backup fuck my life roxi is right about everything

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

I was supposed to come here, find a toy just someone.. to have sex with, to get away from the real world and pretend it wasn’t shit out there, and then this, you and Avery come along.. and just… you ruined everything.

I’m not supposed to care about either of you!

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I'm sorry... 

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

  D-don’t say that *he said as he looked at her finally, pain in his eyes* It’s not supposed to be like this.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

*wipes her eyes, looking back at him* How is it supposed to be?

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

  I’m not good for you, I’ll just break you’re heart.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

That's okay... it's yours to break.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

Then go dammit, I make you so damn miserable, just fucking go! *he said, his voice rising* It won’t change things.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I don't want to go anywhere! I want to stay with you! I worship you, why don't you see that? I'm not... I don't expect it to change anything. Not everything has an ulterior motive, Daddy. 

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[eatonwestwood-blog]

  It’ll get better hun 

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I hope so...

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

No instead you wish you were fucking dead! Or that you wished I never claimed you! *he just closed his eyes* You aren’t falling in love with me, so stop, you just think you are because I’m taking care of you.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I DO! *shakes her head* That's not true... I'm not asking you to love me back.. I'm just telling you.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[eatonwestwood-blog]

  Well.. you did disobey to see someone your owner thinks you care about.. it doesn’t look good..

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I know... 

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

  I was angry, of course I’m going to say that! Didn’t know what, you love him, so don’t try to say you love me to get yourself out of trouble.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

WHY IS THAT YOUR GO TO THING TO SAY WHEN YOU'RE ANGRY? You were mad, so you say you don't want to keep me? I would never say something like that... *frowns, shaking her head* I didn't know that I was falling in love with you. And I would never tell you I love you to get out of trouble, I don't lie about my feelings, Stephen. 

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[eatonwestwood-blog]

  So… if he’s not a part of your life why is your owner so sure he is?

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

Because he doesn't believe me. And because... I wasn't allowed to see him but then something scary happened and I went to him for help... but it wasn't the way Daddy thought...

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

Miss Avery?

[avery-dawt]

Um… what?

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I'm sorry... *looks down* It's just for a week...

Please don't be mad at me...

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

I said I want you to learn, that I need to trust you and that things need to get better. *Flinching he takes a step back* Don’t lie, you said just before you did, you love him, you can’t love me.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

No. You didn't. You said you don't want me and that you only keep me because Avery wants me. I heard you... *hugs herself tight when he moves away* I didn't know...

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[eatonwestwood-blog]

  But what about you’re last owner, where’s he fall into this?

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

He can't fall anywhere... he... he doesn't belong in my life. Hopefully... if Daddy keeps me, then eventually I can be his friend and not have to lose him completely. But for right now, there's no room. 

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

  I never said that! *Freezes and stares at her* Don’t.. you love Rylan, not me.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

Yes you did, I heard you! *turns red and shakes her head* N-No...

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

  You just told me you wanted to die, am I supposed to be fucking happy. 

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

No... but I... you don't even want me, why does it matter? *shakes her head* I'm falling in love with you and you don't even see it! And if you do, you don't care.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[eatonwestwood-blog]

  Does he know?

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I don't know... I haven't told him, but I think it's obvious. I don't want him to freak out.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

Miss Avery?

[avery-dawt]

Yeah princess.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

 D- *takes a deep breath* Stephen said that you're my new owner. 

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

I never noticed how hard of a time I have being alone...

[indulgvnce]

Clearly you know me Caragh *he spat out. Glaring at her he shook his head* I’m going for a walk.

[fuckingbackupforcaragh-blog]

*takes a shaky breath, confused* No wait... w-what just happened... I don't understand why you're s-so mad...