it’s rather funny , honestly — he’s so awful to other people , but it’s so easy to just turn his back , smile , occupy his mind with something else and forget . it’s so easy to pretend nothing ever happened , look at them in the eye and feign ignorance , as if he doesn’t see the pain , doesn’t see the bitterness , the dislike in their looks thrown in his direction .
but oh , does it hurt when it all comes back to bite him in the ass , when the same things he’s done are being done to him . it’s not the first time , no , karma does a way better job than this , & he should be used , but there’s no way to ever get used to something like this . anyone would think he’d learn better , too , after the first time — hah . well , that’s something he’d rather not think about .
that doesn’t mean the situation changes at all , though . he’ll still keep the persona up , act like the fool and fake happiness ( won’t see , won’t hear , won’t speak ) , pretend & pretend & PRETEND until he’s all alone , and even then there’ll be a smile through clenched teeth , lying & lying & LYING until he himself believes it’s all alright ( he can never get himself to believe , though ) .
ah , he’s awful — simply awful . if there’s anything he’d never lie about , it was that .