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where your focus goes, energy flows 🧿♡🧿

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do you ever trashtalk your exes? online? how do you deal with seeing them online?

nah, not really my thing. super rare na you’d see me trashtalk any of my exes online (& offline), passing conversations lang if friends ask. i don’t check their socials, i unblocked most of them but that’s it. because why would you that? hindi ako masyadong interested sa life nila.

oh, I see one but di ko siya full blown ex. hahah may bago kasi siyang series, so I fucking see him through our mutuals. wala lang, mas affected ako don hahahahaha

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It's a reminder that I need to live and leave for myself, not for them, not for anyone, but for myself. I don't want to forget that, never again.

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people have a lot to say about lives they’ve never lived.

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[February] — slowly moving in ✨ & can you believe my blinds are pink? it is pink, like pink!! & I want to own a forest green chair or maybe an orange one. aaaaaaagh.

sharing with you a glimpse of books I loved and re-read whenever I get the chance & I put up all our toys (lowell’s) so I can feel his presence around me, knowing I am not alone. (this is me slowly sharing because I lost my spark and connection with social media, especially tumblr).

& say hi to my live plants!! I have taller ones coming in but I have this small plants for now!!

& sharing a little bit of information about me, na only people who truly spent time with me knows I love watching old Filipino films in youtube, like I would play any film every chance I get (every staycation, every airbnb check ins * flight trips) and February's pick is Judy ann and Rico Yan's movie; "Kay tagal kitang hinintay", followed by Sharon and Miguel's; "To love again", common theme ng top picks ko ay, patay na yung leading men. hahahahaha! crushing over dead people.

I know you know Rico Yan, kilig worthy, but have you seen Miguel Rodriguez??? Google him!! hahah. he's gorgeous!!

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magkagalet po ba kayo ni ate ches at ate gin? hindi ka kasama sa trips ni ate ches and di na kayo nagpunta sa pampanga

hindi haha! kakaloka. may friends kami outside huhu sana ok lang? hahah! sa IG kasi kami nag uusap, dami lang trips ni chesca, di ko na nga makita yon? aalis nanaman yon sa April ☹️ hahaha! kaya di kami maka pampanga kasi may trips sya, nagpapagawa ng bahay si ginnie, then kakalipat ko lang sa apartment at nag papa renovate so ang dami naming adulting tasks. di sumakto scheds.

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told myself that this year, i tick off ko na yung nasa list ko na super short hair, bumili lang naman ako ng halaman tapos, nagpagupit nalang din ako. finally!! di ako mapakali na hindi ipa bob, sabi ng tricycle sakin, pogi. HAHAHAAH ganon pala masabihan ng pogi 😂

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i love surprise trips, because i like it when he plans, he leads, he decides & most importantly, he pays. ✨

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ang daming nangyari, I moved in to one of our apartments, I am in therapy, I enrolled to a boxing class, I enrolled sa isang online course (which is very technical) & I am following a personal curriculum as a hobby, halos patapos na yung 1st quarter goal ko. I am down to my 5 articles to consume and reflect on. I need an extra week to choose my next subject for the next quarter, feeling ko above na ko sa old self ko 😆 & surprisingly, ang dami ko palang time.

ang dami kong realization, i am so proud of myself. that emotional havoc I faced last january kick started this whole journey I planned, and I cant believe 3 months na. madali na mag regulate ng nervous system.

ive always believed that the most important relationship you have is the one with yourself & I read somewhere and tumatak sa isip ko, “that relationship isn’t built in the noise of social validation or the performance of oversharing—it’s built in privacy, in stillness, in the quiet moments that belong only to you.” my thoughts, my emotions, my ambitions are mine first, they are not for public consumption, they are not up for discussion. i like myself better now, and that’s what matters.

my current addiction is Secret recipe’s Salted caramel latte and ube leche flan cake, ive been eating it atleast once a week for a month now. ang gastos sa totoo lang? but this combo is similar to skin care and lasers to me, its a form of self love 🥲

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may the bridges I burn, light the way. 🔅

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ever since, I envy people who takes time to curate their lives, their social media feed, people who takes time to decide on something, kasi ever since, I just go with whatever I think is the best choice for me at the moment, while it have more cons than pros, may nag click lang sa utak ko when a friend mentioned na hindi daw niya ma gets yung theme ng ig feed ko, when that's exactly my intention. kaya siguro ever since may pagka messy ako when it comes to my creation, kasi, yun talaga yun intention ko, kasi I don't want to be tied to a specific theme, I am not just a person who loves to read, or who loves to go to places, who is a daughter, a friend or a girlfriend, I want people to know that I am a lot of things, I am interested in a lot of things, I am open to do a lot of experiences, that my life isn't curated, I am not polished, I am not classy (in societies standard). Part din siguro ng pagiging rebellious ko as a person, ayokong binobox ako sa isang identity.

to more messy creations, i guess.

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update; still a passenger princess 👸

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ganito pala feeling ng nasa loob ng blender, super ang laugh ko huhu

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life on dnd.

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nag start lang talaga ako sa, “sagada kung saan may sinigang ba yung lyrics non? parang sinigang eh” to sasama ako sa concert hahaa. nung tinanong ako ng nanay ko kung kamusta, sabi ko, “masaya, maganda. parang malaking 19east”

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what was the best part of your travels? was it the food? people? places?

myself, I get to see versions of me that I didn't know existed. there are versions of me pala na kayang maging calm, maging patient, malakas loob, hindi mahiyain, adventurous, spontaneous, may version din akong planner pala . people do travel to see kung gano kalaki at kaganda ang mundo, pero for me, aside don, best part sakin na I get to know myself better, travelling was one of the reasons I am very intentional with my decisions, kasi I know myself better now.

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na-approve yung 1 week leave ko. huhu. I am so happy, tho I have to do 2 items habang nasa leave, I don't need to work, I just need to check if may urgent items/case every 9pm/10pm everyday - wala naman masyado sa week na yun because that's the week na maluwag huminga hehe i am so happy, ilabas na ang heat pads at salonpas!!!