Janet Mock and Laverne Cox are wonderful “possibility models,” but they are not enough. I want — we need — more: More than liberal righteous anger, we need concrete funding for trans shelters, scholarships, program grants. More than nihilistic leftist rhetoric, we need creativity and transformation. We need people to stop talking about how trans women get killed all the time. We need people to start telling us that they won’t let us die.
A week ago, I posted this Facebook status: “Every time I see an article about trans women being killed, I remember that someday I may die that way.” Within the hour, a half-dozen cis folks had commented that they were sorry that we lived in a world where I had to live in fear. I wanted to feel touched, but I just felt dread. Feeling sorry will not protect me on the street in the night when a man decides that I am too odd-looking to be allowed to live. Posting articles about trans women’s murders will not stop it from happening to me. It only increases my certainty that I will be alone on that street, in that night, when the moment comes at last that my numbered days have run out.
A bit later, another friend, also a trans woman of color — and one of the fiercest, most fabulous girls in the city — sent me a private message. In it, she promised that “it” wouldn’t happen to me. That she would protect me, somehow, some way. And reading it, I cried for the first time in this terrible year of murdered sisters. Because no one had ever said this to me before. No one had ever cared or dared enough to make that promise: to tell me that I would live.
Young trans girls, I have a story to tell you: Ever since I was a tiny child, I knew I was girl. Everyone I knew tried to convince me otherwise, and when I refused to be persuaded, they told me I would die. But I didn’t. I found a band of audacious sisters, and we lived, laughed, loved, even in the midst of all that hatred. I am looking for you, looking out for you. We can change this story together. Next month, I turn 24.
Someone Tell Me That I’ll Live: On Murder, Media, and Being a Trans Woman in 2015 (via drbrucebananer)