I was going to post this on my main blog, but stupid daily post limit idek how long this is gonna last it's almost 1am. BUT OKAY HEY JASON IF YOU ARE GONNA SIT AND READ THIS THEN COME TALK TO ME ON MY MAIN BLOG I'LL LINK IT AT THE BOTTOM OF THE READ MORE. This might be a strange post idek. But please read if you want to.
So basically, a lot happened to me today involving two guys from my past who I had come to distance myself from because of how bad my life was when I was with those two guys. The first one was that one friend we all always seem to have who just has to lie about everything to impress you and he would always do that and it drove me crazy, I am living alone until Tuesday next while my sister's in Africa and I was feeling kinda lonely. I have to look after her puppy and I have my cats, but I just wanted someone to talk to. I still had this old friend of mine on facebook, so I asked him if he could come round (I mentioned 'some time in the week' but he came round straight away) and we ended up chillin' together and snuggling up on the sofa while sweat the small stuff was on, and it was kinda nice. But he went outside for a cigarette like every five minutes... And I mean weed. It kinda made me uncomfortable I don't know, I can't normally stand it when people smoke ordinary cigarette's but he was high as tits.
Then my ex decided to add me back on facebook and twitter, just randomly. He kept apologising for all the things that he'd done wrong in the past, now this guy, was a total dick. He hurt me in ways that were so bad I don't even wanna tell you, but I will so you know okay basically I went to him telling him how suicidal I was and he told me that I needed to grow up because I was immature to be thinking about suicide, that was when I dumped him. On top of that, HE was also smoking weed and being a total dick toward me. I don't know what to do anymore and I don't even know why I'm telling you, I think it's either 1. I could really use some advice like what do I do, should I continue to associate with these people or should I just blank them out again? Or it's 2. I am so sick of attracting the wrong friends who always hurt me and I want someone to be my friend who won't go around smoking weed, doing drugs or whatever else. I just want someone who would be quite happy to sit around watching Disney films (or supernatural) with me while drinking monster or something I don't know, the guy I was with tonight told me that he hates Disney and I almost cried, HOW CAN SOMEBODY HATE DISNEY?! This was the weird part by the way, me wanting to just be friends with you and hang out and have nice adventures I mean I do love being inside just chillin' in a fort of cushions and blankets, but I do also love being outside and going to parks or w/e for fun times :) None of my friends from the past did both, they would go to the park but they would... Well, ya know, the whole "get high" thing, you can have fun without doing that, they all thought I was boring for not doing it 0_0
I mean, I know nothing about you personally, but I feel like you wouldn't care if I wanted to sit on the sofa piled in blankets and clean washed socks (don't ask I did that when I was little apparently) and wanted to watch Disney films or cheesy TV shows with them all night rather than going out and getting high. I don't know, I mean you might even go out and do that I mean like I said I don't know you in person, but I feel like you're more the first one who also goes out and has fun the RIGHT way like parties with alcohol (that's okay haha) and all the tree-climbing and stuff that you do, that's my idea of fun!
I'm just blabbering on now, I don't even think there's a point. No okay the point is Jason, if you are in fact a fun (I think we all know that already) sweet, caring, Disney-loving, blanket-fort building (that's a check) guy in real life then you need to be my new best friend. Please? I want a friend like that for a change who won't judge me for not wanting to go out and get high. Ya know what I want? Someone who won't moan at me when I say "let's go to the park!" And they reply with "oh my god grow up" um how about no. Okay thanks for reading Jason, if you did! Um... let's be friends irl. Get a train to my city it probably isn't that far. Though it probably is I don't know. I love you. I'll stop now. I need sleep.
So yeah, you can come chat to me on my main blog now if you want to, maybe we can be friends. This is how I managed to befriend Damon and Christian and Christian is gonna be here in England soon so success let's be friends.
Wow I sound really weird....
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