tough day at work.
fucked up big time and got scolded huge by the client for it.
and i know this mistake is mostly on me because i didn’t contact the client early enough.
i’m always giving myself excuses to not make the call and now as expected it has come back to bite me in the ass. cos i’m the idiot.
the one who is always scared of making calls
scared of taking to strangers
scared of everything
i can’t just blame it on being an “introvert”. that is just bullshit. i’m just fucking lazy. old but never wise.
how can someone like me be in the industry for so fucking long and still make such an elementary mistake?!
someone who is useless, that’s who.
maybe my bosses will finally realize i’m not good enough and ask me to leave?
i never brought in much business compared to the other new joiners. i don’t have a following. i’m not good at my job. so why the fuck would anyone want to hire me?
i am as useless a human as i am at my job. geez, great going.
everyone my age has already gotten things down, they are good at what they do, they know how to behave and speak in front of others. they know what i to wear for different occasions. they know how to make friends and maintain relationships.
what am i able to do well? nothing, it seems.
