2003

original       character       by       froggy

[freakalarms]

you can find me @usedby if you still wanna write <3

[freakalarms]

you can find me @usedby if you still wanna write <3

[freakalarms]

i'm still alive !! i'm gonna be somewhere else writing at least for now until this muse comes back hehe c:

[freakalarms]

i will do replies on sunday !

[mndstom]

Eunha moves her upper body enough to lean against her elbows and to see his face. She wants to see any hints of him being serious or not. "Are you serious?" She asks, wrinkles appear between her brows when she furrows them. "Why?" She inquires further, tilting her head to the side even. "But to answer your question..." She takes a second to lie down again next to him. "It's crazy if you don't take me with you."

[freakalarms]

 turning  his  head  just  enough  to  meet  her  gaze,  the  corner  of  his  mouth  lifting  in  something  that  isn't  quite  a  smile  but  close.  there's  a  no  teasing  in  his  eyes  this  time.  ❛  i'm  serious.  ❜  at  her  why  he  exhales  through  his  nose,  staring  up  at  he  ceiling  for  a  second  like  he  was  choosing  his  words  carefully.  ❛  because  every  time  i  imagine  doing  it  without  you,  it  feels  wrong.  like  i  would  be  leaving  something  important  behind.  ❜  when  she  lies  back  down  beside  him  and  says  that,  he  turns  fully  toward  her  this  time.  ❛  because  i  wasn't  planning  on  going  anywhere  without  you  anyway.  ❜

[magnanimitty]

her chest felt heavy on the admission . jiho wasn't a type to show emotions so seeing the smallest glance of them felt weighted -- he must have felt burdened for a long time , which made himari feel humbled to be able to be the one he opened up to . the food didn't seem as scary anymore as the young woman lips slowly curved in to a smile at him , just as the waitress came back and brought out their food .

" it doesn't look bad , " she said , easing up the heavy mood as she took a bite and held a thumbs from across the table . was it amazing ? not particularly , but compared to the previous places he'd brought her to , she couldn't complain . " i might be able to make this at home whenever you come by . you'll have to bring snacks for us to share , though . i can't be doing all the work . "

[freakalarms]

 watching  her  closely  as  the  heaviness  lifts  from  her  shoulders,  something  inhis  own  chest  loosening  at  the  same  time  when  she  smiles.  when  the  food  arrives,  he  glances  down  at  it  like  it  might  still  betray  him,  then  back  up  at  her  raised  thumb,  a  quiet  huff  of  a  laugh  slipping  out  before  he  can  stop  it.  ❛  you  are  generous  ..  ❜  he  says,  his  tone  dry.  ❛  yeah,  i  have  definitely  done  worse.  ❜  at  her  offer,  his  brows  lift  just  a  little.  warmth  settling  in  his  chest  when  she  talks  about  him  going  by,  about  sharing  space.  ❛  fine  ..  ❜  agreeing  after  a  beat,  corner  of  his  mouth  quirking.  ❛  i'll  bring  the  snacks.  but  if  i  pick  them,  you  don't  get  to  complain.  ❜  beneath  the  tease,  there's  something,  gratitude  and  the  quiet  comfort  of  not  carrying  things  alone  for  once.

[sleebiebeaut-deactivated2026050]

distracted in their own little world momentarily , she almost forgot about her date — and was suddenly feeling quite guilty about it. now wouldn’t exactly be ideal to cancel it when her date was already on his way. her throat felt dry at the others admission and she felt immediately hot. “i - i actually do have to be somewhere, but — will you be here tomorrow ?” she just needed to get through the date and let them down gently, just a blip in the system, right ? held their eye contact for a moment before the bell chimed at the door and her name was called, panicked expression turning like a deer caught in headlights — realisation that he didn’t even know her name or vice versa. a slight bow of her head and gesture to wait before her attention was back on … the handsome regular. “i … i gotta go, i’m sorry, but these pastries ? they’re on the house !” more guilt forming as she reached out to hand him the wrapped up savoury goods along with the sweet one, apologetic expression evident.

[freakalarms]

 he  doesn't  pull  away,  doesn't  make  it  awkward,  either.  her  flustered  honesty  softens  something  in  him,  lips  parting  like  he  might  stop  her  before  thinking  better  of  it.  ❛  hey  ..  ❜  his  voice  soft,  as  if  to  tell  her  it's  okay  before  she  can  finish  apologizing  again.  at  her  question,  he  nods  once.  ❛  i'll  be  here  tomorrow.  ❜  when  the  bell  rings  and  her  name  is  called,  he  catches  the  panic  in  her  eyes  and  it  almost  makes  him  smile.  he  notices  the  unspoken  gap  then,  the  fact  that  they  are  still  strangers  in  the  simplest  ways.  accepting  the  bag  from  her  hands,  his  fingers  brush  hers,  lingering  half  a  second  longer.  ❛  thank  you  ..  and  don't  feel  bad.  ❜  as  she  turns  to  go,  he  finally  speaks  up,  just  enough  to  stop  her  from  disappearing  completely.  ❛  i'm  jiho  !  ❜  a  small  smile  tugging  at  his  lips.  ❛  see  you  tomorrow.  ❜  

[gcholdtrops]

       thankful  that  he  had  been  then  one  coming  to  her  rescue,  knowing  that  any  other  person  could've  been  an  even  worse  person  than  the  crazy  fan  following  her,  so  yunae's  gratitude  was  endless  at  that  moment.   “ yes,  okay  i  will  stay  close. ”   nodding,  the  two  of  them  moving  away  from  their  perfect  hiding  spot,  yunae  trailing  close  behind  the  stranger  and  instinctively  then  reaches  out  with  her  spare  hand,  fingers  lightly  curling  into  the  fabric  of  his  shirt  —-  somehow  needing  that  extra  assurance  that  she'd  be  able  to  hold  onto  him,  no  matter  what.  walking  through  the  hallways,  yunae  peaking  from  behind  the  other's  shoulder  every  now  and  then,  the  two  of  them  finally  reaching  the  outer  perimeter,  and  she  let's  go  of  a  breath  she  wasn't  aware  she  had  held.   “ seems  quiet  out  here  at  least. ”   voice  still  kept  at  a  quieter  state,  just  in  case  somebody  awaited  around  any  corner.

[freakalarms]

 slowing  only  once  they  reach  the  perimeter,  body  angling  just  enough  to  keep  her  shielded  as  his  eyes  sweep  the  space  with  practiced  caution.  only  then  does  he  allow  himself  to  breathe  out,  tension  easing  from  his  shoulders  when  nothing  moves.  he  had  felt  her  fingers  curl  into  his  shirt  earlier,  the  weight  of  it  still  lingering  like  a  quiet  promise.  ❛  yeah  ..  quiet's  good.  ❜  gaze  flicks  back  to  her,  softer  now,  checkingher  face  instead  of  the  corner.  ❛  you  did  good.  you  stayed  calm.  you  are  safe  right  now  ..  i've  got  you.  ❜  and  he  means  it,  not  just  in  this  moment,  but  in  the  way  he  positions  himself  just  a  little  closer,  ready  if  the  quiet  breaks.    

[gongjus]

            "  yeah,  i  mean  .  .  that  was  the  best  way  i  knew  how  to  flirt.  "  mayu  murmurs  against  his  shoulder  as  they  share  a  hug,  at  them  oblivious  to  the  way  a  few  bystanders  do  double  takes,  humming,  "  what,  did  you  think  i  was  just  going  to  reject  you  because  of  a  garbage  truck  ?  "  she  snorts  softly,  and  once  his  forehead  rests  against  hers,  she  smiles,  shy  and  unguarded,  hands  settling  on  the  male's  shoulders,  "  honestly.  it  felt  like  there's  been  a  thorn  stuck  in  my  throat  these  past  few  months.  "  her  smile  turns  gentle,  eyes  betraying  her  as  they  flick  to  jiho's  lips,  only  for  an  old  woman  passing  by  to  mutter  about  young  people  being  inappropriate  in  public,  making  her  pull  back  in  immediate  panic.  "  a-ah,  sorry  ma'am.  "  she  bows  quickly,  waiting  until  the  grumpy  lady  is  well  out  of  earshot  before  breaking  into  mayu's  version  of  a  boisterous  laughter,  clapping  her  hands,  "  i-  i  feel  like  we  should  go  somewhere  else  ?  this  place  is  cursed.  "

[freakalarms]

 ❛  a  garbage  truck  almost  ended  me  ..  ❜  muttering,  clearly  teasing  now,  before  pulling  back  enough  to  look  at  her  properly.  the  shyness  in  her  smile  hits  him  harder  than  any  confession,  something  soft  settling  in  his  chest.  when  she  startles  at  the  old  woman's  comment,  he  barely  hastime  to  react  before  she's  bowing  and  apologizing,  and  that  just  sends  him  over  the  edge.  a  low  chuckle  slipping  out  as  he  watches  her  cap  and  laugh  afterwards.  ❛  cursed  is  one  way  to  put  it  ..    ❜  agreeing  and  sending  the  old  lady  a  dirt  eye.  ❛  but  yeah  .  let's  go  somewhere  else.  somewhere  that  doesn't  have  an  audience.  ❜  his  thumb  brushes  her  wrist,  voice  dropping  just  a  little.  ❛  i  don't  really  want  to  stop  being  like  this  yet.  ❜  and  with  that  he  starts  to  guide  them  to  the  closest  food  place,  where  they  could  eat  and  maybe  after  his  plan  was  to  bring  her  to  his  little  place.

[gcholdtrops]

       “ you  know  me  so  well,  i  need  you  in  every  way  possible. ”   muttered  out  through  a  subtle  smile  as  the  shy  demeanor  previously  portrayed  by  jiho  seemed  gone,  like  he  had  become  a  whole  new  person  in  the  midst  of  lewd  actions   ;   just  when  roan  thought  he  couldn't  get  more  attracted  to  the  male  in  front  of  him,  he  had  to  up  him  and  prove  him  wrong.  head  tips  just  enough  to  rest  forehead  against  opposite  at  the  tantalizing  words,  the  addictive  touch  of  pretty  fingers  wrapping  around  him  once  more,  a  minor  smirk  painted  on  his  face  as  slender  digits  trace  the  outline  of  opposite  male's  cock  along  his  pants.   “ why  don't  you  let  me  finish  what  you  started  right  here  then  ? ”   murmuring  out  against  jiho's  swollen  lips,  eyes  locked  directly  with  opposites  as  fingers  expertly  undoes  male's  pants,  mirroring  how  his  were  pooling  at  his  ankles  before  a  hand  on  jiho's  hip  urges  him  to  turn  around,  guiding  his  hands  to  the  front   ;   atop  of  the  railing  as  the  two  of  them  returns  to  the  very  position  having  started  their  trail  of  sensual  acts.

roan  towers  behind  male  with  lips  brushing  the  shell  of  the  other's  ear.   “ are  you  gonna  let  everybody  know  who's  treating  you  well  tonight,  jiho-ah  ?  ”   spoken  in  a  whisper  as  digits  lowers  male's  briefs,  one  hand  reaching  in  front  to  finally  return  the  favor  and  wraps  cool  digits  around  male's  shaft,  wrist  flicking  in  deliberate  yet  slow  strokes.  other  hand  trails  along  jiho's  arm  before  two  digits  lightly  press  against  his  mouth,  chest  pressing  flush  to  the  other's  back  and  causing  erection  to  press  against  male's  globe  and  earning  a  low  groan  as  the  sensation  of  jiho's  mouth  around  his  fingers  makes  him  relive  the  moments  just  minutes  prior  to  this,  catching  glimpses  of  male's  sensual  expressions,  leaving  him  breathless  and  any  control  he  had  attempted  to  have  starts  disappearing.   “ shit  i  want  to  fuck  you  so  badly. ”   thumb  brushes  around  sensitive  head  before  lubricated  digits  removes  themselves  from  the  other's  wet  mouth,  lowering  and  allowed  a  single  finger  to  encircle  entrance  before  gently  pushing  forward,  plumb  lips  attaching  themselves  to  the  length  of  other's  nape  as  a  distraction,  eventually  attacking  a  single  patch  of  flesh  to  leave  behind  a  mark.   “  mmh,  so  tight  ~ ”   smirking  against  skin  as  a  second  digit  joins  in  after  a  minute,  other  hand  aiding  with  strokes  around  homme's  cock,  wanting  to  make  it  pleasurable  for  the  other   ;   his  prime  mission.

[freakalarms]

 his  laugh  was  sharp,  breathelss  and  edged  with  rebellion  even  as  roan's  fingers  breach  him.  his  hands  grip  the  railing  until  his  knuckles  were  white  but  he  arches  back  into  roan's  chest  anyway,  taunting  and  daring.  ❛  let  everyone  know  ?  ❜  raspy  voice  as  the  other  male  comes  to  mark  him.  ❛  let  them  hear  how  you  break  for  me.  ❜  his  words  stutter  when  roan's  fingers  crook  inside  him,  ruthless.  his  head  falls  back  against  roan's  shoulder,  exposing  his  throat,  but  his  smirk  remains.  ❛  fuck  me  here,  prove  you  are  not  just  talk.  ❜  grinding  down  onto  roan's  hand,  forcing  digits  deeper,  his  breath  hitching.  ❛  or  are  you  scared  they  will  see  you  begging  to  keep  up  ?  ❜  when  his  cock  was  being  stroked  his  hips  jerk  forward.  snarling  and  turning  his  head  to  capture  roan's  lips  into  a  biting  kiss.  ❛  you  want  me  tight  ?  ❜  murmuring  against  his  mouth,  rocking  back  onto  his  fingers  again.  ❛  then  wuit  stalling  ruin  me,  fuck  me  ..  let  the  whole  city  hear  me  screaming  your  name.  ❜  his  hands  drops  to  clutch  roan's  wrist,  guiding  him  to  press  harder,  deeper.  ❛  or  do  i  need  to  beg  you  to  fuck  me  properly,  roan  ?  ❜  yet  when  roan's  free  hand  wraps  around  his  throat,  jiho  groans  is  pure  want.  ❛  do  it  ..  ❜  daring,  voice  cracking.  ❛  claim  me  ..  i  need  you  to  fuck  me  until  my  legs  no  longer  carry  me.  ❜  

[gongjus]

            eunju  didn't  know  why  she  kept  asking  him  for  more  details  about  the  years  they'd  lost,  when  the  more  she  learned,  the  heavier  her  chest  felt  for  jiho.  the  hurt  and  worry  were  written  plainly  in  her  eyes,  but  beneath  it  all  was  relief,  gratitude  that  he  was  still  here.  that  he  was  here  with  her  now.  "  it's  .  .  not  ?  "  the  question  leaves  her  genuinely,  never  one  to  assume  feelings  came  easily,  especially  not  for  someone  like  her,  and  most  especially  not  from  jiho.  yes,  he'd  always  taken  care  of  her  when  they  were  younger,  but  she'd  never  known  if  that  was  simply  habit,  comfort,  or  something  deeper  she'd  been  too  afraid  to  name.

 now,  with  his  forehead  ghosting  hers  and  his  face  dangerously  close,  the  idol  wonders  if  she'd  simply  been  blind  all  along.  when  he  finally  voices  how  he  feels,  it  knocks  the  air  right  out  of  her  lungs,  round  eyes  blinking  rapidly  as  she  stares  into  his,  half  expecting  him  to  laugh  and  take  it  back,  to  say  it  was  all  a  joke.  but  he  doesn't.  and  for  what  feels  like  forever,  silence  wraps  around  them.  even  when  they'd  won  rookie  of  the  year  last  year,  standing  before  thousands  at  the  awards  show,  eunju  hadn't  known  what  to  say,  and  this  felt  exactly  the  same.  overwhelming  happiness  swallowing  her  whole  until  words  failed  her  entirely.  never  good  with  speeches  or  confessions,  her  hand  trembles  as  it  lifts  to  rest  against  jiho's  cheek,  deciding  this  was  the  only  way  she'd  know  how  to  answer  him.  and  then,  without  another  thought,  her  soft  lips  meet  his.  for  years  she'd  imagined  her  first  kiss-  always  picturing  it  with  jiho,  and  somehow,  by  some  miracle,  here  it  was.  she'd  only  seen  moments  like  this  in  movies,  so  she  was  quite  unsure  what  came  next,  but  certain  of  one  thing:  she  liked  how  it  felt.  eyes  closing,  she  leans  in,  kissing  him  deeper.

[freakalarms]

 for  a  moment  he  freezes,  not  because  he  doesn't  want  it,  but  because  it  feels  unreal,  like  something  he  has  replayed  too  many  times  in  his  head  and  never  though  he  would  actually  be  allowedto  have.  then  her  lips  press  more  firmly  against  his  and  that  hesitation  melts  away.  his  hand  comes  up  to  cup  her  cheek,  thumb  brushing  along  her  jaw  as  if  she  might  disappear  if  he  doesn't  hold  on.  the  kiss  is  careful  at  fist,  years  of  restrain  and  unsaid  feelings  packed  into  the  way  he  responds  to  her.  when  she  leans  in  deeper,  he  follows  without  questioning,  breathing  her  in,  eyes  closing  as  warmth  crash  through  him  all  at  once.  when  he  finally  pulls  back  just  enough  for  their  foreheads  to  touch  again,  his  breath  is  uneven.  ❛  eunju  ..  ❜  her  name  sounds  almost  fragile  on  his  tongue,  like  he  was  afraid  of  breaking  the  moment  by  saying  too  much.  his  thumb  still  lingers  against  her  cheek.  ❛  i  have  wanted  that  for  a  long  time.  ❜  admitting  quietly.  ❛  i  just  ..  didn't  think  i  was  allowed  to  want  it.  ❜  and  he  doesn't  hesitate  as  he  leans  in  again,  lips  and  jaw  moving  to  kiss  her  deeper,  wanting  to  taste  her  in  his  mouth.  

[lightsideofseoul]

ִֶָ𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶָ🐇་༘࿐. Rory gave a small giggle , knowing she had broke the man for a second, leaving him genuinely speechless — sʜᴇ ᴋɴᴇᴡ ʜᴇ ᴋɴᴇᴡ sᴏᴍᴇᴛʜɪɴɢ, lightly pinching Jiho’s cheek innocently.         ❝ You know.. I knew you liked my company.. and of course I enjoy this. You only live once. ❞          She watched him step closer, eyes on him.          ❝ No silly business, Jiho. ❞          She stared at him — eyes narrowing playfully.

[freakalarms]

 letting  out  a  huff  of  a  laugh  when  she  pinches  his  cheek,  caught  off  guard  enough  that  it  actually  shows,  hand  coming  up  to  lightly  catch  her  wrist.  ❛  yeah  ..  i  know.  ❜  when  she  warns  him,  his  head  tilts  with  a  faint  smirk  on  his  features.  ❛  no  silly  business.  you  say  that  like  i'm  the  one  with  a  track  record.  ❜  finally  letting  go  of  her  wrist.  ❛  but  relax,  i'm  behaving.  you  only  live  once.  so  i'm  just  ..  enjoying  the  moment.  ❜  the  smirk  softens  now,  turning  into  a  genuine  smile.  ❛  but  are  you  gonna  behave  ?  ❜  

[sleebiebeaut-deactivated2026050]

there was a warmth that built inside her at his compliments — hadn’t expected such flattery, flash of pearly whites sent his way before tucking some hair behind her ear and turning back to the cash register. “well, i may or may not have baked those specifically for you because you said you liked them last time …” an admission she was shy of making. a notification chimed quietly on her phone as she gazed at it and bit her lower lip — she almost forgot that she was meeting somebody for a date here. had been much too distracted in his world. rather telling. “i - uh, must admit, i enjoy you being around these parts.”

[freakalarms]

 expression  softens  immediately,  something  warm  and  almost  disarmed  settling  in  his  eyes.  ❛  you  remembered  that  ?  ❜  he  asks  quietly,  more  touched  than  he  expected  to  be.  small  smile  forms  on  his  lips.  ❛  that  ..  means  a  lot,  actually.  ❜  the  phone  chime  doesn't  go  unnoticed.  his  gaze  drops  to  it  for  just  a  second  before  returning  to  her.  when  she  admits  she  enjoys  having  him  around,  the  corners  of  his  mouth  lift  again,  slower  this  time.  ❛  i  like  being  here.  ❜  he  says,  leaning  an  elbow  against  the  counter.  voice  low  so  it  feels  like  it's  just  for  her.  ❛  mostly  because  of  you.  ❜  hesitating  before  adding.  ❛  sounds  like  we  have  both  been  a  little  ..  distracted.  ❜  his  eyes  meet  hers.  ❛  if  you  have  somewhere  to  be,  i  won't  keep  you.  but  ..  i'm  glad  i  got  ot  see  you  ..  especially  knowing  those  were  baked  with  me  in  mind.  ❜

[magnanimitty]

" oh . " suddenly her fear about the food didn't seem so much anymore when jiho's tone turned more serious . " well ... do you invite me out because you know i'll pay ? " she asked with her curiosity getting the better of her . she knew jiho didn't have the money to throw around on nice things , and felt a little bad for teasing earlier with the bad places they'd gone out to in the past when it might have been the only places he could afford . " because we don't always have to go out somewhere . i can't really cook , but i can try , " she offered , the security of her home being more comparable to the previous places they'd tried in the past . now she was more determined to make a picnic their best outing together yet , wondering if she could convince her mom to make her favorite kimbap she had as a child . " you're allowed to enjoy nice things with the people that care about you . that's what makes life worth living sometimes . "

[freakalarms]

 ❛  that's  not  why.  ❜    a  samll  exhale  follows,  like  he  has  been  holding  his  breath.  ❛  i  invite  you  out  because  i  want  to  see  you,  because  time  with  you  is  always  fun  and  light.  ❜  the  offer  makes  something  tighten  in  his  chest,  he  then  scratches  at  the  back  of  his  neck  out  of  a  habit.  ❛  yeah,  i  know  i'm  not  great  at  picking  fancy  places.  ❜  admitting  with  a  small  smile.  ❛  sometimes  it's  just  what  i  can  manage  ..  but  i  never  wanted  you  to  feel  like  you  were  carrying  me.  ❜  when  she  talks  about  staying  in,  about  cooking.  even  trying  his  expression  softens.  ❛  that  actually  sounds  perfect.  ❜  saying  quietly.  ❛  doesn't  have  to  be  impressive,  food  is  food.  ❜  jaw  tightening  for  a  moment  before  then  nodding  once.  ❛  i  forget  that  sometimes  ..  that  i'm  allowed  to  want  more  than  just  getting  by.  ❜  his  eyes  return  to  hers.  ❛  thank  you  ..  for  reminding  me  and  for  being  someone  who  cares.  ❜

[gongjus]

            this  time,  with  all  distractions  finally  gone,  mayu  makes  sure  she  listens  properly.  hearing  how  jiho  truly  feels  after  months  of  waiting  brings  her  a  sense  of  relief,  though  the  flutter  in  her  chest  feels  even  stronger.  "  a-ah  .  .  i  understand.  "  she  nods,  letting  out  a  small  chuckle  at  his  reassurance  that  she  didn't  need  to  say  anything  in  return,  "  well,  i'm  going  to  say  something  anyway.  "  stubborn  as  ever,  mayu  gives  his  hand  a  gentle  squeeze,  "  i  like  you  too.  otherwise,  why  would  i  keep  giving  you  free  food  from  all  the  places  i've  worked  at  ?  "  for  someone  as  timid  as  her,  that  had  always  been  mayu's  way  of  flirting,  something  she'd  been  doing  for  months  and  was  almost  sure  jiho  never  noticed.  "  come  here  .  .  "  uncaring  of  the  bystanders  who  were  lowkey  watching  them,  she  pulls  him  into  a  hug,  smiling  against  his  shoulder.  "  that  was  really  nice  to  hear.  thank  you  for  saying  that.  "

[freakalarms]

 blinking  for  a  second  like  her  words  need  a  second  to  register  in  his  brain.  then  a  sudden  shaky  laugh  leaves  him,  like  he  couldn't  believe  his  ears,  like  a  trick  was  being  pulled  on  him.  ❛  free  food,  huh  ?  ❜  murmuring  out  but  he  couldn't  stop  smiling  like  an  idiot.  ❛  i  thought  i  was  just  lucky.  ❜  when  she  pulls  him  in,  he  goes  without  hesitation,  arms  coming  around  her  in  a  way  that's  careful  a  first  and  then  sure,  holding  her  close  like  it's  exactly  where  he  was  meant  to  be.  his  chin  rests  lightly  against  her  shoulder,  eyes  closing  for  a  second  and  just  be  in  the  feeling.  ❛  thank  you  for  saying  it  back.  ❜  he  whispers.  ❛  i've  been  wanting  to  hear  that  more  than  i  admit.  ❜  pulling  back  just  enough  to  look  at  her,  forehead  close.  ❛  guess  ..  we  are  both  bad  at  saying  things.  ❜  he  chuckles  out  softly  ❛  but  ..  i'm  glad  we  finally  did.  ❜

[gongjus]

            hearing  what  jiho  had  gone  through  during  the  time  they  barely  kept  in  touch  was  hard  for  her  to  take  in.  she'd  met  him  when  his  life  was  more  stable,  still  living  with  his  parents,  even  if  she  knew  deep  down  he  wasn't  truly  happy  at  home.  "  how  long  did  you  even  stay  under  the  bridge  ?  like,  how  many  nights  ?  "  she  asks  quietly.  eunju  knows  his  family  is  a  sensitive  subject,  and  despite  the  urge  to  pry  further,  she  stops  herself,  gaze  dropping  to  their  joined  hands  as  she  leans  into  the  comfort  of  simply  being  in  his  presence.

 she  swallows  when  he  admits  he'd  been  thinking  about  her  the  whole  time,  the  thought  almost  difficult  to  believe.  not  because  she  thinks  he'd  lie,  never  that,  but  because  she'd  assumed  he  might  have  forgotten  her  with  how  little  they  spoke.  when  his  fingers  gently  prompt  her  to  look  up,  she  does,  swallowing  again  as  their  eyes  meet.  "  a-and  .  .  why  is  that  ?  "  she  asks,  referring  to  his  comment  about  his  life  feeling  pointless  without  her.  "  is  it  because  i've  always  been  around  ?  because  we're  childhood  best  friends  ?  "  her  naturally  soft  voice  drops  even  lower  as  the  distance  between  their  faces  shrinks  to  almost  nothing,  her  gaze  flicking  down  to  his  lips,  heart  pounding  so  loudly  she's  sure  jiho  can  hear  it  too.

[freakalarms]

 going  quiet  at  her  first  question,  not  pulling  his  hand  away  but  holding  it  a  little  more  firm,  his  thumb  moves  slowly,  random  shapes  over  her  knuckles  while  he  stares  ahead,  eyes  not  focused  for  a  moment.  ❛  long  enough  ..  ❜  it  was  the  truth  and  wanted  for  her  to  hear  it.  ❛  a  few  weeks  ..  not  every  night  but  enough  nights  that  they  started  to  blur.  ❜  jaw  tightening  momentarily.  ❛  i  told  myself  it  was  temporary.  kept  saying  just  one  more  night  until  it  stopped  ..  kind  of  scary  though.  ❜  glancing  down  at  their  hands  when  she  does,  warm  feeling  filling  his  chest  and  when  her  finger  prompt  his  attention  back  up,  he  meets  her  gaze.  the  closeness  doesn't  make  him  flinch.

 ❛  it's  not  just  because  you  have  always  been  around  ..  ❜  he  says  with  honesty.  ❛  and  it's  not  just  because  we  grew  up  together.  ❜  voice  lowering.  ❛  it's  because  you  were  the  one  person  who  ever  saw  me  and  didn't  ask  me  to  be  something  else.  ❜  eyes  flick  to  her  lops  and  half  a  second  before  returning  to  her  eyes,  breath  slow.  ❛  when  things  got  bad,  thinking  about  you  reminded  me  that  i  was  more  than  my  mistakes.  that  there  was  someone  who  knew  me  before  everything  went  wrong.  ❜  keeping  a  pause  before  continuing.  ❛  you  made  reminder  enough  that  my  life  wasn't  pointless.  that  i  still  mattered  to  someone.  ❜  leaning  in  just  a  little,  forehead  nearly  brushing  hers,  voice  barely  above  a  whisper  now.  ❛  and  ..  maybe  i  didn't  say  it  out  loud  back  then.  but  ..  it's  always  been  you,  eunju.  ❜

[freakalarms]

i need to stop cooking up muses but it's so fun one day when my brain allows me to i will make that multi.