Block don't report, active summer 2026

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[3ternally-r0tting]

hey mental illness tumblr, this is my new blog! I'm mostly posting about me ednotsheeran disorder and fruit ninja on here. Though images of any kind will be found on twt. Trigger warning for that kind of stuff anyways.

I'm a dazai fictionkin, I've had an ednotsheeran for 4 years on and off, current goal is 80lb or bmi 14. I'm also a system and a writer. I'll probably use this place as a little hub of things to scroll on when I want motivation. Also I'm 18 and probably won't moot if you're under 16.

[3ternally-r0tting]

I'll always find beauty in my own pain. But I still avoid the harsh stuff, paradox paradox paradox.

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I hate the feeling of being full of food, I need to remind myself of that every time I want to taste something. Just taste it, you don't need to swallow.

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fasted for a day then had to eat stir fry because the second I lock in again my family decides we eat dinner together every day. I'm going to die actually.

[a4geliove]

Tips!

Those are things that have at least helped me!

1. Drink a lot of water, specifically before eating. I usually drink cup of water at least 15 minutes before eating and then between every bite a sip. It helps you to feel fuller without having to finish all food.

2. Black coffee! Caffeine makes you feel full since it's hunger suspender and plain black coffee has no cal0rie$!

3. If you own hula hoop you can do it while watching your show/movie or listing to podcast. Intense hula-hooping burns around 1.50-2.10 $ in 30 minutes. You can add some kind of arms exercise to get the most out of it.

4. If you get hun&ry, watch some disgusting foods to make you nauseous and lose appetite. If that doesn't work on you, go and clean for example your bathroom- you have to use chemicals and those usually have strong smell. It will make you nauseous so you won't feel like €ating + you burn some k€a|.

5. Whenever you do eat, make sure that your meals are high protein and fiber. You will stay full for much longer.

6. Do something to distract yourself, like painting, gaming, reading, working out, cleaning etc.

7. Go on a walk without bringing any money, you will get your steps in and won't be able to get any f0od. If you can pay with your phone turn off this option so it won't be that tempting.

8. Sleep. Literally just go to sleep if nothing works, drink some water or green tea and go to sleep.

9. Probably the most toxic and weird one but €at in front of the mirror with tight clothes on or something r3v€ling. Disgust your brain with yourself.

I use a lot of $&3€ etc since I have already lost account and don't want it to happen again. Good luck a4gels!

𓂃 ࣪˖ ⋆.˚ ʚїɞ ⋆

[3ternally-r0tting]

I'm going to ⭐️ve until I'm addicted to it. Until it's the only thing that makes me happy, until I've exhausted all other options, until my bones are all that's left of me, until I can walk in the snow and not leave a footprint.

[bows-made-of-silk]

Maybe if I look sick enough, someone will tell me to sit down...

Maybe they'll make me dinner after my shift, instead of asking what's for dinner.

Maybe they'll tuck a blanket around my shoulders instead of handing me another responsibility.

Maybe they'll stop saying,

"You'll be okay."

Maybe they'll finally believe me when I say I'm exhausted.

Because somehow, tired wasn't enough.

Hurt wasn't enough.

Crying wasn't enough.

My pain had to become visible.

It had to settle into my bones,

show up in my face,

and hang from my clothes

Because apparently if I looked okay, I must be okay.

That pain didn't count unless it showed up

on my body.