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I really feel like im losing. Like I feel so controlled by my trauma, anxiety, depression, disorders and it's overpowering me. It controls my life. Everything in my life. I feel so paralyzed and so fucked up. Why can't I just be normal. How does everyone else make it look so easy. I'm tired, exhausted, really.

depression-healthy-carrier

The more days pass, the more I realize I’m going nowhere in life and the more I hate myself

sa-dnesss

“I am in love with the pain. The pain makes me feel things, makes me feel alive. If I was not sad, I’m not sure what I would be.”

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i-will-recover-tomorrow

chaosdisorganized

I really feel like im losing. Like I feel so controlled by my trauma, anxiety, depression, disorders and it's overpowering me. It controls my life. Everything in my life. I feel so paralyzed and so fucked up. Why can't I just be normal. How does everyone else make it look so easy. I'm tired, exhausted, really.

sagihairius

no phone i did not “miss a call” i watched it ring the whole time

sophie5318

its soo embarrassing when ppl know im upset about something. its ruining my image

asapwalky

I appreciate people who try

prsephonies-deactivated20200815

how do people have consistent fun at parties . like don’t they get hit with periodic waves of debilitating melancholy and subsequently need to sit outside and think abt how they’re going 2 die alone . or is that just me and the guy from the National

myblissfulsuicide

I’m constantly torn between wanting to recover and wanting to be self-destructive in any way possible.

wishing-for-deathx

When people ask me to do things I love, I don’t know what to do anymore. I used to have hobbies but now I can’t enjoy anything at all. None of my hobbies are fun anymore. I feel nothing when I try to engage myself in anything at all. My thoughts are too loud, they don’t let me focus on anything. Either I feel sad, so sad that it hurts to breathe or I feel numb.