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⠀ ⠀ ⠀ ⠀ I'M ⠀BACK ⠀AND ⠀FORTH ⠀I ⠀THINK ⠀I'M ⠀GOING ⠀CRAZY.

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180802 Korea Music Festival | © falling in love‏

[ftjesse]

seojngmi:

“it’s okay. i’ll keep them posted from time to time about their favorite band,” she winked playfully as she sat down on the chair across jesse. “but the tour! how exciting. where will you guys be going?” jangmi smiled. she has met celebrities on the plane but she wasn’t allowed to fan girl so meeting jesse and being able to really interact with him was something very new to her. “should i start gathering other fans so we can start those— what do you call them? projects? is that it? i have to keep up with all these fandom lingos.”

“you’re truly a hero for our fandom!” jesse played along, grinning from ear to ear as he looked at her. “we’re going on tour back home, in the states. we’ve got some venues in some of the big cities like la, new york, houston.” the male further explained where the tour would be taking his band, quite excited as the day to leave was aprroaching. “maybe you’ll be our flight attendant when we go back!” he stated while keeping the smile on his features. “listen, i have no idea... i can’t keep up with all the lingos and shit they come up with. so imma say that you’re right.”

[ftjesse]

how would your friends describe you?

“dumbass. thanks for coming to my ted talk.”

[ftjesse]

what are three albums that really define you or have shaped you as a person?

“so, you are really going to do that, huh? instead of choosing the albums, i will be totally avoiding the point of the question and tell you that one of the artists that really influenced me were like…. guns ‘n’ roses, david bowie, jimmy web. all the iconic rock stars, honestly.”

[ftjesse]

if you could change anything about you life now, what would it be?

“i appreciate my life and always do what i want to do, mostly because i don’t want to have a life full of regrets. i’d rather say that i did a thing that fucked me up than wonder what could’ve been if i hadn’t been a coward. serious things aside, i would like to be eating some in n out and not some kfc chicken.“

[ftjesse]

what’s the craziest dream you’ve had?

“i dream a hella lot so i have had a bunch of weird ass dreams in my life, but i think it was something related to a giant spongebob walking around la and destroying the buildings around town that got to me. shit was wild.”

[ftjesse]

are you sure that dove loves you?

“none of your business, but do you think that i would torture myself by being in a relationship that is one-sided? especially after the shit i went through? think about it a lil and then ask.”

[ftjesse]

Is there anything about the way your time is going in sole that you would change?

“i’m an impatient dude, so the fact that it is taking us so long to break into the south korean industry is pissing me off. but, at least, it takes my mind off the fact that we, the band members, promised to return to cali once that happens so… i don’t know what the fuck i am supposed to do ‘cause i’m growing to like this place!”

[ftjesse]

if the link doesn't work, just click the lil message box on the blog and it should be fine !! mwah !! lov u, ladies and gents and everyone tbh.

[ftjesse]

doveshiim:

   he had made it increasingly difficult to lose herself in the purest form of first day bliss. yet, it wouldn’t be them without the constant back and forth. well before she was able to call him hers they’d always been quick wit, and even quicker with laughter. and in dove’s case a little bit faster to pout. and she wouldn’t have it any other way. each moment of faux sadness being shattered by her desire to laugh at how ridiculous the both of them had seemed to be acting. “this is going to be my life now. you doing the bare minimum, and me having to praise it.” her sigh was dramatic purposefully to add emphasis. “just so you know, a ride around town on your motorcycle isn’t a date.” but her words were nothing but meaningless teases. she could be anywhere in the world with him, and never want to leave because it was his side she got to stand beside. which always made it enough. but that didn’t mean she didn’t want to at least hit him a little bit. especially in that moment, as his answer to her pleas went ignored. her pout was sincere now, and her patience wearing thin as she stubbornly followed him into the kitchen. “are you really not going to tell me? hm?” she blinked her lashes at him in the sweetest way possible, as her shoulders began to twist in childlike manner. “tell me please.. i’ll give you a kiss! hm? a kiss for every song you tell me was written about me? please? jesse i’m dying here, i need to know.”

the laughter and smiles seemed to have no end when they were together. each minute together was wholesome and it seemed that all of the previous moments when they were staring a bit longer and hugging each other tighter were much meaningful than he had expected. the grin soon turned into a smirk at her statement, giving a firm nod to confirm it. “you’re right! and you signed up for that once you said that you love me back.” he shot her a wink, but he rushed to answer upon his motorcycle being mentioned. “watch your mouth, missy. that’s definitely a date!” both of them were aware that their conversation was purely structured to entertain them and this type of going back and forth was normal. during playful remarks like that one, jesse had fallen for dove without even realizing it. when he did realize however, it had been a few good months from the moment he had begun to see her in a whole different light. “you aren’t going to hear anything from me!” his response was stern and he didn’t sketch any other emotion till they reached the kitchen. needless to say, he was melting at the way she was acting, looking more adorable than ever. he further guided her to one of the counters, soon standing right in front of her, hands placed against the edge of the said counter to support himself. “compass, void, sensitive, can’t do anything... and i’ll keep the rest of the songs to myself.” he had leaned in closer to her as he spoke, inches away from her face, his gaze fixed on hers. jesse was acting like that to see what her reaction would be and because why wouldn’t he want to get more kisses from her?

[ftjesse]

seojngmi:

following him to the coffee shop, still taken a back that jesse was actually in south korea. “you’re going on tour? that sounds amazing.” the smell of coffee hitting her as they entered. “i’m sure my friends will probably be going and they’ll send pictures what they don’t know is that we practically live in the same town. legit question though,” she chuckled, “can i start a fan club?” 

he placed one of his hands in the pocket of his leather jacket, enjoying the weather and the company of the kind lady. after opening the door for her, he was quick to step inside and guide her to one of the tables by the window as that was his favorite place to be sitting at. “i think you’re the luckiest among your friends! that’s just a feeling though.” jesse joked as he took a seat, soon laughing at the woman’s question. “why not? do we have to release like... lightsticks to be like the rest of the groups?”

[ftjesse]

miyovng:

the compliment was thought to be an encouragement and miyoung took a step closer to him, not yet closing the distance between the two of them. as she was getting ready for the next ‘attack’, miyoung felt her heart sinking when she found out that he was in a relationship. however, the feeling faded away as fast as it came by because she wasn’t the type of girl to care about things like those. or so she tried to fool herself that she didn’t. “you’re saying that as if you think that it would affect my actions, as if you don’t know what my job is.” miyoung spoke in such a naive tone that did not fit the meaning of her words, bringing a hand up to place her palm on his wrist.

to be honest, he wasn’t surprised that miyoung was being so courageous when it came to interacting with him. therefore, he was able to maintain his composure and not say anything. the proximity had no effect on him and his gaze was simply directed down at her, eager to see what she had in mind. a laughter had built up and finally managed to escape at her reply, slightly shaking his head to himself. the other hand reached to grab hers only to remove her palm from his wrist. “listen, i know what you do for a living and i know how good you are at it.” he paused, merely to mess around with her. this was one of those moments when some of his true colors were showing, but the good influence of his girlfriend had an effect on him. “but that wasn’t about you, it was about me. i don’t care what you’re gonna do, but let me tell you that it won’t be mutual.”

[selcncs-blog]

“ i just don’t understand how we aren’t allowed to have dogs in this goddamn apartment but my neighbor literally has this huge lizard pet- i think it was called a gecko ? a dragon perhaps not sure but anyway - ! i didn’t know he owns one ‘til today ? he woke me up from my nap and asked me if i saw a lizard around and before i could answer no- he barged in and said that the thing is up on my wall and i was so lost and confused and my soul almost left my body when i saw it because WHAT THE FUCK – i don’t even know how that thing got inside ??? i don’t feel safe anymore.” maia let out a deep sigh, she knows she’s probably being dramatic right now but that’s what she feels. “i….. tell me again how exotic animals are allowed in this building and not normal pets like uh, dogs ? ”

[ftjesse]

it was refreshing for jesse to have someone else aside from his band members to talk in english with since it was the language that he was ‘comfy’ with. as much as he enjoyed it, he found it quite amusing what kind of conversation the two of them were having.”lizards don’t bark, maia.” jesse continued to scroll through his instagram feed while still paying attention to one of the funniest stories that his friend had ever shared. “if you want a dog so badly, you can either sneak one in or just move to a place where you’re allowed to have ‘em. it ain’t that hard.” jesse offered honest advice and he hoped for her to choose the first option despite the risks that it would imply, strictly for his entertainment.

[ftjesse]

doveshiim:

   how easy it was to shut the world out whenever she blinded by his smile. all she could see, feel, hear, and think about was jesse. momentairly worried her about her what the state of her studies would be once school started again now that she had him to herself. though concern didn’t last long as his playful teasing brought about faux disappointment in the form of a pout. “have you always been this mean? it was cute..” she defended her words before playful disappointed morphed into playful irritation and she was lightly slapping her hands across his chest. “aren’t you suppose to be saying cute things to me? making me feel love cherished and honored? it’s our first day!” she reminded trying her best to keep tone serious but laughter was soon slipping out just as easy as it always had when she was with him. but it came to abrupt stop at the mention of songs created because of her. face falling in shock as she stared at him in silence. “are you joking with me right now? did you really..– which songs? and i swear if you say i want head i’m going to break up with you right now.” that was a lie, of course. but curiosity was already beginning to drive her insane. how many songs had he shared with her that she thought was about someone else? how many nights did she stay up listening to the tracks over and over and trying to piece together who he could be singing about? how many of those tracks was it her own face she was trying to put to the lyrics? “yeah yeah, we’ll do all that but first tell me what songs?” she nodded as her hands tightened around his.

now, jesse didn’t have to pretend anymore. he didn’t have to pretend that her pout or any of her actions had an effect on him. before, he had to keep a blank face or just come up with some type of excuse as to why he was actually smiling to anything that she would do. therefore, he could laugh freely now at her playful reactions without having to worry. “i had to keep quiet before.” as serious as he tried to make himself seem like, jesse was simply laughing as dove was going on about the things he was supposed to do as they were finally together. jesse never thought that he would manage to call himself ‘dove’s boyfriend’, but to say that he was enjoying it would have been an understatement. “i’m taking you on top of this building, i think i am doing just enough!” jesse was obviously joking, though he tried to maintain a straight face at the mention of all the songs he had written about her. he was planing on keeping the truth undisclosed, partly because he liked to have some kind of mystery around his work, but mainly because he wanted to see how much she could go without having a certain answer from him. not to anyone’s surprise, his plan came down crumbling when dove brought up the song he had written out of boredom and he couldn’t help himself. “guess it was great while it lasted then!” now, jesse managed to remain firm and not show any kind of emotion. he remembered all the moment when he would be writing a song about her while dove was spending time with him at the studio and the memories only fueled his amusement, but he stood still. however, he began to walk as they still held hands, guiding her to the kitchen without saying any other word.

[ftjesse]

zvyr:

BOLD what applies to your muse.

PLACE IN SOCIETY

financial: wealthy / moderate / poor / in poverty.

medical: fit / moderate / sickly / disabled / disadvantaged.

class or caste: upper / upper-middle /  middle / working / slave / unsure.

education: qualified / unqualified / studying.

criminal record: yes, for major crimes / yes, for minor crimes / no.

FAMILY

married - happily / married - unhappily / engaged or betrothed / partnered / single / divorced / separated.

has a child or children / has no children / wants children.  

close with sibling(s) / not close with sibling(s) / has no siblings / sibling(s) is deceased.

orphaned / adopted / disowned / raised by birth parent(s).

TRAITS + TENDENCIES

extroverted / introverted / in between.

disorganized / organized / in between.

close minded / open-minded  / in between.

calm / anxious / in between.

disagreeable / agreeable / in between.

cautious / reckless / in between.

patient / impatient / in between.

outspoken / reserved / in between.

leader / follower / in between.

empathetic / unemphatic / in between.

optimistic / pessimistic / in between.

traditional / modern / in between.

hard-working / lazy / in between.

cultured / uncultured / in between

loyal / disloyal / in between.

faithful / unfaithful / unknown.

BELIEFS

monotheist / polytheist / atheist / agnostic.

belief in ghosts or spirits: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care.

belief in an afterlife: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care.

belief in reincarnation: yes / no / don’t know / don’t care.

belief in aliens: yes  / no / don’t know / don’t care.

religious: orthodox / liberal / in between / not religious.

philosophical: yes / no.

OPINIONS

pro-choice / anti-abortion /  doesn’t know or on the fence.

pro-marriage / anti-marriage / doesn’t know or on the fence.

pro-death penalty / anti-death penalty  / doesn’t know or on the fence.

pro-drug legislation / anti-drug legislation / doesn’t know or on the fence.

left wing / right wing / middle / doesn’t know or on the fence.

SEXUALITY + ROMANTIC INCLINATION

heterosexual / homosexual / bisexual / asexual / pansexual.

sex repulsed / sex neutral / sex favourable.

romance repulsed / romance neutral / romance favourable.

sexually: adventurous / experienced / naive / inexperienced / curious.

potential sexual partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all.

potential romantic partners: male / female / agender / other / none / all.

ABILITIES

combat skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none.

literacy skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

artistic skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none

technical skills: excellent / good / moderate / poor / none.

HABITS

drinking alcohol: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

smoking: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

other narcotics: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

medicinal drugs: never / sometimes  / frequently / to excess.

indulgent food: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

splurge spending: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

gambling: never / sometimes / frequently / to excess.

[ftjesse]

seojngmi:

“it’s crazy how i found you here and excited for what’s in store for you,” jangmi smiled, nodding slowly at his statement. “i haven’t traveled to los angeles and i was beginning to wonder if you guys had new music. thankfully, i don’t have to cross the globe to listen to your music now.” she added, shoving her hands into her jacket pocket. jangmi laughed at his words, replying, “i don’t have to run across airports now so i would love to get some coffee!”

“we just decided on a whim that we should try our luck here as well!” jesse shared the detail regarding his band’s decision to move to south korea. upon hearing that she had agreed, he began to a walk in the direction of a nearby coffee shop. “well, we will be leaving in about a week or so for a lil us tour and i will be back here after three weeks, i think? i don’t know for sure, but our focus is definitely south korea now. i guess you’re lucky?” the man joked as he showed her a polite but friendlier smile this time.

[hynvwoo-deactivated20180718]

“your nonsense is aging me quicker than anything a cream could fight against.” hyunwoo muttered out with faux stress lacing his tone. “jaeshin please control yourself.” their lives rarely crossed paths and had been this way since childhood. as hyunwoo was older than jaeshin and the two were raised on different continents the only thing that linked them was blood. their fathers both men who weren’t fit to raise families must have passed these genes on to them right? hyunwoo tried his best not to reflect on the things that hurt him. yet, as he looked at the only blood relative he had contact with he couldn’t help but crave a cigarette. “what’s your newest tattoo and how bad is it?” he asked curiously as he dug a crumpled up cigarette from the bottom of his bag. “the last one i got was a gravestone with my name on it so, strong competition little cousin.” @ftjesse

[ftjesse]

“can’t you just witch yourself younger?” jesse replied with hints of playfulness, but would soon roll his eyes at the sound of his korean name. no one ever called him that, except for his grandparents and hyunwoo. aside from their blood connection and daddy issues, the two of them seemed to have a common vice as well. cigarette resting between his lips and moving accordingly as he spoke, jesse was still surprised that he was halfway done with it as he was much quicker when it came to smoking. “ooh, sweet! but i'm gonna win this time around!” jesse pulled the hem of his shirt down with his index and middle finger pulling the cloth away to reveal a dove holding an olive branch in its beak, gaze fixed on his cousin as he tried not to sketch any reaction himself. “clever, ain’t it?”