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Outside of the fakultas hukum. Oh, Indonesia. Why must you be so frowny face about the environment?
Canyon tubing in the desa... right before my pendamping tried to "walk" off the edge of a jumping cliff to avoid the fright of the leap. Gatot.
Happy Happy Sunshine Tigers
I hate people that use their facebook statuses and twitter accounts to describe their weekly, daily, hourly, and minutely activities. They leave a sour taste in my mouth. If the same thing happened with blogs, it would deeply upset me too, but fortunately for me, I just don't really read those blogs; I wish I could be as picky about my facebook friends, but unfortunately, facebook friends are always more boring than real friends and even though I have implemented some Soviet-style purges of my friend lists, I'm still having problems. SO many solutions to this and all so simple, but facebook, like cocaine and scholarships applications, is a very addictive method of sharing pictures of Nazis slipping on ice with the caption, "Halt; Hammerzeit."
But this is beside the point. I wanted to say that I hate those people, but I have to join them to lay out the kind of week I've had thus far, and it's only Thursday. Actually, this week started... last Wednesday, so I'm plus a day. Thusly, I give you the weekly garik experience.
Last Wednesday, I put together my research for next semester, which will probably start this coming December. With the help of my program director's unfathomable knowledge of Indonesia and everything to do with Indonesia, I decided to make a comparative study between West Java and East Java in terms of their environmental law enforcement practices in biological preserves and national parks, practices that would stem from international environmental and biodiversity conservation groups like the ASEAN Center for Biodiversity. This study would be INCREDIBLY useful in any future attempt to create a framework for biodiversity conservation programes on Java, as this place has problems for those kinds of programes everywhere you look, from Police and government corruption to locals just no giving a shit about pamphlets that suggest they give up their livelihoods for something more green. And as an added bonus, some of the areas where I'm planning field work have side benefits, like the Javan Rhinos in the West and Mt. Bromo, the best place to huck a mountain bike anywhere on Java. My mom is shipping me my pedals, cleats, helmet, and NC State kit, so I am definitely going to get my picture taken with all of the Indonesian national MTB crew, sliding down the side of the volcano with the big block S cutting through the dust. And that picture is definitely going to win the study abroad photo competition. I'll keep adding updates about this project as it evolves.
Then, a couple days later, I made some discoveries that rocked my world. As it turns out, the aforementioned ASEAN Biodiversity Center is in the Philippines, in Laguna right outside of Los Banos, exactly where I was only two months ago now. Damnit. Maybe I can use my connections with IRRI, also in Los Banos, to get me in when I go back this October for the Global Bioethics Conference in Manila. Next came KEHATI, the Indonesian Biodiversity Foundation, given reign over issues of biodiversity conservation for all of the archipelago. And the kicker? As I translated their mission statement, I couldn't help but smile manipulatively when I found out that the last phrase in English was, "... and we are more than willing to help anyone in their efforts to protect the biodiversity here." I smell a partnership. Over the next few weeks, I'm going to be pegging them with e-mails, just like I did with Komodo National Park, and I might even get to go to the island that they don't let tourists go to when I meet up with the national park crew there. They say that the biggest dragons are on that island. I'll just let that statement hang in the air...
Then, this Monday, I had dinner with a PhD candidate from Harvard living in my Kos who is studying the biogeographical history of the spice trade, which includes traveling to Sumatra and asking national park officials questions about "something other than the bloody orangutans", jetting off to the island origins of cloves and nutmeg in the far east archipelago, and netting colossal and giant squids. I had no idea, but ambergris, a waxy grey substance and a staple of Middle Eastern perfume chemistry, comes from sperm whales' inability to digest the beaks of their primary prey, big squids. Ambergris forms around the massive beaks and the whales can more easily pass them form their system, though Muslim scientists and explorers were confused by the presence of these beaks, assuming that there must have been giant birds that tried to eat it and died since they had never seen a giant squid before. But aside from this awesome information, he also told me about Greenpeace Indonesia, and passed on a couple of pamphlets. I was seriously intrigued, as I had been told that the organization I was working for, WALHI, was the most militant of the environmentalist groups in Indonesia and I had speculated about a government ban on Greenpeace. But after registering as an activist on their website, I found them strong and active, particularly in Sumatra where they have adopted the Sumatran Tiger as their flagship species. They even have a bike gang called Tim Mata Harimau which is pretty awesome for a number of reasons, not just the fact that they all have matching bikes and jumpsuits that are painted like tigers. In Indonesian, "mata" means eye, "harimau" means tiger, and "mata hari" means sun, so "mata harimau" could mean either the Eye of the Tiger or Sunshine Tiger. Either way, pretty cool. I'm planning a travel session there, and a possible interview as an undercover American journalist from some magazine or other.
But back in Jogja, I've got my hands full. Today was my first real day at WALHI and I now have an exciting and frankly frightening job. On Monday, Wyatt, the other Boren, was appointed the new manager of their new Urban Farming Jogja campaign, after having a chat with the WALHI staff he likened to a bargin with the mafia; literally, "I think you would be comfortable in THIS role..." He had mentioned to the staff when we toured last week that he had grown up on a farm and that he had planned on involving himself with the urban farming in DC when he got back from Indonesia, and when he came in for job assignment, he found they had taken that to heart. Instead of giving him the options of some of the other campaigns, like water or transport, he got farming, leaving me with what I assumed would be more options than he had since they had filled the spot on their urban farming staff, and I had my eye on water technologies.
I asked today about the possibility of joining the water campaign as the technology specialist, and gave a couple of pictures of projects that I had worked on before, particularly one of the water garden in Belize, though I never actually worked on it, just did some theoretical consulting. The WALHI coordinator took a look at the picture and asked me if I could build that to decontaminate the water of a nearby Jogja village and make it portable so that they could campaign the technology and use it elsewhere. I said "Maybe", and then stressed that it was going to be a lot of work to do something like that and would not be as simple as just making the prototyping the technology, in and of itself not exactly flipping a pancake. But I agreed, and now I'm the resident water technology expert, and most likely the only one really working on the water campaign. I'm not sure if I understood it correctly, but when I asked if there was anyone else working on the project, the coordinator told me that they had someone in the past, but for two years now, no one, so I think I'm starting from scratch. Which is frightening, but also very exciting. I'm going in tomorrow with a plan for what I want to accomplish and what my weeks will look like while working for WALHI, which is going to be a lot more than just coming up with the technology. With any luck, when I finish working at WALHI, there will be a sustainable Water Technology and Landscapes Campaign to last years beyond me. Exciting. Frightening. Thirst Quenching.
To top it off, I got a motorbike today, bought for about 10 Million Rupiah. It's 110cc's, not exactly what I was saddled on in the Philippines, but this is city driving, and I'm thankful for the size reduction every time I look at my gas meter and notice that after an hour of driving, the needle hasn't gone anywhere. And it just looks bad ass. I've made a new dreamline for the 2011-2012 year, and on it, under the "to have" category, is: "Get a motorbike painted like a tiger so that I will blend in with the Sunshine Tigers". I guess it's easier and cheaper than a wingsuit.
So here we go; it seems the period of waiting, finishing projects still at large in the US, and adjusting to all of the things that were critical to know about life in Indonesia has, for the most part, ended, though I still get that vibe that I'll never know Indonesia, for as long as I live and as long as I work here. I'm looking forward to begin a professional again, even though professionalism here mandates an understanding of Bahasa Indonesia, which I don't yet have. Apas.
Look out; I'm Mata Harimau, and I've got a bike again.
Kelas Keras - Hardcore Bahasa Indonesia Shenanigans
I was riding my bike down the street yesterday afternoon when I was nearly struck by a boat. It was driving (On wheels I assume?) down the street bearing a multitude of Indonesian flags and a huge banner proclaiming the existence of the Yogyakarta Geology museum. Sitting in the captain's chair of the boat (on the left side of the car, from the front, since all Indonesian vehicles drive on the left side of the road, even watercraft) was a man with a wide grin and a weather beaten brown face who waved to me as I narrowly avoided being swept under the bow of the geology ship. Just one of the everyday hazards of living in Jogja.
I was really excited because I had just come out of our first round of tests for the semester, midterm progress reports for our language classes. We were supposed to ask each other basic questions about where we lived, activities we did (I was totally prepared for this having written a page about waking up and checking my email for my Indonesian writing class), or other people that we knew. There are some really fluid speakers in my beginner class, and the two that went before me sounded smooth, though with a French accent of course. I went with my new Russian friend, Dima (Indonesian for Demetri?) who took the test in a completely different direction and started off with a bang, as Russians like to do. His first question? "What do you know about the economy of Indonesia?"
A complex question to say the least, and I didn't yet know the words for "mining" and "palm oil", though I struggled through my first few statements substituting in phrases like "coconut things and trees" and "moving rocks" to explain what I meant. I wish it had occurred to me to quote the economist article on the growing smartphone and motor scooter industries in Indonesia. After that, we moved on to some other complex ideas, like tourist attractions, the lack of sidewalks (It never gets old; I might talk about sidewalks at least once in every post from here on out), the fact that I was thwarting the Indonesian government mandate that Bules may not own property by buying a motorbike that afternoon (In someone else's name of course), and bemoaning the fact that Dima was no fan of Cinetron, the Indonesian television phenomenon that sums up a combination of The Days of our Lives with Twilight and Japanese Karaoke music videos. While we may have been struggling to articulate our thoughts, the amount of stifled laughs from our instructor increased, so I'm hoping that saying interesting things will get you a higher grade. Maybe that's wishful thinking. Eh.
But after we sat back down and continued to listen to other students participate int he conversation test, Dima passed me a piece of paper that had a political breakdown discourse on the national representation in the classroom. On our side, there were strong ties between America and Russia, and side treaties with Poland, who was an up-and-coming presence in the Eastern classroom. To the north, Europe was dominating and forming self-sustaining relationships, primarily between French interests and Swedish interests. They mostly talked amongst themselves, but when prompted, interacted widely. Shifting west, you found more Asian-Pacific presence, dominated by Koreans with a lone Japanese representative, and two western delegates, an Australian and a US rep, cut off from his the Eastern US forces and looking to make a relationship in the primarily Asian West classroom. Back on the Eastern side, a Japanese rep, also cut off from the Asian cohort, was struggling to keep ties between himself and the Asians strong. By long distance technologies (cellphones and just yelling), the other Japanese were translating encoded Indonesian transmissions for him.
I loved it, and the two of us are now starting an inner-class, physical game of Risk. To flex our linguistic skills' muscles, we're going to recruit people for international campaigns to rule the classroom and dominate our global microcosm. So the next time one of our teacher's asks one of us to make a sentence using a particular word or structure, we might say something like, "Paul will eat there tonight, but the next morning, a forceful Korean leader will take over the area and Paul will no longer be able to cross the border to get to that delicious restaurant." I'm excited.
And I think it says a lot for our potential for language learning that something like this, a game that could result in both extremely hilarious and deeply offending situations, is happening in a beginner's classroom. I had just filled out application forms for the CLS programs, an intensive language study program run in-country by the department of state, and they asked me to talk about what I would bring to programs like theirs. My response was largely that, with language programs, I have little respect for sticking to fundamentals and often work backwords (p.u.n.) to figure out grammar, which, to be honest, can sometimes be to my detriment. Instead, I like to launch into fun, combative, confrontational, offensive, hilarious, and engaging subjects that will keep me entertained, like pretending to start a war in a classroom full of foreign students, using historical facts to say really funny things. It makes you feel like you are actually doing something useful with the language, learning information that you really want to know, like the locations of anti missile installments in Poland, instead of endlessly asking you neighbor about the exact hour they brushed their teeth. It does kind of stunt your vocabulary in some fields if you only talk about war and diplomacy, but if you really want to learn how to tell time, maybe you can talk about how many minutes you have until that explosive detonates at a particular bridge to incite conflict between Japan and Slovakia. I just think we will all be better off if we are inspired to learn Bahasa Indonesia so that we can defend our homelands from the threat of foreign students.
**** Was this post too politically incorrect? I appreciate your comments ****
Indo-Air: Walk of the Water Bottles
Tonight, I feel like a real champ; I just wrote my first email in Indonesian. And it wasn't some trite little hello/goodbye thing. I just started my internship with WALHI, the Indonesian Friends of the Earth here in Jogja, and this was a full out discussion of what I want to work on with them. Not a trivial matter. This feels like a huge accomplishment. I would say "break out the frozen fruit", but there is literally none to be found here. I only have one vice, and Indonesia can't supply. Oh well.
Indonesia has thrown me a number of interesting professional questions since I arrived here, ones that I'm really interested in answering, and I am only limited by the fact that I'm one little Boren Scholar. And also the fact that you can be banned from ever entering the country again if you screw up with your research permissions. I'm going to have to toe some lines, but provided I can do that, there is so much going on here, so much potential, beyond just falling into holes in the sidewalks that is (I had a conversation with an Indonesian classmate about this the other day; he asked me about American culture and I told him that it was easier to walk there. His next question? "Are there as many holes in the sidewalks there?" I tell you, the danger is REAL!)
Take for instance the focus I want to work with for WALHI: Water. In the states, we hear a lot about how there are so many people on the planet who don't have access to clean water, that thousands of children die every day from waterborne illnesses, that families have to walk miles every day just to blah blah blah blah blah. It is the ultimate guilt trip. Water is the ultimate need; we can't go for more than a few days without it, yet, according to the experts, most of the world can walk to a faucet to refresh themselves every time the urge presents itself. Well, it's kind of hard to imagine when you have water fountains all over your college campus or just use water out of the tap, but out here? Your perspective changes a bit after the third 3-day long bowel evacuation, and after the second time you forget that you're out of bottled water and have to hold the microbial filter you bought for jungle adventures up to your shower head so that you can get a fill up for your nalgene. For the privileged, like myself, it's a serious inconvenience. I actually walk about a quarter of a mile with all of the water I want to consume every few days whenever I run out and have to go to the grocery store (woe be unto him who forgets after Giant is closed). For underprivileged? Well with 85% of the wells and water sources in Jogja reportedly contaminated with E. Coli, it's kind of a bad situation. Right now, there are apparently some clean water suppliers in Jogja (Government sponsored) but the more they are used, the worse off they get. Everyone just uses refillable gallons or disposable water bottles (I swear if there was any other way...) and we all know what kind of devil lies in plastic bottles.
So what to do about it? The public considers the government responsible and is iffy about any kind of privatization (This is coming from Indonesian environmental advocacy readers). I'm not sure why exactly, but the history that Indonesia has had with privatization of natural resources might be a huge glaring hint that the public would balk over more resource exploitation. Kind of like Europe and their unspoken limits on free speech; there is an invisible line that separates private business form natural resources. It's just a shame that in Indonesia, it seems, that line gets crossed fairly frequently. Hence the UGM forestry department's focus on how to cut down trees and transport them elsewhere in the fastest and most economic way.
Well, as a materials science engineer, I've been exposed to a number of different ideas that have been put forward in the area of water filtration, purification, and general chemistry, and I'm wondering how much of those cool tech and biotech innovations made it over here, which was one of my primary points of contention with scientific and engineering culture when I applied for the Udall. From my Udall essays:
“There is a serious disconnect between valuable scientific research in sustainable technologies and the responsible, economically attractive implementation of that technology to address social needs,” says Sadovy. “As an entrepreneurial engineer, I want to bridge that gap by creating globally oriented, sustainable development strategies for our future, based in solid science but with an understanding of cultural context.”
I said everything I needed back then, and this is just another challenge in the engagement of this principle. I've got tons of leads, including one article about banana peels. Can you dig? It won't do anything about the E. Coli (there are other things for bacteria), but what if there was a standing regulation on industrial polluters that they must raise and use the fruit peelings of x number of banana trees each year? landscaping that is tasty, humorous, and practical.
But what does this have to do with biodiversity, my ultimate passion and the focus of my eventual research project here? Well, I wondered that myself, for about five minutes. Then I found this TED talk. More often than not, I see these innate connections that I fear can't be seen by others, like the connection between clean water and animals being able to live in it. You know, sometimes it's hard to explain the most simple things to people with the ability to say yay or nay to a proposal of yours, or to tell you that something was useless just because the connection between biodiversity conservation and education and serving the underdeveloped world is not as obvious as aspiring to end hunger. Sometimes, it sucks to be passionate about something that isn't trivial to explain in terms of practical benefits, but on the other hand, it keeps you honest. You have to work for your supporters and you have to be able to back your facts up. That's why it was a kind of deflation of tension to see this TED talk on the threat of unsanitary water in India not only to humans, but to Gharials and King Cobras. As it transpires, big reptiles don't like to live in shitty water either; it appears that the interests of human and beast, in this case at least, align. And, as an added bonus, the presenter gave me a feeling of nostalgia. Oh, my childhood days.
Oh, if water is clear and you are visible, you are at risk for having a mushroom head. One downside.
It seems that Jabba failed to pay enough to get the whole package and Fett delivered the head elsewhere. I found it in Surakarta.
TII (This Is Indonesia), dig? Dug.
Well oops. As it transpires, my tumblog is not updating with my backlogged posts every few days. Sorry guys; maaf, maaf. I know enough Indonesian now to be at that annoying level of understanding where it's fun for me to say things in my recently learned language to people who don't speak it, and then to regard incomprehension with a certain nonchalance, as if to say, "Ah, but what to you know; you are more bule (crazy foreigner adj.) than I am." My ex used to do this to me with Arabic, and an old Spanish teacher with his considerably larger vocabulary. I would usually respond with some Russian or Polish phrase, or perhaps some German sounding stream of syllables that I picked up from Rammstein songs, which would frustrate them back into English, or more decipherable Spanish. Now I have my revenge.
But let me take a break and tell you about Indonesia, why I've been off the grid, and what this year without sex, drugs, alcohol, or too much rock N' roll is shaping up to be thus far (I'll more likely be listening to unceasing calls to prayer from my local masjid). They have a saying in Africa: TIA. In the words of K'naan, a rap artist who has yet to cover the Lion King soundtrack (Sir, with all due respect, you should), it means, "This is Africa", a phrase usually associated with an understanding that Africa is a place of harsh realities that most white people will never understand, like guns and unnecessary death. The phrase awoke in my mind while I was in a hammock in the Philippines, and I decided that the country deserved its own, "TIP", which would represent the likelihood of being hit by a typhoon at any given moment. And then I got to Indonesia, and I immediately understood that there was a serious need for the mass popularization of "TII", This is Indonesia, because, if anything has helped me to understand this country, it is the general relevance of a phrase like that. Because where other countries have general themes for people and culture that can be understood and seen, almost all of the rules that I've attempted to use in Indonesia for judging aspects of society have been broken, and another couple of weeks will sunder the rest. It's TII, which means that anything and everything will happen. Lay aside all hopes of using logic in this country and just have fun; all of the Indonesians are.
Welcome to Indonesia, the most prejudiced country in the world against pedestrians. Want to walk? Try the sidewalks. They are slabs of concrete that have been set directly above the sewage lines. Every now and then, you might come across a gaping hole which will swallow you up if you commit the ultimate mistake of not looking where your feet are going. And even if you miss all of the holes, there's also a good chance that it might just cave in under you feet, and you can say goodbye to your leg as it falls into the clutches of rats below.
Ok then, maybe I'll drive or bike? Are you used to driving a car? Well you probably won't be doing that here; Jogja is a city of motorbikes. And you've driven one before? Well that's good. Maybe it will take you less time to figure out how to get around. Take Dallas rush hour traffic, packed together like sardines, and then insert pushcarts, falling debris, dumptruck collisions, running pedestrians, and motorbikes anywhere there is enough space to shake a stick. Now apply disordered and completely random motions, which are, in some places loosely regulated by traffic lights, and you'll get close to traffic here. I had a lot of practice weaving my way through foot traffic at NC State, so I was more prepared than most for riding my bike here, and I've made it to the point where I race with the motor bikes. I'm looking forward to the day when I can just hang on the back of a bus.
Welcome to Indonesia, where buses don't stop and old ladies run to jump through the doors of rusty contraptions called "tetanus" buses, where they will probably ride next to seats occupied by chickens. Where, in small mountain climbing guide posts you might find a collection of wall decorations including an Islamic plaque, a gold framed cigarette add, and a small square portrait of David Bowie, in his classic Ziggy Stardust jumper. Where it is reasonable that your car might smash into the back of a dumptruck which has stopped entirely on a highway, and where the foreigners in your car will demand that they be compensated by a cold bintang, a beer that costs maybe $3. And it had better be cold; none of that warm shit.
Welcome to Indonesia, where military security is extremely friendly, especially if you are friends with the commander of the mounted cavalry. Real Occurrence:
Major: So have these two had any military experience before?
Member of the Indonesian royal bloodline (a friend): No. They are both here studying on United States Department of Defense scholarships though.
Major: Oh, yeah. That's really cool.
Commander: So, who wants to go drive a tank?!
Borens Kecil: Me me me! I do! I do!
Tank: RUUUUMMMBBBLEEEE.... BANG RUMMMMMMBBBLLLEEEEE
Major: Hop on in.
Welcome to Indonesia where some nights, you might get to have a chat with the king of a province, whose daughter is about your age. A member of the national Polisi unit from the capital, Jakarta, might give you an impromptu neck rub. The head of the Indonesian Journalists Society, editor of all three of the most important newspapers (the word for newspaper is "Koran"), will teach you slang in his room full of laughing women at two in the morning. If you want, the gardeners will run through the property looking for a cobra so that you can be bitten as a defense against other snake bites and "masuk angin", a sickness where, literally, the wind enters you.
Welcome to Indonesia, land of eternal optimism, where you are not single, but "not yet married", and the word for young is "muda" while the word for easy is "mudah", pronounced pretty much the same way. People might look at you like you are Hitler in Israel, but if you nod, say mongo, permisi, or greet them with any number of references to the time of day, their faces will light up like yours would if someone gave you a copy of Spaceballs. Or maybe that would just be my face. Go to the roadside framed picture shops and watch as rotary saws are laid out along the sidewalk for their owners to use in frame cutting throughout the day. Batik shirts might look like some strange Hawaiian/50's homemaker crossbreed, but in formality, they are the equivalent of a three piece suit, and if you've got long sleeves, a tux.
Welcome to Indonesia, where Universities not only delay school for the whole month of Ramadan so that students can complete the fasting outside of class, but where Ramadan itself (an entire month) escapes the notice of the university staff so that you only find out that school is canceled about a week before it was supposed to start. Here, you never say that you don't have a religion; you can say deist, agnostic, existentialist, pastafarian, whatever the hell you want, but atheism is just not a part of the mentality, or the official forms one must fill out in order to get a long term visa. There might not be alcohol, and it might be a sin to make it, but Durian, a huge spiky fruit that will impale your skull and leave you dead on the ground if it were to fall on you, has fleshy hearts that ferment in the sun, and after a whole durian, you WILL be drunk off your ass. I think it was an army general from Timor Leste that told me, "If you eat Durian, and then drink alcohol, you are going to the hospital."
Welcome to Indonesia, specifically my city, Jogjakarta, or Yogyakarta, where there are more universities that you can fit in a... normal city. Way more than 100 at least, the most prestigious of which is Universitas Gadjah Mada, where I take classes in language, sociology and political science, as well as architecture. UGM is called the "Yale" of Indonesia. On one of our first days there, Wyatt and I decided to take a picture with the big university name out front, and propped up the fallen letter "J" so that the "Gadjah" would be complete. In Jogja, citizens are fighting for the "keistimewaan", or specialness, of the region, as the national government wants to remove the governing powers of the Sultan of Jogja, who is the only Sultan in all of Indonesia who is more than a figurehead and actually governs the city. During natural disasters, you can see him riding in circles around the city, sitting in his horse drawn carriage, protecting the city through ancient majicks that are known only to the royal bloodline. Our friend might get us tickets to the royal wedding of his daughter to a man of the house of Solo this October. The English descriptions of this wonderful affair describe it as "a royal Weeding to rival that of England's".
Welcome to Indonesia, where you might see some example of warnings against strange diseases, written in Bahasa Inggris, posted on buses and in malls, asking you to be on your guard against ailments such as "Sudden Happy Fever". The number one killers of urban Indonesians (I'm surprised it has nothing to do with bike crashes) are diabetes and heart disease. I still don't remember the word for "without sugar", which is why I mostly cook for myself. Go to a gym and you will witness strangely buff Chinese Indonesian men who have no reservations about standing in front of the mirror you are trying to use to correct your deadlift posture and flexing their muscles for five minutes, trying to get the image just right.
Welcome to Indonesia, were out on the island of Bali, the majority of vacationing Australians, the dominant form of Balinese life on the island, are actually unaware that they are in Indonesia. You will cringe at the multitude of singlets, butt tats, and oddly carried rolls of fat, and for once in your life, you will be proud to be an American in a foreign country (Don't get me wrong, I love Australians, it's just something about Bali that turns them into... euhhgg). You might even share a bule crack with an Indonesian who will laugh and then look at you oddly, for, of course, you have white skin too.
Welcome to Indonesia, where everyone is striving to be whiter, to move up in the class ranking system. TV actors are all white. You will notice the distinctly whiter shades of people running for mayoral positions. In Apa Ada Dengan Cinta, an Indonesian film I watched, the teacher with the darkest skin is portrayed as the most laughable and least respected; he reminded me of Quasimodo or Gollum. There was one scene where he swept trash down the stairs while a popular female student demanded answers from him about her boy toy, Rangga, who had beaten her in a poetry contest and then decided to move to NYC. If you want to get whiter, there are special additives in lotions marked "lebih putih!", probably titanium oxide, that will just whiten that skin up. Huh. Thousands of westerners trying to get a healthy tan any way that they can, even by spraying bronze juice on their bodies, and the developing Southeast Asian world would give anything for a melanin transplant.
And do you know what the strangest thing of all is? I don't find any of these things strange. I like it here. In fact, I love it here. The unpredictability. The fact that whatever you do, you will probably be late, or someone will be late. Island time. Jam karet. I love the language that seems to be all about meanings, and when I get better with it, I might even appreciate it more than English, and I bloody love English. As for me, I haven't even gotten started. I'm here for biodiversity, and as my language gets better, I am starting to reach out, understand things, and put together my project. Give me a month. I'll give you a photo of me fighting a Komodo Dragon that has gotten a hold of some of my papers.
14 Feet away from the summit of Rinjani, the third tallest peak in Indonesia as well as one of the dirtiest national parks that I have ever seen. If you go, do everyone a favor and pack out your trash.
Letter for Obama - From the Udall Listserve
The Udall Scholars like to do their thing with passion, which often means that I get emails telling me more than I have a stomach for about the state of the world today. I thought I would pass this particular letter from the list serve on:
"Educating the mind without educating the heart is no education at all." - Aristotle "We cannot solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them." - Albert Einstein ________________________________________ Dear Friends and Colleagues, Below is my open letter to Pres. Obama regarding the Tar Sands. Please do me the huge favor of taking a moment to read it, and then, if you can, please do two more small favors. First, forward it widely so people know what's happening and will make contact with Obama. And regarding that--second, contact Obama and tell him no tar sands pipeline. Tell him you are tired of Indigenous people taking the hit for our oil addiction, you're tired of multinational corporations running the world and telling us what we can and can't do, and emphasize that you understand that climate change is a huge and immediate crisis that needs to be addressed now, this minute, and that tar sands oil must stay in the ground. I know a lot of you in this group of emails have lost faith in the political process and don't participate. Some of you will think this letter isn't radical enough. It isn't meant to be. It's meant to make an argument, to persuade. I know the issue is the entire global colonial-capitalist system, and that's a huge thing we are fighting to address. But, this pipeline issue is an emergency. With a stroke of the pen, Obama can shut down the whole project. It's not likely but it's possible we can turn him around. Please help in this emergency, just for a minute, even if it's something you don't believe will help or it's something you wouldn't ordinarily do. Obama's contact information is below the letter. Thank you, and peace, Virginia (see tarsandsaction.org or just google tar sands protest or tar sands arrests for more information) An Open Letter to President Obama about the Tar Sands Arrests Dear President Obama, My name is Virginia Kennedy. I am a fifty-year old mother of three. I was one of 65 citizens arrested in front of your house – my house really, the country’s house – the Whitehouse, on the first day of the Tar Sands action, Saturday August 20th, and kept in jail for the weekend. We spent the weekend in jail because we asked you to reject the Keystone XL Pipeline. To reject tar sands oil, the extraction of which is destroying Indigenous people’s lands and lives and decimating boreal forest lands. The oil which if extracted and burned will mean, in the words of your NASA climate scientist James Hansen, “game over for the climate.” That’s game over for my children, for your children, for everyone’s children. Just so you have the full picture, I was in a holding cell with twelve other women who participated in the action. Most of these women were not perennial activists. Many had never participated in such an action before. These women from ages 20 to 70 were retired schoolteachers, grandmothers, college students, a pilates instructor supporting her husband in graduate school, working women supporting themselves or supporting families. Every one of whom decided that this is the issue of issues because we are talking about the earth itself, the viability of human life on our planet, a planet we are irreversibly harming. They decided they had to join with all the other voices who are trying to make you listen and trying to give you courage to take this step; to take this stand against the fossil fuel industry – the moneyed interests that regularly demand you yield to them. And more of the picture, Mr. Obama, we were in a holding cell for the majority of the time. A freezing cement cellblock with no windows and one solid metal door, no way to see out. No blankets. Nowhere to lie down. An open toilet in the corner. Glaring fluorescent lights that never dimmed. We were kept without food or water for 18 hours. And then given bread, cheese and water every twelve hours after that. I want you to know I thought about you a lot during those long hours. I wondered about the power you have or maybe don’t have. Maybe it has just gotten impossible for any politician to stand up to the brutal, greedy bullying of the fossil fuel companies. Or maybe you don’t want to. I wondered how I could be in a jail cell with a group of women who were guilty of nothing but trying to get their president to listen to them, to listen to reason. Women who stood peacefully with a whole group of citizens who said we want clean energy. We want an end to oppression by a fossil fuel industry that wants the world to believe we have no choices but the choices they want to give us. I wondered if you knew about Tim deChristopher, the young man in jail for two years for posing as an auctioneer to save thousands of acres of public lands from being auctioned to mining companies. The auction itself was found to be illegal. No consequences for that, though. I wondered if you ever think about the 11 dead men killed in the BP Horizon disaster, the 29 dead coal miners dead at the Massey coal mine, the reports of negligence, the environmental decimation, all the lives and livelihoods destroyed. Not one indictment. No repercussions really at all. A few dollars lost, then back to business as usual. And then there is us, tax-paying, law-abiding folks freezing in a filthy jail cell for standing politely in front of the Whitehouse and asking for clean energy. For asking you to do the right thing. For trying to give you the courage to do the right thing for your daughters, and for ours. I thought about you together with your family in Martha’s Vineyard while we were body searched, shackled, and paraded ankles chained into a federal prison cell to await our time in front of a judge while our families worried about where we were; what was happening to us. I wondered how you’d feel if Malea or Sasha ended up in such a situation for such an “offense”, what that would inspire you to do. I wondered if you ever spent any time in the DC prison right in your front yard, filled with mainly African Americans of every age, some of whom are legitimately bad news, but many, many of whom are guilty of nothing much more than being caught in the terrible cycle of poverty and defenselessness generated by a system that would jail them instead of supporting their rights, their education, or their humanity. A system that would incarcerate a poor woman for being drunk on the street and reward a CEO ultimately responsible for the deaths of his own workers with more and more profits. I wondered who you are, Mr. Obama, what your values are. Because I can’t really tell. I hold out hope you’ll send a signal and reject this pipeline because I have to hold out hope. But, contrary to that famous slogan of yours, since you came on the scene, there hasn’t been too much change, and you do not make hoping easy.
You are one SUUUUPAAAH DANCAAAH!
This kid was asking for it. I had put my token up on the machine like any player who knows the social code of the game would, and this kid was looking at me like I had just slung a bag of oranges up on top of the machine. I met his incredulous look with some hand motions to explain that I wanted to play next game, as he had been playing for several rounds now. And he was pretty good, playing in a classical style that you actually tend to see in most competitions and amongst Asian players (I know from youtube videos and tourist destination arcades in the states). He played heavy mode, and gripped the bar while his feet flew across the pad. At one point, he and one of his friends had done a doubles song, and had carried out the intricate two man dance pretty well, which I definitely respect, since I have never been good at that style, not having the resources or motivation to practice it as much as single player. But I've got no respect for a DDR player that won't give up the pad; it's about to be on. I've got to school this kid.
For those who don't know, DDR, or Dance Dance Revolution, was a truly revolutionary video game release by Konami that hit the US like a tsunami back in the early 2000s. It was already a smashing success in Asia, but when America's shores first got their taste of the first game to make an interactive footpad popular, it went viral. DDR machines quickly became the most popular places in arcades and crowds of people, seasoned veterans and mall passers by alike, stopped to stare as the players would break out their moves. The game is a dancing game (probably obvious to you), and the player scores points by hitting arrows beneath their feet that correspond to arrows that move across a screen in front of you. The arrows point in the cardinal directions and players have to quickly move their feet and bodies across the foot pad in order to complete the complex arrow patterns that follow the beat of a song. There are three different levels, light, standard, and heavy, heavy being a kind of malestorm of moving feet, and the difficulty of each song also fluctuates, being measured in feet. For a heavy player, a five foot song is so simple that often it's hard to do, because the steps are not complex and rhythmic enough. An eight foot song will be tough and a nine foot song is a formidable giant, though most are easily handled. Ten footers are kind of a deathtrap, but there are, believe it or not, players that have mastered them. The game developed a cult following with players getting so good at the hardest songs in the game that they could play them without looking at the screen or with invisible arrows and score full combos. I remember going to Crabtree mall in my youth for the Raleigh DDR Tournaments. They would take the machine down to the main level and put it right out in the center of the mall, and for the entire day, all of the activity would revolve around a bunch of strangely dressed, wild haired, sometimes rail thin, sometimes radically obese, who stomped on a lighted pad for hours on end.
I happened to be pretty good at the game. I mastered my fair share of nine and ten footers, and actually participated in a few competitions. The amount of practice I put into DDR is probably rivaled by only a few other pursuits in my life, since, as any normal teenager would, I needed my video game fix, and the only video game my mom was willing to let us buy was DDR, because it involved mroe than just thumb exercise. In fact, both my brother and I credit DDR as the factor that set us apart when we started playing lacrosse. Our footspeed, especially for quick little maneuvers was unexpectedly swift, and the constant dancing kept our hears ready for even the toughest acts of endurance. It was like running miles in place, but with the added benefit of flashing lights, pumping music, and the significant risk of seizures.
So when I caught the attitude this kid was throwing my way and his reluctance to give up the pad to some white kid who obviously didn't know anything about the game that is usually considered the territory of Asians, I was feeling a throwdown of the likes the world had not seen for many an age. After his set ended, I stepped up onto the pad and stood my ground, offering him the pad next to me. He calmed down and we both put our money in; we would essentially be playing against each other for three songs, playing the same song and then having our scores compared at the end. He quickly flipped through the first couple of menus which were in Chinese, and when we got to our individual level selections, I took my time. I flipped a few times between standard and heavy, watching his face for surprise, and I got what I was looking for when I finally pressed heavy and saw him give me a long stare.
I got up on the pad next to him and offered him the first song. He flipped through the songs extremely quickly, with the look of someone who had been doing this, at this arcade and with this machine, for eras before I showed up. He finally settled on "Healing Vision" a difficult nine footer that moves like the devil and has a pretty sickeningly sinister beat. I happen to be a huge fan. I kept my hand on the select button and made some adjustments to the settings, as he did the same and I think it was at this point that he realized that he was dealing with more than just newbieville. The song began, and in proper form, I scored something like a 50 or 60 combo right off the bat. Not bad for not having played in more than 6 months. I managed to score an A over his B in the end, mainly I believe, because "Healing Vision" used to be one of my competition songs, one where I would half memorize the steps in order to get a leg up on an opponent who had not. This dude was now looking at me with a kind of hostility, like I had tricked him into losing face in front of people, and indeed, the crowd of people was growing behind us, especially after a white kid beat someone on his home turf.
The second song was mine, and I decided to try something crazy. One of my favorite songs, and one of the ones I'm actually kind of rubbish at, has a name that can't be ignored and a beat that will really get you going; I decided to go with "Afronova" for the second of the set. My opponent knew how to handle himself on this song, and unfortunately, I got tripped up about halfway through and found it difficult to recover during a string of very fast moving double taps. I recovered at the stream steps (an uninterrupted volley of foot strikes all over the pad), and managed to salvage my score at the end, making a C against his B. Reasonable. I did it to myself.
So now he's up again, and wouldn't you know it, but this guy decided to save his real score for the end, and as I watched his selection, I saw that I had him beat. His choice was a nine footer with a lot of notes and a beat that well matches the steps, offering a good chance for a massive combo even if you do break it at some point: "Tsugaru". Now you might ask how I know all of this about that particular song, and I would have to tell you that if there was any song I could play blind, Tsugaru would be the one. People make fun of me for my prowess at the galloping steps of its sitar beat. About 30 seconds into the song, around the time when I hit a 100 combo and he was still stuck around 30, he must have realized what was up. I schooled him on probably the one song he could have chosen that would have absolutely redeemed me. I stepped off of the pad to an A, which was short of an AA by only two notes, right at the end. He had a B, though the numerical sore was high.
In the end, however, it was his tally against mine and we tied B to B, though for my part, I had the higher numerical score, which is really the only thing that matters, since all DDR players are pretty sure that a little leprechaun hides in the machine and screws up the scores. I stepped off of the pad and held out my hand for a good game shake, evidently something that he didn't usually do. Around us, people from the arcade and the adjacent movie theater were mumbling to each other and pointing at me with strange looks on their faces. I had just played an Asian game and beaten an Asian. What foolishness. I walked through the crowd, fully conscious of the chattering and pointing and I got taken back to the days of DDR at the local hangouts, where whole cadres of teens would stand around the machine talking and appraising the players, looking for game and looking for weakness. I miss those days, and I miss those feelings, but it may be that during my year in Asia, I break back into the close knit DDR society, a strange social paradox.
Because DDR players are almost like musicians, practicing hour after hour, memorizing complex moves in order to create a visual piece of moving artwork that is truly a wonder to behold when done right. I haven't seen it done right for a while, and I have a hankering to see a masterpiece. Perhaps I'll find it here, and perhaps I'll find the lost tribe of foot artists that left the shores of the US so long ago. One thing is for sure however; I won't let them get off too easy. My feet can give anyone a run for their money.
Why the Jungle? explained in three parts: Part 1
When we were sitting in the travel clinic back in NC, and my doctor gave me a list of places in the Philippines where I should be taking malaria meds, my mom turned to me and said that I didn't have to go there. She was probably biased because Palawan was the first place listed as high risk, but it is a relevant thing to say. Why exactly am I out in the jungle, and why did I say to her, "No. It is my destiny" like some fool kid from a B roll.
So I thought it might be relevant to explain how and why I find myself in the Philippines, sheltering in a bamboo enclosure from the night rains and preparing to go out into the muddy floods to sit in a tree for a while. White people who zip past Malbato on the main highway stop when they see me making a trek down the bright pavement, assuming that I must be lost, that no self respecting buleh (that's Indo for foreigner) would be out in the jungle wearing a smelly grey, blood stained REI shirt and toting a backpack full of camera equipment in the driving rain. But some bulehs just don't care, and for the most part, I happen to be one of them, though, I will admit; I dig a good hot shower when I can get it. You know, just to get the jungle juice out of my pores. So I'll tell you a little bit about me, a historical treatise if you will, and fill you in on how I got here and what the hell I'm doing.
So it started when I was a little kid, and there's so much to say that I'll just briefly explain my obsession, because it was an obsession. I got high off of dangerous animals, the more deadly, the better. Sharks. Snakes. Dinosaurs. Lizards. And to a lesser extent, big cats and bears. I had books, I had photos, I had field guides, I had movies, and I studied everything. I saw snippets of Jurassic Park on TV and decided to take it several steps further. I read The Lost World, the Jurassic Park, and meanwhile filled up a black spiral bound with sequences of genetic code that I wrote on the wide ruled lines, each one I imagined coded for a different dinosaur, preferably a raptor (Though I knew that Spielberg's modeling studios had made the proportions closer to the Utahraptor). I had another red spiral bound, actually three, in which I drew every species of venomous snake that I could find in the field guides. Dozens of pages just devoted to spitting cobras. I was convinced that I would either become the marine biologist to finally uncover the secret behind Great White Shark mating behaviors or a genetic engineer who would somehow make it out of the lab to also be the game warden for a land of dinosaurs. I blame my parents; they are the one's who gave me Al Gidding videos from the 90s and bought me models of rexes.
But I wasn't just taking in the information either; at a young age, I was already forming a passion for sharing my obsession with others and teaching my peers and superiors the nuances of my drug habit. My kindergarten teacher, Dawne Hathaway, who probably saw this better than anyone else, stoked the fire. She let me buy a king snake for my class and, once I had graduated beyond her classroom, had the unimaginably wonderful idea to have me lead a seminar for her students on sharks, something I was probably more of an expert on then than now. I did it for her class, then the next day did it for my fellow first graders. I had models, giant drawings that I had made myself, charts of information that my dad had helped me prepare, and a piece of collectible artwork that I myself had autographed. I wonder if anyone still has one of those? I imagine they're pretty rare at this point.
Well I kept that up throughout elementary, middle, and high school, and through a number of different phases and interests in my life. Legos and archetectural design. Space, stars, and black holes. European history during WWII and Nazi mysticism. Food and anthropological nutrition. Lacrosse. Competitive DDR. Bio and Nano technology. Boy Scouts. Turntables and rap music. My professional boychoir. Deadly megafauna biodiversity survived all of that, sometimes in the back of my head and sometimes right at the front. Every year I went back to Dallas, and showed my charts and posters and models to kindergartners who just ate it up.
Around my senior year of high school, The decision came. You know the one. It's usually prompted by your parents and it seems like you can never give it enough thought to bear the consequences. It starts out as where are you going to college and what major are you going to choose, but looking at it from a high school perspective, the question might more aptly be phrased, what are you going to do with your life? And like all dedicated Crichton fanatics, I remembered Sarah Harding's advice, that no one smart knows what they want to do before they are 25, and even then, it's still kind of up in the air. But I was good at math and science, so it seemed obvious that I should chose to focus on those areas, since, as it was pointed out to me by a number of people (not just my parents) that money is an important consideration for one's life, and there would be plenty of it for an engineer. So engineer I became.
My decision process wasn't all that bad, in fact it was a pretty solid way of choosing the subject of my education, and probably the reason why I finished the same major I started back in '08. I thought of everything that seemed cool to me, and found my mind drifting towards a particular computer game, one of the few I owned, that had opened my eyes to the possibilities that biotechnology and this new field of nanotechnology had to offer to the world: Deus Ex. The science of the game, though it was only briefly explained, filled my head with stories of technological gods, the advancement of human kind, and the possibility that molecular engineering might actually mean that superpowers could become a reality. It was cool, it was interesting, and that's why I chose to throw myself into materials science and engineering. I wanted to make supersoldiers. Now I wasn't all GI Joe about it; I saw clearly the implications of nanotechnology for improving the lives of those less fortunate. I had been working with migrant farmworkers for about two years by that time and borne witness to their needs and struggles, and I saw how technological advances in biological engineering might mean an improvement in the quality of their lives. But there was always a contest between the two reasons for studying what I studied, and in the end, I found myself dwelling more on the awe I was suffering at the hands of images my mind could create of human bodies augmented with biotech applications. Superhumans. And so I started school...
In part two, witness my breakdown.
Schooling Asia at it's own game; a DDR nut goes to the source to fight the good fight. I think I made a "B" on Burning Heat when this was taken.
"No, it's my fault. I don't speak Indonesian; Yet..."
And life slows down for a bit, at least long enough to maybe go back and edit those 20 blog posts that are waiting to hit the fan.
I made it; I'm in Indonesia. The harrowing process of filling two whole pages with visa stamps between flying/laying over about 29 hours to get back to the states for the Udall retreat in Tuscon and then, after a week of being the guy up at 4:08 in the morning having a conversation, trying to keep himself adapted to sweaty weather in the hot tub, or making sure living arrangements were tight as unto a dish when he left the country again, embarking on the reverse journey, which included nervous moments where I thought a lazy Malaysian bus driver was going to const me $10,000 and six months of my life, is finally over. I am home for the next year. And, believe it or not, this place reminds me of Belize, and is not as hot as the Philippine jungle! I could not have be more fully blessed. I will probably feel this way until the first rain comes.
I've only been here for a couple of hours, but as soon as I stepped off of the plane, I went into culture consumption mode. Look at those two dudes whipping the ground at a traffic light and then panhandling for their "performance(?)". Ah, that taxi cab has a tiger on it and the address of a zoo; I wonder if there's a zoo here? How do I say animal? That man is driving a bike on the highway. I want to buy a bike. I wonder how much that motorcycle would cost? Wow; the Islamic University is amazing. I wonder when we'll get to UGM? Will I stand in the same place as Richard Lloyd Perry when he stood in the middle of the Suharto student riots in 1998? That would be epic.
So, I try to slow down, but there is much to do. Coming from the Udall retreat with a grand plan for life and a methodology for accomplishing it. Now I must begin to think in Indonesian. In 12 months I must be scientifically fluent, presenting my research thesis (30 min of delivery, 30 min of Q & A) before the university faculty of UMM and the Malang press, entirely in Bahasa Indonesian.
Also, I have to update you on what went on while I was stalking the Philippine jungle, pooping in Singaporean wastebaskets, connecting with the top dogs in Manila, becoming part of the Udall family (Kennedys; the Udalls of the East), and just generally mucking about with no power, internet, or any other means of communicating these adventures. Smoke signals are difficult to accomplish in the monsoons. Expect these adventures:
1) Learning to Ride motorbikes at 100mph
2) Why I muck about the jungle
3) 77 Years of Pig hunting and general badassery
4) The island of the snakes and my young explorer
5) Singapore vagabonding - the craziest visa run ever
6) Last days of barefooting
7) Harrowing Journeys
8) Learning how to connect
9) Udall 1: Native American Indians and Twilight
10) Udall 2: Meeting Ferriss Fans
11) Udall 3: Trustees in the pool and Les Mis
Plus a few movies, since I have a decent connection to upload right now. Can you dig? I'm excited as hell. Let the Indonesian rumpus begin!
Night at the Church. Malbato
Tips on Waiting Out a Monsoon
The thing about the Philippines during the rainy season (There are two seasons; rainy and dry. I was balked at when I said the USA has four. Damn; four seasons? Never expected to feel proud of the diversity of the weather in the States) is that it rains; a lot. Back in Raleigh, constant rain would usually mean that after about the second day, one would get moody and depressed, desiring only sunshine and a break from having to run to and from your car so that the laptop in your bag, the cell phone in your pocket, the iPod in your ears, and whatever other electronic paraphernalia you usually have on your body at all times is protected from disabling damp and the surely fatal scission of your connection to the rest of society. Here, it just kind of happens too much to ever pack any kind of electronics (unless you came prepared like me with a drybag, or are stupid enough, again like me, to completely disregard the poor combination that the collecting water in your pocket and the electronics of a cell phone make and carry it out any way). And the smell of and feel of rain in the jungle, with the bright green really coming out their best and the earth disgorging all kinds of rotting wood fragrances that mask your own BO. It's just something you either have to be into or suffer through. And while I've been into that ever since listening to McCartney's "Wings" album (I think that's the one with Mamamunia; it's hard to remember. I've got like half of all of the vinyls he put out), sometimes a ton of rain can be debilitating to the advancement of any kind of professional goals. That's what I was told before I left and it has been confirmed just about every three mornings when something has flooded or the muddy paths up the mountains are saturated enough to cave under my feet and we simply cannot go out to our destination. Being the resourceful individual that I am, I found my own ways to accomplish things in the down time, because I spend too much time lounging anyway when its sunny to forgo the opportunity to do something when you can get inspired by the pitter-patter of drip-drops on bamboo, and the sloosh of your bathroom filling with water. It occurred to me that others might find themselves in the jungle under these kinds of conditions in the future (Especially if my recruitment efforts work as well as I have planned for them to work; between this post and Moments of Weakness, I'd say I'm off to a banging start!), and that they might benefit from hearing a bit about what I tend to put away for rainy days
Learn a new Language - While this might usually mean learning the language of the place where you are, but not all of the time; maybe just part of the time. In my case, I receive daily lessons in Tagalog*1 from Lorenzo in the mornings of these rainy days, when he will come by to tell me that we can't go out, also while teaching him English as well. He says that in school, his teachers called him a "truant", though now he seems more than eager to learn*2. The hardest lesson was a hell of my own design, attempting to teach him the meaning of the words "nuance" and "subtle", which by definition are hard concepts to grasp even for people with 12 years of Wordly Wise under their belt. But then, on these rainy days, I am also attempting the smash and grab job of slamming Bahasa Indonesia (Literally, "The Language of Indonesia") into my brain via Rosetta Stone so that I will be able to survive in my advanced resource management classes that I'm signing up for upon arrival in Yogya this August. I've got about a month, no dictionary, no teacher, and no one here who speaks it (Though I did find today, to my surprise, that the Tagalong for mac, or raincoat if you have never faced rain in the UK, is the same as in Indonesian), and my progress, as measured by me, is phenomenal. Rosetta Stone is the bomb. One way to know if you are doing well is to do everything with the sound turned on first, until you are comfortable, and then to turn the sound off and do the typing exercises. An image will flash up on the screen, and you will have to type what it is, to the exact specifications of what is being said silently into your non-functioning earphones. It makes you struggle to remember grammar nuances (Ah, so the word is useful!) and really makes you learn so that you don't get embarrassed by using "itu sedang" when you could have just said "sedang".
You have rafters? Do Pull Ups - I'm not in the best shape of my life right now as I left my dear lover*3 at home behind me, and I have been mourning the loss of her small black body and the feel of her weight, in addition to the fact that no one around here exercises at all (I think they either eat less than Anti Dinah prepares for each of my meals, or they are no afraid of being rude and simply throwing out some of their food; probably the former. I doubt that anyone else here fixes more than they want to eat) and as I learned from Poland, some times it is a disadvantage to be the only one running around (Under no circumstances run at night in the jungle without an extreme amount of experience and sizeable balls; remember those spitting cobras I mentioned? For real d00d). So find alternates. Monkeys like to swing on trees, and they enjoy my room for some reason, so I decided to jump up on one of the rafters, and it turns out that it is extremely fun to swing from the beams like they were branches and you were Tarzan. I've forgiven the monkeys their trespasses into my bathroom. Push Ups also work, and never underestimate the joys of punching yourself in the stomach like you are a one man fight club.
Watch the first 38 seconds of 300 - That's the problem with downloading 1.8 GB over a SmartBro USB modem; download time is estimated at 51 hours.
Learn a new sport! - I brought a bunch of books with me against my better judgment (Most of them were good calls at least, particularly Michael Crichton's Jurassic Park and State of Fear as well as 2010 Best American Travel Writing), and though they were all small they still caused a p500 over weight fee going to Busuanga. However, it is apparent to me now that, at least in the case of most of the books, they are going to prove extremely valuable out here. One of my books, The Manual of Freediving, which contrary to the picture on the front of the book proves that you need more than a speedo and an Italian last name to be able to descend to 100m on one breath, has been leading me through some of my rainy day sessions of physical action. Breathing exercises on the floor that had kids screaming in the next room; throwing out my gut to increase O2 saturation in my lower alveoli while hiking around the birding trails to Lorenzo's confusion; wondering if there is some special key to self hypnosis and persuading the diaphragm to sit still for just two minutes, damn! It's all good. And even though hoards of box jellies mean that I can't swim right now, maybe in a couple of weeks, when I make it back from Singapore, I can rent a boat, a map, and go out to Coron (The island this time, not the town) and spend all day amongst lobsters and seahorses, and if I get lucky, dolphins. Freediving's a cool sport, I guess.
Clean your camera lenses - My gopro has suffered a lot at the hands (Wait, if something has no hands, are you still allowed to use that phrase? Eh, piddle) of the spilled remains of the 5kg of rice that I bought a day after I arrived here at the insistence of Dinah, even through my pleas that I could not possibly consume that much rice. Little grains somehow found their way into the crannies of the waterproof housing, and once they got wet form the rain, they left that crappy rice paste all over the shell, and the lens as well. Water, soap, and a good eyeglass oil cloth will do the trick, and I was serious enough about my equipment to ensure that I had all three. Also, you can charge your camera's batteries. Always a good idea.
Pet the cat - Ummm…
Try to figure out what the f*** that thing is that you got on film - is it a caterpillar? Is it a worm? Is it some kind of enchanted kush ball? Is it a small living Oral B dental care device? Wind-up art deco? Or, as I suspect, sasquatch. Brian, get on it.
Read Some Fiction - As I mentioned before, one of the saving graces of my packing decisions was to put two of Michael Crichton's best in my bag, as well as the travel essays (Though at the time, having only gotten to essay three, I thought it was a flop, and I would only be reading it to encourage myself that if this drivel could get published, then so will I. I am now much more impressed, having made it to the essay about the Hadza, a tribe of Baboon Killing hunter-gatherers in North Tanzania). I started and finished Jurassic Park on the plane ride from NY to Tokyo, and the heavy message the book has about the lack of responsibility that taints a fair amount of scientific discovery as well as the poorly conceived notion that somehow humans are destroying the Earth, messages that I first came across when I read the book as a 7-year-old, and understood probably when I turned 9 or 10, were probably the best way possible to start a month long excursion to the Philippines to make environmental evaluations. The only better way that I can think of would have been to also read Crichton's State of Fear, a book that makes a scathing and beautifully lucid comment on the environmentalism movement. Oh yeah, that's right; I did. On the second day. The books set the tone for my thinking processes here, as they have been setting the tone of my life since The Lost World made it's debut in my bed at the age of six, and remains the only book that I read in its entirety, without stopping once (True, I did stay up all night reading Harry Potter 6, but I put the book away to make myself some oatmeal with peaches). You want to know how I got the way that I am? Well, it was a lot of things, but if you read some Crichton, you'll understand a big piece of it. His death in 2008 was one of the saddest days I have ever been through, because while those of my family that I have lost were people that I knew, cared for, and will have a growing understanding of even in death, Michael Crichton will never write another book for me, and I will never get to meet him. I once wondered what meeting Crichton would be like, since, from his personality in his non fiction, we seem to share a lot of the same ideals and ideas. I always imagined that we might catch each other's eye form a distance, and I would give him a respectful nod and a knowing look, and then he would come over to me and we'd have a drink and laugh a lot. But that will never happen. My mom recently described me to a friend as Crichton's successor. It was one of the best compliments I could have possibly been given, and maybe someone will endeavor to ensure that it makes it on to the dust jacket of my first book.
Lastly, Write - I don't know what it is about being out of the USA for me, but I've written more for my blog over the past week than I have for any of my blogs since Poland, probably in combination. And the quality of my writing has gone back to acceptable levels as well! Quantity and quality; that's hard to come by. And I suspected this would happen. I never had a blog before Poland, and then, all of a sudden I was cast into a situation where I truly was flying by the seat of my pants (as if they had little tiny wings), and I couldn't keep the pencil down. My lab notebook slowly filled up with descriptions of the laser, spectroscopy, and anisotropy equipment that my graduate mentor, Dustin (bless his soul) described as overly enthusiastic with a his smile that was half incredulous half surprisedly amused. My journal was a lot slower; from day one of college, when I got the black Moleskein on the Park retreat, I had it reserved for only special entries. But they were coming in greater abundance as I learned to work on less sleep in the busy streets of Poznan, so I decided that there would have to be another outlet. Blah, blah, blah… started my blog, wrote about everyday stuff, found my voice in sarcasm and self depreciating descriptions of things I felt were truly beautiful. And then a strange thing happened. I got back from Auschwitz, knowing that I had to write about it, but all of a sudden, I was pushed to make something that both would hit people with something they had never seen before and come across as something a professional would publish. And I did it with the title Dragon's Teeth. It got published a year later, and a rep from a foundation for Jewish Studies sent me an appreciative letter and a free book. I keep it on a shelf. But ever since I returned from the continent, I never could write something like that again. I'm not saying that any of this is outstanding, or even in standing, with anything, but nothing I wrote since made me feel the same way. Like I had just laid out the tragedy of the world on paper, and found a way to poetically convince people that life was not so bad after all, and that I had made it stick. But now that I'm here, back in a new place, facing challenges unforeseen and with barely more than a shadow of a plan to dictate my actions, the lone nut once again, I feel this creative power coming back to me. It hasn't happened yet; of that there is no doubt, but it will. Soon I think. I've written some real s*** in the past, but the gems that I do have really are gems, and the reason that I will encourage you to write on rainy days is that you have time to slow down, to think and plan out something you want to say. The best stories have been on the cutting bench for thousands of years, and you are trying to polish your premise up in the blink of an eye. The rain will slow you down. Make your words glisten. Not for other people, for yourself.
So that's a rainy day in the Philippines, though I expect that, in the cities, where there is internet and power, the itinerary is quite different. You probably don't even hear the soft beat of drops over the bustle of the growing population in nearly every region of this place. Mmmmm, the rain. Most of the time, it's either too little or too much. It oppresses us or we miss it long after it has left our lands. Kind of like God. Or Jaguars. Or certain people. Or magic. Or our sanity. Or pretty much anything. Maybe I should just sit back and listen. Silly westerner.
Footnotes
*1 Note here: Yes, I have discovered that my previous spellings of the national language of the Philippines were inaccurate. Between having no computer to fact check, not having Lorenzo handy to proofread, no dictionary, and the fact that, in his accent, it sounds like "tigalug", it would be impossible to get everything right on the first attempt. And I'm not going to go back and change it; I want to remember the experience of opening up a kids book of Philippino history in Tagalog and finding my error next to a picture of a girl who has spilled her milk all over the table. 'Oh no!'
*2 His explanation is interesting, and bears consideration, though he also admits freely that he was lazy. Here, if a teacher hopeful fails to pass the exams required to become a teacher, then they cannot take a post, unless it is that of an English teacher; there is some kind of buy for anyone willing to wade their way through our ridiculous language. Even if Lorenzo's failure of mastery is more his fault, I can't imagine that English teachers here are of the kind of quality to inspire most students to put up with a language that needs context to heal a wound, or to make sure your kayak's rope is wound. I'm starting to see more and more how important programs like the Fulbright, Peace Corp and so on are for developing and underserved communities, where learning English is a gateway to a better future.
*3 I'm in an open relationship with a massive 2 pod (55lb for non Ruskies) ball of iron with a handle on it; here name is Huge Kettlebell, and it's facebook official. I can snatch her 90 times in about 4 minutes and 30 seconds. Due to the fact that I would get taken down for trying to pass her through security at any airport in the world, I left her with my former roommate, co instructor, and eventual architect of my demise, Jeff Huber, singing The Who's "The Kids are Alright" as I left the room, trying to erase the image of her cheating on me with him while I'm away. Jeff, I'd better not see any bruised forearms in your pictures.
Dry and Dangerous
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I just got back from Belize on a two week long service trip that I hope will become a recurring trip for the Park Scholarships program, and between the bouts of nakedness, Electric Feel, Jaguar kissing, mud shoveling, croc skulls, soccer games, settlers of catan, sunburn on the roofs, turtles and eagle rays, getting harpy feathers, and general badassery of everyone we met on the way, I did some writing that will probably end up becoming, with quite a bit of editing, a NY bestseller. I'm kind of writing in scattered chapters, non sequitur, and I'm going to post to the blog a chapter every couple days over the next three weeks as I get ready to go to the Philippines as a Boren and Udall Scholar (yep, that's right; all of that suffrage paid off).They will be partly out of order, and I'll refer to things that I haven't referenced yet, but that should only encourage you to buy the book when it eventually comes out. If there was one thing that I learned in Belize, it was becoming unapologetic for eccentricity, because in the end, that might be all that keeps life interesting. That and river otters.
I will be referring to the characters in the story, at least the six Park Scholars on the trip, by the animals that we described each other as during a group reflection on the last day of the trip, which happened to be Eagle's birthday. In fact, it's best if you just think about us in terms of the animals and not as actual people that you know. The characters are:
1) Tapir
2) Eagle
3) Bear
4) Fox
5) Otter
6) Shark
A hint; I'm shark.
Chapter 3 - Dry and Dangerous
"Yeah, we got two Emmy nominations and an Emmy for one of the films we shot. It was a trade Emmy; for lighting. But still, you have to remember to thank everyone. It can be a bit scary, all of those people. Still good though." Jeb turned to him and asked him if he still had the Emmy. In response, Richard pointed to the mantle above the old fullscreen on which we had just watched his documentary of a Amazonian biologist who wandered around the open wetlands barefoot, attempting to find anacondas in the muck by feeling them out with his toes and then hoisting the sometimes 1000 lb snakes from the waters, trying desperately to avoid being hooked by the anaconda's powerful jaws or crushed to death by muscles strong enough to stop the circulation of your blood. I didn't really know what was crazier: the nonchalance with which Richard referred to the filming he had done for the documentary, including one scene where the audience sees a direct strike from the anaconda that in real life was a direct attack on Richard's face, or the fact that here, out in the middle of nowhere in Belize, sitting in a beautiful house that he had built, was an Emmy winning independent contractor who had shot and scripted more Nat Geo films then I had probably watched in my life, and I watch a fair amount.
We first met him when he drove up in front of the zoo in his relatively unsullied truck. Someone yelled out to me as I was circling the zoo's skeleton of a West Indian Manatee that our ride was here, and I went back to the freezer room to grab the massive jug of water that I knew even as we bought it, was only going to be enough to stave off dehydration for a couple of hours at the rate we went through water while working in the sun. As I stepped out into the sun, Richard strolled around his car with an exquisitely tanned face that reminded me of a weather beaten rock and the kind of grin that says, "I'm the coolest guy you'll ever meet." Just kind of a peaceful expression that I sometimes see on the faces of people who work hard in the sun and work on things that they want to. I like to imagine that I sometimes have that kind of grin.
The British accent caught me off guard, but by the time I had handed him my bag to chuck in the back of the truck, it was the only accent that he ever could have had. I still didn't know what to think; thick glasses, tall, strong legs, a slight paunch, and the kind of stately graying hair that one would expect from a British wildlife filmmaker, along with being a bit hard of hearing, well, I had never really encountered someone like him before. But when we got back to the house, where I along with the two others who had sat on the tailgate of the truck for the ride neglected to close the safety glass screen after we had gotten out and Richard had started to back up, I got a pretty good idea of the kind of person we had found in the middle of the tropical savannah.
Richard began to back the car into the drive of the house, and just as he repositioned the car to fit right next to the outer foyer, where a hammock was calling me to lay down and claim it as my bed before anyone else realized it was there, there was the sound of exploding safety glass as the raised back window smashed into a low hanging branch. Tapir and I looked at each other with a bit of dread; we had only been here for about an hour, and already, the people who were taking care of us probably wished they had never seen our faces. I was surprised that Richard didn't jump out of his car yelling, but instead had this almost surprised look on his face as he walked to the back of the car, and said in a kind of matter of fact voice, "Well, shit; that's a $1000 repair right there" as if someone had broken a beer bottle or something a lot less expensive than a plate of safety glass. I could tell he was frustrated, but as we all got on our knees and started to pick up the pieces, he began making self depreciating jokes, saying that it was kind of hard to see the humor, even as he was containing laughter. God, these crazy expats; I could live with them forever.
I think that Richard is probably the kind of person who is unfazed due to the nature of his life experiences, something that I partly identify with, though, his story is far more developed than mine, as one might imagine for the course of a 67 year existence amongst the wild parts of the world. We invited him over for dinner a couple of nights after watching his documentary, a decision that I made on the second day of living in Cockscomb when he told me that he had recently returned from filming documentaries on whale sharks in southern Belize and the lionfish infestation in the northern islands, near where we had been, all while in my mind I was screaming, "Dammit; why the hell didn't I get here earlier!?" We pulled out all the stops for this evening, which had narrowly avoided becoming a night watching the sunset from the top of a Mayan ruin, but at the request of Otter, turned into the kind of feast that would befit the pilgrims if they had accidentally landed much further down the coast of the Americas. Tapir made some mango salsa and chips out of the pounds of corn tortillas that Blad had gotten earlier in the week, and I put a couple of chicken in the oven to go with my Croatian Scampi sauce. I was a bit apprehensive about this, because so many are tuned off by the extreme alcohol content of the sauce, and Richard had told us that he didn't drink (Ironically, right after he saw the four giant bottles of rum that Blad had bought mistakenly, thinking that the wine we requested for cooking could be easily replaced by more rum), but I knew that at least eagle, bear, and fox would enjoy it.
But Richard took some of the sauce anyway, and then sat back to our persistent questions, about his filming, his life in Belize, his relationship with Carol, his wife and partner in wildlife media, and about some of the things he had mentioned to us earlier in the trip, including the jaguar that he had kept on the property until Hurricane Richard struck. The first day that we had been there, Eagle asked about the empty jaguar walk, which looks like a long, elevated tunnel with wire fence to keep an animal from jumping down, and Richard had told us in brief that he had kept a jaguar there until it escaped during the hurricane, killed a man who lived just down the road, and was then had to be put down. As the question came up again over our Belizean Thanksgiving, Richard sat back in his chair and let his fork find loose purchase in his hand, a subtle signal that a good storyteller was about to give us something heavy.
As it turned out, they had had a jaguar on the property for some time, and were using it for film purposes, much like the other species that Richard was training, but that when Richard struck, so many of the enclosures were just completely destroyed, and, without the concrete bunkers that we had seen at the zoo to keep animals safe in during hurricanes, the jaguar's enclosure just went down and the cat was out. There was a man who had lived down the road for several years, an adrenaline junkie that had grown up with juvenile diabetes, racing cars and bikes, living life fast, and, in Richard's opinion, in denial of his condition. He said that he would have to constantly go to this man's house when his blood sugar was compromised and put a coke in his mouth until he stopped screaming. All this was not so much of a problem until the man had an accident, smashing his head, and then lying until Richard found him 2 days later. The man was changed in his mental capacity; things that he could do before with relative ease now becamse serious challenges. His mental processing took much longer, the diabetic mishaps became more frequent and worse, and he eventually realized that he could not live by himself. After scheduling and cancelling several flights out of Belize back to the states to live with his parents, he came to the night of the hurricane, the day he was again supposed to leave, and he cancelled his flight, knowing that there would be no way he could get out of the country that day.
By this time, the enclosures were wrecked, and Richard called the man warning him about the escaped jaguar and telling him that under no circumstances should he leave his house. Richard had been all about his property by that point, searching for the jaguar with his handy fire extinguisher (At this point in the story, fox looked incredulously around the table as Richard described how he planned to fend off the killer cat with the extinguisher. Between the ridiculousness of that statement and the sudden, horrified expression on Fox's face, it was hard to stifle laughter), but had failed to find it. Meanwhile, this man had become drunk and walked out of his house into the carport where his dogs were fighting off the jaguar. The dogs had been making a fair amount of noise, and Richard had missed the cat probably because it was laying in wait watching it's prey; jaguars love dogs. Richard speculated that it must have surprised him, walking right into the situation, trying to separate the big cat from his dogs. This is something that you simply don't do. Regardless of anything. The jaguar killed him.
Richard and another helper drove down to his property later to check up on the man and as they drove up to the property, he caught a glimpse of one of the man's dogs, slinking away through the brush. The dog was injured and covered in blood, and at that point, Richard felt his heart drop; something had happened. He walked back to the house, and coming out of the port, he saw a giant drag mark, which he followed back into the forest. There, just inside the trees, in the middle of the drag, lay the man's body, ripped to bits.
The jaguar was captured and eventually had to be put down. With a stoic face, Richard told us that there had been no prosecution, which was a combination of the good name and respect that he had garnered for himself in Belize, and the general understanding that, in Belize during a hurricane, anything can happen. It had shaken both him and his wife, as it would have shaken anyone, but they had, in their way gotten over the disaster, and were waiting out the self imposed grace period before they were considering asking for another cat.
It's strange to think about really; here we were, six undergraduate students, unsatisfied with our education and a little rebellious in our natures, out in the middle of the Belizean wilderness with a man who had us all dumbfounded on all counts. In front of us sat a man who was extremely successful at what he did, even though he had never gone to school, and had made himself all that it seemed he needed in life; at this point in my life, I couldn't imagine ever being able to fit all of the things that Richard knows into my head. He had probably one of the most unique and powerful relationships with his wife that we had come across during our travels and discussions, and his life consisted of being around large, dangerous animals in the middle of the jungle, every now and then winning an award for his work and entertaining scientists whose behavioral studies probably paled to the work that Richard did when training basilisks to run across a pond and eat a butterfly on a mango at the opposite end or margays to jump 15 feet to catch a chick. And, out of all of this, he took the terrible tragedy of what had happened in stride; I could see in his eyes that he had an understanding of life and death that so few have. The question that permeated our group, and the question that I know still plagues the minds of Eagle and myself in particular, is how does one come across this kind of life, because whenever we hinted at this in front of Richard, he couldn't give us any kind of direction.
And perhaps there is no direction that he could give; he didn't really have any to begin with. He just hopped on a voyage to the Galapagos and over the course of a life, everything that we had witnessed fell into place piece by piece. I suppose that the most important thing for those of us who yearn for the kind of life that exists out in the tropical savannah of Belize is that, while there are steps that can get you closer to living your dreams (Meeting someone like Richard for instance, and then requesting to intern with him for a semester), in the end, it's going to come down to your will to make it happen. How ready are you to step on to a boat? To ask someone if you can wash dishes while they teach you film editing in the evenings? To buy a one way ticket? To risk the security of a degree for a venture that could mean wonderful success or terrible failure, but always epic adventure? How ready are you to give up what you have for what you want? They say that we young people don't know what we want, or that we want too much, or that what we want is not reasonable. I think we are conflicted in what we want because what we were told we should want is nothing like the dreams we had as little kids. I don't think you can ever want too much. And I think that when you want something that is reasonable and in ready supply, you're greedy. This life in the jungle is rare. It's one of a kind. And it's entirely unreasonable that any of us would ever be able to live it.
But none of us are going to forgo the chance to find ourselves in Richard's shoes, sitting around a table talking to the next generation of young world changers while padding softly in the darkness outside, with jagged jaws agape, is the true meaning of life.
And the fact that, when we brought Giovanna and Hannah back to the house, Richard just laughed to himself, well, I don't know if you can be cooler than that.
Marco Polo in Malbato
In the dim mist of the recently passed rains, a heavy, nearly black storm cloud pregnant with the true torrential downpour of a tropical monsoon that is now making its way ponderously over the bay, to the south and out over the faint, forested mountains of Coron Island, I can see the dull red umbrella shaped dome of a giant flowering tree maybe a quarter of a mile down the mountainside that stands out against the brilliant green in the sinking sun. I'm sitting on the railing of an open gap in the wall of the chapel that sits high above the small village of Malbato; the white steps that lead up winding path to the entrance are lit with a partial glow, giving the scene an almost holy look, and I can see the arcing shadow of the cross above me playing across the giant fronds that begin about three feet after the chapel ends. Far below me, along the main highway, an intermittent ribbon of shining concrete, that, at times can become little more than a treacherous bridge with two sets of warped planks keeping huge trucks and motorbikes alike from plunging into swiftly flowing rivers below, the lights of a late night moped run, probably to the town of Coron, about 17km to the southeast, and its accompanying machine gun patter drift up to my ears and I ease back against the cool stones in a state of almost perfect peace. And then, just as the sun passes behind the last of the clouds that ring the tops of the misty mountains behind me and as I decide that this scene could not become more beautiful, the twinkling of a multitude of fireflies begins to fill the branches of the surrounding trees, hanging for long moments in the air, making it appear as if the trees have stars hanging from their branches in some otherworldly vision of Yggdrasil, the World Tree from Norse myth. I am overcome and cannot even muster a sigh. It is right at this moment that a bat passes within 2 inches of my face, no doubt hunting one of the last mosquitos left after the purging floods from the sky, and I surprise myself by having no reaction whatsoever. It was just too ideal to even respond.
This is where I am living, and where I will be for, give or take about 10 days here and there, the next month, and where I am willing to bet I will be spending quality time over the course of my life. Life here is both quiet and busy, peaceful and always moving; at least that is how the time of this particular foreigner is passing in Malbato. A small village, consisting, according to one of my guides who is probably the best English speaker here, of about 1000 people, including the children (500 adults), Malbato lies on the southern most portion of Busuanga Island, just north of Coron Island and west of Coron, probably the nearest significant dot on big maps which, next year, will upgrade from town status to full blow city, in the Caliaman island group of Palawan, the western arm of islands that constitutes the China Sea border of the Philippines. Busuanga is right at the top of Palawan, making it a prime hit for the typhoons that often blow in from the sea to the West (I managed to show up on the island only hours after a typhoon had hit, flooding homes, uprooting massive palms, and washing the river clear of a lot of rare wildlife, including the elusive freshwater seahorse that I spent an entire day looking for). Thus, sea faring structures tend to be simple and unadorned, thin, elongated canoe like boats with a wide spread of wooden struts that gives the boats unanswerable balance, while homes built out on the ocean, like the Kubo Sa Daggat have thick concrete supports built directly into sea bedrock, with low roofs and clustered structures. All throughout the day, you can see people fishing off of the coast of Malbato, in the bay, where you can sink a line about 5 meters to the muddy bottom below and catch small orange snapper as well as puffer fish (of course, you can't eat these, but their tough meat, when sliced off of the living fish, makes excellent bait for the snapper, as the fish can rarely take the bait without taking the hook as well). Towards the end of the day, when low tide has caused the water's edge to recede about 50 meters off of the sandy shore, old women in shawls, accompanied by barefoot children, and gruff, wiry men casually clutching the curved machete like blade that is the common tool here, take their buckets and plumb the waters for muscles or clams (It's either one or the other; I forgot the word for the object of their searches in Tigalug, but it begins with a "P". Perhaps I will remember later). You can buy fish, clams, and crabs from the fishermen at the waters edge during the day for relatively cheap prices and then grill, fry, or boil them in the fashion of the local cuisine, which, for the Malbatans that I have interacted with, only strays outside of sea food to include large quantities of rice, for breakfast, lunch, and dinner, as well as cassava, a few vegetables, and perhaps eggs every now and then.
This is the menu for those who eat simply, but prominently featured at regular intervals along the highway, right outside of Kingfisher Park, and in vast multitudes in Coron, are small shops that have wire windows heavily adorned with colorful sweets and crisps (That's chips in America; I just felt like being UK there for aesthetics. Don't ask me why.) where you can buy bags of small rolls and hot dog buns, as well as more practical things, like bottles of water and petrol for your motor scooter (OK; I'm done now.). It would be the kind of thing that would prompt me to thing "Food Desert" at first thought, and without knowing how the community works, with fresh foods and kilo upon kilo of rice moving silently into homes by means that are, only with painstaking investigation, becoming apparent to me, you couldn't be blamed for thinking this. The equivalent of these shops in the US, the "quick shoppe" and "stop and go", and I suppose vending machines (though more complicated, because here you have to learn another language to order something), and their position across areas of the country where they represent the only accessible source of food for residents is one of the targets of an national outcry, the "food revolution", and the subject of many undergraduate research reports, as well it should be. But here I am not so sure. People sell candy bars everywhere, but I've actually yet to see a kid eating one.
And here, there are children galore. During the day, I return to my small house by the road that takes me past a number of houses with covered benches were men and women will sometimes sit for what seems like all day, moving slowly in the shade, every now and then saying something to each other and laughing softly, always turning to look at me as I pass and returning my wave with the familiar, leer-like, smile that I have come to expect (And understand as friendly), sometimes watching me until I am out of sight. This scene is inevitably accompanied by gaggles of children, small boys and girls, often with nothing on but dirty undershirts, running down the path, chasing each other, playing with the house monkey that is tied up at one of the homes, staring at my white skin with wide eyes in the same way that I know I've often stared at things like jaguars and eagles, and generally being the object of what sound like remonstrances from their parents. There are so many of them, and they are so densely packed; every time I encounter one small child, I unconsciously expect to see several more soon following, and I am rarely disappointed. The older children attend the grade school that lies at the foot of the same mountain where the chapel perches, and as one walks the path up towards the school, the scene becomes dominated by kids who mostly look ten to twelve, though it is hard for me to judge age with Philippinos; I am often underguessing the age, and I blame it on reasonably healthy lifestyles as well as the population trend to stop growing at around 5'6" or 5'7". I've seen plenty of residents here that I thought were my age, who later were revealed as thirty and forty year olds, and I might have pegged Lorenzo, my primary guide, as still in his teens, before I found out that he had two years on me.
The opposite side of the spectrum, the older residents of Malbato are plentiful as well. I have taken the custom of referring to them as Maam or Maan, always giving a smile when I pass through the steamy rice fields next to a dark, wizened, wry man, carrying wicker and supplies on his back. My travels into more remote regions of Kingfisher Park, going far into the jungle trails, often puts me in the small dirt yards of the thatch homes that scatter the land (A result of agri-reform land portioning says Yayo), where chicken will run underfoot as I try to avoid stepping on tomatoes and cassava while Lorenzo calls out, "Dupas?!" to the dark interiors of the house, asking off hand if the two of us can pass through. Getting closer to the house, dim figures materialize in the windows and poke wrinkled heads out of the open ends of the bamboo and palm woven walls, calling out something else in slow and soft voices, to which Lorenzo will give a quick, usually one word, response, and I will hear the soft laughter form the house following us as we move on down the trail. And this is a place of laughter, in the best sense. The older generations that we interact with, walking into houses and asking for permission to go somewhere, to rent a boat to go out to the hot springs hot tub, or one of the many other tasks that are handled by extended chat sessions in foyers and in the shade, are always quite pleased to see us, sometimes even going so far as to give me free cassava when I said that the little six peso melon strips that I bought from one grandmother were some of the best things that I had ever tasted. Walking around the village, catching the eyes of kids as you pass them at a leisurely pace down the main highway, waving to people cutting things with their machetes while riding by on one of the cannondales that Kingfisher owns, you catch smiles, twinkling eyes, laughter, and wide grins. And if you can utter a word or phrase in Tigalug every now and then, the inhabitants of Malbato will go crazy.
In Malbato, almost everyone is Christian, most being Catholic and attending the chapel in which I've now spent a significant amount of time staring down at this place that I'm slowly beginning to know. One of the older couples that I encountered very far out of the way, close to the Kaluluwang area which is about 10km back into the jungle along the river trail where I searched for the seahorse, was spotted on a Saturday morning, moving about 20 meters in front of me, far from their home. I was told that they were of the Back To Christ Church, making the long trek into the village each Saturday, their holy day. Throughout the rest of the Philippines, there are a number of other religions, many of them Christian denominations, but also a large Muslim contingent in Mindanao and the followers of what Lorenzo translated for me as "The Old Way," which, as things like that usually go, caused me to perk up in excitement with the prospect of learning a new mythos of the islands. It is unclear whether or not anyone here in Malbato is of the Old Way, but presence of "local peoples", the indigenous population of the area, has now been mentioned more than once and has made its way to my docket for the next month.
The night is now an inky blackness, and I can see the lights of several fires burning below, and I'm reminded that whatever picturesque scenes I am experiencing here at the top of my mountain, there are real problems here that lie beneath the surface and are not entirely clear to me because of my positive experience here; those flickering flames are a tell tale sign. The second day I was here, I smelled something terrible just as I was laying down for a late afternoon nap, and I walked out to see Dinah burning the day's trash in a pile outside my door, which included a bunch of melting plastic bags. I was about to call out to her not to do that; I mean, didn't she know the harm form burning plastics? But then I stopped, realizing that the plan of action I was considering proposing to her was to take the waste to the proper waste removal area, and it was most likely that this village didn't have any kind of sanitation whatsoever. So I just stood there, with my sleeve over my nose and mouth as a filter, and watched the bottles and bags burn, thinking to myself that, as someone who is here to observe I can't demand things I know nothing about, even if my room does smell like crap now. I'm an active participant here, consuming, connecting, and enjoying life and company with the residents of Malbato, but always turning are the cranks of evaluation, seeking to find the nuances that make this village what it is, both the good and the bad, considering how I, with my environmentally inclined ideals, might be able to improve conditions here in Malbato, and address the needs of a community where poverty is evident and education, for those who want it, is hard to come by. The underlying problems, primarily poverty from what my initial information can gather, however are not as evident here as other places I have been, and it is difficult, when seeing people that sound content with their lives, to tell what can be done. The poverty here is not as evident as it is in communities in Africa, where streets can turn to war zones, or even in the places I have worked in Belize; at one point, I was attempting to balance while walking quickly across the London Bridges in San Mateo (Belize) that held me precariously above septic and lethal waters below, some locals passed quickly behind me, laughing at my efforts and telling me, "This is our life." The outspoken poverty is not here, or at least not in the short time that I have been here thus far. Who knows? As the community and my guides become more used to me, it might reveal itself more blatantly, but for now, it is only what I can see in the material wealth, and not in the people. I'm keeping my ear to the wall in any case.
Bats are all around me now, and I decide to head back, pulling the little broken headlamp out of my satchel and walking down the steps without turning it on at first, navigating the white path by the star and firefly light above, then switching the light on as soon as I reach the ground. The spitting cobras that live here come out at night and sometimes lay across the path. It's only safe to have a light with you when you think you might be coming back in the dark. I pass the decaying stump of a coconut palm as I near my house, its center hollowed out by water and termites, and in the darkness, I see something that catches my eye on the outside of the rotting wood. I turn my light on the stump and see nothing, waiting for a few seconds to be sure and then turning away, only to snap back to the stump and shut off my light. The stump is still illuminated; phosphorescent fungi, bright white in the daylight, are glowing dully on the outside and the inside of the stump, and as I look into the center, the fungi's faint radiance makes is seem like I am peering into a hole stretching down for miles into the gloom. And that does it. I let out a whoop, thinking that this truly is Pandora now, and turn the final corner to my house, where the power is out, but where candles burn with bright orange flames in the windows.
At least I won't be able to do much tonight. Maybe I'll calm down and get some sleep.
GCS