current landmark of like body + mind purification came two nights ago when i vomited on floor and realized how clean the muck looked. like an elephants shit, like earthy and healthy, like you could fertilize a farm with it.
vomited on the floor and it smelled like hummus. and i hadn't had hummus in a good six months. and it made it crave hummus, and i bought garbanzos and lemon and made hummus and ate the hummus thinking of my vomit on my floor and it didn't turn me off it at all.
vomited on the floor and felt like that scene in infinite jest where the scottish man shits a solid shit for the first time since alcoholism and rejoices at the sanctity of a one whole log of shit.












