Nothing interesting here, just venting.

Just thoughts.

[gabber2412]

This is not a poem

I’ve fallen in love, once. No, Twice. It happened so fast, so subtly, that it all feels like it happened all at once.

It started when I met a girl. I don’t know why, but she got me. I had never liked girls before, Never had I noticed any romantic feelings for them. When she and I spoke about love, I felt like I was faking it. I was faking it until I wasn’t. I fell in love with her beauty, her smile, the way she would purr my name and stretch like a kitten. I loved her, and she was my best friend during that very short time. Then, my world came tumbling down when she didn’t feel the same. Words were spoken, but I just hadn’t understood why it ended. Absence made the heart grow fonder. After that, all I remember is pain. Pain with the brief and infrequent pauses of affection from the girl I was in love with. My misery drove me to my friends. One, in particular, seemed to have a personality that mirrored my own. Complimented it. In that safe space, my love grew back, stronger than ever before. Only not to be returned once again.

Those two loves are still with me to this day. Though they feel more like dreams than realities. I yearn for my passion to be returned to me. I wish to long for someone and to be longed for in return.

Love cannot be rushed and will appear when you least expect it. When you aren’t looking for it.

But what happens if your longing makes it impossible not to look?

What if it makes it impossible not to wait?

To put your life on pause, waiting for your soulmate to come find you.

Love stories happen unexpectedly. When one is living.

Life must go on for it to thrive, and it will perish if not given the chance it needs.

I fell in love once. I’d like to fall in love again.

G Dign 2019

[gabber2412]

Lmao stay the hell away from me

If I have a crush on you, stay tf away lmao I get so crazy I scare myself. I am not very good at controlling myself, I guess. I don’t think things through, and I go far. My emotions are so powerful, I continually scare myself.

[gabber2412]

Not not a sex euphemism

Once you get the baguette you want more bread

[gabber2412]

Sorta depressed.

Sometimes I just want to say “fuck it” and leave. Just leave. Everyone and everything in my life and start completely anew. I wish I could have a completely different life and just have no one miss me. I wonder what they would do if they woke up one morning, never to see me again.  Because this life I have right now, makes me want to bawl my eyes out because I have no plan, I don’t know what is coming, I don’t know how to transition from this life to the one I had in mind ever since I was a kid. I wanted to be an actress, be married to my best friend, have a little boy, have a nice enough place. It’s not that simple anymore. Right now I have a girlfriend I have not seen since November with nearly no means of contact, I am in high school in a city that only real Ryan Gosling fans know, and I have been in three plays, including of one in second grade where my character was mute, one two years ago when I sang for a minute and this one where I disliked my character. I just wish things were easier. Sometimes I think about enrolling into a mental institute for paranoia. It would be so much easier. ugh

[gabber2412]

Things aren’t much better, but change is in sight. I am going to college for journalism, I am moving out in september. We made it, kid.

[gabber2412]

So many feelings, not enough words.

I feel sad for breaking up with the sweetest boy, whom I’ve spent over nine months being in a relationship with. I feel Happy because I see my best friend more often, but sad because the more I see him the more I feel for him. The more I feel for him, the more scared I am to lose him. The more fear and love I have, the more I feel like I am going to lose him. I feel sad because a girl I love is not part of my life anymore. I feel happy for her because she seems to have a good life. I am sad because I cannot see her be happy with my own eyes. So many emotions, so many complicated emotions all contradicting themselves. I also feel confused because I have found a sexual awakening, and do not know how to deal with this new urge. I need a fresh start.

[gabber2412]

I have fallen for the sweetest thing ever

So this guy he's tall and pretty good looking and he is the sweetest thing I swear he could get punched and he'd probably apologize for being in the way. I haven't told him I like him of course because my confidence has left me and given place to butterflies. A horrible trade if you ask me. The big issue is just that he lives far away. Also I have no idea if he likes me back because he's oblivious and I am oblivious so if we like each other one of us has gotta make it obvious for the other and neither of us are ballsy enough to do so. I've known him for about four years but this weekend he came over and we spent pretty much the whole time together and idk we always click when we see each other but this time it was different and I miss him more than I usually do, I think about him more than I usually do, and I'm keeping myself from texting him too much more than I usually do. I don't wanna mess it up. I don't want to make him do anything he doesn't want to do. I don't want to make it awkward for him. What if he was just being nice like he is to everyone? What if by telling me I am one of the bestest friends he's ever had was him putting me in the friend zone? What if he thinks he's in the friend zone because I said the feeling was mutual? GAH

[davidtennantphotos]

[gabber2412]

Look at his grin he's too cute

[daftalchemist]

did I ever mention that I know someone whose family owned a zombie dog because that’s some real shit that I get to delight with at parties

[themintywitch]

Tell us that story?

[daftalchemist]

okay here is the story of the zombie dog

this dog’s name was John. they found him half drowned in a bag of puppies that were not so fortunate as he was, and was taken in immediately. he was a runt and not quite right (most likely from the whole half drowned thing), but a very loving dog. the problem with John was that he smelled like death, and no one knew why. vets couldn’t figure it out. it was obviously some kind of skin problem, but they had no idea what kind. all anyone knew was that if you touched him, you would smell like death too, so you couldn’t pet him, and that for some reason, the only thing that made the smell go away was being around other dogs. so they got another dog and the death smell stopped and John lived a very happy life

when he was getting old, maybe about 15 years, part of his skull caved in. just like that! suddenly had a huge dent in his head! and he was totally fine. didn’t notice it, didn’t affect him at all. just this massive dent right there in his head where his skull had collapsed in on his brain, and he was still the happiest and most loving dog. the skull cave in, for whatever reason, caused the ear on that side of his head to just fall off entirely, but again, perfectly happy dog who did not know he was down an ear and a fully formed skull. they took him to the vet, thinking maybe they should put him down. I mean, wouldn’t you think so? but the vet said that the dog was eating, and pooping, and happy, so there was no reason to put him down, so they didn’t

but that’s not even the weird part. the weird part is the area of the brain that got caved in on was apparently the area that registers pain, so this one-eared, collapsed skull dog could no longer feel any pain. he got old, his joints got stiff, his teeth rotted out of his head, his tongue hung out of his mouth and got black and hard, and he felt none of it! in fact, he was happier than he’d ever been feeling no pain, and the fact that he didn’t feel how much he was falling apart somehow made him live until he was 23. that’s right, the collapsed skull, one eared, zero teeth, smells like literal death when alone dog lived to be 23 years old. they used to joke that he’d been dead for years, but was too stupid to realize it yet

and that’s the story about the literal zombie dog my friend’s family owned

[castironjackelope]

I'n simultaneously delighted, alarmed, a little horrified and impressed all at once.

[urobsessedwme]

Is this book even real

[whaturlisntinuse]

Never change Uncle Rick

[gabber2412]

Sorta depressed.

Sometimes I just want to say “fuck it” and leave. Just leave. Everyone and everything in my life and start completely anew. I wish I could have a completely different life and just have no one miss me. I wonder what they would do if they woke up one morning, never to see me again.  Because this life I have right now, makes me want to bawl my eyes out because I have no plan, I don’t know what is coming, I don’t know how to transition from this life to the one I had in mind ever since I was a kid. I wanted to be an actress, be married to my best friend, have a little boy, have a nice enough place. It’s not that simple anymore. Right now I have a girlfriend I have not seen since November with nearly no means of contact, I am in high school in a city that only real Ryan Gosling fans know, and I have been in three plays, including of one in second grade where my character was mute, one two years ago when I sang for a minute and this one where I disliked my character. I just wish things were easier. Sometimes I think about enrolling into a mental institute for paranoia. It would be so much easier. ugh

[animated-butts]

"The story of a boy who became a man... By becoming a bear."

This movie is way too under appreciated in my opinion… The fandom is practically non-existent…

And I don’t understand why? The plot was fantastic.

All of the characters were lovable.

There was no one that you absolutely could not stand.

The “bad guy” was actually the main character, Kenai. Which was an interesting twist for Disney.

But by building a bond with this young cub (Koda), and seeing the world through the eyes of a bear, he realized that he (as a man) had been the monster… Not bears.

I mean, talk about character development…

Koda: Those monsters are really scary… Especially with their sticks.

And for me, this scene right here was one of my most emotional Disney moments. You can’t even here Kenai telling the actual story… But you can see their facial expressions and you can just feel it. You know exactly what he’s saying to Koda.

Kenai: Well, I have a story to tell you.

Koda: Really? What’s it about?

Kenai: Well, it’s kind of about a man… and kind of about a bear. But mostly, it’s about a monster.

… Koda… I did something very wrong.

Okay, but on a lighter note?

The animation was incredible.

Amazing.

It was a powerful movie about brotherly love, guidance, and responsibility, and it truly is one of my favorite Disney movies ever.

Not to mention the soundtrack is amazing. You can’t go wrong with Phil Collins.

The fandom will never be huge, but the movie definitely deserves more credit. If you haven’t watched it, I highly recommend it.

Brother Bear

[nearsightedgirl]

I want to remind everyone that this movie is where the “quit telling everyone I’m dead” “Sometimes I can still hear his voice” joke came from.

[thebestofyoutube]

When someone questions my friends addiction 😏 Reblog if You’d same situation 😂😂

[johnnydepplovely]

[gabber2412]

Rapunzel? Pfffft. Sam

Sam wise Gamgee used the frying pan before it was cool

[may0osh]

your favorite gif hunt about an ass who beat his wife?

Nope, not just my favorite gif hunt, also, my favorite actor & celebrity crush and one of the most respected actors in Hollywood. Yeah, that’s right, Johnny Depp still & will always be this person, I don’t really care about all the rumors his former wife Amber Heard claimed, but you should really look more into the story. 

johnny Depp was never an asshole, and suddenly this happens? I call bullshit. Amber is faking it for attention and to ruin Johnny Depp’s fame, there is more evidence against her than her fake claims that she has. She has NO proof whatsoever and no witnesses either! Watch the video again. She set it all up and all the videos she filmed proves that she set him up. And is STILL trying to set him up. She wanted 20 million dollars, 50,000 dollars a month, 3 condos, a range rover, and walked away with absolutely nothing for those claims. She then DROPPED the claims, recanted, and dropped her request for a PRO, even tho she was supposedly scared. She got 7 million, which is what she was legally entitled to for the lack of prenup. She got nothing she wanted, so therefore SHE settled. He had over 20 witnesses, including the LAPD and concierge that worked at his loft. Johnny had way more submitted evidence, way more witnesses, and means to file charges along with a defamation suit. If she had a case she would’ve gone through with it, instead of settling a day priority, after she avoided her deposition twice.

Between Johnny and Amber only one has been arrested for domestic assault and battery. Hint: It wasn’t Johnny. And the whole Australia incident - she was the one lying on the papers. He was beside her as a supportive husband and he even made that video with her about which everyone’s mocking him. And as a bonus Amber herself said many times that she’s lying to everyone, even to her best friends, just to see who talks to the press. She never told Johnny that she was married before and she never told him she was arrested for assaulting her wife. That says a lot too.

All his other girlfriends and his long time wife said he was never violent. , his former wife and the mother if his children wrote this handwritten letter for the court “In all the years I’ve known Johnny, he has never been physically abusive with me, and this looks nothing like the man I lived with for 14 wonderful years. I believe with all my heart that these recent allegations being made are outrageous”

now. I ain’t saying that Amber Heard is a gold digger, oh wait yes I am.

[gabber2412]

Totally agree with you. Fuck them haters

[orriculum]

Fire Element Bath 🔥🛁

a bath spell that uses the element and correspondences of fire to heal and cleanse oneself emotionally

🔥 gather: anise, cinnamon, oranges, and red roses. 

🛁 fill the tub with hot water, be careful not to make it too hot for you. 

🔥 mix ingredients into the tub. light candles around the tub if you can.

🛁 allow the element of water to cleanse your old energies out and the elements of fire to give you new energy.

🔥  allow the heat to comfort and heal for as long as you need to. 

🛁 fire is associated with candles and blades. if you shave, this is a recommended time for it.

🔥 though you can use garnet and ruby stones in the ritual, do not put them in the water, the aluminum in them is harmful when in water. keep them nearby if you like

🛁 if you have those basalt stones for hot stone therapy, this is a prime moment to use them.