im trying to keep my faith @frn-do - Tumblr Blog

uhhhhh don’t know if love is for me. it’s never found me & ive never found it (though i did love at one pt but....)

im so fucking irritated right now. i fucking hate being pulled into other’s people’s insecurities/emotional problems when all i wanted was to be left alone.

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my parents are showing that theyre threatened by my autonomy now that i have a fucking job and its becoming more and more clear lol. words cannot describe how sad and pathetic im finding them as i grow older

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i cannot believe u bitches have the audacity to try to act like nothing is wrong & try to force an adult relationships w me as if u bitches didnt force me to realize i had no parental figures to go to/rely on as a child emotionally and forego all of my childhood, mentally and emotionally abuse me until i reclaimed myself in my adulthood, & now realize control and fear cant force relationships after all your children dont want anything to do with u (even if my shitty siblings are a completely diff story that ur responsible for fucking raising)

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im so fucking irritated right now. i fucking hate being pulled into other’s people’s insecurities/emotional problems when all i wanted was to be left alone.

frn-do

my parents are showing that theyre threatened by my autonomy now that i have a fucking job and its becoming more and more clear lol. words cannot describe how sad and pathetic im finding them as i grow older

im so fucking irritated right now. i fucking hate being pulled into other’s people’s insecurities/emotional problems when all i wanted was to be left alone.

its fucking laughable that now i have a full time job... my father think its a trigger to actually have a relationship with me now and constantly asking about my job without working on the issues from before?? me working isnt synonymous with us bonding in the misery of adulthood sir. dont get it twisted.

my mentality is im crying rn but i wont be crying when i get that paycheck

thinking i just need to stop hanging out with so many privileged people and find ppl who are more raw and real. privilege has ppl giving up their morals just because they can, having fun and wasting time with shitty ppl. then going back to their pampered lives with no actual problems, doing it all only because theyre bored.

#am i just too selective?? what the fuck

theres nothing i hate more than people who dont have principles and stick by anything in what theyre saying... first youre saying you dont like ppl who do this or that but youre okay with hanging out with them and letting them into your life?? please.

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the toxicity of my family is rly like…. wow…. yall are really like this instead of realizing all the shit thats culminated is because of all your own actions

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my siblings officially cut each other and our parents all out (though theyre fucking shitty themselves lol), my parents refuse to even acknowledge they raised terrible people because theyre terrible people themselves...... meanwhile im the only one who ever tries to be a decent person in this shithole

the toxicity of my family is rly like.... wow.... yall are really like this instead of realizing all the shit thats culminated is because of all your own actions

im so fkn torn rn between my life. one part of me values education so much because of who i’ve been all of my life and wants to be ambitious in a traditional career and get a masters degree and the other part of me is an art heaux who wants to live, breathe, and consume artistry and be heavily involved in music and i literally cannot fucking choose jaskl;fdasf

i wish i had x100 more creative/artist friends... where can i even find any

how am i getting 0 dick when im this fking cute/hot.... it dont make cents luv

#i havent had sex in 5 MONTHS