little lost girl.

[fvkeleanor-blog]

fmk-ferris, nate, juan borgia

F: juan borgia because why not, he’s just as much of a bitchbaby as aiakos.M: ferris, i’ll get to annoy him for eternity !K: nate. you were already dead once big bro, i’ll get over it.

[fvkeleanor-blog]

fmk- romy, aiakos, cesare borgia

F: cesare borgia, that’s a given.M: romy because she’s the only person who DOESN’T annoy me.K: aiakos. peace babe, it was nice while it lasted.

[eveninglesbian-deactivated20180]

He filled her up, her whole world, a moon obliterating the light of any other star.

Catherynne M. Valente, Deathless

[aiakcs]

he doesn’t know what he feels antecedent to the other. figures maybe a cluster of everything at once, just as it’s always been. resentment towards the person who threatened her SOLACE, hate for the other that mocked it, and overall helplessness that he wasn’t present to safeguard the girl from either. “ jesus fuckin’ christ, ” he’s whispering into her tresses, grasp tightening where he’s holding her. “ el m’sorry—— the guy’s a dick. i’ll knock some god damn sense into him ‘cause lord KNOWS he doesn’t have any. ”

[fvkeleanor-blog]

digits mindlessly flit along the fabric of his shirt where she knows the butterfly is etched in his skin underneath. “ suppose he’s not WORTH that. i don’t think you could even knock sense into someone like him if you tried. ” she’s taking in a deep breath through flared nostrils. “ i don’t really know why i even brought it up really. ” she does. with the remark came all the guilt she had spent so long suppressing——guilt for leaving for leaving london, leaving HIM. “ i love you, you know that right ? ”

[aiakcs]

there’s a vapour of warmth enveloping his entirety at her utterance. RELATIONSHIP. he’s coaxing her body closer to his and thinks of home, of safety, and, although ephemeral, recovery. digits caricature shapes into her skin and he’s memorizing her face for the spill of graphite on paper. “ christ—— wish i didn’t but ‘course i know that asshole. what about him ? ”

[fvkeleanor-blog]

“ we got into, i don’t know, a bit of an argument. ” teeth sink into her lower lip. she’s treading lightly, mostly for the sake of her own mind. “ it was something he said——he asked me if my dad beat the romantic heart out of me. and OBVIOUSLY he doesn’t know, well, you know. ” memories of her father flash behind closed lids and she’s pulling herself even closer to him in an attempt to drown them out. it never works. “ i shouldn’t even let something he said get to me this much but here we are. ”

[estclles-blog]

“ ugh, i wish mine was like that. i mean i love my grandma, but she’s just too old fashioned and judgmental half the time. yours sounds like she’d be a lot of fun. ah, i totally get that. was she the type to start planning the wedding after the first date ? ” 

[fvkeleanor-blog]

“ don’t get me wrong, she was very judgmental. and getting to hear the life story of literally every teenage boy gets old after awhile. think of the grandmother off gilmore girls——just like that. she was the type to start thinking about names of her future great grandchildren if i’m being honest with you. ”

[aiakcs]

“ el i swear to GOD i’m about three fuckin’ seconds from throwing her out the window. ” his arms embrace her silhouette and anchor his figure sedentary to the bed. pda for the sake of maintaining scratch-free skin was a deal he’d take any day. “ i’ll use up all her nine lives. don’t test me. ”

[fvkeleanor-blog]

“ damn. looking to ruin this relationship that fast, huh ? ” a single eyebrow perks at him momentarily before she’s rolling her eyes. “ children. the BOTH of you. ” the statement is directed towards the cat though it’s returned with nothing more than a lazy blink. shifting in his grasp, an arm drapes over his chest. “ babe, you know that gabe guy right ? the one who loves to go on about how much money he has. ”

[fvkeleanor-blog]

“ you know, i don’t think SHE’S gotten used to you being back. ” irises glaze over to the animal perched atop the cat tree, tail swaying back and forth, her own green eyes narrowed in on the male seated next to her. “ hm, i wonder who will end up throwing the first punch——i put my money on duchess. i’ve seen her with ferris. it’s not pretty. ”

[estclles-blog]

“ my grandmother is so against dating and she still refers to it as courting. she refuses to acknowledge any of her grandkids significant other unless they are married. it’s quite silly, actually. god, i can’t even imagine how awkward that would be. i probably would have done the same. but did you ever see what he looked like? ”

[fvkeleanor-blog]

“ really ? my grandmother was the complete opposite. she WANTED us to date——obviously. she wanted us to marry young and rich. she was a true gem, let me tell you. i did and well, he wasn’t ugly but i wasn’t about to give my grandmother the satisfaction of going out on a date with him. ”

[fvkeleanor-blog]

* ✰. — ELEANOR CALDWELL’S INSTAGRAM.

[adaresaoirse-blog]

snaps :|: open

adare: hop on dis hype!!!! adare: for reals tho idk whos car this is adare: i think i just killed a bird

[fvkeleanor-blog]

eleanor: let me know if you get arrested eleanor: i’ll get a good laugh out of it

[mphgabe-blog]

“ excuse me, little miss madam, but i’m a multimillionaire - that change your perspective any ? i’ll remember that next time you hit me up looking for a gay sugar daddy, don’t worry a bit ! honey, i probably get dicked more than you, and there’s more to life than getting laid. what happened to the hopeless little romantic that lives in the heart of little girls ? did daddy B E A T yours out of house and home ? ” 

[fvkeleanor-blog]

“ not really, no. obviously money doesn’t equal notoriety because i’m still standing here wondering who the HELL you are. let’s not even begin to compare scarlet letters, HONEY. i already know who would lose that fight. it’s funny you think i even need a sugar daddy. and it’s even funnier that you think even if i was a guy, i would hit up someone who uses daddy issues as a comeback. it’s cute. REALLY. but you can kindly fuck off with it around me. thanks, sweetheart. ”

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[drinkt0forget-deactivated202303]

[queensgcmbit]

but this is what she learned from her mother: always run before you get too close, conceal your talons beneath pale pink nails and a honeyed tongue until the moment is right, smile, smile, smile.

steal his heart, but never let him steal yours / i.s.

[451seconds]

Monsters in your head,  Monsters in your heart,  Which will be the first to tear you apart?

H.L. // here’s a secret: it’s always the heart

[entrerisoseolhares]