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i'm not dreaming to find that prince. all i wan't is a guy whose gonna be afraid of loosing me.. my online diary.. my untold secrets.. <3

[deceptivelips]

Bonnie and Carl, Shameless (4x11) 

[garlielou]

Awwwww.. <3

[garlielou]

This Is Me Asking To Be Something More Than Just a Friend

I love you are three words that just don’t seem to captivate what it is I feel. Because you’re more than just someone who makes me feel safe. You’re this place that feels like home. Like I found you and that’s it, this game we’ve all spent our life playing is over.

So I’m asking you to love me. I’m asking you to be mine.

I know there will be complications and things we are each insecure about. I know it’s a risk but with you I look into your eyes and I just think any risk is worth it.

My feelings have never been a secret. From every intense look to holding hands to every kiss that has always been our own best-kept secret.

I’ll admit you’ve ruined me in a way. Because while we’ve each been each other’s safety net when it comes to the world turning against us and everyone breaking our hearts I promise you I won’t do that.

I promise to love you the right way. And I know you think it’s a bad idea. I know you think this is unrealistic. But the idea of us maybe getting it right one day is the most realistic of dreams I’ve ever had.

Because we aren’t just friends. We exchange I love you like it’s mere hellos. We spend time together that is never wasted and engage in conversations in which we get lost in our own world sometimes.

I don’t know if you feel my heart beating faster as you pull me in. I don’t know if you see my hands shaking as you hold them. Because even though there have been others, of the consistent things in my own life has always been you.

We bicker like an old married couple sometimes. But there isn’t a single opinion I value as much as yours. I think we each need someone who isn’t afraid to put us in our place sometimes. You aren’t afraid to offend me. You aren’t afraid to call me out. But most of all even if it messes with each of our egos we aren’t afraid to admit when we are wrong. And we come back apologizing and makeup again. There’s a thrill to it really.

But we protect each other like family. Because every time something has gone wrong in my life you have always been the one I turn to. You are every first text. And with a single word you can tell if something is wrong. Just hearing my voice shake in a way many people would ignore you can tell what kind of a day I’m having. We’ve each been hurt by other people. And just as there is a long list of your exes I hate I know if you could you’d beat the shit out of every guy who has ever made me shed a tear.

You are always the one lifting me up. You’re always the one saving me. I take so much pride in not needing people and being strong on my own. But of the most vulnerable things I’ll ever say is I don’t just want you, I need you.

We flirt like it’s a first love sort of thing. And you are. Because I don’t think I knew what love was until I met you. It’s every inside joke we have that makes me smirk. It’s this world we kind of live in all our own. It’s you making me laugh when I don’t even want to smile some days. I didn’t ask to fall in love with you.

But more than anything you are my best friend. Which makes this more rather complicated and awkward if you don’t feel as deeply. But something about it tells me you do or I wouldn’t be taking this chance. I know there will be risks but I want to face them with you. I know I’m taking a chance here at ruining what this is we have and I’m sorry for that. But part of me feels like I’m living a lie and living half alive just being your friend when you are all I think about it.

Cause the truth is there isn’t anyone I even care about half as much as you. And the truth is I can’t imagine my life without you a part of it.

You’re every standard I compare everyone else to and there’s a reason they aren’t matching because they aren’t you.

So here I am putting my heart on the line. Here I am telling you everything and hoping for the best.

And if by chance you don’t think this is a good idea I don’t know if we can go back to the ways things were before, but I had to take this chance. But I’d more rather jump and hope to God this can be something then fearfully wonder what if.

[garlielou]

❝ If it hurts more than it makes you happy then take the lesson and leave. Listen, it is going to be okay. Some people are only rehearsals for the real thing.

[garlielou]

"I’m a serious type of person. I tell jokes but very seldom. I’m snob, I admit, and I only smile to those people that I know. But when it comes to you my personality is always different. I always act like a 5 year old kid that will annoy you nonstop. I tell jokes though it’s really corny. I always want to check you every minute, every hour for me to know if you’re always okay. I’m showing you the sides of mine that will never see of other people, just you. I love you and yes, because I love you I’m showing you even the darkest side of mine. Just for you to know, I love you. Just you, I love you."

[garlielou]

I want to go mad when I argue with you, only to go insane at the thought of losing you.

[garlielou]

This Is How I Will Love You

It will always be like a dream to me. Not in the sense that you were perfect—you barely were. It was a dream because it all happened so fast that I kept on doubting if it even happened.

I will love you like I always did—in between spaces, under hushed tones, hidden behind promises of friendship and seemingly innocent words. I will love you like I did in our conversations—virtual yet completely memorable. For in those conversations, I bared my soul to you more than I did in any other heart-to-heart talk.

I will love you like December with its days full of anticipation intricately laced with the probability of disappointment. I will love you like summer. I will treat you as a break, an escape I am allowed to indulge in but will inevitably  have to let go of.

You would always be a dream. You'd be the one I wanted to have but I thought I'd never deserve. You'd always be a "what if," a curious chance I never took.

And in the end, I will love you like hot chocolate on rainy days. You'd be sweet, nice, and warm, but never enough. While the rest of the world wants your company, I'd always be complaining about you being too sweet, too nice, and too warm—or just being too plain for me. I will always long for the bitterness, the buzz that you could never give. It will take me a while to finally find something that will make me stay but I will always love you.

I will always love you despite the failure in timing and every other aspect. I will love you. And when I see you, I will smile because I do love you, in the way that I can but not in the way you wanted me to. We could have been, but I'm even more thankful that we weren't. Because otherwise, I won't love you.

[garlielou]

To the Guy Who Can Never commit

I'm almost at my breaking point and I don't know how much longer I can take before I leave. It's not that I don't love you. You'd be mad to think that. I love you so much that I'm willing to give up anything and everything to call you mine. It's just that I'm so exhausted waiting for you to be ready to take the next step. We've been dating for some time now and yet not once have you ever acknowledged me as your girlfriend. You've played around with every single label I can think of, calling me your new acquaintance, an old friend, and when I'm lucky enough, you call me your best friend. It just hurts me every single time because it makes me think that I don't matter to you. Am I just the girl you keep because I'm willing to put up with this no labels thing?   If so, then one foot of mine is already out of the door.

Before I do anything rash though, I need to know why. Whenever I'd ask you, you'd dismiss it and say "I love you" thinking that could compensate for a real answer. So tell me, is it because you're still heartbroken?  Are you still not over her? The girl who you was your heart's every desire but in a twist of things she was also the one who destroyed it? Ever since then, you've filled the holes in your broken heart with meaningless flings thinking you could replace this girl with a dozen more, but you never have. Every single deep wound in your heart has never truly healed. Instead what've been doing has made things worse. You've clogged your system to the point where it has created a shield around itself. If that's the case well I'm here now. I've been here for awhile and I can help you mend what's been broken. I'll stay with you until you're whole again and even beyond that, just let me in and let me call you mine alone.

If it's not her, are you just using me as a filler for someone better? Am I not good enough for you that you're always on the lookout for the girl who's prettier, smarter, wiser, and stronger? It breaks my heart to even consider this, to think that I'm never going to be enough for you. Even if I was the most perfect person on the planet, you'd still put me aside and wait for someone else in the universe to take my place.  I don't want to think of you in this light but my darling, sometimes I don't even know what to think anymore. Just because someone is better than me doesn't automatically mean that she is right for you. The best person for you isn't the one who you're with because they're the hottest new thing in town. The right girl for you is the one you choose everyday and who chooses you right back in good times and in bad. That's what makes a relationship so meaningful. Even when you're presented all these alluring temptations you still choose the person you're with out of love and respect for them. Is that not worth the risk of commitment?

Maybe I'm wrong and you're not always looking for someone else. That leads me to another conclusion. Maybe you're just really cynical about relationships? Do you not believe in happy endings or even just the possibility of one? Well if that's really what you believe then why pursue anything serious when you can have all the parts of a relationship without the responsibility? You just want things easy. You don't want the heartache, the fights, the jealousy, or anything that comes with the downside of relationships. Is that bad? Not necessarily, but it is sad to think that you're so devoid of hope.

Whatever your reason is, I know that in the end you're just scared. Let me correct myself, you are downright terrified of me breaking your heart into a million pieces.  I can't blame you for that because I don't know how this is even going to end but you can't live with that fear forever. How are you ever going to find a happy ending if you're not willing to step out of your comfort zone and take the risk? You're not the only one who's afraid here, I am too. I am so much more terrified than I am willing to admit. I'm scared that everything I've poured into this will be worthless but what separates you from me is that I'm willing to try. I'm willing to try because I love you so much. I love you so much that I'm willing to give anything and everything to make things work between us. I love you so much that you're the first thing I think about when I wake up and my last thought before I drift off to sleep. I love you so much that I just want you to find your happily ever after even if it's not with me but I am still hoping that I'm the princess in your fairytale.

I can't promise you that being my boyfriend will be easy. In fact, it's going to be a long and difficult road. I can't promise you that we'll have a happy ending but I swear to you with the very fiber of my being that I will be worth the risk.  I will love you, cherish you, and do everything in my power protect you from harm. I promise you that we can create something so beautiful and magical. Relationships can be beyond messy, unpredictable, and it entails a ridiculous amount of work but it can also be breathtakingly amazing. That's what people live and die for, those amazing moments with the person they are hopelessly in love with.  These are the moments you'll play back in your head all the time, moments where you'll never have felt happier, moments that will be filled with so much more thrill and excitement, moments you will never be able to forget, moments so perfect you won't believe they're real, and moments you will never experience if you don't take the risk of finally choosing to be with me.

If you tell me though, that you're still not ready, I need to leave. I know that you only have good intentions for me but this is too painful already. I am so exhausted waiting for something that doesn't seem to bear even a resemblance of something serious, something that will have a deeper and lasting meaning. I can't wait around forever for you to choose me. Don't mistake this though for giving up on us. I'm not giving up on you. I just know when enough is enough and I have enough love and respect for myself to walk away from you if you can't love me enough to take the risk. So, my darling, this is where it either ends or begins again. Are you willing to take the risk or should I just walk out the door?

[pinlolz]

On my way to kill Ramsay via PinLolz.com

[katzenberg-in-katzenstadt-deact]

Forever reblog.

[lovemakesyouwonder]

[deceptivelips]

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[trash-septiceye]

Be whatever you want to do. Love whoever you wanna love, do whatever you want to do, I don’t care - I will still appreciate you just as much… It doesn’t matter who, what, where, when, why you are.

Jacksepticeye: Jack’s Dark Souls III Livestream (Q&A)

[thelovejournals]

I know I’m still young and there’s a lot of time for things to happen, but sometimes I think there is something about me that’s wrong, that I’m not the kind of person anyone can fall in love with, and that I’ll always just be alone.

Lynne Rae Perkins, Criss Cross (via thelovejournals)

yeah, perks of being awkward.. :(

[thesecretletter]

I can’t do it. I can’t do this. I can’t do it anymore. I can’t do it again. I can’t do you. Or us. Or whatever it is we are. Or aren’t. I can’t love you. Not like this. Not head over heels. Not when I can’t tell if you don’t care or love me back. I can’t be around you. I can’t be there for you when you can’t even see me. I can’t be around you. Near you. With you. Part of you. Any of you. Not anymore. Not until you can start being part of me.

Your secrets are safe here (via thesecretletter)

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[thelovewhisperer]

Are you dating the right guy? What is the ideal man you should marry? Who can better answer that but a father who loves her daughter so much. This is article is relatable, sweet and touching at the same time.

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[garlielou]

Am I hard to love?

Well, i guess so... because you can’t love me the same way as i love you. you’re too confined with your past, you’re too consumed by that past love, you’re not yet ready to commit. i am not blaming you for making me realize that i am hard to love. maybe, just maybe, you’re not the right one for me, maybe you’re meant to love someone else, and sad to say, that someone’s not me, just tell me to stop, and i will, i will stop. :’(

[quotemadness]

I’ll never stop caring. But the thing about caring is, it’s inconvenient. Sometimes you’ve got to give when it makes no sense to at all. Sometimes you’ve got to give until it hurts.

Jonathan Evison (via quotemadness)

yes, i will nnot stop, until you realize that there is more to us than being friends, i know it’s selfish for me to say this, but i can’t help it, i’m falling deep...