Emergence? Feelings are mixed. #HazelfaceShowcase for illustration, #WallOfText below. . . . Now that I've been infused with sufficient vaccine juice, I apparently have feelings. I am sad and frustrated that protection has come too late for so many, and that more people continue to lose their lives to this disease despite vaccines existing. I am hugely relieved and grateful to be one of the lucky folks vaccinated before contracting covid. Despite this luck with my health, a year can be a long time for a progressive disease, like endometriosis. I know I am not the only ill person feeling this worry about un-isolating. It’s easiest to adapt incrementally to the impacts of degenerating health. Instead, the difference between now and the last times I did so many things is significant. Not knowing the limits this will set on “resuming my life” is unsettling. The process of learning new limits is often painful and embarrassing. It’s hard to wholeheartedly look forward to that. Except that being around other people will give me a chance to experience them accepting my limits in a way that I cannot yet. Sure, some people will always be jerks, but that's not the point here. I'm saying, it doesn't have to suck. I can also try to make it suck less for others, in similar ways. #Covid #Isolation #Vaccination #ReEntry #SoFeelings #Endometriosis #ChronicPain #Fatigue #DoggoMakesItBetter https://www.instagram.com/p/COMHwSQjCcPoUVL1-jvXBrF_zhRkPLJks8ePTA0/?igshid=1xvbjl87nafth
