☆Starry Hwa☆

02 | she/her | atiny | 8 makes 1 team☆ (requests are OPEN)

[freyaphoria]

02 | freya | Intp | libra | unfortunately engineering student | REQUESTS ARE OPEN BUT please be patient, I am a slow writer / You can write me whatever you want, I love talking and making new friends! | I have a cat!! :3 | English is not my first language!!!

Masterlist

fluff: ♡ yandere: ☆ smut: ♤ angst: ♧

Hongjoong:

Type to ♡

Take Care of You ♡

Soup ☆

Run Away Together (feat hwa) ☆ * [side story]

A day with yandere Matz ☆

Jealousy Left Unwrapped (feat hwa) ☆

From Passion to Punishment (feat hwa) ☆ pt2 ♡

Yan!Matz Masterlist ☆♧

Seonghwa:

Type to ♡

Pretty and Handsome ♡

Bunny Costume ♤

Run Away Together (feat joong) ☆*[side story]

A day with yandere Matz ☆

Jealousy Left Unwrapped (feat joong) ☆

Little Flower ☆

Best Friends Forever (feat yuyu) ☆

After the Show ♤

They hurt themselves w yeo ☆

Look Like a Freak ♤

From Passion to Punishment (feat joong) ☆♧ pt2 ♡

Dark side ☆

Dress ♡

Yan!Seonghwa Thoughts ☆

Yan!Matz Masterlist ☆♧

Yunho:

Type to ♡

Long Sleeve ☆

Best Support ♤

His Lap ♡

I am Still Here ♧

Best Friends Forever (feat hwa) ☆

Best Friends Forever but really Forever ♤

Give it a Taste ☆

Yeosang:

Type to ♤

Just You ♡

5am breeze ♡

Nine Left ☆

They hurt themselves w hwa ☆

San:

Type to ♡

Jump, Bunny ☆*

Last Taste ☆

Mingi:

Type to ♤

Love Me ☆

Happy Birthday to Us ☆

His Moral loyalty ♧

Broken Doll ☆

Wooyoung:

Type to ♡

Type to 2 ♡

Veins ♡

Because I love you

Run Away Together | side story ☆

Jongho:

Balance ♡

Toys to Lovers ♤

Can you give me a headlock? ♡

Is This Love? ☆

Ot8: Jewelry ♡ Their kinks ♤ Dune

Reactions:

When you use safeword (hyung line) ♤

When you use safeword (maknae line) ♤

When their s/o starts showing affection (hyung line) ☆*

When their s/o starts showing affection (maknae line) ☆ *

When You Dug Your Nail Too Deep (Hyung Line) ♤

When You Dug Your Nail Too Deep (Maknae Line) ♤

You want to keep your hoodie/t-shirt on (hyung line) ♡

You want to keep your hoodie/t-shirt on (maknae line) ♡

* : my favourites

general taglist: @aim-blossom @bambisd0ll @oddracha @peqchplvto @life-is-a-game-of-thrones @lover-ofallthingspretty

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[freyaphoria]

OMAGAH HELLO IT’S BEEN AWHILE LOL😭

but likee basically when it comes to kind of “switching fandoms” or writing about the other groups, i personally won’t have a problem with that since i myself stan many of them. i usually go for the creator’s writing style and their abilities, so i would literally read just any work u do cause it really fits my liking🫰

ofc i would be THE HAPPIEST EVERR if u continue with finishing ur ateez fics especially yan!matz series (you’ve been cliff hanging us for two years :’) )

i also think tgat it would be a new experience writing for other groups aswell especially cause ur gonna attract others fandoms too❤️

OMG I MISS YOU 😭😭😭💙 (like seeing an ex😔)

OMG, HAS IT REALLY BEEN 2 YEARS? Damn, I really need to finish that😮‍💨

I will never completely abandon them, I will still write. I just thought that maybe this would make me want to write again lolll

[freyaphoria]

tbh i’ll read anything but i only read ateez fics cause i dont stan other groups but im not opposed to it so do what you want bb i’ll read anything you post 🫶🏻

though i am missing my yandere matz and its been a while since i read about them. kinda wanna know what happen after reader kissed joong and he got flustered like a teenage boy

I might prioritize finishing yan!matz, I don't know yet🫠 Thank you, and I don't know what happened to them either lolll I wish someone would write it for me

[freyaphoria]

I'm the 💙 anon and i just wanna say that svt is my ult so if you do choose to write for it I will def be reading

OH REALLYYY💙💙 I'd love to write svt ♡

[freyaphoria]

Even tho I only read fics of Ateez and bts I know I would most definitely read anything you write. I love smut but I don’t want it all the time and it’s so hard to find any yandere anymore. Plus I just love your writing so anything you make I’ll eat it up!!!

Could dark fic writers please write more, I'm having trouble finding what I'm looking for too, so it looks like I'll have to start writing dark fics again HDJENWJXSNXJLS thank you so much ily!!🥺🩶

[freyaphoria]

I'm still interested in yan!matz, but I think you should prioritize writing what you're interested in. I'd totally be interested to see what other groups you wanna write for. I'm just really glad to see you're back 💙 you're one of my favorite writers on here

I miss Yan!matz too, I feel like I've abandoned them😞... I don't want to disappoint my followers who are expecting me to write about atz, but I have very different opinions about different groups and I don't want to waste them either. I'm a bit unsure what to do. I guess the groups I'll write about will be svt and enhypen buttt still 🤷🏻‍♀️ I am not sure...

Aaaand thank you so much!💙🩵

[freyaphoria]

Haiii my sweet angel came to check up and make sure everything is a ok without my love and make sure to drink water and eat alot 😇🩷 I got a little cut up with school but I won't forget to check up in youuu I love you and be safeee 🫶🏻🩷

HAI I LOVE U I AMGONNACRY🥺 I've been strangely doing well lately lolll! Since I'm a little less busy, I thought I'd check in and decide whether to still write like I used to🩷 I hope you're having a good time at school, and don't forget to take care of yourself🫶🏻

[freyaphoria]

hi 😃

I want to start writing again, but I have a very important question: If I wrote yandere content for other fandoms too, would you read it or should I just continue writing for ateez? Or do you still read this kind of fics, because I haven't been active on this app for a while due to uni and I generally see a lot of smut content🫠 And it seems I need some of your ideas to start writing again.

LOLLL This was a really funny post, especially after a long time, but I NEED YOUR THOUGHTS.

[freyaphoria]

hi!!! i saw that you were taking requests again and wanted some yandere ones — yay!!! i know you’re super busy, but could you write about yandere san??? i honestly don’t have anything specific, so anything that comes up in your mind will be absolutely amazing. i just wanna read yandere san content from you lol since you’re a great writer!!! thank you so much <33

a/n: Hi hello!!!!! I apologize for not writing anything about Yandere San in 700 million years T_T I wrote something super short because I couldn't think of anything, if you give me a topic I'll be able to write more easily. If you don't like it, feel free to send a request again! Thank you! Love u!!!♡♡♡ (this may be the shortest thing I've ever written)

Last Taste

tw: blood, death, internal organs(?), dark fic, kissing, restriction w rope, fainting, dizziness, San kisses y/n with blood in his mouth!!!!

wc: 490

taglist: @aim-blossom @bambisd0ll @oddracha @peqchplvto

"Did I do well?" San was walking towards you, showing you drops of blood falling from his hand to the ground and pieces of flesh, while holding an internal organ of your boyfriend, Yeosang, which you couldn't identify. The forest was cold, desolate, and dark; there was no one here except him, the body of your boyfriend who died a few minutes ago, and you, tied to a tree.

"Won't you praise me? I saved you from him." You couldn't speak. If San hadn't tied you to the tree, you would have fallen to the ground already. Your head was spinning, and everything felt like a dream; this couldn't be real. The only word that came out of your mouth was a small "why?"

San came right up to you, bent down to your eye level, and held out what was in his hand. "I'll eliminate everything that prevents us from living together." As he squeezed what was in his hand, more blood and tissue fragments fell to the ground, making a nauseating sound. "Don't you want to taste your ex-boyfriend?" You didn't know what he was talking about. He was just talking, but his words weren't reaching you.

You looked at your boyfriend lying on the ground, his limbs twisted in a disturbing way. If this wasn't a dream and you were really living this, you'd lose your mind. "You've been lovers for years, why don't you say goodbye to him one last time?" He brought the remaining tissues in his hand closer to you, but you immediately pulled your head back. If you looked at the thing in his hand any longer, you could faint, and the smell of blood continued to make you dizzy. All your muscles were aching from shaking with fear, and the tears that hadn't yet flowed due to the shock you were experiencing were starting to flow down your cheeks.

San smeared what was in his hand on his own mouth, and his lips were covered in your lover's blood. He approached you and joined his lips with yours before you could understand what he was trying to do. As the metallic, disgusting taste flowed from your tongue to your throat, San held your head from both sides of your cheeks, preventing you from pulling back, and spread all the blood on his lips into your mouth. With the shock, all your blood drained, and your eyes darkened. You stopped shaking and all your muscles relaxed, feeling like you were being pulled into the ground. As you drifted off into consciousness, San separated his lips from yours. The last thing you heard before you blacked out and woke up in San’s house was the sound of San digging the ground with a shovel.

[freyaphoria]

uhm guys... I completely forgot I wrote this, but... what the hell did I write LOLLL

And I'm reading my old writings to motivate myself to start writing again 😮‍💨

[freyaphoria]

Am bck prettyyy monthly check up again 🤭 I'm ngl i miss your writing like someone hit me on the with a rock...,ANYWAYS I hope all is good and wtv your going tru I hope my pretty gets true it...🤭.P.S I LOVE YOUUU

HIIII I MISS UR CHECK-UPS😌 I'm thinking of something, but I could write something completely different. Before writing, I need to get feedback from my followers on whether I should continue with my old fics or write new ones. But I haven't planned anything yet, I'm completely focused on graduating from uni🫠 If I can get a little more motivated, I'll put my ideas together and post them heheh🌸

Anyway, I hope you're doing well too, thanks for checking on me!🩷💕

[freyaphoria]

we haven’t talked for the longest time but I hope you’re doing well 🫶🏻

OMG HIIII!! It's been a VERY long year for me, I hope you're doing well too🩷 I've missed your writings so much🥺🥺🥺

[moonclovers]

the prophecy | khj

summary: kim hongjoong walked with pride and led with confidence. he wanted to conquer the world. to do that, he needed you, the key to his prophecy. what neither of you realize, however, is how deep your connection truly is. and despite what you believe, it would be the one thing that would cause the both of you to fall to ruination.

pairing: cult leader! hongjoong x fem!reader rating/genre: 18+ MDNI | cult au, horror, strangers to lovers to enemies, yandere, major angst, fluff, eventual smut word count: 1.7k warnings/tags: cult, cult horror, hongjoong is a manipulative but charming liar (he swoons the town), yandere (but a small amount/not inappropriate), manipulation, lies, prophecies, supernatural abilities, toxic relationship, major angst, fluff, pet names, eventual smut, i think that’s all but please let me know if i missed anything (i’m new at this), i hope you enjoy reading! <3 notes: meant for this to be a drabble but it’s over 1.7k… ok anyways soo. i tried. i hated the way this came out, but i swear hongjoong is more evil and manipulative than he lets on. this is only a drabble of the early days/when he first meets the reader. ok i’ll shut up. i hope you enjoy! <3

disclaimer: all members of Ateez are faces and name claims for this story. this is entirely a work of fiction and by no means is meant to be a projection, judgment, or representation of real-life people. any scenarios or representations of the people and places mentioned in works are not representative of real life scenarios.

Nighttime was starting to become colder, you could feel the breeze pick up as you stood outside the old church. Autumn was here, and here to stay until the bitter coldness of winter wanted to take over. You’d miss the summer, when the world was alive and free. The sunset was your favorite part, but that would always be with you.

You’d hoped he wouldn’t take long. Then again, he did whatever he pleased, and everyone loved him for it. Well, most people. Others, like you, saw through his charade and knew he was utterly insane. But somehow his charm and manipulative words made people look past that, and only saw a man who could bring hope to this small town.

As much as you didn’t want to oblige, your father insisted it would be good for you. Perhaps you could see that he does mean well and only wants the best for everyone, he encouraged. It made you want to scream your head off, but you weren’t in the mood for a fight tonight. So, you said you’d go for only a little while.

Hongjoong specifically requested you at the church for seven, and it was now seven o’three. Your patience had begun to thin, and you were this close to just going home. However, you heard footsteps approaching from the side of the building, and low and behold, there he was. Confidence and cocky as ever.

His attire remained the same from when you saw it earlier. An all-black outfit with his signature boots and eyepatch. You were convinced it was fake, and you’d prove it one day. Maybe then you could convince everyone that Hongjoong was a fraud and could not be trusted. What a glorious day that would be.

“Ah, you’re here. I was worried you wouldn’t show up. You didn’t attend my service today,” Hongjoong called out as he stalked towards you.

You shook your head. “I had other . . . obligations to attend to. Very important ones.”

“Understandable. Maybe next time, my service can be another important obligation of yours,” he commented, which made you dig your nails into your hands. You couldn’t react, that’s what he wanted. It was best if you just kept your mouth shut.

You simply ignored his comment and crossed your arms over your chest. “You asked me to come here, and I showed up, so what do you want?”

A smirk rose on his face. “So hostile, it’s all good things,” Hongjoong reassured you, but you felt everything but reassured. “There’s something I want to show you. Come.”

He pushed open one of the church doors and your gut immediately began to scream. This wasn’t a good idea, especially when it would get dark soon. God knows what he wanted to show you.

“It’s getting really late. Monsignor Pruitt doesn’t like it when people go to church after services end. Can’t we come back tomorrow morning? At a normal time? When people are out and about?” You tried to reason.

“Are you ensuing that I am going to harm you, Darling?” He asked. “Didn’t realize your hatred for me ran so deep.”

“I don’t hate you. I just don’t like you, and what you’re saying to the town,” you fought back. “But in all seriousness, this is very creepy, so can’t we just do it tomorrow morning? I’ll show up, I swear.”

But Hongjoong only shook his head. “But you’ll miss the big surprise if we don’t go now. Come, it won’t be long.”

You rolled your eyes as you watched him disappear into the church. With a dramatic sigh, you followed, your nerves increasing by the second. Surely if you were to die, then everyone would know Hongjoong did it, and he’d be sent to prison. There was some comfort in that.

It was different at night. Darker, obviously, but also calmer. Like you could just be alone in your thoughts and not worry about what others had to say. You used to come here a lot, but you couldn’t recall why you stopped. Maybe it was a sign to start going again. If the town allowed it, now that Hongjoong was weaseling his way in. You still didn’t see the appeal of his little group. You hoped you never would, and you prayed that someone would slap you if you showed the slightest bit of interest.

The uneasiness arose again once you began to walk upstairs, down a hallway you had never seen before. It was most likely to the Monsignor’s office, but still, no one was allowed back there. You wondered how he’d react seeing the both of you walk down his hallways. Hongjoong would most likely manipulate Monsignor Pruitt into making him believe it to be his fault. Or throw you under the bus. Either option was feasible.

When you reached the top, you walked out onto a balcony. You could see the sky blending into pink and orange, the stars sprinkling around it. It was truly a magnificent sight, one you never noticed before. You always knew the sunsets were pretty, but you didn’t realize

“I never knew you could see this kind of view from up here,” you spoke, memorized. You couldn’t take your eyes off of the skyline. “It’s beautiful.”

Hongjoong observed you, arms behind his back. “Neither did I. I need somewhere to escape to whenever I need to clear my head. My cabin isn’t good enough.”

You didn’t say anything, you just leaned against the balcony with your arms. Silence filled the space between you, and you couldn’t tell if you needed to say something, or if the silence was good enough. It was nice like this, quiet. You could actually hear your thoughts for once.

“How did you convince—” You started.

“Why do you resist me?” He cut you off.

You weren’t sure how to answer that. There were many reasons. It would take you forever to name all of them. So, you only shook your head. “I don’t really know. I’m content with where I’m at, I guess?”

“Are you really, though?” He asked, to which you wanted to answer No but chose to refrain.

You shrugged your shoulders. “My life is fine, and that’s all you’ll get from me. I have a loving family, friends, and a community that looks out for each other. What more could I want?”

“Stability, purpose, love. There are many things one can achieve in their lifetime, it doesn’t have to be a select few,” Hongjoong explained. “You could be happy. With me. The group.”

“And why would I do that? Throw away everything for a prophecy that is absolute bullshit? No thanks, I would rather live in the real world than play pretend and go insane.”

“Because it is real. And you are a big part of it. I need someone brave, someone strong. That person is you. It has always been you. You truly think the real world gives a shit about you? They don’t. It is boring and bleak and miserable. But I see you. You don’t want that, you don’t want to do the same thing everyday. You want more. You want confidence, power, strength. I can give you all of those things and more. We can. You just have to trust yourself to do the right thing. Trust yourself to join me. We can do wonderful things together, Darling. You have no idea,” Hongjoong explained.

The sun had officially fallen asleep for the night. The moon and the stars were out to shine. You were quite honestly dumbfounded by his words, he was right about some things. Sure, you wished your life had more adventure, and you didn’t want to settle and do the same, boring thing everyday. But you couldn’t fall into the trap of some cult-horror bullshit. You wouldn’t allow yourself to fall for that nonsense. You couldn’t. You needed to be true to yourself, and that was not something you wanted.

You? A big part of Hongjoong’s prophecy that could change the world? Yeah right.

He snapped you out of your thoughts by grabbing your hand and bringing it to his chest. His actions startled you, but you couldn’t bring yourself to pull away. “Look, I know this shit isn’t easy for you. It’s hard for anyone to trust someone they’ve never met. But trust me when I say that you should seriously reconsider your decision. Come to a meeting. It can be with everyone, or the core members, it can just be with me and how I run things. Just . . . give us a chance. Give me a chance. And I’ll prove to you that there’s more to this.”

Before you could respond, your phone buzzed. Saved by the bell. It was just your mother asking if you needed any laundry done. You didn’t answer right away, but you cleared your throat. “It’s my mom, she wants to know when I’ll be home.”

“Of course,” he rubbed his thumb against yours. Within a few seconds, he dropped your hand all together. It felt cold. “Don’t want to keep her waiting. I’ll walk you to your car.”

He led the way down, and you didn’t hesitate to follow him. It didn’t take you long to reach your car, to which it miraculously didn’t get slashed or destroyed while you were away. The silence had killed you this time around, and neither of you wanted to suffer through it. “That view you showed me… I never knew that balcony existed, or how pretty the sunset looked from up there. So thanks for that. I really mean it.”

Hongjoong shrugged his shoulders. “It’s a special spot I would only show to a special person,” he answered. “And I mean it when I saw your special. There’s something about you that just pulls me in every time. Maybe it’s the prophecy, or maybe it’s me getting my hopes up of having someone remarkable join me, but you are. You should know that.”

You could only crack a small smile. “Thanks.”

He took your hand and pressed a gentle kiss to it. “Have a goodnight, Darling.”

“Goodnight, Hongjoong.”

And with that, you bid farewell. His touch and warmth still lingered on your hand as you began to drive away.

Perhaps he was right. Maybe you were being too harsh on him and his group. Joining one meeting wouldn’t hurt you, right? Just to see what it was like and how the people operated. And if you don’t like it, he’ll leave you alone. Simple as that.

[freyaphoria]

Haii pretty! Just wanted to come out and check on u...Hru mentally 😄

Omg hi!!!! It's been a long time since someone sent me an ask, I'm so excited hehehe!

Mentally, I haven't been doing very well for the past few months, but I feel more relaxed after writing and finishing the first of my two graduation thesis. The second one is next. I'm trying to get myself together.🫠

I hope you are well too, thank you for checking on me🥹🩷

[freyaphoria]

Ive been gone awhile and today i log in and see your post first thing. Looks like we’ve been gone for the same amount of time 😂 I missed you. K love you bye 😘

eheheh I'm actually here, but I don't post much💕

[freyaphoria]

Run Away Together | Yan!Matz: Masterlist

a/n: Hello! I noticed that the asks I had previously answered about Run Away Together were being asked again. So I decided to collect all the posts I wrote/answered about Yan!matz in a masterlist!

Summary: Hongjoong, who is obsessed with you and Seonghwa, kidnaps you 2 years after kidnapping Seonghwa to his mansion.

tw: Almost everything I write about this series contains blood, violence, torture, killing, manipulation etc.

taglist: @aim-blossom @bambisd0ll @oddracha @peqchplvto @coconutchan @sp1derst0rrr @blu-kyl

Run Away Together pt1 pt2

Side story

A day with them

Jealousy left unwrapped

From Passion to Punishment , pt2

Dark Side , pt2

Asks:

Are they have a physical relationship with you?

Do Hongjoong and Seonghwa have a physical relationship with each other?

Is Seonghwa also obsessed with you like Hongjoong is?

How long has it been since you and Seonghwa were kidnapped?

Joong's first time with you

Did y/n ever felt scared or totally intimidated by Joong?

What would Joong do if one or both of his captives completely broke?

After reader's punishment

[freyaphoria]

His Moral Loyalty

a/n: I adapted Mingi's little jealousy argument with Yunho for reader. I hope you felt the angst! I wrote the actual conversations between Yunho and Mingi in bold letters. Also, I didn't forget to write the second part of passion of punishment. Thank you for the interest you left in my inbox about that fic. And i don't know why i used cyberpunk theme, it was so irrelevant. AND Can you please find me another title for this?

tw: angst!!!!, jealous!Mingi, friends to maybe strangers, reader is very wrong here, lots of angst

wc: 2021

taglist: @aim-blossom @oddracha @bambisd0ll @peqchplvto (I love you guys so much♡)

“I can’t believe you.” You were sure Mingi was really exaggerating and twisting things, but somehow he still managed to make you feel guilty. His voice was low, emotional, and shaky as he tried not to make eye contact, looking down at the floor instead. He felt as if his entire world had collapsed around him. Yes, he knew you loved him as a friend, but it still hurt him deeply that you weren’t prioritizing him. "For God's sake, Mingi, why are you upset about it?" You finished applying eyeshadow and closed the eyeshadow palette angrily. It was like you were constantly dealing with a child, a child who couldn't share his mother with his siblings. You felt your patience wearing thin, and without realizing it, the nails of your fist were digging into your palms. He was rocking back and forth in place, still trying to digest what he perceived as your ‘betrayal’.

"I mean... I mean why?" you stammered, thinking that your previous tone of voice was too harsh and loud, you decided to soften your approach. This time, you tried to talk to him gently, hoping not to scare him. You took a deep breath, attempting to calm yourself down. On the other hand, you were still trying to continue with your makeup, meticulously applying highlighter and blending it evenly. You glanced at him in the mirror, noticing the conflicted emotions written all over his face. “I asked you to go to dinner together first.” You were used to your best friend being jealous of your other friends. But this time, Mingi looked truly hurt. He had wanted to take you to this dinner so badly, he had finally mustered up the courage to tell you he loved you and jeopardize your friendship, but the 'I'm sorry Min, I promised Woo' text from you had ruined all of his plans and destroyed his motivation. He had been planning this dinner date for weeks, imagining how he would confess his feelings to you over a candlelit dinner, hoping you would feel the same way.

Were you provoking him by wearing make up in front of him? Yes. Were you going to wear his favorite cement-colored mini dress in front of him for Wooyoung? Also yes. Why? Because Mingi wouldn’t leave you alone and you wanted to annoy him in your own way. So that he can leave you alone for a bit and let you have fun with your other friends. You couldn’t help but feel a little guilty, seeing the pain in his eyes, but you were determined to make your point. The tension between you two had been building for a while, and you were both too stubborn to back down. "Woo made a promise with his friends. We'll all go together. I don't go out to dinner alone with him." You took one last look at your makeup in the mirror, ensuring every detail was perfect, and got up from your makeup table to look at your phone, saw that you had a text from Wooyoung.

“All right, that’s how you do it.” You were about to open the messages when Mingi’s annoying tone got on your nerves again. “You're starting to get jealous again, do you realize that-?”

“It’s not jealousy.” He waved his hands at you in frustration. “I’m not jealous, this is...” It was cute how he spoke to you without ever making eye contact, stumbling over his words. “What then? Are you upset?” The phone in your hand was still waiting for the new messages from Wooyoung to open. He had probably left home and was coming to your house to pick you up.

As Mingi tried to carefully choose what to say, his emotional breakdown and frustration caused the words to come out of his mouth on their own. “I prioritize relationships with people.” This time, he was looking into your eyes with such intensity and depth, as if he was trying to convey unspoken feelings. He was completely focused on you, his gaze unwavering. “And you abandoned my moral loyalty.” he said, his voice filled with a mix of pain and accusation.

The weight of his words hung heavily in the air, making the moment feel even more intense. Your eyes were wide. You knew that Mingi felt emotions deeply, but you hadn’t guessed that he felt them this deeply. Also, the fact that he expressed how he felt showed that his patience had reached its limit and he couldn’t hold his emotions in anymore. "Mingi, it was a simple plan. He planned it and I said okay, why are you making it such a big deal?" All your attention was now on Mingi, whose eyes were on the verge of tears. He had cried in front of you before, but it wasn't because of you. “I planned it since I was in the 9th grade of middle school!” Mingi could no longer control his words and his shaking body. The accumulated admiration of all those years and the thought that you valued Wooyoung more than him caused him to lose control of his words and let them come out of his mouth on their own. You were surprised by his words and didn't understand. What was he planning?

“Plan what?” The room was filled with the sounds of Wooyoung’s incoming text messages and Mingi’s shaky breathing. The tension in the room was palpable, almost suffocating.

“Everything I do with you.” His eyes followed your voice, which came out in a quiet and timid tone, as he turned away from you again. He made up a lie because he couldn't share his plan to tell you he loved you, which he had been planning for years.

You froze for a few seconds, trying to process his words. He planned everything? Hadn't you already done so many things together over the years? What else could he possibly have planned? A multitude of thoughts raced through your mind. “Mingi, you spend a lot of time with me. What more do you want?” You said, your voice tinged with confusion and curiosity. Mingi bowed his head this time, a gesture that seemed to carry the weight of his feelings. “So you forgot how precious it is because we spend a lot of time together and you’re so used to it?”

He was right. What he said was very impressive and cut deep into your conscience. You didn't have an answer to that because, yes, you sometimes forgot. Your 7-year friendship was starting to seem very ordinary and boring to you, but you always cared about Mingi. His recent overly obsessive behavior was making you distance yourself from him.You began to reflect on the many moments you had shared. The late-night talks, the shared secrets, the laughter, and even the arguments. Each memory now seemed to carry a different weight, a different significance. Mingi's words had opened a door to a part of your past that you had overlooked. You realized how much he had invested in this friendship, how much he had planned and cherished every moment.

It was clear that his feelings went beyond mere friendship, and it pained you to see him so distressed. The room felt colder, the silence more pronounced, as you struggled to find the right words to say. You knew that whatever came next would change the dynamics of your relationship forever. You took a deep breath, trying to steady your thoughts, and prepared yourself for the conversation that lay ahead. “What are you saying? Of course you are precious to me.” You weren’t lying; he was still precious to you. He just seemed like a different person lately, someone unfamiliar yet still dear. His usual self, the Mingi you knew, would jump up and down with excitement whenever he heard a compliment from you, flashing his big, goofy smile that you adored. But right now, he wasn’t reacting at all, his expression vacant and distant.

“I mean, is it wrong to go out to dinner with my other friends?” you asked, turning your head to look at Mingi. You saw him leaning against the door frame, his eyes scanning you up and down. "Of course it's not wrong, what's wrong is that you don't prioritize me," he replied, trying so hard not to let the words he really wanted to say slip out. If you pushed his buttons a little more, he could confess that he loved you at any moment.

"I have always prioritized you over my friends throughout my life. I can't stay stuck with you for the rest of my life, Mingi," you responded. You have made countless mistakes in your life, but the mistake you just made was the worst. You wish you could turn back time by 3 seconds and not say those two sentences. You didn't mean to hurt him on purpose; his childish jealousy just got on your nerves, and you wanted to get on his nerves too.There was silence for about 10 seconds. In those 10 seconds, Mingi was broken, never to be mended again. He tried to collect himself, his body seemed to be speaking and moving on its own. He could feel the weight of your words pressing down on his chest, making it hard to breathe. Just as Mingi opened his mouth to say something, he was interrupted by a call from Wooyoung.

“Woo? Ok, I'm going downstairs.” You didn’t want to make eye contact with Mingi as you hung up the phone and picked up your bag from your bed. You knew you had disappointed him, hurt him, but you couldn’t always depend on him. You had other friends, and you were starting to get close to Wooyoung, and you didn’t want anyone to come between you and Wooyoung when everything was starting to go so well. Yes, this thought was very selfish and you were betraying Mingi, but still, falling in love was a very different and complicated feeling.

You could feel Mingi’s eyes on you, filled with unspoken words and emotions. As you walked out, you couldn’t shake the feeling that this moment was a turning point, one that might change everything between you two. You glanced back at him, feeling a pang of guilt. "I’m sorry, Mingi. We’ll talk later, I promise.” He didn’t respond, merely nodding with a vacant look in his eyes. He remained where he was, his silence speaking volumes about his hurt and disappointment. There was no attempt to stop you, no plea to stay—just a quiet acceptance of your leaving, as if he had expected it all along.

You closed the door softly behind you, leaving Mingi alone in the room, feeling the chill of the empty space you left behind. As you walked to meet Wooyoung, you could still feel the weight of his unspoken sorrow pressing heavily on you, a constant reminder of the pain you had caused. The night air was cool and crisp, but it did nothing to soothe the guilt gnawing at your conscience.

You thought about the times Mingi had been there for you, supporting you through thick and thin, always a steady presence in your life. No matter what you did, at the end of the day, Mingi would always be there for you. But this time, when you got home at who knows what time at night, Mingi wouldn’t be there waiting for you. The realization hit you hard, making your steps falter. The thought of returning to an empty house, devoid of his comforting presence, filled you with a deep sense of loss. You knew that things would never be the same again, and the path you had chosen was leading you further away from the one person who had always been your anchor.

a/n: You guys used to leave me lots of feedback. I miss those times TT_TT

[freyaphoria]

I forgot I wrote this lolll I LOVE JEALOUS MINGI SM🫶🏻

[mingtojaby]

omg ateez comeback announcement

girl how many parts do we need..... golden hour part 72 coming out in 2029