I wanna clear up some shit
I haven't been on this Tumblr in ages. I haven’t used Tumblr in ages. So I wanted to clear up some shit.
I’ve been through a lot of shit in the past year and I think I’m at a point in my life where I understand myself, who I am and what I believe.
Last year I was in an unhappy relationship, hadn’t received any offers from any of the universities that I wanted to attend, generally didn't know what I wanted to study at uni, and felt like I didn’t know who my friends were. I had a messy break up at the beginning of the year and I was generally miserable for a while.
Now I’m in a healthy and loving relationship, I know what I want to do with my life and I know who my friends are. So I decided its time to clear some things up while I also sign off from Tumblr.
I’m not non-binary. I’m cis. I’m a cis pan female. I’m still sure that I’m pan, but last year for some reason I was obsessed with convincing myself of things that weren’t true. I convinced myself that I was happy in my relationship, I convinced myself that I was non-binary and I convinced myself that I believed in God/religion for a time. Since talking to some of my trans friends, I realised that I’m not non-binary. I truly believe that to be trans (and that includes non-binary, gender fluid etc) you have to experience dysphoria. This is what I’ve garnered from the scientific studies done and what I’ve spoken about with my trans friends. I guess this means I’m ‘truscum’.
The second thing is that I don’t believe in God. I don’t know if God exists, so I just assume that he doesn't, for the sake of my own morals/peace of mind. I’m not a Buddhist either; of course I like the focus on the mind and the rejection of gods, but I don’t believe that I can make any positive claims about the afterlife. So I’m an atheist.
That’s all, folks. There is some other personal shit that I figured out but I’m keeping that to myself and my friends. I might make a post around January letting those of you who still read my blog know about whether I’ve got into my first choice university, but apart from that you can consider this blog done. Thank you to all the people that included me in their promos, networks, those of you who I feel I became friends with. Tumblr at one point was a big part of my identity, but sadly not anymore.
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