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How strong exactly am i supposed to be?

Pata nhi ye achhi chiz hai ki nhi but jis hisaab aur degree se mera mood swing krta hai na...

Kasam se. Trump level.

Fell asleep a summer afternoon with my windows open and there was an evening thunder storm

Gonna go photograph it now.

Maybe play the flute.

My instagram is attacking me on all my accounts and i cant shitpost abt it there cuz no one knows i have an alt and the one person who knows i have an alt doesnt know i have another alt.

What life is this 🙂🙏

Anywayyyyyy

WHY AM I BEING ATTACKED.

also its very unfair how i cannot retaliate. Tch. Mera din aayega (kab aayega bhagwaan 🙏)

All i have to do is survive boredom until bedtime.

And by boredom i mean survive the weight of this brain.

#goodluck Abhilasha

The insta on my alt is fucking brutal

My life is a circle of being in doubt and then i look at my face and all that holy narcissism just slams right back in where it belongs.

I mean. Look at yourself bitch. No wayyyy.

#coded messages for myself #its been YEARS and i still dont know how to tag

Vehement believer of whatever is happeneing is happening exactly as it is for a reason.

We just realise the reason late sometimes.

#ik im too metaphorical but where if not tumblr

Accidently posted the same shi thrice on insta and am shitposting abt it here.

Gotta post more gng.

#pls post more too future me

Here i am sitting after swimming and a full blown morning routine.

And my newspaper WONT LOAD. Morning ragebait 😔

Goodnight Abhilasha. You can do it.

Thats all i have to say to everyone reading this.

You can do it. Everything in your life is a specific curation to your being and you are specifically curated to handle and enjoy those experiences. And what you think is breaking you is only making you.

Its making you a person who is the exact same but different. And you're so beautiful inside then. Like a fingerprint you're unique.

And if you cant do it. No one can.

I wanna have cranberry fruit beer so bad

#fruit beer plssss

Think i just pulled out the most luxurious toothbrush ever and mom claims im the one who got it.

Once again. Past Abhilasha never fails to leave me in awe.

#lets see what else past Abhilasha does #she's a witch babe

I switch betw insta, get all that positivity and self obsession in. Then i switch to my own pictures. Stare at my beautiful fucking face.

"Oh im so beautiful" 😔

I say as i switch back to insta.

#hiiiii

So the thing is. Im going to puri. Ive started journaling. Ive started working out for two hours daily again.

I read the newspaper everyday. I chat up w my fam everyday (vacations chalre hai)

I can fucking train a car to solve a maze on its own im so into ml i love coding.

Im planning on making a few websites getting into frontend and backend.

Completing dsa.

Learning the flute. Going to delhi for a sister's engagement. Going swimming everyday. Eating good food. (Itna achha body banayenge na 😔)

My hair is so fucking long now. I look stunning now. Im a fucking fever dream

And. Im gonna do photography. Im gonna enjoy nature. Look at the clouds and the trees and absorb all their energy.

Next time i go back, i will be a different person. I will be me again. After two years of a front which slowly chocked me in exchange for surface level social happiness.

I will instead go back to being me. Raw and unapologetically just me. And people are going to love me. People love me now. People dont love me on my personality

They love me on my energy.

And that energy is the same. It stays the same. It cannot be changed. It has to be deciphered. But most people cannot go that deep in w me.

Some can. I want one to.

Okiii baiii

Oh and when you come back here make sure to like all my posts bitch

(To everyone concerned reading this pls dont be confused. Its a message to myself. A very warm hi to you guys tho.)

Mark the day its 17th Apr of 2026.

Two yrs back i started shitposting here on tumblr.

Then i went to college. Yea... yk what happened. Yep.

So now imma finna start again.

This is for future Abhilasha. Baby dont forget yourself you're fucking amazing. If you doubt that come read these posts.

You're gonna change and grow a lot from now. But you're still gonna be this cool. Or cooler.

Im your biggest fan babygirl. Love you.

#oh yea we gotta add tags #shitposting in the tags ofc

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I’m so mad because this worked

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help me roger

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Reblogging myself because

Originally posted by gifs-for-the-masses

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Reblogging myself because… what was that? Five minutes?

O_O

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………my friend has made me curious

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help me roger

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Update: after I reblogged this someone messaged me offering me tickets to the sold out Hausu screening with a Q&A and autograph session with the director