These lines around my wrist prove that I exist.

Derek 30 Networking Harm Reduction Addiction #Nodsquad Forever Belong To Sweet-Despondency Don't be sad when i'm gone.

[sunarinns]

[dontnarcanme]

When the tie isnt the most obvious & you feel like taking a selfie before your "face down in the floor goodnight" shot.

[braaainwaaash]

[dontnarcanme]

I was staying in a hotel & there were 0 forks at the gas station so I had to IMPROVISE.

IMPROVISE. ADAPT. OVERCOME.

[opiatesandspeed]

So an update to my followers

I still want to use every single day most of the day... But I have now graduated from college, moved to the DMV area and found a decent paying job. I am very much alive, I still miss @sweet-despondencyevery single second of every day but I promise it's possible to succeed even with an addiction... I am living proof. Not trying to say it get's easier but you learn how to deal with it and manage it... Also I have distanced myself from anyone I know that can access it... That's my solution. Am I happy? No not really. Am I where I need to be? Far from. Am I making progress? Who the fuck actually even knows.... But i'm attempting to do this for as long as I possibly can until I either succeed and start thinking about drugs less or fail and go back to using... I have never felt so alone and am in a city completely alone. I don't miss my hometown at all but I do wish I had someone I could just lay with and share my thoughts with even in a platonic way but all the girls i've interacted with recently have either just wanted to fuck or have standards that will never be met... idk who the fuck knows... i'm just trying to make it.

Also, fuck you Tumblr for banning the nodsquad page... Tumblr would actively allow hundreds of thousands of people to die each year rather than be educated and have Narcan by their side. But I can't fight with a company that has millions of dollars and is actively making money off of my posts because of the amount of followers I have. So yeah fuck them, fuck them in the ass for monetizing my ideas yet not allowing access to save lives. You fuckers will all burn in hell. And if hell doesn't exist, which idk if it does your life will have negative effects and you will die alone in pain. I'm so exhausted and tired of fighting with these people. Just continue letting people die. That's definitely an educated way of dealing with a problem that is literally killing cities of people every year.

[opiatesandspeed]

Someone on Bluelight was asking about y'all a few years ago. Did you see it? I can't link to the thread but if you add the bluelight url before you this will you can find it (or search it I guess) /community/threads/nodsquad-network-members-who-are-now-gone.845848/

I'm still here and have been clean for several years. I have tried numerous times to fight with tumblr to get the officialnodsquad page back but they don't want to let me access it anymore. Idk... It's so exhausting. I fucking hate what tumblr has turned into. This used to be a way to express yourself no matter what you chose to do in your personal life... Now everything has to be PC, while hundreds of thousands of people die each year. I will never forgive tumblr for what they have done. I wanted to start a way to get narcan to people who needed it and tumblr is more concerned with pushing the drug blogs completely out of the search results and this era of like banning others and shit needs to stop because people are fucking dying every minute and it's like no one even cares.

[opiatesandspeed]

I was 16 wen she died. I had followed her for years before she passed. I had my own substance issues at the time. I had overdosed several times by then. I'm 25 now. I havnt used in years. Im in grad school now. When I read she died I stopped using hard drugs. Now I havnt used anything in years. She was the reason. I recently redownloaded tumblr and remembered it all. She was why I'm still alive. I wish she was too.

Please come off of anon and message me. This would make me feel so much better to know that her death wasn't in vein. I promise I won't reveal your identity.

[opiatesandspeed]

Where did all the opiate/heroin/opioid blogs go?

Did tumblr actually shut all them down? I had to fight to get mine back.

[opiatesandspeed]

US 2025

[the-lowz-of-highz]

[cyberxbattalion]

[opiatesandspeed]

Is anyone awake?

Bored and would like to talk to someone :)

[officialnodsquad0]

So i'm sure this won't work... but...

well tumblr, the asshats that they are deleted the officialnodsquad blog and i'm trying to put it back together but it is going to take an enormous effort and a shitload of time that I don't have... If anyone is interested in helping me dm me at opiatesandspeed.tumblr.com

If enough people want it back i'll put the effort into it, if not I guess i'll have to let my goal of having everyone on here use safely and stop OD'ing die... fuck you tumblr

[booooooooooooring]

[t0x-sic]

[sickgirlrainie]

These rainbow blues sucked but they matched my aesthetic

[officialnodsquad0]

These pressed oxys are dangerous as fuck... Please be careful with them. A lot of them are pressed with fentanyl but some are pressed with other as dangerous or even more dangerous than fentanyl... You should not be glorifying this. These are a cancer.

[opiatesandspeed]