๐ทThis is my NS.FT s.elfship side blog and I also use it as my personal diary. I post my art, rambling posts, and gushing over my f.o's and crushes โก I reblog soft and spicy posts, random posts, a.esthetic posts, etc. โก I use s.elfshipping to mentally cope and for fun, but it doesn't mean my f.o's aren't personal to me.
๐ทI'm a q.ueer (s.apphic, f.emme4b.utch) s.ex-averse a.sexual who is super se.x-positive, pro-p.leasure and romance-indifferent a.rospecโ but, I love romance and smut! โก If you are curious about what those mean, here are some resources (x, x, x, x). Please be sure to educate yourself and understand others better. โก
๐ทBecause I'm a.rospec, I do have some f.o's/crushes who I consider strictly q.ueerplatonic partners. I experience a.esthetic attraction as well (x).
๐ทI do have a main s.elfship blog, but I want to keep this separate. Hello if you are one of my mutuals, you have found my ns.ft blog, enjoy your stay! โก
๐ทMain F.Os:
โก M (soulmate, married).
โก S (love at first sight, married).
โก A + fem!A (QPR/s.tockholm sy.ndrome).
โก R ("are they lovers?", "worse").
๐ทCrush List
๐ทTags + Ns.ft List.
๐ทPlease use my inbox to ask me to tag k.inks/other things, because I won't tag properly other than general content warnings (or whatever I feel like tagging) โก However, you are responsible for curating your online experience and ensuring you're comfortable and safe.
๐ทDon't send unsolicited h.orny asks, I'm not here for that.
in the past i've described my experience of being an ace with a sex drive as being hungry with no appetite, but actually my experience is more like being hungry and never going out to eat because i always have all the tools and ingredients to make exactly what i want, exactly how i want it, at home. i don't want other people in my kitchen and i certainly don't want to be in anyone else's kitchen. love reading about fictional kitchens, though.
when it comes to feeling stuck, it's important to not become fascinated with your vision/goals/wants, and to prioritize small actions that will lead to consistency
i love being present, i love sinking deeper into the moment, i love eye contact that lingers enough to catch a feeling, i love curiosity, i love consideration, i love fluidity, i love dropping into my body that i witness someone relax into theirs, i love pauses & random silences that absorb a question or a moment, i loveeee feeling their eyes move with my gestures peripherally, i love eagerness and I LOVE
give me a peaceful country morning, tending to my garden, birds chirping, a iced vanilla latte, and nowhere to be, and suddenly everything feels more manageable.
Literally cannot believe I was ever scared of getting older like this is awesome. Learning so many new things about myself & reacting to things that used to get under my skin so differently. This is so sexy.
Life feels like it became more cooperative for me when I stopped internally begging for and desperately wanting anything, a career, a relationship, a home, etc. and I started asking โwhy do i want this?โ And โhow can I move towards it gracefullyโ. Stop demanding. Start asking better questions.
I looove having 0 children and sleeping alone in my quiet clean cool apartment and going to concerts and festivals and shopping for new cute clothes and watching TV
โDo it scaredโ โdo it aloneโ are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if youโre getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You donโt need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You donโt need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes itโs okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.
that painfully long second during a pussy job when his tip falls against the entrance to your pussy and heโs wondering whether or not he should just push right inโฆ..