i just want to be a little skinny thing again it's hurting me so much that im not. and it's hard cause to everyone i know it seems crazy because to them im still slim but it's just not enough for me. my body has given me so much grief and i wish it would stop but it never does. even in recovery i still want for less and it huuuurts. i want to restrict and i want it all to stop but there's the recovered part of me that knows i cant or shouldnt do that and what purpose would it serve me if i did but it almost doesnt matter i just feel so terrible in myself id love to not have a body that would help















