We moved....to a magical castle in a pocket of civility in a world gone mad.
Will I make more of my life here or am I just dragging my shit across town?
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We moved....to a magical castle in a pocket of civility in a world gone mad.
Will I make more of my life here or am I just dragging my shit across town?
I met Eric Maaske in the spring of 1995. I wasn’t sober, but he was and had been for many years at that point. He started tattooing me and we became friends. I’d go hang out with he & Chummy after work, Eric often having to pick up my tab. Eric had everything & I had nothing, but he liked me and took pity on a poor punker. I’m sure I was a reminder of what was waiting for him should he relapse. One night I got particularly drunk & he off handedly said “You should get ‘Fish Wife’ tattooed on your knuckles.” I’m sure he didn’t mean it as a compliment. A year later during my debacle days in Amsterdam Eric Hogan heard of Maaske’s suggestion and offered to tattoo it on me for free. Never one to turn down a bargain, I took him up on his deal. Once again, he didn’t mean it as a compliment. Years later, sober as a judge, I spent a wonderful day with Eric Hogan. We spoke of our lives and laughed at all of the folly. I left his shop warm under the glow of growth. Later that year Eric was shot dead on the steps of his home. A murder in the coldest of blood. A few months after that horror, I spotted a gaunt Eric Maaske on the street in Hollywood. That trouble he never wanted to forget had found him again. He was scared, trapped by the thing that won’t let go, but I really thought he’d win that fight. I was wrong. A few weeks later he too had left this earth, leaving a huge hole in the middle of all who knew him. People often ask me why I have Fish Wife tattooed on my knuckles, so much so it can be “tiring”. But when I have the time, (& even when I don’t), I pause and tell the story of the two Erics, both gone, but certainly not forgotten.
The Fabulous Sunset Strip, 1983 By the time I was 14 I had already been away from the farm for quite a few years. Nanci & I had a small studio apartment in the basement of the De Mille Manor. We found a full size mattress on the street and dragged it into the walk-in closet that now served as a makeshift bedroom. We’d take turns, depending upon need, for the use of it. We ended up losing that place, absconding one night on a whim, which turned out to be a mean mistake on our part. Months later we limped back to LA, badly beaten by the big bad world. We were vanquished and broken and had no where to go. Somehow Nanci’s friend David tentatively offered his couch and we crowded on in. It was only a sofa and a tv, but it comprised my entire universe for a bit and I finally felt like a human again. I showered until my skin shrank, I drank until I felt whole. David had a new record coming out and needed a model, some funky 80’s concept that I was ill fit for. But even being a conscientious objector of the saxophone, I was happy to oblige...after all, it was all of his beer I was drinking.
I was never a good learner. I wanted to be an expert before I ever started...which is an unrealistic prerequisite. If I had a talent at something maybe I’d suffer through the uncomfortable moments, just as long as they didn’t last too long. But if I had no talent (which is most things for me) I wouldn’t even try, no matter how badly I wanted it. Surfing was the first thing I ever did that was hard, fantastically hard, that I stuck with. But snowboarding was the thing that was hard that I ever managed to become more than proficient at. While I took solo surf trips to many exotic locales, I dedicated months straight to snowboarding. What I knew to be true but never practiced, was that if you stick with something one day it will pay off. I am so grateful I didn’t waver because now I share this expression of life with my family. I watch as these children (& my male model Mark) learn the secrets of my Mammoth mountain, the most magical place one can get to by car. (at Mammoth Mountain)
Back when tattoos still meant you were up to no good, I found Scott Harrison. He was famous, he was talented & I had space on my body still. The day I met him he had shaved his “beard” into the shape of a headset 🎤 . When I inquired as to why, he promptly cocked his head to one side and glibly repeated the slogan “Time Life operator.” I instantly adored him. We’ve been friends for 20 years now and I am so honored by that fact. More than almost anyone I know he doesn’t suffer fools lightly, so I know I must be doing something right. Here is an instance of how my penchant for tattoos meant more than just a marking of my angst. We are probably half way through our lives & I plan to know him & his stunning wife Jennifer until the day I die...& maybe even after that. I am comforted by that, that there is still more for us. Love you kid. (he sometimes refers to me that way & I giggle with glee every time he does). http://themirrorcave.libsyn.com
I’m lucky.
There are 18 families that won’t sleep tonight. 18 groups of people who will never recover. & for what? So politicians, who’ve been bought by the gun lobby, can sleep on 1500 thread count sheets. Why are humans so fucking horrible & so fucking dumb?
God I miss them.
HAT OF THE FUTURE by Mr. John spirals down body. The wearer can put it off at the most flattering point. LIFE 15 may 1950
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I took my son to see The Murder City Devils...it was his first “show”.
When these man were just starting out, they were boys back then, they crashed on my livng room floor. It was thier first show in LA, at the now defunct Al’s Bar & they didn’t really know anyone here. I had met their roadie (& silent bandmate) Gabe in Seattle a few months before so I wasn’t shy when I went and said hello. I never dreamed they’d take me up on my offer of a floor, I was merely trying to be nice.
For years they thanked me on their records, which still makes me feel good. They really are amazing people.
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I am not interested in anything that doesn’t have a genuine heart to it. You’ve got to have soul in the hole. If that isn’t there, I don’t see the point.
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“I can control the weather with my moods. I just can’t control my moods.” Nick Cave
I am not heroic, never have been really. I know this because I live with a man who is & who always has been, so I know what it looks like up close and personal...& it ain't me. Sometimes I've taken the strong stand, done the right thing, been brave, showed up on time...other times, many times, not so much. I've been lazy and afraid, been a thief and a liar, been a junkie and a whore. Never been a cheat, but that's more of a personal choice than a badge of honor. Given the opportunity I almost always chose the bad over the good, I rooted for the bandit when I should have been rooting for the sheriff. I find it amusing that at almost 50 I ended up being who I dreamt I was when I was 5; the One in white. It has taken me all this time to become who I always could have been, I am the reverse wunderkind.