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Hey welcome, this blog is probably Dead dead for the forseeable future, and I will probably need a long time to recover before I ever redo it, I will not deactivate or delete anything, Im just kinda, leaving it here for a while.
My time here sparkleposting was a deeply trauma induced and psychosis fueled shitshow, I wouldn't say I've fully reached a point of clarity per-say, but I can think clearly enough to know this all deeply coincided with and fueled one of the lowest points of my life, at the peak of this blog's activity I was going through a deeply emotionally devestating situation that I still haven't recovered from, and my only outlet was... whatever the fuck I was doing here. Which proceeded to dredge up deeply buried trauma I hadn't even realized I had, which caused only more damage because I was not at all equipped to handle any of it, which only worsened my state, the fucking mental agony ouroboros hit like a train dude.
I'm still attatched to this stupid comic as much as I hate to admit it, but in kinda some sorta twisted trauma bonding way at this rate, and I am keeping it solely to myself from now on. If/when this blog comes back it will not be about this comic anymore.
Don't expect much from here, obviously I still need time to myself to recover, anything else that comes out of me will probably be @/craftingcare once I fix that up as a sorta, healthier outlet for all this, iunno man.
I've already let this blog fall to the wayside activity-wise but I'd like to make one last sparklepost for real this time so I can finally know peace
First off: this blog isnt going anywhere, it accidentally has come to mark an important period of my life and we'd go insane if we just threw all of that away, but we will be changing some things around here. This blog was intended originally to be a multifandom thing but ended up spiralling out of control when The Nightmare ™️ started, we plan to return it to that eventually when we finally get our shit together but obviously the eta on that is unknown right now. As much as I wish we could we can't truly wipe this shitty comic from our personal history completely, especially with some of the recent deeply upsetting personal discoveries we made over it, we guess thats kindof a given when you don't even realize you're deeply retraumatizing yourself badly with a shitty incest webcomic until you're knee deep in it. But at the very least, we can try to move on and heal the wounds we opened up on the way here, no way to change whats happened now.
Secondly as for the other blogs, @/charleswells is gonna be passlocked and potentially repurposed someday (although idk for what, not sch related though) and @craftingcare will continue but I'm going to be taking it in a bit of a different direction, we think it'd be more worthwhile in the long run if it were repurposed to be for all of my worldbuilding instead of just spinch stuff, this wont go into effect for a while obviously but thats my plan hopefully, a rename may also happen but we're unsure right now, I'm also gonna be scrubbing as much sparklecare association as possible from it once we get the spoons (our health has nosedived recently so we have not been in good shape to do... anything really)
if anyone wishes to continue following us around our main blog is still @nnugatoryextravagance and a full compendium of where else we are can be found on our strawpage (....which also needs the sparklecare graphics scrubbed from it, uhhhggggghhhfuuuuck just pretend they dont exist right now please)
Sparkled care is finally dead, I may finally rest, thank god, see you on the other side and best wishes to all you fellow poor motherfuckers, may we all pull through in at least mostly one piece, im so tired.
A lot of working on this doc has taken its toll on both the victims who have corroborated reliving their experiences, and the writers who've had to constantly be exposed to most heinous things while putting it together. Collectively, for now, as far as we are concerned our contributions are over, and our job to get the information out there is complete. Going forward the situation is to be monitored, and any addendums or notices are to be made where they are needed. It is highly likely this won't be the end and as more information comes about this account will post updates. The following post is a collection of final thoughts (for now), and requests from both the document team and victims.
This will also be the final post that I, the head writer of the document, will be making on this account. From here on out, any correspondence will not be from me. For my own health I must bow out at this time as unfortunately it has began to decline. I will be detaching completely from any and all access to things related to the accounts or the document.
Regarding the Definitive Kittycorn Information document addendums and additions
The document can still be found below here:
The Definitive Kittycorn Information Document Table of Contents Introduction 1.1. Updates 1.2. Content Warnings 1.3. Glossary 1.4. Who i
As well as the archive for it here:
The definitive version of the callout document on Kittycorn, the creator of the webcomic Sparklecare Hospital
Should the original document link or archive go down for any reason, a replacement of the same information will be made available elsewhere.
If people would wish to cover the documents or the topics of either the controversy around Kittycorn, or the Sparklecare webcomic itself either in a journalistic sense, or in a video essay retrospective of some kind, they are completely free to do so. It has also been encouraged by victims for word to spread by any means possible. It is requested though, that names censored in the document remain censored if covered elsewhere in another format, even if uncensored within citation sources.
Going forward this account may not be checked regularly, so for any updates that are required we offer no guarantee we will get to you in a timely manner, or at all in the foreseeable future, though you are free to send an ask or DM with an inquiry. If you feel it is important or urgent, it is requested you use the 'request edit access' feature on the google document to send a message. Access will be of course denied, but the information will reach the email linked to the document's account. If you require the people behind the document to be reached for any other purposes such as clarification or interview, this method can also to be used for communication.
Regarding Kittycorn
At this time it is unlikely that Kittycorn will take accountability, address anything at all, or apologize in any capacity. It is also unlikely that she will remain off of social media for a prolonged period of time considering her track record where she has attempted to come back to be a public presence again. In the case that she does attempt to come back, people should be made aware of her past actions. The past should not be forgotten even if a new leaf is turned. This also applies to any of her predatory associates. No one wants Kittycorn harmed, harassed or dead - they want her to own up to her wrongdoings and to no longer be a public presence in online spaces at this time so she can get/do better as a person. Ultimately, it is up to the people she has hurt.
The same applies to her predatory associates.
Regarding Sparklecare and other Kittycorn projects
Many victims (both of Kittycorn herself, and those victimized by her associates) have expressed the sentiment that Sprklecare (both the preboot and reboot) and any other of Kittycorn's works should not have a fandom in the typical sense. While her works can be talked about retrospectively, victims have collectively requested that conversation around it is handled with sensitivity and tact considering the comic's very production has been intertwined with people's real trauma (such as those abused while in the ZCP, and those who were abused by ZCP members). Essentially: No fanart, no fanfiction, no headcanons, To people who are considering making revivals, rewrites, or continuations of Sparklecare, it is requested that the name 'Sparklecare' itself is not used even if everything else is the exact same. This is so attention/support is not drawn back to Kittycorn, nor her work. Sparklecare and its fanbase are dead, and they should remain dead.
The people in the remains of this fandom admittedly do care about their own comfort and experiences to a point where it has overshadowed moments of compassion for any of the people directly affected by Kittycorn. Eagerness has been shown by some to tear down victims should they speak out of turn on this matter. We acknowledge that of course many people who enjoyed Sparklecare have it as a core part of their identity either through hyperfixation or through system fictives so it may be difficult to detach. No one is a bad person for resonating with Sparklecare, it was designed to reach a certain demographic after all, but it is encouraged that people who do enjoy it as a story or piece of art do so privately or in closed community servers. It would be better for everyone, and the peace of mind for victims. if this were the case. Please do not intentionally misinterpret this.
Regarding usage of characters from Sparklecare
Certain victims who were part of the ZCP have also requested their characters are not used by people who want to create Sparklecare or Sparklecare adjacent works (such as the aforementioned revivals, rewrites, and continuations). These characters are:
Dr Harts (Brake No Harts)
Rem Elle Dies
Jean Errie
Jeanne Errie - Jean's mother
Kathy Leet
Jesse T Doll
Nurse Care - Hospital actor in volume 3
Maddie Jest Dies
Susey Peggle
Chloe Philly
Tony Boxx
Geoffrey Oh Duh
Walter 'Wolly' Coller
Grimmy Sum Blud
Jake Peggle
Please respect the wishes of the creators on this matter.
Regarding the archival of Kittycorn's work
Everything that was in the KCSAE (Kittycorn Stories Archive Effort) still remains. Originally one of the admins had planned to release everything on a neocities website but all progress was lost when the SD card carrying all the data could no longer be accessed. While it does not contain everything @modpollyblog has compiled a masterlist of an archive of Kittycorn's work with what is online at the moment.
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The KCSAE was created by @advisoradvisory and any inquiries regarding it and access to the information in it should be sent her way.
All of Kittycorn's art within the Freakycare server was also saved by a defector of the server. At this time it is unknown when or if they plan to release it. It is also likely that if they were to do so, it would be through another party and not themselves directly for their own safety. However, I have been given permission by the defector to share one thing that Kittycorn has shared to the Freakycare server. Mood as she would have appeared in Freakycare, as well as her two children with Doom - Fade and Bean. Trigger warning for the implication of incest.
The rest is up to the defector who I have given joint ownership of the google account for them to post as they please should they choose to. They told me me nothing pornographic will ever be put in it, but suggestive art may be. Goes without saying this google drive archive from stuff in the Freakycare server would be 18+ with a content warning for incest. While it is incomplete currently, check back periodically for updates.
Due to the fickle nature of google docs as an archiving host, once the archive is complete, it is encouraged for people to archive the archive and upload its elsewhere such as archive.org.
As I who have been running this account will not be around to be able to vet the replies for the foreseeable future, the replies may be turned off in the future. Unfortunately this is as I will not be around to remove incidents where Kittycorn's familial abusers or his associates attempt to deny her real trauma facing abuse. Once again we would like to clarify many writers of this document have faced real life abuse similar to what Kittycorn has described, and we refuse to doubt any victims in this regard.
If Kittycorn's familial abuser returns or persist it is requested they are deplatformed. This means should accounts crop up making victim blaming or denying claims they are:
Not to be drawn any attention to
Not to be directly contacted
Not to be pointed towards in any capacity
Not to be named at all (whether it is the usernames or their real life names)
Not to be replied to
Not to be reblogged from
Not to be answered any asks sent
If people are aware of the accounts and warn other people, send DMs or asks to the person being warned and request the asks are to be answered privately or not at all.
Regarding Mekkyz
The document on him can still be found below here:
While he has claimed he will be offline for the foreseeable future, he was caught not only lying, but also continuing to pursuit people to fetish mine even after he was initially confronted. Anyone wishing to provide testimony of their experiences with Mekkyz, and accompanying screenshots are encouraged to do so. As far as we are concerned he is still an online predator at large.
Thank You
We would like to thank the victims who have come forward, the writers who gave their time to make the victims' voices heard, all those who contributed testimony and evidence, the defectors who assisted in providing information, the support of the remains of the Sparklecare community and friends, those on the outside looking in who have helped to spread awareness, and those who have read the document.
I personally would also like to thank people who have corresponded me through this account, showing me a lot of kindness and respect. I am glad that I could help victims' voices be heard and have their experiences relayed. Ultimately it's why I decided to help work on the revamped definitive document on Kittycorn and her associates in the first place, because it was the right thing to do when so many people had been hurt. Additionally, when reached out about Mekkyz I think it was also important to hold people within our own community accountable. You shouldn't protect predatory individuals just because they're on the same 'side' - that's what a lot of the Freakycare people have done and continue to do. Since the then a lot more people have come forward. I've had several people thank me for my work and it is appreciated but ultimately, the greatest thanks I can get is knowing that people are kept safe online through the spread of information.
I hope the next person who runs this account can carry that torch.
I might say sumnth of more substance tommorow im currently crashing out on two melatonin gummies at three in the morning but i havent even read the doc yet and i already fuckijng hate everythihng
I might say sumnth of more substance tommorow im currently crashing out on two melatonin gummies at three in the morning but i havent even read the doc yet and i already fuckijng hate everythihng
Cannot beleive I post saying I wanna bring this blog back to its original purpose only to get hit with this a day later never fuckin mind dude the multifandom arc is going on hold
Can I bring this blog back to its original purpose yet or something, have we reached that point where I can like, peace out of the sparkletrenches and just post here like a normal person again
We've already been struggling to cope with the recently formed finan dandy introject that showed up in response to life things I also still cannot fully cope with weeks after some awful self discovery I genuinely just do not have it in me to deal with the sparkletrenches anymore, im getting discharged from the sparklewar with a purple heart for accidentally uncovering my own incest (and more) trauma i didnt even realize the full extent of before all of this and forming like 5 new headmates during the journey
Im gonna keep drawing neon colored furries on my own time now, maybe in the craftingcare tag or something idk, this will forever be the worst fandom oroboros I've ever been in god bless thanks guys its been awful
Going to elaborate on what Polly (our polly, like, the headmate, Mod Amore) said last night and clarify that we are not going anywhere, we are not leaving completely, we are only taking a break from posting until it feels safe again. Our goal here was to at least try and carve out our own little corner in this hellscape for people to have a nice place to stop and be silly when this shit got too much (even if some posts did have to get serious), but after all we're still human, and humans get scared, and its okay to be scared over all of this.
I'm hoping all the people here who've either deactivated or privated your blogs are doing okay now, especially Mod Polly and Mod Sai, I will now be taking that break for real now. (And to anyone still kicking please stay safe and takeit easy too)
(Our inbox will also remain open if anybody needs a place to yell into the void in the meantime)
I wanna puke rn fr fr but it's 4 in the damn morn...
-cloog anon
Ohh cloog anon we're really in it now
I'm a lil queasy over it too honestly but its 5am (on my end) and i havent slept yet so im doin that instead we must stay strong sparklesoldiers..........
Disregard the previous post, Craftingcare (and probably this blog too) will be going on a public-facing hiatus for the time being because of course, thanks to the whole, having really bad paranoid schizophrenia thing, we do not feel safe around whatever the hell is happening here, again.
Development on the rework will continue in private and possibly on other blogs or platforms like toyhouse and characterhub, but here? We can't really stomach that I don't think
wishing mod polly and mod sai the best if either of em see this, this shit sucks so bad im goin to bed bro
Craftingcare is still in the works I am shrimply caught up with doing pride art for my main oc project atm in the meantime here have one of my favorite cat images
