When the words are becoming so strong that you can’t keep them inside your mouth anymore. When the thoughts are becoming so omnipresent that your dreams become a never-ending loop. I have waited. I have tried to ignore them. To convince myself I had no chance. It did not matter. I took a pen. A piece of paper. Then a dozen, to finally come up with a letter. True, honest words. The heart does not care about logic. Single or not, she was the one it has anchored at. I needed to know in order to let it go. To move forward. Somehow, I think I already knew how she felt. But I least, I would have done everything I could.
I overslept this morning. Alarm clock didn't ring. I had one of my weirdest dreams. I remember clearly a good part of it. I should try to recreate them more often :
I was riding a horse and looking at the horizon. I saw African animals - different species that I have encountered in Africa last year - bathed by the sun in the horizon. The scene was absolutely breathtaking. I remember the exact thought I had :
“ Jeez, I don't have my camera ! ”
And at this moment I saw a Pegasus taking off from the pack of animals. I didn't tell myself it was a complete non-sense. Instead I remained completely amazed by this splendid view. I must say, I have never seen one before !
The end of the dream is about talking to another horse and trying to pay an enormous hotel bill with restaurant coupons that don't have the same amount, while my girlfriend is cooking tones of eggs in a plancha, in front of me.
I guess it was for the best, that I finally woke up.
We (Me and She) moved to Annecy three months ago. I never really thought about moving there. It was an important decision. She loves the city, she has also her family. I do have my parents there as well, so it makes sense. And most of all, it was our project as a couple. And we made it happen.
The place is quite different from Grenoble. It seems better, with three months experience so far. The lake and his surrounding are beautiful, the whole area is kind of quiet and our new apartment has proper rooms. Yeah, proper rooms ! If you ever lived in a studio, you know why I am so excited about having separate rooms (I won't go into details though).
I am now really happy with our choice, even though I had a hard time leaving my apartment. I thought, because I made a decision and I was ready, that this big change wouldn't affect me. Well, I remember the day we moved out. As we were clearing out the place and as I was - definitely - closing the door...
... I felt like I was going to cry. Many memories came up at once and I knew that lots of them would stay in there.
It also took time to get used to a new environment. Sister not 10 min away anymore, friends a bit further, home working and a new interior design. I was like a lost kitty, somehow stressed out because I didn't have my old marks anymore. Three months have passed. I feel now comfortable and at home. But home doesn't feel like the office. At all.
I have been working at home for three months now. I regularly go to the agency. I would say twice a week, when I don't go to other meetings at different locations. Guess what ? Working - almost permanently - at home is a pain. I never thought I would say that. But here I am. Working alone means no direct real interaction with a human being (e.g. coworker), which, I realized, is crucial for me. I feel lonely, it gets on my motivation and I hate it.
I am considering finding another job, which could be another huge change. I (used to ?) love my actual job. Helping people bringing their digital projects to life is great. It takes many intellectual and social skills as organization, communication, creativity, responsibility and leadership. But I feel like I need change.
We will see. I keep thinking. Something will came up, hopefully.
I didn’t see the twin towers. Ground Zero is imposing. These two giant holes are very well designed. Material and color are very sober, and the whole thing looks like “black reversed fountains”. We stayed a while, contemplating.
As we left the place, we passe by another huge building. I can’t remember the name (The eye of the world ? The observatory ?) It looked so tall. We tried to enter but a guy told us that the place wouldn’t be open to the public until september, at least.
I wasn’t sure whether I would do it or not, considering we already went to the Top of The Rock. But, going to NYC and not doing the empire, it didn’t sound great at all. So the day of our departure, before lunch, I “climbed” up there. Beautiful !
“How Sweet It Is !”. Well, first thing to say, even though the sun came out, it was freezing, especially on the bridge (yes, I know, we are so photogenic).
The day in Brooklyn way good. Way more peaceful. It was like we were back to “normality”.
I kind of regret that we didn’t look for more of these. We went to Little Italy twice, first because it is a charming district, and also because Soho district is nearby... (the place you MUST avoid at all cost if you don’t want to spend your money on clothes !)
We actually went there almost everyday, for it is a huge subway crossroads. It was the first place we wanted to visit as soon as we put our luggage in our room.
This is such an astonishing place, bursting with lights, sounds, cars. Sobriety is not a concept in Time Square, I am telling you.
Well, I must be honest : at the end of the week, we were already tired of it. I wonder how New Yorkers feel about this place, for it looks like you can’t even pause for a minute.
I never thought I would encounter so many squirrels in Manhattan. I mean, when you think of it, it looks unlikely to find those creatures among so many buildings.
Nevertheless, In almost every park of the city, they are here, eagerly waiting for something tasty to eat !
I usually have dizziness pretty quickly. I assure you that when we were on top, I wasn’t feeling confident at all : as barriers, they put huge glasses, in order to allow a good view.
However, the scene was stunning indeed. The air was getting warmer (I mean, less freaking freezing) and it was a moment of peace.
We were so eager to see it that we took the wrong ferry. It was a good laugh though.
It may seem a bit silly, but I always thought the statue was way bigger than it actually is. It is big, but not - that - big. Well, I would be happy to have your opinion on that matter !
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