was I allowed to leave?

It should have been bright and wonderful, but it wasn't. It should have been beautiful, but beauty is, as it always was, and always will be, in the eye of the beholder. Who am I? I'm Tevy Bowen, aren't I? "Hello. I'm Paxa Shay. No photos, please; I'm not feeling that pretty right now. Who are you?" Please don't look too close, please don't say that name, please don't, please don't, please, please, please I don't want to go back. I can't.

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OOC: Hiatus notice!  Basically, I got an ST willing to let me run Tevy in a mixed nWoD game, and I realised that basically this is the wrong format for Tevy.  Have a good day, everyone, and thanks for humouring me. c:

[fxirestdancer]

have you ever thought about finding another interest? something without bad memories attached to it?

"I’ve thought about it oh God above in Heaven, I have.  But in all honesty, that means starting over from the beginning, and oh, I’ve my pride.”

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"they" didn't sour your opinion and view toward dancing at all? you still want to do it even after what you went through? doesn't it have bad memories tied to it now?

"Of course they soured my opinion towards it.  But it’s all I’ve got.  All I’ve ever had, all I may ever have.  But in all honesty—well, a Disney movie said this—the past can hurt, but I can either run from it, or I can learn from it."

[fxirestdancer]

what about dance performances and shows? like ballet and other dances like that that people go to see?

"More attainable, and something I’ve wanted since I was a child.  If I could have, I would have, in a heartbeat."

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did you have dreams of performing on big stages? like musicals and broadway?

"When I was a child, yes.  However, I can’t sing worth a damn, so I doubt it would have been realistic for me."

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if that risk wasn't there would you like it? if there was a chance they couldn't trace the dance back to you?

"In a heartbeat.  Or less.  I’d be saying yes and squealing in joy before someone finished telling me the news."

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do you prefer doing your own dances? would you like to create a dance that becomes recognised and recreated?

"Yes, I do prefer my own dances.  It’s something that’s a mix of allowing me to toggle with what I can, and cannot do."

"—No, probably not.  If I ended up becoming well known due to it, it’d make it easier for them to find me.  I’ll take being unrecognised skill, if it means never going back."

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do you make up your own dances? or do you follow steps of set ones?

"Depends on the situation, in all honesty.  In formal settings, I often tend to follow dances that’ve been established time and time again; tradition is tradition, and I’d rather not confuse my partner midway through a waltz."

"However, when I dance for myself, or for when others are watching, and not participating, I often enjoy creating my own dances.  It’s invigorating, and allows me control."

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Upon being stopped on the streets, John would look up from the local newspaper he held in his hands. He now puts the paper underneath his arms, keeping it there to look at the girl before him.

"Hm, do I?" he teased at first. "Oh, boy. That makes me happy! I wanted to look like him ever since I heard Twist and Shout!" John claps his hands together.

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He's mocking her.  She can tell that from a mile away on a cloudy day.

"I take it you hear that often."  The woman says, face careful composed into a neutral expression.  "It's just something different, for us plain old ordinary folk.  I'm sorry for disturbing you."

She wasn't, not really, but if it meant tactfully taking herself out of the conversation, Tevy'd do it in a heartbeat.

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❝ Paxa is cool!—-i ain’t heard ah’—- ❞

( uh oh—she was getting interested in his little problem, which was really a big problem, and one he didn’t want to talk about. but he didn’t want to be rude and ignore her—what could he do? … he’s going to dance around it with awkward confirmations. that’s what to do. avoid it at all costs. )

❝ …. yeahs….. mhm.. ❞

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"Thank you for the compliment,"  She said gracefully.

Oh, that was an awkward expression had she ever seen one before in her life.  Paxa's lips twitched awkwardly, saying,  "If you don't want to, you don't have to talk about it."  And those words were absolutely true.

"I'm sorry for bringing up something you don't want to talk about."

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do you still like dancing?

"I like to believe I do,"  Tevy said honestly,  "I danced before, and I do still dance now.  It’s merely a matter of telling myself I’m doing it because it’s something I want, as opposed to something I must do.”

"Of course,"  She grave a wry grin,  "I don’t practise for so long my feet bleed and my mind is numb from memorising steps anymore."

[fxirestdancer]

+fxllenstar

Oh, it had been many a year since the woman had found herself in Faerie once more.  And although Tevy is aware of the things that can happen to her--all sorts of Nasty Things exist--she's more enthralled by the magic of places.

Which was, of course, a very logical explanation, she told herself as she quietly explored the grounds of Wherever This Place Was, only stopping every now and again when she had caught a glimpse of that woman--a Star?  A Faerie?  Tevy was unsure.

But an introduction was something she truly did want to avoid.  That would mean explaining who she was, what she was doing here, and all other sorts of questions that she did not want to answer.

So Tevy chose to watch from a distance, unaware if the woman noticed her in kind.

[fxirestdancer]

{stares at the drafts of a whole two i just don't wanna do}

[araxti]

[halfliight]

I am             selfish

I am                jealous 

Why would                         you 

Ever want                  me

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                               ❝It has been said, ‘time  h e a l s  all wounds.’                                    I do not agree. The wounds remain. In time,                                     the mind, protecting its sanity, covers them                                         with scar tissue and the pain lessens.                                                        But it is never gone.❞

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"i learned far more from your absence than you could have taught me with your presence."