2 Month Update.
My 2 month mark was on the 16th of March, so I'm doing this 4 days late. I apologize AGAIN for slacking off on the blog. It was because my skin didn't show any signs of progressing or regressing, it sort of just plateaued in the state that it was in and stayed stagnant like that. I'm happy it didn't get worse, but it could always be better eh? Anyways, how am I feeling?
A tad nervous. Past couple days my skin has begun to 'ooze' a bit on my face. Not as heavily as before, and not to the point where the skin broke and left oozing scars, but I did feel some sort of liquid during the flare ups. I'm not sure if it's ooze or if it's the 'water' people talk about on the forum that they seem to experience. They know it's not sweat, but they do feel some type of liquid or water on the surface of the skin that leaks through. I don't know man, TSW is weird, disgusting, and interesting all at the same time.
Speaking of this weird water experience, my dad (while helping me itch my back because he pities me) said that there felt like there was water on my back. There ya have it. I can officially cross that symptom off my TSW experience list.
As for sleep? What is sleep? No seriously, a few weeks ago, I was able to get out of the insomnia phase and resume a semi-normal sleeping schedule. I was so happy, I was able to get in 6-8 hours a night like a regular person. What does TSW think of that a few weeks later? NO. And now I have insomnia again. I can only fall asleep a few hours after the sun comes up. Which isn't all too bad, considering I get to enjoy the silence, and wallow in my thoughts. But now that I have insomnia, I fear the night. I become nervous, I dread it. Mostly because the lack of sleep really takes a toll on you mentally, and it's so hard to deal with that and flareups and the reality of TSW at the same time, but also because it's so hard to do this alone. During the day when everyone's awake, I have people to talk to, to crack jokes with, to accompany myself with their being and just take my mind away from this reality. But when the night comes, I have to deal with whatever comes by my lone self. I think it's emotional scarring too. TSW usually comes alive in the night, and alot of pain seeps through because you know you've done this so many times. Anyways, that's TSW and sleep for you.
Eyes. My eyes are acting up again. I'm not a hundred percent positive if I have a condition (my ophthalmologist doesn't seem to know either) but I'm 99% positive it has something to do with topical steroids. It's an evil drug I tell you. My eyes become red and itchy, and they seem to have flare ups and flare periods of their own just like my skin does. They usually only itch at night, and one week it'll be itchy, and another week it won't. I have an appointment tomorrow so I'm going to fill my doctor in on what I'm going through and see if she has anything to say.
The rest of my body's skin is doing pretty well also. Apart from my face, my hands and wrists seem to be the second worst part of my body. and even then they are doing pretty well. I'll need to focus on some body pictures so you can compare those too. I think moisturizer withdrawal has really helped me along. I don't know for sure, but that's what I feel.
I'm tired because I popped a benadryl (need to sleep to get up early tomorrow for my doctor's appointment) so I'm going to wrap up this post right here, right now. I'm going to make more text posts more often just so you guys (and future me) can get an insight as to how I'm feeling and stuff. I love blogs they're like a personal diary. Ciao you beautiful creature.