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Rino (now Shin) and Sizuki are back in a new band!

ヴァージュ -Virge-

Vocal：遼-ryo- Guitar：紫月-sizuki- Bass：沁-shin-

1st Mini album 「UTOPIA」 trailer:  https://youtu.be/aRDEsvdtJOQ

Ohp: http://virge-web.com/ Official Twitter: https://twitter.com/virge_official

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Hibari’s Instagram: 

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Respire lyrics - Romaji & English translation

暗く怖い　その先　私に哀れみを Kuraku kowai   sono saki   watashi ni awaremi wo この世界が壊れてしまえば救われるのに Kono sekai ga kowareteshimaeba sukuwareru no ni 指でなぞるように　優しくそっと Yubi de nazoru youni   yasashiku sotto 誰もいない　導いてほしい Daremo inai　michibiite hoshii

何も見えず　その先には　私が望む自由？ Nanimo miezu   sono saki ni wa   watashi ga nozomu jiyuu ? この世界が壊れてしまえば救えるのに Kono sekai ga kowareteshimaeba sukueru no ni 息をするように　嘘をそっと Iki wo suru youni   uso wo sotto 重ねてよ　あの時のまま Kasanete yo   ano toki no mama

始まることの意味を Hajimaru koto no imi wo 繰り返されざる悪夢に Kurikaesarezaru akumu ni

僅かに見えた光　黒と為りて Wazuka ni mieta hikari   kuro to narite 抗う事すらも　許されず　今革命の歌　響かせましょう Aragau koto sura mo   yurusarezu   ima kakumei no uta   hibikasemashou 真紅の交わり　散りゆく運命を笑うがいいわ Shinku no majiwari　chiriyuku sadame wo warau ga ii wa 嗚呼何故？何故？ Aa naze ? naze ? 終わりを告げる　産声を Owari wo tsugeru　ubugoe wo

不平等なこの世を何度も恨み Fubyoudou na kono yo wo nandomo urami 無力な私が願い続けたのは安息の園 Muryoku na watashi ga negaitsuzuketa no wa ansoku no sono

息をするように　嘘をねぇ　そっと Iki wo suru youni   uso wo nee   sotto 重ねてよ　あの時のように Kasanete yo   ano toki no youni

さぁ今宵は最後の舞踏曲を踊るの Saa koyoi wa saigo no butoukyoku wo odoru no

「汝在るべき場所へ。動き始めた秒針は世界を狂わす。手を取り合い共に行こう。」 「Nanji arubeki basho he. Ugokihajimeta byoushin wa sekai wo kuruwasu. Te wo toriai tomo ni ikou. 」

見えた光　黒と消えて Mieta hikari   kuro to kiete 抗う事すらも　許されず　今覚醒の歌　響かせましょう Aragau koto sura mo   yurusarezu   ima kakusei no uta   hibikasemashou 終わりの始まり　新たな鼓動に祈りを捧げ Owari no hajimari   aratana kodou ni inori wo sasage 嗚呼何故？何故？ Aa naze ? naze ? 終わりを告げる「　」 Owari wo tsugeru「　」

It’s dark and scary, but beyond that, give me mercy If the world falls apart, I could be saved As if you were tracing it with your fingers, gently, softly when there's no one, I want you to lead

I can’t see anything, but does the freedom I wished for lie beyond that? If the world falls apart, I could be saved Tell me lies as you breathe, gently pile them up, like you used to

The meaning of the beginning is in a nightmare that should not be repeated

The light I barely saw, turns to black Let's make the song of revolution echo, any denial will be unforgiven Crimson intersection; it's alright to laugh at the scattering fate Ah, why? Why? Let’s hear the first cry that marks the end

I cursed this unfair world countless times Being helpless as I was, I continued to wish for the garden of repose

Lie as you breathe, gently pile them up, like that one time

Well then, tonight we will dance to the last song

"I will take You to the place where You belong. The second hand of the clock that has started to move deranges the world. Hand in hand, we shall go."

The light I saw has faded to black Let's make the song of revolution echo, any denial will be unforgiven Beginning of the end; Offer your prayers to the new heartbeat Ah, why? Why? Marks the end

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葬 (Sou) lyrics - Romaji & English translation

謝ｘ論外　洗脳ｘ後悔　嫌ｘ嘔吐  Shaｘrongai    sennouｘkoukai    iyaｘouto

 殺された　殺されたまま  Korosareta   korosareta mama  殺された　殺されたまま  Korosareta   korosareta mama

 頭のネジが足りない  Atama no neji ga tarinai  所詮自慰主義者  Shosen onanist  その空っぽな頭で  Sono karappo na atama de  押し付けないでよ  Oshitsukenaide yo

 繰り返される過ち  Kurikaesareru ayamachi  導く答えは  Michibiku kotae wa  空しいほどに… 笑え…  Munashii hodo ni… warae…  木霊するお前達の声が呼び掛ける  Kodama suru omaetachi no koe ga yobikakeru  「アレでもない　コレでもなくて」  「Are de mo nai   kore de mo nakute」

 乱された　乱されたまま  Midasareta   midasareta mama  乱された　乱されたまま  Midasareta   midasareta mama

 上手く話せないみたい  Umaku hanasenai mitai  所詮利己主義者  Shosen egoist  その空っぽな頭で  Sono karappo na atama de  考えてみてよ  Kangaetemite yo

 繰り返される過ち  Kurikaesareru ayamachi  導く答えは  Michibiku kotae wa  空しいほどに… 笑え…  Munashii hodo ni… warae…

 繰り返しては0ｘ疑心  Kurikaeshite wa zero gishin  導く明日は  Michibiku ashita wa  悲しいほどに… 笑え…  Kanashii hodo ni… warae…  木霊するお前達の声に回答を  Kodama suru omaetachi no koe ni kotae wo  「問=ｘ　コレではなくて」  「Toi wa kakeru   kore de wa nakute」

Apology x out of the question, brainwash x regret, unpleasant x vomiting

Killed, remains killed killed, remains killed

You have a screw loose You are an onanist after all Don't put too much pressure on that empty head of yours

Same mistakes over and over again The guiding answer is vacant, to the point its laughable Your echoing voices call out "Not this, not that"

Disturbed, remains disturbed Disturbed, remains disturbed

It seems like you can't talk very well You are an egoist after all Try thinking with that empty head of yours

Same mistakes over and over again the guiding answer is vacant, to the point its laughable

If you repeat it, there's gonna be zero doubt The leading tomorrow is Miserable, to the point it's laughable The response to your echoing voices "Asking a question, this won’t do either"

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真昼の月 (Mahiru no tsuki) lyrics - Romaji & English translation

 望まれない産声を上げて  Nozamarenai ubugoe wo agete  目まぐるしく変わる時代を生きました  Memagurushiku kawaru toki wo ikimashita  瞼の奥渦まいた景色はとても綺麗  Mabuta no oku uzumaita keshiki wa totemo kirei  だけど何か足りないと知った  Dakedo nanika tarinai to shitta

 近付く足音　耳を塞ぐ  Chikazuku ashioto   mimi wo fusagu  悲しい目をして夕日を見てたんだ  Kanashii me wo shite yuuhi wo mitetanda  綺麗に赤く赤く染まっていく街並み  Kirei ni akaku akaku somatteiku machinami  誰もいない世界で呼吸をしたい  Daremo inai sekai de iki wo shitai

 人混みに押しつぶされては  Hitogomi ni oshitsubusarete wa  自分を見失っていくんだ  Jibun wo miushinatteikunda  このままどこか遠くへと流され  Kono mama dokoka tooku he to nagasare  誰も思い出せないくらいになってしまえばいい  Daremo omoidasenai kurai ni natteshimaeba ii

 この世の全てを恨んでもね  Kono yo no subete wo urandemo ne  何も変わらないことはわかってるよ  Nanimo kawaranai koto wa wakatteru yo  笑い方忘れた  Waraikata wasureta  心無き人だと呼ばれても構わないからさ  Kokoronaki hito da to yobaretemo kamawanai kara sa

 苦しい苦しい　こんなにも  Kurushii kurushii   konnanimo  苦しい苦しい　涙すら出ない  Kurushii kurushii   namida sura denai

 昼間は僕の全てをうつして  Hiruma wa boku no subete wo utsushite  真夜中なら真実を隠せるんだ  Mayonaka nara shinjitsu wo kakuserunda

 息をする事すら忘れられたのなら  Iki wo suru koto sura wasurerareta no nara  なんで覚えてるの？記憶から消して  Nande oboeteru no ? kioku kara keshite  目まぐるしく変わる時代を生きてました  Memagurushiku kawaru toki wo ikitemashita  息苦しい　こんな世界「嫌、イヤ。」  Ikigurushii   konna sekai「iya、iya。」

 言えなくて  Ienakute  弱さが邪魔ばかりする  Yowasa ga jama bakari suru

 この世の全てを　恨んでもね  Kono yo no subete wo　urandemo ne  なにも変わらない　そうでしょ？  Nanimo kawaranai　sou desho ?

After letting out the unwanted first cry, The ages I lived through changed rapidly Behind the eyelids, the whirling view is really beautiful but I knew something was lacking

Approaching footsteps, I cover my ears With sad eyes, I was watching the sunset It charmingly painted the street more and more red I want to breathe in a world without people

Being crushed in the crowd I began to lose sight of myself I wish I could be swept somewhere far away so far everyone forgets about me

Even if I hold a grudge against the whole world I know, nothing will change I forgot how to laugh because I don't even mind if people call me heartless

Painful, painful, this is awfully painful painful, even my tears won't come out

The daytime reflects everything but when it's nighttime, I'm able to hide the truth

If even the fact that I'm breathing was forgotten, Why do I still remember? Make it disappear from my memory The ages I lived through changed rapidly  Such a world is stifling, "Unpleasant, disgusting."

I can't say it, the weakness just gets in my way

Even if I hold a grudge against the whole world nothing changes. Isn't that right?

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Delusion lyrics - Romaji & English translation

 錆びた籠の中で朧げな日々は -彩りを無くし-  Sabita kago no naka de oboroge na hibi wa -irodori wo nakushi-  もう私の声は誰にも届かない  Mou watashi no koe wa darenimo todokanai  嘆いて　刻んだ愛を  Nageite   kizanda ai wo

 焼き付いて何度も甦る　記憶  Yakitsuite nandomo yomigaeru   kioku  掌　感触はまだ君を覚えているよ  Tenohira   kanshoku wa mada kimi wo oboeteiru yo  近付く程に何故？遠ざかる  Chikazuku hodo ni naze ? Toozakaru  隠れた疑惑が抉るように　心蝕む  Kakureta giwaku ga eguru youni   kokoro mushibamu

 焼き付いて何度も甦る　記憶  Yakitsuite nandomo yomigaeru   kioku  孤独の庭でまだ君を待ち続けているよ  Kodoku no niwa de mada kimi wo machitsuzuketeiru yo  近付いてよもっと傍に  Chikazuite yo motto soba ni  僅かな光を断ち切らぬように　天仰ぐ  Wazuka na hikari wo tachikiranu youni   tenaogu

 我が想い砕け散れば  Wa ga omoi kudakechireba  ひらひらと  Hirahira to  虚無の花が咲く  Kyomu no hana ga saku

 錆びた籠の中で朧げな日々は -彩りを無くして-  Sabita kago no naka de oboroge na hibi wa -irodori wo nakushite-  もう私の声は誰にも届かない  Mou watashi no koe wa darenimo todokanai  嘆いて　刻んだ愛を  Nageite   kizanda ai wo

 近付く程に何故？遠ざかる  Chikazuku hodo ni naze ? Toozakaru  沈むように堕ちていく人魚と黒鳥  Shizumu youni ochiteiku ningyo to kokuchou

 奈落の底　扉が開く　力なく君の名を呼び続け  Naraku no soko    tobira ga hiraku   chikara naku kimi no na wo yobitsuzuke  ミツケタモノハ　キミトハヨベナイヨウダ  Mitsuketa mono wa 　　kimi to wa yobenai you da

 錆びた籠の中で朧げな日々は　彩りを無くして  Sabita kago no naka de oboroge na hibi wa   irodori wo nakushite  もう私の声は誰にも届かない  Mou watashi no koe wa darenimo todokanai  嘆いて　嘆いて　嘆いて  Nageite   nageite   nageite

 感じ合う事すらもできないんだね  Kanjiau koto sura mo dekinainda ne  最愛の君は壊れていく  Saiai no kimi wa kowareteiku  一瞬の光は塵となって風に舞う  Isshun no hikari wa chiri to natte kaze ni mau  残された両足の無い黒鳥  Nokosareta ryouashi no nai kokuchou

Inside this rusty cage, dim days come and go -losing their color- My voice doesn't reach anyone anymore Grieving, this chopped up love

Seared into my memory and got revived many times This hand still remembers your touch How could we get closer? You are getting further away Hidden distrust gouges me, my heart is rotten

Seared into my memory and got revived many times In the garden of loneliness I'm still waiting for you Come closer, next to me I wish that little light wouldn't get blocked as I look up to the sky

If my emotions break into pieces fluttering to the ground the flower of nothingness will bloom

Inside this rusty cage, dim days come and go -losing their color- My voice doesn't reach anyone anymore Grieving, this chopped up love

How could we get closer? You're getting further away The mermaid and the black swan fell as if they were sinking

Bottomless pit, the gates open up,  weakly, I keep calling your name but the thing I found was nothing like you

Inside this rusty cage, dim days come and go -losing their color- My voice doesn't reach anyone anymore Grieving, Grieving, Grieving

We can't even feel the same, right? You, my beloved, started to break A moment of light has turned to dust and is dancing in the wind All that's left behind is the black swan without it's legs

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剥離 (Hakuri) lyrics - Romaji & English translation

血で描く悲しき憂鬱に Chi de egaku kanashiki yuuutsu ni 目を背け逃げ惑う姿は無様 Me wo somuke nigemadou sugata wa buzama いくら吐き出せばいいのですか？ Ikura hakidaseba ii no desu ka ? 簡単に壊れてしまったんだ Kantan ni kowareteshimattanda

罪の意識はなく… Tsumi no ishiki wa naku…

鏡に写るお前の面影に吐き気を覚えては Kagami ni utsuru omae no omokage ni hakike wo oboete wa 噎せ返るような罪と罰 Musekaeru youna tsumi to batsu 残されていたのは二人の「　」 Nokosareteita no wa futari no「　」¹ 孤独の浴槽へ Kodoku no yokusou he

罪の意識はなく… Tsumi no ishiki wa naku…

剥がれ落ちる化けの皮 Hagareochiru bake no kawa 偽善者の仮面をさぁ被ろう Gizensha no kamen wo saa kaburou お前が望んだ自由の下　俺は生き続けて Omae ga nozonda jiyuu no moto   ore wa ikitsuzukete 苦しんでもがく姿を見て笑えばいいさ Kurushinde mogaku sugata wo mite waraeba ii sa くだらないね　それさえも Kudaranai ne   sore sae mo それさえも全て壊してしまいたい Sore sae mo subete kowashite shimaitai 朽ちて果ててくれそのまま Kuchite hatetekure sono mama 俺の知らぬ世界で Ore no shiranu sekai de

From the sad melancholy that was painted with blood this ungrateful figure turns away and tries to run and escape How much is okay to spew out? I ended up broken easily

You are not aware of the guilt...

Whenever I remember the nausea caused by glimpses of your reflection in the mirror It's choking me like guilt and punishment All that you two left behind is your [ ¹ ] In the bathtub of loneliness

You are not aware of the guilt...

Your disguise is falling off Let's tear off the mask of hypocrisy now, shall we? Under the freedom you wished for, I countinued to live At the sight of struggling and suffering it's okay to laugh It's absurd, isn't it? Even that Even that, I want to destroy all of it As you made me, decayed and exhausted, In my own world that I don't know

¹ They didn’t write it in the booklet but he sings 幼子 “osanago” which means child/baby

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Unripe Ideal lyrics - Romaji & English translation

 漠然　目の前の世界に  Bakuzen   me no mae no sekai ni  流され　壊れ行く自己暗示  Nagasare   kowareyuku jikoanji  唐突　突き付けられた未来  Toutotsu   tsukitsukerareta mirai  Why not?　儚く散る涙の…  Why not?   Hakanaku chiru namida no…

 今では消えて静かに眠る  Ima de wa kiete shizuka ni nemuru  涙　重ねまた涙  Namida   kasane mata namida    傷付け合いながらも見い出したその生きる術  Kizutsukeainagara mo miidashita sono ikiru sube

 あの日の君は無垢なままで  Ano hi no kimi wa muku na mama de

 共に溺れよう  Tomoni obereyou  快楽の海へ  Kairaku no umi he  幼きあの子にさようなら  Osanaki ano ko ni sayounara  目を閉じ　泳ぎ方知らず夢現  Me wo toji   oyogikata shirazu yume utsutsu  息すらできず　そう… ゆっくりと  Iki sura dekizu   sou… yukkuri to

 たゆたふ理想  Tayutafu risou  悦を溢して  Etsu wo koboshite  たゆたふ理想  Tayutafu risou  影を潜めた  Kage wo hisometa

 綺麗に羽ばたく蝶は  Kirei ni habataku chou wa  月灯かり誘う方へ    Tsukiakari sasou hou he  羽もがれ色を無くす  Hane mogare iro wo nakusu  蛹へ還る  Sanagi he kaeru

 感じとる世界は違っても  Kanjitoru sekai wa chigattemo  退屈な空は今日もいたずらに君を笑う  Taikutsu na sora wa kyou mo itazura ni kimi wo warau  「臆病な人」と  「okubyou na hito」to

 共に溺れよう  Tomoni obereyou  快楽の海へ  Kairaku no umi he  幼きあの子にさようなら  Osanaki ano ko ni sayounara  泳ぎ方知らず夢現  Oyogikata shirazu yume utsutsu  息すらできず　そう…    Iki sura dekizu   sou…

 紺碧の園へ　そう…深く  Konpeki no sono he   sou… fukaku  どこまでも身を委ね  Dokomademo mi wo yudane  行きましょう  Ikimashou  色褪せぬ想いと共に  Iroasenu omoi to tomoni

This vague world in front of my eyes washes away, the broken self-suggestion Suddenly, the future got confronted Why not? Ephemeral tears are falling...

Disappear into the now, and sleep quietly Tears flow over tears While being hurt, we found the way to live

That day, while you stayed innocent

we drown together in the sea of pleasure Goodbye to that immature child Closing your eyes, in trance not knowing how to swim You can't even breathe, there... slowly

Vacillating ideal Spilled pleasure vacillating ideal Hid a shadow

Butterflies beautifully fluttering In the direction of the inviting moonlight Losing their wings and their color they return to the chrysalis

Even if the world you feel is different Today as well, the tedious sky is laughing at you in vain "cowardly people"

Let's drown together in the sea of pleasure saying goodbye to the immature child In trance, not knowing how to swim You can't even breathe

Into the deep-blue garden  there... deeply Surrendering until the end Let's go along with these feelings that never fade

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Aru’s twitter:

https://twitter.com/a_r_u_dr

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Hibari’s twitter:

https://twitter.com/hibarisend

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Shizuki’s blog entry [2016.10.10.]

It's been around 1 week since MALISEND ended

Lobelias, everyone involved, thank you so much for coming to our last live.

I'm spending my days having mixed feelings "It has already ended" "Has it really ended?"

Empty days

I spent these 2 years thinking about MALISEND, no matter what I was doing

It wasn't all just fun and joy but anything we did was something new

Day by day I fell in love with music

At first I had thoughts like: “Songs like this are so MALISEND-like” “MALISEND has to be like this”

but in the end I was able to think that it's only MALISEND if WE created it

The reason why I was able to think that is because you followed us as long as we stayed the MALISEND we are

At fun times we laughed,

at sad times we cried.

That's what music is, in my opinion.

The stage is where we can express our thoughts.

With that being said, the last live, it was really fun so we smiled a lot but also it was really sad so we had tears rolling down our face

The songs we, this band made express feelings we don't express normally. Feelings we kept hidden from others were made into songs.

And thanks to that, we saved ourselves.

If I think about that it's already over, that the place I could unleash my feelings doesn't exist anymore

I'm really really sad

Everyday I met the members face-to-face when we stood on stage everyone was there

With these members who are cooler than everyone, and with you all, who are cooler than everyone

we created MALISEND.

Really truly it was the place where I belonged

We couldn't see the end of that dream we painted for ourselves at the beginning but

I think in this band, we could find something that's really important.

First live

first release

first shusai event

first oneman

first instore event

first time receiving beautiful flowers

first time going outside Tokyo

Anything we did was a first It would be too many to list here

Thank you for these irreplaceable memories

These 2 years will never ever fade

If MALISEND could stay in your heart too without fading, I would be really happy

Thank you for everything

I hope we can meet again through music

Thank you very very much for loving MALISEND

[Original blog entry: http://ameblo.jp/msed-official/entry-12208157382.html]

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Hibari’s blog entry [2016.10.08.]

Good evening Good day Good morning

I guess this is the last blog I'm writing as MALISEND's Hibari

First of all,

I'm kind of late but, thank you for your hard work at our oneman.

I said this a lot, in the video, at the venue etc. but

2016.10.2.

Ikebukuro BlackHole

Thank you for choosing to see us on that day at that place.

I wonder how did each of your eyes and heart reflect that scenery.

I can say this without hesitation,

this was by far the best live we've ever had.

Not just in regards of playing

and worldview

I think this was the live when we could be ourselves the most.

You could really see who we are as plain as it gets, and I think the things we wanted to let you know could reach you.

Now, that MALISEND has ended

there's a hole in my heart

that's how I feel.

I'm not going to the studio weekly as I used to,

I don't meet the members face to face as much as I used to.

However, I spend a lot of time thinking and looking back on the past

So much that it makes me realize again just how many things happened to us as MALISEND in these 2 years.

Really, a lot has happened

It would be too many to even write them here

It wasn't all just happy and fun things

Many hardships, sad and painful things

a lot of things to worry about

There were no such thing as knowing what's correct

We, while we didn't even know what's left and what's right spent these 2 years desperately fumbling after options, one by one filled with doubts while having conflicts each time, thinking and thinking, looking for the correct answer that didn't exist

As 1 band

and as people, we were able to grow. 

I'm really thankful for MALISEND that I could meet these members, the staff, everyone who was involved, and you all Lobelias.

Really, everyone supported me emotionally

Thank you

No matter how much trouble and painful things we went through, seeing your faces at lives I was able to feel relieved and I was able to forget the pain.

"MALISEND is my reason to be alive"

I received words like this.

We made you sad with our disbandment but

living involves pain and sadness too,

not only fun things.

There are times you don't know what to live for or what's the purpose of your life

As for me, when I went through times like those, music and artists saved me, and gave me a reason to live

Therefore

I thought, even if just a little bit, through music and in my own way

I could help you make believe your life is worth living, or help you realize the meaning of your existence, that would be great.

After all, to keep on living or to do anything at all, everything comes down to a decision you make yourself

It's ok to be awkward or to be extremely clumsy

Try to live your life the way you are

If you are alive there will come a time when you will surely understand

once you realize it yourself

you should be able to grow.

I would say, whenever you are going through tough times or have something that bothers you just come to our live,

but I can't say things like that anymore

so just remember our songs and words

in tough times like those.

If you keep us in your heart and your memory forever

I'm happy

Thank you so much for loving MALISEND.

As expected I started sobbing at the oneman

I even made a mistake in my solo since I couldn't see my hand because of the tears! lol

Also I moved so wildly I accidentally hit Rino and the string on his bass snapped! lol (I'm sorry Rino fans)

But either way it's a great memory

Thank you for the best memory

I'm genuinely so glad MALISEND was a thing

I'm grateful for the best encounters I had

Thank you so so soo much

Arrivederci！！！！

MALISEND　

雲雀 -Hibari-

ps. I thought I'm gonna disappear right away in a flash, but now I'm thinking about starting twitter or instagram soon. It's not decided yet so don't get your hopes up lol Since I'm a moody person, please wait patiently

[Original blog entry: http://ameblo.jp/msed-official/entry-12207604780.html]

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Rino’s blog entry [2016.10.06.]

These 2 years were the most eventful 2 years in my life.

Staff, everyone who was involved and you all, Lobelias again

thank you for your hard work.

I'm typing this while trying to understand this empty feeling I have.

1002

I was so nervous, I couldn't really put into words what I wanted to say. Sure enough, I'm bad with words.

After I got off-stage and went back to the dressing room, I couldn't move from the chair

everything became blurry, and I started to black out.

It was a vague feeling.

The SE from the beginning

It was the SE we've been using from our very first start-up live.

It was the first SE we made as MALISEND.

Tons of memories were revived by that.

As the SE started and we headed to the stage, right before we entered we shouted as loud as we could to get into the fighting spirit.

We've never been this fired up before.

In that moment I started to tear up.

And so we headed to the stage

and the scenery of Lobelias spreading from side to side was the best.

It's thanks to your support that we could get this far, but not only yours. Ryou-chan, our staffmember, our hair and make up artist. Other people involved. We were supported by a lot of people

We and you, Lobelias, are MALISEND again I thought so.

One day I wrote a dream down on a piece of paper it didn't come true. But regardless of that the bluish-purple traces we left behind, the memory of us, - for the last time I'm being selfish but - I hope they will live on in your hearts forever

Thank you for following this withered MALISEND until the very end

Thank you for all the letters, flowers and gifts

Thank you for the time we've spent together

Thank you for listening to our songs

Thank you for smiling until the end

and thank you for loving MALISEND!

The best members and the best lobelias.

I was truly happy

I will love you all forever

We're gonna sleep a little now

I wish this dream wouldn't fade, the dream we never wake up from.

璃乃 -Rino-

[Original blog entry: http://ameblo.jp/msed-official/entry-12207164040.html]

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Yu-ki’s blog entry [2016.10.06.]

10/2. On this day MALISEND has ended.

After our shusai event on 8/28, we had an empty month and then came the last live. Until the very last moment, I wished this day would never come.

I don't even know how many times I was crying while talking to my senpai bandmen about how much I don't want this disbandment.

Hell-bent. Clumsy. We worked hard in our own way. We set a major goal for ourselves and aiming towards that we forced our way through everything.

Before this, I haven’t done my best in singing, but MALISEND made me realize that, and I tried to change my mindset. If I haven't met these members, singing would've just been fun and nothing more.

Ever since we made the decision to disband, I wasn't able to sing like myself and we had a lot of confilcts. The lyrics I write always have bad endings to them, showing that the world doesn't consist of only good things.

If there's a beginning, there's an end.

Maybe the things I liked continue to live on in my memory.

Right now, I feel empty, rather than accomplished. I lost everything.

I wonder what should I live for after this? What should I sing for?

For myself? For the people who support me? I don't even know anymore.

Hey, I would like to meet you all. The members. Lobelias. Everyone who was involved with MALISEND.

Let me sleep a little

Thank you

[Original blog entry: http://ameblo.jp/msed-official/entry-12206905143.html]