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Few ramblings.

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Back for rant - Bad Choices

So rather annoyingly i'm in a position now where just as my life is starting, all the doors are closing. 

I've just completed my two year course in graphic design - Extended Diploma; D,M,M - as an alternative to A-Levels. I was assured that this was a legitimate option, that equalled A-level qualifications, yet its only now that I discover, just how ill-informed i was. 

I decided not to apply for uni because I felt a break was needed, but of course, theres only a short span of time where you can actually apply to university for the next year. So, as one does, I've already began looking into university options. Its virtually impossible to move into academia without A-levels. Every option rejects alternative qualifications, and the saddest thing is that they will not even consider them. 

Essentially, I would like to move into Art History and Archaeology, but even universities who accept Btec qualifications, only accept D*,D*,D*, sometimes D,D,M, but will allow A-Levels of A,B,B. 

I'm not annoyed at them for putting the mark so high, I'm merely annoyed at the fact I was not told that in the end, my two years at college would be wasted. I can only move onto courses that are vocational, not academic. Why did no one bloody tell me. I'm at a loss.

Yes, there are numerous other options; I could just take this next year to do an A-level, and ultimately fall behind people even further. Currently, I am vexed to hell, that no one once said, actually, a lot of your options will be severely narrowed down, because you did a practical course.

If I had known that I was stuck in a rather hopeless position, I would have persevered with A-Levels, but as it was, I wanted a change, and was fixed on the arts. 

What really gets to me is that next to no Art History courses will accept an art based vocational qualification, purely because history is theoretical - yet I spent two years building up a thick folder of contextual research, most of which was historical research. My last project was solely based on medieval book techniques, and produced in such a way. 

Fuck it; this is my conclusion. Just don't fucking do btecs, or anything like that. Do your A-Levels first, then narrow it down. Otherwise, you're fully fucked - like me. 

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I haven't done ANYTHING on this recently. I actually don't have much to talk about either.

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..meta therapy!

So I've realised that by writing things on this I've unwillingly forgotten them. Which is good, because it means thinking less while waiting for sleep. 

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Reasons for socialism and such

(Concerning the photos, be up on flickr soon)

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So I've been pondering why people criticise other people political views. Personally, I would consider myself to be a Socialist, and somewhat a Republican - I just feel the monarchy serves no purpose, also I'd like to think countries should be allowed independence. But then, I know I would be criticised for having these views, as technically, I was never brought up in a background that naturally supports Socialism. In other words, my family is middle class and I'll not deny that to some degree we do indulge in this. So from this position, people would probably assume that I simply feel sorry for the classes below me, and I'd like to come across as a very merciful, generous person. Absolutely not.

Theres no guarantee that my future life will be as comfortable, and in fact my parents never came from a good background either. My descendants were.. on majority, coal miners. The difference is that they made a life for themselves. But as I said, my future is uncertain; jobs are sparse, wages are low and the standard for any job is rising.

It sickens me almost.. I know humans are capable of adapting, but soon the stragglers will be left behind. They already are left behind. 

So where will I go. Currently, all I can think off is travelling, It completely blinds me, I'm so obsessed by the idea I can't even write a cv. Or am I just making excuses for myself? In my head, I know I am but a year a way from be able to travel, and that means I can escape politics, and forget - even for a short while. All I need is a passport and money. But there I am again, where do I get the money from?  A job. A non-existant job. And why are there no jobs? well thats debatable, but you could put it down to the government making cuts. But they have to do it somewhere, otherwise the economy shall not grow. So who do I blame. 

I have nothing. Everything I own, everything I eat, sleep on and dress in isn't at the least bit mine. It was bought with the money my parents worked so hard for. So thats my reasoning to be a socialist. If suddenly one day I returned from college to a blank space where my home and family once was, I would have nothing. It's not because I feel sorry for the other classes, it's because in reality I'm no better off than the next person. 

Otherwise, I despise corporation, it's thoroughly disgusting and nothing but high up men and women considering schemes that get more money but have a friendly façade. There's rarely a decent corporation around. 

I watched the new Batman film the other day, and for anyone who knows the Batman films, we see Gotham for the fifth-hundredth time being gradually thrown over by an opposing force. We all love a good baddy, and Bane certainly is one. But there came a point in the film where I felt he was doing the right thing. He said he was giving Gotham back to the people, ridding it of its oppressive forces... I know his intention was a bad one but I really felt like at the end of these films, its not the 'good' side that wins, its the corporate one. The big top people. And of course Gotham carries on in complete, submissive harmony. 

To me it also feels that womens rights are still entirely ignored. Not so much in Britain, but in many countries in Europe. I don't know the situation in the Americas, but I do know that women are still oppressed on this side for many reasons. It's upsetting to think that women are still domesticated and thought of as inferior, incapable beings; forced to abort,  abandon and murder their own children, please their husbands as demanded and endure dominance that obliterates their freedom to think, wear and live as they would wish. 

Currently there is a trial going on determining the sentence of Russian female punk band named Pussy Riot. Three of the women arrested were all respectable women, fighting for the rights for women and other such causes. The arrests were made after a demonstration against Russias recently re-elected president, Vladimir Putin. Though Putin said the women were not to be judged too harshly, his remark came shortly after a visit to London, where he would presumably be immersed within westernised politicians. Many of the opposition in the court, including the judge, seem set on ensuring the women get a lengthy sentence. I feel the fate of the three women has already been pre determined. 

So yeah. Just defending my reasoning, of course this could completely be me trying to justify my sympathetic feelings, but I'm positive this is what I believe. Though I could easily become right winged if I really wanted, this is not way I was morally brought up.

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Photo sh-o-o-t!!

Excited, photographing two of my friends tomorrow, s'gonna be a good day. Two themes; modern and classy, might add another, bit of a mish mash. 

Photos soon :)

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Gonna post something soon

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Swans.

Sort of following my post on the London Olympics.

I ranted a bit about the Royal family, then realised I might as well make this a post of its own.

So! My (brief) thoughts on being British.

Honestly, its peasantry, any attempt to make the British feel quintessential works. We eat it up. We like to think we're united, that we're a relentless force of morale that pushes out the treacherous unbelievers. I can't tell you how much dismay I met when I expressed the fact I thought the royal family should be at a dissolution.  

It's complete sycophancy. You know the blue bloods drain the taxes and do little for you, and they will never acknowledge you.

You know that, should a war come about, it will be them under the shelters, when so many years prior, they would be leading the battle.  It feels like the boost of morale we had from the end of the war never quite diminished, instead it lingered, into a façade...can anyone really justify the need for the Royal Family, a REAL purpose?

People seem to be on the ledge of expectancy, thinking that they can pull us out of the recession, or a slowly corrupting government. Yet theres nothing they can do. Nothing.  

Her Majesty owns the Swans.  

(For people who can't understand the last sentence, heres a hint. Its a metaphor of my own.)

She owns the Swans. But they're just swans right? No one can really own a wild bird, thats just not fair. Even by law.

She may own them, but they can do as they wish, settle where ever they want, eat as much as they like. But she OWNS them.

Notice yet the similarities..between you and the swans? 

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Again, I apologize

I know I've made a fair few spelling mistakes in my posts. 

I'm not dyslexic, I simply have to get my ideas down as quick as possible, or in half an hour i'll be kicking myself for this one golden nugget I've forgotten about.

And after I've finished my post, I haven't got the patience to correct everything. I become bored of what I've written because I know someone else has probably already written it, and written it to a higher standard. 

Also, it shows how much I depend on the little green and red lines to show up. Awful. 

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If you hate it, do it anyway.

(I'm sorry about spelling mistakes)

The Olympic torch passed through my town yesterday, and I didn't feel the least bit compelled to go and witness its passing. Now I'm sitting here wishing I had. 

Even though I knew that the next time London hosts the olympics I'd probably be in my 60's, I just felt that seeing it would be pointless. 

An experience is only an experience when you have all the emotional connections, and its never the same if you have to share it with hundreds of other people. I know this because of how I felt going on holiday, and how dull the Leaning Tower of Pisa felt. ( Gigs being an exception). So seeing the torch seemed pointless - to me, it would only have been a worthwhile experience if it was just me, and I could see the torch, hold it, run with it. I knew that wasn't going to happen, and I'm not sad about it. 

But here I am, sat wishing, that actually despite the fact I hate contrived events, that seemingly make the nation feel united, I wish I had seen it. Instead, 60/70 odd years down the line, I'll be telling my grandchildren how bitter and sarcastic I was as a teenager, and how I decided not to go out it the sweltering heat and witness this sporadic event in my hometown.  

Then again, maybe I'll be trying to educate them out of those kind of things. Who knows. 

The olympics have been terribly organised, its all gone to pot. But my point is, even if you hate events like this - like me - just go. For the sake of it. Just go. Especially if you have nothing else to do. If the people annoy you, if its a worthless, unemotional experience. Even if you think like a metathinker. Just go. It'll give you something to talk about. 

Personally, though I hate these kind of things, because everyone seems fall for this 'united nation' thing, I wish I had gone, it might have been alright...might have been some free coke. 

To me, its a shoddy attempt to make the tax payers think they're money has gone into something they're part of. Though they never go to see the games, because they can't afford the tickets. Though they really have no involvement, and they will never benefit, they love the feeling of being part of it all. 

Boring, boring, boring. 

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One thing I want to say to people who are considering increasing their ability to become more self aware, is that is dangerous and conflicts with a lot of lifes aspects.

If you can properly harness it, it can be very useful.

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Lucid dreaming is one way of creating self awareness, and though this is a good way of combatting nightmares, you must remember that dreaming is a state of weak sleep, in fact you aren't really getting sleep when dreaming. If you're especially superstitious or impressionable, I wouldn't recommend lucid dreaming. 

But i'm not an expert. 

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Just found a paper from Kruger and Dunning; will read over the next few days and re-analyse my previous post.

Fantastically funny paper I must say...It is in all reasons, a serious paper, study and all. 

Its just funny because it applies to so many people. It might even apply to me; its possible I'm just being big headed, and as a lot of people may say, I'm too young to really understand..  Am I?

It is a paper on metacognition, named:

"Unskilled and Unaware of It: How Difficulties in recognising One's own incompetence lead to inflated self assessments"

Theres plenty of downloadable pdfs on the internet should you be interested :) 

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Meta-Thinking

I've been researching this for literally 5 minutes, so more on it soon.

For now, I came across an article that focuses on the importance of enouraging the development of Metacognition in children.

Its good, and its bad. 

Metacognition is taught and used for all sorts, and yes I would agree that encouraging metacognition to children will help them in their learning curve, and help identify their morals in any given situation.

One thing thats always got my noggin going, is how people who murder could lacks the morals to see what their doing is wrong. Maybe thats down to the fact they arent Meta-thinkers? Maybe they were never taught morals, or maybe they were but were stuck in a state where they couldnt think outside themselves? 

But meta-thinkers on the internet seem to say that metacognition to a certain extent is only exclusive to some of us, that only some of us can really think about thinking. 

So potentially, a lot of people could be murders, had they been driven to it. 

For a while i've been suffering with sleepless nights, and I can put it down to three things;

I often have made myself go to bed late. No matter how tired I am, I spend up to at least two hours every night analysing things, no matter how trivial they are. I fidget, its ocd and i constantly scratch my wrists and my elbows.

I've looked into compulsive scratching and nothing on the internet shows other than people who self harm, and thats not what I do. And going to bed late is generally something I would consider a lot of teenagers to do. 

But thinking is different, and I hadn't thought to look it up. I'd been to the doctors and councillor, and every time I've been told that the reason I can't sleep is because I had too much energy, and that I had to analyse my problems while I wasn't in bed. But they aren't problems, they're everyday things, even stuff like my wisdom teeth are finally coming through. Even if i did think about them while I was out of bed, they'd still come back up into my mind while I was in bed. Its like every night I have a conversation with myself. 

Imagine you're talking to your friends, and you talk for hours. During an awkward silence someone nearly always says  "how did we get from this subject to that subject?". Thats what its like when I try to sleep, I end up from A to Z, and think god how did that happen, and continue to think about it. 

(I babble about my own experience so...conclusions down the page a bit if you'd rather)

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In fact its put some real pressure on me, in terms of experience. Faced with someone I like, it will cause me to change. I'll refuse to eat something that makes too much noise or looks silly. I'll not do anything that to me seems embarrassing, or ridiculous. Even sitting on a swing, and I'll refuse to say select words that I would otherwise say. My problem is that I'll imagine myself doing it, and have a preempt feeling that its wrong.. even though a lot of people would think that as being fine. 

Faced with someone who has higher authority than me, I'll end up in situations that I find embarrassing, and this will cause me to over analyse that situation. I'll try to change that situation in my head until it doesn't seem too bad. 

I actually think this applies to a lot of people, not just meta-thinkers. But there are a few things that I feel I cannot accept, that other people can.

Commitment is a big issue, not only with hobbies, but in relationships too. I'll not go into that because its very personal. 

New experiences are also an issue, and sometimes I will jump in. I can say that anyone who's met me, and thought I was loud, or forward...its a façade. I've been told so many time when I was younger that I was quiet, and I didn't partake. It was pressed into me, that for some reason, being quiet and not partaking was morally wrong, even though I know it isnt. I'm naturally still like that, but to keep myself from feeling guilty, I'll try my hardest to push through and be louder than normal. 

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So back to the point.. 

The way I think about new experiences causes me to try and avoid such things. Because I imagine myself in those situations, and I will basically think about how I think; how I would feel at the time, and what the consequences are of that, and how I could possibly have got there, and what will the people sharing the same experience think, and do they realise what they are doing. 

Then this takes me back to my education in primary school. Are all of the people in my class meta-thinkers?  Or is it just a few of us? And if so, why was it drilled into me so hard, to think about thinking. It helped me gradually become more self aware, and yes I would say it has corrected mistaken morals. But its been overdone, and now metacognition has taken over nearly every aspect of my life, and jumping into new situations is near on impossible without trying to first find an answer which doesn't exist.

Unfortunately, meta-thinking is an addiction almost, and though I would like to break free from it, I can't..because I like it. To me, it feels like being more self aware makes me smarter, and more powerful in my analysis... however much it restricts my life, I  choose not to let it go.

It's lead me to think about what events in my life have caused me to be like this. But here I am again, thinking. What if this level of meta-thinking is natural to me and some others, maybe metacognition should be encouraged anyway, and there will always be some who just naturally over-develop it.

I'm not meaning to talk about this like its some kind of rare talent. Im not. If anything its a kind of curse.

I've been in situations where my whole mood will change down to one little moment that doesnt matter.

Just the other day, I was looking at my birthday money. Real cash in my hands, and plenty of it. I looked at it for a while, trying to work out how this is making me feel, and good it does feel. Then I realised it was dictating my mood, even my life. Then I thought about all the other people, rich and poor, who's lives really are dictated by money. And everyones life is. Everyone. I just don't realise it yet because I have the support of my parents. But where would you be without that money? It controls everything about you; your morals most specifically. 

But how many people would rather ignore that, and live happily as a consumer? I know I would.. 

And now this leads me to the conclusion that metacognition should be left to come naturally, and leave it to the parents and guardians. 

It will leave some people morally corrupt, and some morally correct. The morally correct can then be sub-divided; some who live as a happy consumer of life, and some who think about every decision, and may or may not be happy.

And there will be some who's level of self awareness is completely non-existant, but they will be the happiest of all, as they say...ignorance is bliss. 

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Spooky video, crazy good vocals from Tamara, sick beat from Spectrasoul as usual. 

Listen :) 

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Shortish rant about people who purposely try to come across as quirky.

It annoys me when people purposely try to be weird and quirky. There are some people out there who are genuinely weird. I consider myself blessed to have met one such person, and she really was something to behold. Despite the fact her homelife was hard, and she was restricted from doing a lot of things, she was the happiest person ever.

When I looked at her, and her attitude towards life, nothing got her down, she was ever happy and it was clear she never batted an eye towards people who judged her. Yeah, she was ignorant, but as they say, ignorance is bliss, and boy, how many people would give good money to live in her head. 

As I was saying, I hate people who try to be a little different, but end up being the same as everyone else. Yes, I am referring to hipsters. You literally are all the same, striving to break away from the group but finding yourself in another clique. Constantly I see people reblog images of maps saying 'lets travel', or one lined lyrics from the Smiths. Its all the same, and I find a lot of people are in disbelief that they are entirely different from the rest of society. 

I want to make it clear to people who think they are one in a million. Everyone has their own little world in their head. Everyone has their favourite place. Everyone has their favourite hobby, and there will always be someone better than you.

Really quirky people are hard to come across, this girl was 1 in about 500 that i'd met. Thats a lot when you think about it.

People always nick ideas from other people and label it as their own. That really gets on my nerves. Theres nothing I can do about it, I have to live with it. But why can't other people live with the fact they were never born with a strange idea of life. They steal others identities, their ideas, their techniques. 

I was watching a programme called American Nomads; basically a documentary on the many different people who have chosen a life of travel. They have wanderlust, and are willing to face the troubling factors of this just so they can be free. How I envy them. If i could pick up and leave right now, I would love to. But theres so much keeping me here, and I know I couldn't give up the family I love, the area I know, and all the luxuries that come with it. I am grateful of what I have.

But I do consider myself to have wanderlust and theres times where I will get upset because I think, that place I want to go to, its there, right now, and I could just go there, right now. Right Now. But theres limitations, legally and financially. I can't explain this properly because theres a lot attached to it. Briefly though; I went on holiday last year to Gallicano in Tuscany. I was there for two weeks, and when I came home I had feeling similar to homesick. I'm going back this year and I can't tell you how excited I am. I fell in love with Italy - partly due down to how much I played Assassins Creed - and this has led me to the decision of taking a gap year out in Italy next year. 

I don't plan to go to the tourist attractions. To me, when I saw the Leaning Tower of Pisa, it was sort of like...so what. It's not as impressive when you have to share it with everyone else. It looses its pazzaz. To me, Gallicano was a mile more amazing that the tower, than the art. Florence was the same, it was disappointing, especially when all I could hear was an abundance of American accents talking about the general facts of Florence. No offence to Americans, you're very nice people, but I can only handle you in small...very small quantities. 

I would sincerely love to live a life as a Nomad, and maybe it will lead to that. But for now I have to do what the government wants me to do, and get an education. 

As I was saying before I went off on a tangent; people who pretend to be quirky, or have wanderlust yet have no actual intention of quenching it, really get on my nerves. Its like making a promise that you know you can't keep.  

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Music: ( A babble post mostly).

(This post will most likely not make sense, and not be in sync. Its just a rant, with bad spellings and grammar.) 

I can't imagine a world without music, and I find it even harder to imagine someone who doesn't listen to it in one form or another. But what annoys me is when other people slander another's music taste.

I've been listening to drum and bass for just over 3 years, and its the only genre I've stuck to thoroughly, and whenever someone criticised me about it, I would get very protective. I then swiftly came to the decision to lecture anyone who puts people down about their music taste.  

 The next bit is basically how I came to discover new music. If you'd rather just skip to the conclusion, scroll down a bit.

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When I was 11, I'd got a new ipod shuffle, and before I left for school I stuck a load of music on from my itunes. When I got to school, two girls who I barely knew asked if they could listen, so I gave it them and started to get really panicked. They danced sarcastically, and I coughed up excuses like 'this isn't my ipod', 'its my friends music', 'I would never listen to this' etc etc.  After that I was terribly afraid to share my music taste, and to be honest, I didn't really have one. From what I remember it was mostly artists like Moby, songs from the Eurovision song contest, and a little bit of Gatecrasher. 

It evolved over the years, and I got really into the whole Japan scene, and started listening to music from anime, and artists like Utada Hikaru. 

About the time when Halo 3 was released I was really psyched, and this will become clear. The night after I'd watched the trailer I found my brothers ipod and started listening to it. I came across one song that absolutely blew my mind. It was a piece of drum and bass, though I had no idea. Specifically, it was Mistabishi's - No matter what. It seemed to fit really well with the whole psyched feeling I had for the release of Halo, and thats how I remember it. I'd like to class it as one of my favourite memories, but even then I was still scared to share my thoughts.

Though I loved that song more than any other music at the time, I was never compelled to look into it, and it wasn't till about two or three years later when I actually discovered drum and bass. My friend introduced me to the hospital records podcast and the shogun audio podcast. At first I was head over heels in love, and gradually it worked its way into my life. I was listening to one particular podcast where they played a familiar sound, and the talk over it mentioned someone called Mistabishi. I was really thrilled, I can't explain why really, I just knew I'd found the genre I so loved. 

I was under the impression for a year that apart from Mistabishi, this was the first lot of dnb I'd ever heard. So I began listening to fairly typical, in your ear kind of dnb, like Camo & Krooked, Mistabishi, Danny Byrd etc etc. (I know they aren't typical producers, they are definitely unique, but its the only way I can describe it). 

Actually I realised I'd been listening to similar genres for a very long time, people like Pendulum, Sub Focus, High Contrast, even Burial. 

Gradually I learnt of sub genres, and started listening to music from Lenzman, SPY, Spectrasoul, Dbridge, Alix Perez, Calibre, Total Science, Breakage and Marcus Intalex. Im sure theres more, but you get the picture. These artists are definitely the most outstanding in my mind, and I've never gone off them quite like I have with Camo and Krooked. 

During the winter months I continually returned to artists like Unquote, Blu Mar Ten, Nu:Tone, Thinnen, Bop...Generally the Russian dnb scene - with the exception of Blu Mar Ten and Nu:tone. Anyway, without fail I have been listening to these lot every winter, and come to summer months I unwillingly start to listen to more anthem type music. 

In the summer months I pretty much, accidentally look into new genres that branch off dnb. Recently I've been listening to garage, artists like Mosca and Todd Terry. Not only that but electronic soul?  I guess you'd call it that. I just want to say right now that - Jenna G is possibly the most amazing singer ever, as well as Natalie Williams, Riya and Elsa Esmerelda -  So yeah, soul music. B traits, Alix Perez, sometimes Lenzman kind of fall into that category, I've not searched it out enough. 

ANYYWAAAYYYYY. It was a long long time before I finally spoke out to defend my music taste and I have to say dnb has made me much cockier. I'm fiercely defensive of it, and the number of people who have cussed it has experienced a good shouting down. I have to say, I am in complete belief that I have a good taste in music. I'm not saying other people don't at all, I love a lot of different music. 

I had an experience once in my electronics class twoish years ago which changed my attitude to keeping quiet about my music. Our tutor was out of the class, and we decided to play some music on the speakers. We set it up so that we all chose our own song. One guy put on Bring Me The Horizon, and of course there were mutters of disgust. But what really got to me was that one guy stood up, and said, "This is really sh*t. No no, seriously, this is sh*t". And it really upset me, because I knew how it must have felt to have your music taste completely slandered like that. I didn't speak up, but after that I couldn't let similar comments go unchallenged. 

Not long ago in college we did a similar thing, and though our class is small, there is a huge diversity. Everyone is completely unique in this class, and we all have very different music tastes.  So I put subwave on and suddenly I had the odd person telling me it was terrible, and I needed to turn it off. I got really angry, turned round to one of the people and shouted a lot of stuff I don't remember. I'd say mostly I was lecturing in how its not that persons place to determine my music taste, and how their music taste was entirely different, and if they think they can do better come on up. I knew this person favoured chart music, which a lot of the other class wasn't keen on. 

From what I know, music does have an affect on peoples emotions and to put someone down about it can really hurt. As silly as it sounds. 

The only way I can justify such a put down is for generic, bad production valued music, because that stuff really is bad. I don't mean chart music at all. Though a lot of artists in the charts fall into this generic category, they aren't the only ones. For a while dnb artist Netsky used the same snares, the same tempo, the same riff in a lot of his songs. Chase and Status made some awful music after their grime years, and Camo and Krooked have began to churn out some real crap. 

I don't feel like I've done enough to describe how I feel about the music I love, and I know for sure I've missed a lot out, but...its as brief as I can make it. Yep, that was brief. 

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So in conclusion, unless you can justify the reasons why music is bad, don't put someone down about it. Or if you are going to, at least encourage them to justify their reasons for liking it. 

For myself, I suppose some of my favourite artists are the sort of trio/duo Blu Mar Ten, Unquote, Lenzman, Spectrasoul, Calibre, Burial, Mosca, Pretty much everyone I mentioned in this post :) 

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Burial

Not really a review, or an article of any kind, i've just been doing research Burial. Liked him for maybe..3/4 years now, never known anything other of him than his music, and a pixilated picture on his myspace.

The guardian had an article on him;

http://www.guardian.co.uk/music/2007/oct/26/urban

My favourite part was the last two paragraphs, which sums up his music perfectly. 

Whether or not Burial has realised it, he's achieved what he wanted to convey.

So what is the mood of Untrue? What was Burial doing while he thought about how it should be made? He sums it up: "I would sit around waiting for night to fall, wait for summer to end. Or I would go out, wait for it to get dark, and then I'd go back and work on it, sort of hypnotise myself. I love that feeling when you know that almost everyone in your city is asleep, or you go out and listen to your tunes in someone's car at night. It's like hibernating.

"When I'm awake all night, sometimes I see the people and the city waking up around me. I feel a little bit moody at them for stepping into my night-time. What I want is that feeling when you're in the rain, or a storm. It's a shiver at the edge of your mind, an atmosphere of hearing a sad, distant sound, but it seems closer - like it's just for you. Like hearing rain or a whale-song, a cry in the dark, the far cry."

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ilomilo

Ooh! also for anyone with a windows phone, buy Ilomilo! Very worthwhile, really fun, challenging, the atmosphere of it is just...joyful :)  Get it! 

You can also get it on xbox live :)