garbageGothic... TWO!

Emily | 24 | she/her Part-time eyeball, full-time fool 💚 @hazelmothie 💚

[garbagegothic82]

Hi, I'm Emily! 👁️ I'm a voiceover talent, sound designer & artist. Maybe you've seen me around, maybe you haven't. Was here like a decade ago, but I'm starting fresh!

Enjoyer of spooky stuff, funky sounds, cool art, and Yugi Muto

💚 VO reels | Bluesky | YouTube 💚

[freakastineeee]

Heh I drew this on my schools computer lol

[mickey-bees]

we don’t have to change

[freesiadotcom]

*trying not to doxx myself* shoutout to that one thing in a place somewhere

[confusedsplagebbi]

41º43'32”N, 49º56'49”W

[freesiadotcom]

THE TITANIC?????

[crufflebird]

. . . I don't even have an excuse for being late this time, I was just napping and doomscrolling lmao . . . sorry . . . Anyways, time for my thoughts, sort of discussion, sort of reaction to Episode 40 of CHNT (Episode 6 of Season 2).

(As ALWAYS, long (confusing) read warning!)

Episode 40: (First thing I see when checking description, a lot of content warnings, okay, lets see what horrible thing happened today . . .)

Sydney morning announcement. Lots of laughter . . . oh no . . . I forgor about what they talked about last episode. The laughter sickness. Bro they be crawling and climbing and curling up because of this laughter, this sounds terrifying. THEY HAVE TO KEEP LAUGHING. Aw, Jedidiah is starting to listen to Sydney more :3. Camp Over Where is a suspect as the cause of the laughter sickness.

Woah, kids laughing in the Nurses Cabin. Jedidiah is worried for Sydney, he doesn't want him getting too close to the campers. Jedidiah worries about Sydney meeting with Adam. The laughter sounds painful. Jedidiah trusts Sydney, but the meeting with Adam isn't really happening at a good time to be alone with him. Sydney doesn't think Jedidiah trusts him though. Jedidiah upset Sydney.

Sydney lunch announcement. Sydney has news after Adam's meeting. The source comes from the spores of a rare fungus that have spread in the air to the camp that came from the rubble of Cabin Dung Beetle. The campers are all getting infected with the laughter, Jedidiah has taken some spores to study. They have to ride out the sickness. (ride out the sickness huh . . . I've heard that before . . .)

Ghost Recorder. OH GOD WHAT HAPPENED. Sydney just got back from the sanatorium. Huddled under a tree, a camper Tommy, kept laughing more intense . . . Dear lord, he gasped out blood. He clawed at Sydney, he clawed. The corners of his mouth began to tear . . . dear lord, I can't . . . I have had nightmares like this . . . He just keeps laughing . . . This is a cruel sickness, cruel, cruel, cruel . . . Sydney tried to help him, he really tried . . . Tommy's laughter never stopped. He fell still. HE FUCKING DIED?!?!?! I WASN'T EXPECTING A CAMPER TO ACTUALLY DIE!!!!! (dear lord . . .). Sydney is asking Soren to come with him. Dear lord Sydney . . . Soren is the only one Sydney can think to turn to. Soren will help get rid of the sickness from the spores. The caves, Sydney and Soren must go into the caves.

. . . I feel awful, so awful, poor Tommy.

Sydney dinner announcement. They took a flamethrower with them. They could hear the laughter of the campers above them, echoing through the cave. They found the heart of the fungus. Sydney used Lucille's flamethrower and took aim at it and pulled the trigger. It collapsed in on itself, the cavern went silent, and stepping out they heard silence. The laughing plague has been killed . . . Sydney lied . . . He said Tommy went home . . . Tommy will never return home . . . Soren was the hero of the day, he just is very (too) passionate about his beliefs.

Soren is making sure Sydney upholds his end of the bargain. Sydney just wants Soren to leave, Soren says that Sydney's artificial heart is cold . . . Soren is gone. Sydney is crying. Sydney . . .

[nullspace-mustard]

for some reason, "you can just do an art project" unlocked a realization that "you can just make art" wasn't able to access.

like yeah i know i can set aside an afternoon and sketch a still life.

but also i can, like. select a random marine creature from a hat and then research them and then spend a bit of time in the evenings and weekends over the course of a few weeks making a diorama.

or i can make an abstract sculpture out of scrap cardboard and masking tape, and then paper mache over it, and then paint it.

or i can draw something with markers and color it in with crayons.

i dunno why it took me so long to realize that, in the same way that i can revisit the games and hobbies that i enjoyed as a kid, and i can orchestrate "presentation parties" so my friends and i can flex our slideshow animation skills, i can also Make Art, Grade School Style (and not just Grownup Art/School Style)

[zooophagous]

My step mom unironically does this with her friends. They call it art club. They're in their 60s

[garbagegothic82]

JIKORONPA IS SO GOOD GUYS. PLAY JIKORONPA. We may or may not be obsessed

[hazen-here]

[stupidlittlespirit]

This is so silly but I'm watching a short video essay on sincerity in cinema and the creator is talking about how he watched Lord of the Rings for the first time at 17. He explains that he'd grown so used to the 'ironic' meta style commentary in the movies of the 2010's that as he was watching the opening narration of LotR, he spent the entire time waiting for the joke to come. For someone to take it all back with a zinger line. He listened to Blanchett describe and explain the backstory, and he waited for the other comedic shoe to drop.

And he kept doing it. Scene after scene.

He spent the film expecting someone to make a joke about how unserious things were or to break the fourth wall or do some other self referential type thing.

Now, maybe I'm just at that point in my cycle or maybe I'm too delicate in general, but I literally teared up hearing that. Straight up cried a bit. It is so fucking sad that sincerity and genuineness is being bred out of people.

People say all the time 'this generation can't take anything seriously!' and really, is it any wonder? Younger people have been trained out of it. You are no longer encouraged to be genuine or show emotion or be honest. You are actively punished for it. In fact, you are almost guaranteed to suffer for it.

That is so fucked up. I'm sorry to go on a bit of a random ramble rant but it's so fucking gut wrenching to see younger people lose that element of themselves. You can't express your passion without being told you're 'crashing out' or 'cringe'. You have to live in this neutral state of fear of perception, and god forbid anybody step outside of it!

You're told you should only consume and succumb and be ironic and emotionless and cool.

Listen, if you're following me and you're like.... 25 or under, let's say. Please. I beg of you. Do not fall for this rhetoric. Please, for the love of all things, feel. Feel and create and be honest with yourself. Indulge in things that make you happy. Be sincere. Wear your heart on your sleeve. Do not let this hyper-capitalistic, hyper-consumerist, self-centred, individualist culture take that from you.

Bleed yourself into the work you create. Live. Don't fucking let anyone tell you different.

[sushizushi6]

I drank three pepsis

[blue-wolfe]

Hello! This week, I had surgery and am currently recovering. I'm okay! But I am out of commission for the most part. Preparing for it and healing took me out for a while.

‼️ EPISODE 68 WILL AIR SUNDAY NIGHT THE 17TH FOR PATRONS AND MONDAY NIGHT THE 18TH FOR EVERYONE!

Thanks, everyone!

[b0nkcreat]

i'm your only friend (realizes that's statistically unlikely) i'm not your only friend (considers my positive qualities) but i'm a little glowing friend (suddenly gets cold feet) but really i'm not actually your friend (remembers to be confident in relationships) but i am

[kinuko]

[sinisternoodles101]

that one oomf who is many 😭😭😭😭

[bernardmarie]

The almost birthday massacre

[girls4losers]

i gotta remember this

[memorycycle]

dont take bird noises for granted

[memorycycle]

next time ur outside and you hear birds just think about how awesome that is and how much it would suck if they were gone

[official-ornithology-posts]

Official ornithology post