fruits & coffee

27 y/o

[fruitsandcoffee]

Stats ✨️

Height: 164cm

HW: 164kg

SW: 103,9kg

CW: 103,8kg (July 21st)

GW1: 99kg

GW2: 94kg

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UGW: 49,6kg 🌸

[fruitsandcoffee]

Bing3d all week and wonder why I gained over 2kg. Ridiculous

[fruitsandcoffee]

Family came over today and it was the first time in a while where I didn't get complimented. Which, to me, means I didn't lose weight or even gained since I saw them last. Can't let this happen again

[lacyyyladyyylou]

if I was skinner people would like me more.

[fruitsandcoffee]

Told my mom I don't p*rge anymore and immediately b/p'd after lmao

[sparklyribbongirl]

The scale shows no mercy.

[3ternally-r0tting]

I'm going to ⭐️ve until I'm addicted to it. Until it's the only thing that makes me happy, until I've exhausted all other options, until my bones are all that's left of me, until I can walk in the snow and not leave a footprint.

[fruitsandcoffee]

Pissed at my fiancé but instead of telling him and talking it out, I'll use it as fuel to 🌟ve. Yes, this is a totally healthy way to handle the situation.

[fruitsandcoffee]

I haven't lost a single gram, instead I gained weight in the past week. I need to lock in for real!

[fruitsandcoffee]

P*rging right after showering feels even dirtier than usual

[amillkhalo]

I got d3leted AGAIN. Im gonna be sick. Its the 2nd time this MONTH. Please help me find my moots again

[fruitsandcoffee]

Going back to Germany for the next 10 days and I was supposed to be 5kg lighter by now. Good days ahead

[fruitsandcoffee]

I need new makeup but swore to myself I can't get any until I'm 10kg lighter than my CW. How is that not motivating enough? I'll be literally allowed to spend like 100€, that's the fucking dream right there. I'm such a failure jfc

[fruitsandcoffee]

I don't know what to do anymore to get properly motivated at this point. I'm in a phase of gaining weight again when I wanted to lock in for once!

I don't know if I CAN do this anymore. Nothing is working. Not the healthy way, not the unhealthy way. My mind just won't shut the fuck up about food and I give in every single fucking time. Nobody is helping me. My psychiatrist wants to stop my antipsychotics instead of prescribing me something to stop the food noise. So I'll have hallucinations again instead? Thanks for fucking nothing, I guess.

This is driving me insane, literally. Might end up in a psych ward again like this.

I just want to lose weight, even being not considered obese anymore would make me happy for a while jfc, it's not that much to ask!

[sweetlyaimed]

today is a new day

use the shame or pride from yesterday and recycle it into motivation. don't give up; remember why you started

[fruitsandcoffee]

Scale shows 1,5kg MORE THAN YESTERDAY???? Something ain't right here what the absolute fuck?

[fruitsandcoffee]

I just want to be in the double digits again 😩