Frail

BFD: 0 , BMI = 24.1 SW: 236 / 107 CW : 142.6 / 64.7 GW1: 170 🔓,GW2: 155 🔓, GW3: 145 🔓 , GW4: 135 , UGW: 120 5’6 / 168 cm , 23 years old

[frailx00]

Goal this month:

Become 140-142 lbs at the end of it 💫

Buy a league of legend skin when I reach 145 💫

That’s it.. I don’t have many goals 😂 and I don’t wanna put unrealistic goals and feel bad about myself later on.

[frailx00]

Goal this month:

Become 140-142 lbs at the end of it 💫

Buy a league of legend skin when I reach 145 💫

That’s it.. I don’t have many goals 😂 and I don’t wanna put unrealistic goals and feel bad about myself later on.

[frailx00]

Lol I only became 145 after like 6 months

But at least doing it healthily.. kinda

[frailx00]

I’m sorry for everyone that follows me.. my health is completely deteriorating as I do this to myself, my heart beats gets as low as 45 beats per minute, I get palpitations whenever I eat anything, binging leads to a gall bladder attack that lasts 4-5 hours where I just wish I’m dead and I end up having a fever and throwing up a lot.

I will try and recover because I can’t keep up with doing this, I will really try my best to recover so I will stay away from this site as much as I can try.

So.. to all my friends here I hope one day you will also be able to take this first step like I am doing right now. It feels so wrong and I’m really trying to fight my head but I will just try to lose the weight more healthily from now on..

I hope someone gets inspired by this and does the same 💗

[frailx00]

My highest : 107kg/236

My lowest (4/July/2020) : 67.9kg/149.7

I’ve been struggling for so long and only now I can see some actual results..

I’m kinda happy with my body today 💗

[mythoughtsonmylifern]

The rest of my mental illnesses and trauma when my TM Eating Disorder shows up at the Nightly Mental Breakdown:

[frailx00]

Never thought I’d say this.. but oh my God I’m under 150!!! Just 4.7 lbs till my next goal weight I seriously CANNOT believe it!!

[weightless-featherr]

When was it. Huh?

When was the last time you didn't care. .

about the calories..?

about your body..?

about the photos..?

about the numbers..?

When was it ..

.. huh ?

[frailx00]

I didn’t wanna reblog this cause the number was 666 but I had to.. this hits deep

[frailx00]

I’m down to 69.3 kg today so only 0.5 until I’m in my pre binge weight.. did go to the bathroom twice already cause of the laxative tea so I have high hopes for tomorrow x.x

Also learnt how to make a sweet 35 cals coffee so I’ll be drinking that all the time since it really decreases my appetite and very low in cals like daamn I’m in love (lowkey can make it 20 calories too so that’s something)

[frailx00]

I made a post about the coffee recipe for anyone asking!

[frailx00]

Whats the recipe for the low calorie coffee?☺️

Oh i don’t think you should really call it a recipe since I just put this coffee

But I put 5gram of Nescafé deluxe + 10 g of creamer that will be approx 36 calories

But sometimes I don’t like that much coffee so I put 2gram of it + 5gram of creamer and this will end up with like 18 calories

I also add zero cal sweetener cause I like sweet stuff

These are what I use and I really like it but sometimes I use maccoffee’s decaf one and to me it tastes good and it has 5calories in 5g I drink that at night

I’m not a coffee expert tbh but I just like to drink it cause it’s low in calories and I still want it sweet so that’s the best that I can do basically so I’m not sure if anyone else would like it xD

[frailx00]

I’m down to 69.3 kg today so only 0.5 until I’m in my pre binge weight.. did go to the bathroom twice already cause of the laxative tea so I have high hopes for tomorrow x.x

Also learnt how to make a sweet 35 cals coffee so I’ll be drinking that all the time since it really decreases my appetite and very low in cals like daamn I’m in love (lowkey can make it 20 calories too so that’s something)

[frailx00]

Guess who’s crying at 3am cause they realized they can’t enjoy anything anymore cause all they think about is their body and food

Yes, this bitch

[frailx00]

HAHAHAHA guess who binged tho lmao

Ate around 2k calories and burnt like 500 but I’m pretty sure I’ll eat more later if I didn’t get the gallbladder attack from overeating idk

And just when I reached my lowest weight of 68.8 kg

Like fuck.

[frailx00]

Update: 2400 calories I think idek anymore I just know that my stomach might explode

[frailx00]

HAHAHAHA guess who binged tho lmao

Ate around 2k calories and burnt like 500 but I’m pretty sure I’ll eat more later if I didn’t get the gallbladder attack from overeating idk

And just when I reached my lowest weight of 68.8 kg

Like fuck.

[frailx00]

I promised my friend before he goes to the battalion that I will eat 800-1000 calories because he won’t be able to talk to me through this as he won’t have his phone there and he will return in like 5 days.

It’s the third day and I’m failing and idk if I should be happy that I lost my appetite or sad I’m breaking our promise.

Anyhow my intake today is 430 calories.. lol

[frailx00]

Drinking diet cokes or anything with sweetener does break the fast even if it’s zero calories, why? Because the body will be stimulated to release insulin cause it can’t differentiate between zero cal sweetener and regular sugar..

That will slow the metabolism and the fat burn.

But still, i can’t fast without it rip

[frailx00]

Tmi but I finally pooped after 6-7 days.

Had to drink laxative tea and matcha tea for this to work and it’s 4am and I’m having the cramps killing my stomach.

THIS BETTER MAKE ME LOSE THE EXTRA WEIGHT STUCK TO MY BODY!

[angrylittleskeleton-deactivated]

the thing about eating disorders is like...you can know literally every bad thing about it, you know every health problem that comes with it and you know you're gonna feel terrible and you know it isn't pretty and it can literally kill you but you just don't care because sKinNy

[frailx00]

Yeah, this. We know.. we still do it anyway.