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hi? hello? anyone here??

since twitter seems to be dying, im coming back here as a backup plan. not on this account though!! no thank you.

please please please follow @smallestwarrior​ its the new account and it’d be super cool if i could get some old followers from here on there!! especially if we’re mutuals. id love to interact with people i used to talk to/see all the time, ive gotten a lot better at talking i think

here is some art to catch attention!! anyone remember ivory?

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okay so maybe its only 2 pictures but i swear its all ive been drawing lately. 

yeah uhh so while i was gone i mightve started watching the funny block game roleplay as a joke/out of curiosity. and then i got attached to the characters. and maybe it was the entire reason i started drawing humans. what about it

if you like mcyt hi follow my twitter i made for it to avoid annoying mutuals. i yell. alot ,, 

if you dont i am very sorry to announce the warrior cats artist of 8 years does. 

anyway goodbye for like maybe another whole year

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well i did say that i would show you guys some new art because ive improved a lot so here are some cats (which you guys were used too) ill make another post that isnt cats in a second

first drawing is wheatnose, second is heronpaw + jaytuft and third is an icon i did for a mutual on twitter in exchange for flight rising money i never use (but thats fine because i wouldve done it for free because he’s cool? also i designed the character)

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i find it so incredibly funny how much happier i got when i left tumblr lol

hi everyone!! really dont know if anyone will either 1) see this or 2) remember me

i probably wont be coming back, honestly. just poking my head back in to check how weird its gotten here and honestly, it looks like nothing even happened

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like if you see this please,,, ill probably reblog this a few times

idk if i can stay on tumblr on this account anymore. it just makes me really sad. so, heres some other places to find me:

my youtube, mostly warrior cat map parts or oc stuff

my main twitter, and my badgerfang twitter

my main insta is kiskateara, and my art account for insta is riverbent

my discord is also currently kiskateara, but in case i change it my id is #7693 i dont check it often since i dont have any friends i talk to there currently so if you do ever wanna contact me with it just wait a few days and ill see it probably

i love all of the friends i made here but if im 1) not active anyway and 2) not happy. i miss my old friends and looking at this account just reminds me that i was such an idiot to just let myself drift away from them like that, all because i was scared to talk to them.

i dont know if any of those friends are reading this right now but if you are and you still want to be my friend i really do encourage you to talk to me. im not good at replying, by no means, and i get really anxious when i am talking to someone. but you guys matter to me a lot and at the end of the day i do really like interacting with people. im just a little nervous about it than some people. chances are if we havent talked in a while, i miss you a lot.

i might come back to tumblr in the future, but probably not on this account. if i do, ill be sure to announce it here.

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last time im reblogging this.

next time you guys see me, if you ever do, it’ll probably be on another blog. or, if you guys actually follow me onto another one of the sites i listed, there.

ily guys

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like if you see this please,,, ill probably reblog this a few times

idk if i can stay on tumblr on this account anymore. it just makes me really sad. so, heres some other places to find me:

my youtube, mostly warrior cat map parts or oc stuff

my main twitter, and my badgerfang twitter

my main insta is kiskateara, and my art account for insta is riverbent

my discord is also currently kiskateara, but in case i change it my id is #7693 i dont check it often since i dont have any friends i talk to there currently so if you do ever wanna contact me with it just wait a few days and ill see it probably

i love all of the friends i made here but if im 1) not active anyway and 2) not happy. i miss my old friends and looking at this account just reminds me that i was such an idiot to just let myself drift away from them like that, all because i was scared to talk to them.

i dont know if any of those friends are reading this right now but if you are and you still want to be my friend i really do encourage you to talk to me. im not good at replying, by no means, and i get really anxious when i am talking to someone. but you guys matter to me a lot and at the end of the day i do really like interacting with people. im just a little nervous about it than some people. chances are if we havent talked in a while, i miss you a lot.

i might come back to tumblr in the future, but probably not on this account. if i do, ill be sure to announce it here.

[gamingkilledthecat]

like if you see this please,,, ill probably reblog this a few times

idk if i can stay on tumblr on this account anymore. it just makes me really sad. so, heres some other places to find me:

my youtube, mostly warrior cat map parts or oc stuff

my main twitter, and my badgerfang twitter

my main insta is kiskateara, and my art account for insta is riverbent

my discord is also currently kiskateara, but in case i change it my id is #7693 i dont check it often since i dont have any friends i talk to there currently so if you do ever wanna contact me with it just wait a few days and ill see it probably

i love all of the friends i made here but if im 1) not active anyway and 2) not happy. i miss my old friends and looking at this account just reminds me that i was such an idiot to just let myself drift away from them like that, all because i was scared to talk to them.

i dont know if any of those friends are reading this right now but if you are and you still want to be my friend i really do encourage you to talk to me. im not good at replying, by no means, and i get really anxious when i am talking to someone. but you guys matter to me a lot and at the end of the day i do really like interacting with people. im just a little nervous about it than some people. chances are if we havent talked in a while, i miss you a lot.

i might come back to tumblr in the future, but probably not on this account. if i do, ill be sure to announce it here.

[gamingkilledthecat]

like if you see this please,,, ill probably reblog this a few times

idk if i can stay on tumblr on this account anymore. it just makes me really sad. so, heres some other places to find me:

my youtube, mostly warrior cat map parts or oc stuff

my main twitter, and my badgerfang twitter

my main insta is kiskateara, and my art account for insta is riverbent

my discord is also currently kiskateara, but in case i change it my id is #7693 i dont check it often since i dont have any friends i talk to there currently so if you do ever wanna contact me with it just wait a few days and ill see it probably

i love all of the friends i made here but if im 1) not active anyway and 2) not happy. i miss my old friends and looking at this account just reminds me that i was such an idiot to just let myself drift away from them like that, all because i was scared to talk to them.

i dont know if any of those friends are reading this right now but if you are and you still want to be my friend i really do encourage you to talk to me. im not good at replying, by no means, and i get really anxious when i am talking to someone. but you guys matter to me a lot and at the end of the day i do really like interacting with people. im just a little nervous about it than some people. chances are if we havent talked in a while, i miss you a lot.

i might come back to tumblr in the future, but probably not on this account. if i do, ill be sure to announce it here.

[gamingkilledthecat]

"theres nothing here."

yeah, i KNOW, but i can wish there still was. i hate tumblr. and i hate my brain for doing nothing.

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i might just give up with tumblr. theres,, literally nothing left for me here. i dont talk to anyone. i hardly post, and no one sees when i do post. the friends i joined for arent around or dont talk to me. the only thing here is the wc community, which is nice, but, i have twitter for that. and im so much happier there.

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im not really active here anymore so i dont really care what i post here. that being said im so mad at my past self. i was so sad and anxious that it led to me losing one of my closest friends, not because we got into an argument or anything like that, i just. stopped talking to them. because i was scared they didnt like me anymore or was annoyed by me constantly. and then they moved accounts, and i never asked for the new account, because i was terrified they hated me and didnt want me around anymore. and then they deactivated their old account, and then i realized that i was an idiot. that was one of the stupidest things ive ever done. i really miss them. even if im still nervous all the time.

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for the past 3 days ive been thinking about this non stop. i wish i could tell them sorry, but, i dont even know what their account is anymore. i dont even know if theyre okay or if they even still go on this website anymore. i tried apologizing one time before, when their account wasnt deactivated, and i have no idea if they even looked at it. which is scary, because, what if they did and just didnt care about me anymore enough to respond?

being on this account just brings me so much guilt. so many of my friends i used to interact with dont talk to me anymore and its my fault because im always terrified to talk to them, i dont wanna say something that’ll make them hate me. and that parts probably not my fault, since, i only ever felt like i was treading on glass during conversations after something happened at school. but i still dont talk to them because of that fear, and thats pathetic and not fair to them. so every time i see one of their users, rarely, i feel awful because i remember how happy i used to be when i first made this account. i wish i could go back and change some things.

but besides, i wonder if anyone even knows their account now. theres a chance, i guess, but im just scared to ask and find out because what if they do hate me? so. maybe ill just be guilty forever

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im not really active here anymore so i dont really care what i post here. that being said im so mad at my past self. i was so sad and anxious that it led to me losing one of my closest friends, not because we got into an argument or anything like that, i just. stopped talking to them. because i was scared they didnt like me anymore or was annoyed by me constantly. and then they moved accounts, and i never asked for the new account, because i was terrified they hated me and didnt want me around anymore. and then they deactivated their old account, and then i realized that i was an idiot. that was one of the stupidest things ive ever done. i really miss them. even if im still nervous all the time.

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youre stuck on a tiny island with the animal crossing villager you share a birthday with how are you doing

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im

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its dovewing week so i redrew her with my other design with a few very slight changes

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thank you guys for 100 notes on my dovewing design,,,,,,, im not really posting much because i dont see much of a point (here) anymore but ill probably draw her again since it IS dovewing week over on twitter, ily all though thank u

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wc ily twitter joke, you wont understand unless you follow badgerfang’s account lol