experiences, that my life isn't curated, I am not polished, I am not classy (in societies standard). Part din siguro ng pagiging rebellious ko as a person, ayokong binobox ako sa isang identity.

to more messy creations, i guess.

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update; still a passenger princess 👸

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ganito pala feeling ng nasa loob ng blender, super ang laugh ko huhu

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life on dnd.

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nag start lang talaga ako sa, “sagada kung saan may sinigang ba yung lyrics non? parang sinigang eh” to sasama ako sa concert hahaa. nung tinanong ako ng nanay ko kung kamusta, sabi ko, “masaya, maganda. parang malaking 19east”