My Escape

[forlornwandererr]

They said “depression starts with family”

Well, I couldn’t agree more.

[forlornwandererr]

already tried my best

gave all of my efforts

but nothing of it is worth it.

It’s never been noticed.

[forlornwandererr]

I just want to isolate myself

[forlornwandererr]

Still cannot speak but now can cry,

knowing people actually care,

never again shall I take a substance,

that costed me a near a goodbye.

[forlornwandererr]

You know why I like keeping things by myself?

because the society we live in judges,

without even understanding

[unplannedpoetry]

I’m really sick of not feeling valued by anyone. I feel so alone and I just wish I had one person who made me a priority in their life. I don’t feel wanted, ever. I am a last resort, a backup, a convenience. I’m not enough.

[forlornwandererr]

I dont feel like sleeping. I dont feel like eating. I dont feel like dreaming. I dont feel like being. I’m done believing, I’m done feeling.

[blurryclau]

[emanuelee]

xx

[forlornwandererr]

"Letting go means to come to the realization that some people are a part of your history, but not a part of your destiny."

[br-o-ken-poetry]

why am i always so sad

[br-o-ken-poetry]

I feel like depression is stereotyped as being slow, dreary, half asleep, etc, when in fact that is just one extreme. I’ve found that I can be the most depressed and awful I’ve ever felt when I am restless, manic, almost hyper. These last few days have been a bit like that - I can’t sit still, can’t sleep, can’t relax. It’s like my brain is spinning, like I want to run or scream and yell, like I’m living on fast-forward… Am I the only one? Anyone else get this? I’ve felt like shit but I’ve been twitching, restless, practically bouncing off the walls - it seems a complete contrast to sadness, but… the sadness is there. I don’t even know if I should be calling this sadness/depression etc; maybe I’m just being extra… Urgh

[forlornwandererr]

Sometimes I wonder what my life would be like if I wasn’t such a fuck up

[forlornwandererr]

Sometimes I wonder

what is the point of living

if you have no

reason to live?

[forlornwandererr]

What to do when depression strikes again ..

[forlornwandererr]

I regret ever talking to you

I don't know why I shared my deepest darkest secrets only with you

Thank you for making me sorry for trusting you

[forlornwandererr]

How long do I have to live

before I've lived long enough

to be allowed to die?