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took a long shower tho, and just gonna take care of myself and chill out in my room all afternoon, then im going to the drive in movies w my sister so i'll feel better by then probably

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food truck was a nightmare today kinda, my friends mom shorted me pay and it was just the most uncomfortable thing ever and i didn't know how to say anything about it so i just let it go but it's bothering me, feeling so much emotional and cognitive dissonance abt it rn

#txt #we never talked abt an hourly #the whole situation is just so uncomfortable #and im so bad at picking up on social cues when it's all informal like this #i can't tell if we have a good relationship or if they appreciate my help #and i hate that #i can't tell if it's in my head that i feel alienated bc i feel that way often #or if there is a bit of being pushed out and taken advantage of #i don't want to assume ill intent at all it just sucks #hate that it's hard for me to speak up in this type of situation #nightmare #actually bpd #actually mentally ill #actually bipolar #actually borderline

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omg lol of course my friends mom called me and texted me early this morning saying i could still come work the food truck bc turns out, it's not actually raining lol, just saw it tho bc i sleep w my phone on silent, she's lucky im literally desperate for money

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