AINTNOSUNSHINE

Hey stranger.... your looking at a dead man walking !

[maalintahraama]

you don’t have to be soft if you don’t want to // 18.5.2017

[fuckallyallagain]

https://chaturbate.com/perkygirlss/ https://chaturbate.com/perkygirlss/

[c-ptsdofficial]

yeah occasionally i will throw “tantrums” but guess what? those tantrums aren’t my choice. those tantrums are the product of sensory overload. those tantrums are my body’s way of saying that it can’t deal anymore

[opiatesandspeed]

Never enough dope.

[hollywoodpooksnation-blog]

Amen to that

[inner]

Stop expecting loyalty from people who can’t even give you honesty.

(via inner)

[so-many-porn-gifs]

Spoof, dope, crank, creep, bomb, spank, shit, bang, zip, tweak, shard. Call it what you will; it’s all methamphetamine. That’s what I’m here for.

Ross (Spun)

[lsd-something-something]

[loviely]

I’m literally tired of myself

[bulbrat-deactivated20210704]

I want to get drunk or high or die

[drugs-and-cigarettes-s]

I love watching That 70’s show when I get high

[bulbrat-deactivated20210704]

I want to get drunk or high or die

[0n-your-knees-deactivated201805]

Drugs saved my life

Let me tell you something about drugs. I had two 96 count bottles of diphenhydramine in my hand ready to start swallowing two at a time so I would keep them down and not instantly vomit them up when my neighbor stopped by to check on me. I told him my story. About how I almost lost everything today. My family. My home. My life. He then offered me up two percocet and told me to take them. That I’d feel better. And I did. Then I did. So don’t tell me anything about drug users being bad people or wasted potential or problematic to society. I was standing on the ledge with one foot hanging over the abyss and drugs brought everything spinning back into focus and I could breathe again. Drugs saved me yet again. It’s that simple. I’m still here tonight because drugs gave me enough of a glimpse of what happiness feels like that I was willing to stay. Drugs made everything warm and fuzzy and worth experiencing. You can call it a drug problem or drug abuse or even addiction but at the end of the day I’m still here. Drugs kept me when I had lost all hope. I’m going to be a drug user for the rest of my life. A life that did not end tonight.

So if you’re struggling and alone just know we all cope in our own ways and there is nothing bad or less valid about using drugs to make life bearable. Stay Strong? More like Stay High. The rest will fall into place.

[fuckallyallagain]

Me: is okay for a few days

Me: oh my god I faked my entire illness I'm just a manipulative monster who pretends to be crazy oh my god I should do something destructive because I hate myself

Me: wait a second

[fuckallyallagain]

Nnnnnnnnnnnnoooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!

[marijuanadrugsmusicart-deactiva]

At least I know I’m good at getting high.

[maegi]

i feel left behind. push aside. shoved under the fucking rug because everyone’s decided i’m either too much to handle, or not good enough to stick around for. too much, not enough… i don’t know what the fuck i am. i wish i could fix myself so people would stay, i wish i could change things so i wouldn’t make everyone angry or disappointed. i wish i could turn myself into the person that other people want me to be.

[fuckallyallagain]

That how I feel all the the time

[babysaraaaa]

[living-amends]