I wake up every morning

with my head up in a daze. I'm not sure if I should say this, fuck, I'll say it anyway, everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase. I don't know if it's a phase, I just wanna feel okay. Yeah, I battle with depression, but the question still remains, is this post-traumatic stressin' or am I suppressing rage? And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase. Yeah, it's not a fucking phase, I just wanna feel okay. Yeah, I struggle with this bullshit everyday and it's probably 'cause my demons imultaneously rage. It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me. 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out. I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer. I'm a popular, popular monster. I break down, falling into love now with falling apart. I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze. Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace. I'm in a race against myself I try to keep a steady pace. How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case? Oh my God, I keep on stressin', every second that I waste, is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take. But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage. Yeah, it's not a fucking stage, I just wanna feel okay. Okay Motherfucker, now you got my attention. I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missin' and what if I were to lie, tell you everything is fine? Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave. I am terrified, I fell asleep at the wheel again. Crashed my car just to feel again. It obliterates me, disintegrates me, annihilates me. 'Cause I'm about to break down, searching for a way out. I'm a liar, I'm a cheater, I'm a non-believer. I'm a popular, popular monster. I break down, falling into love now with falling apart. I'm a popular, popular fucking monster. Yeah, here we go again, motherfucker, oh We're sick and tired of wondering. Praying to a God that you don't believe. We're searching for the truth in the lost and found. So the question I ask is, oh, where the fuck is your god now?

[gaslichtromantik]

..und dann standest du da, sahst mich an und hast mir vom ersten Blick an, mein Herz gestohlen.

[thepersonalquotes]

[dagan-garin-cel]

Be unwanted can destroy you

[nobodysperfext]

Ich weiß, ich wirke abweisend. Aber mein Kopf ist voll. Ich bin reizbar, nicht weil du was falsch machst - sondern weil ich alles gleichzeitig denke. Und das allein fühlt sich an wie Lärm, den keiner hört.

[oditorie]

[hellraiserssss]

Find someone who can hear unfiltered version of your thoughts and doesn't judge you for that.

[thoughtkick]

“It’s kinda pointless to fight for what you want when what you want continues to break your heart.”

— Molly McAdams

[ichsterbefuerdich]

Du heilst das Mädchen welches ich mal war und schützt die Frau welche ich heute bin 🤍 -A

[hswefn]

oh heavy heart, how you exhaust me.

[kosmogrl]

I never got over anything. I miss everyone and everything. nostalgia and grief kill me every day. oh and I also love going on walks.

[perfectfeelings]

“I crave time by myself to sit and heal my heart before I step out into the world again.”

— Gemman Troy

[mmleepmlorp]

My five year plan is to just see what happens

[thehopefulquotes]

“Never trust people who don’t have something in their lives that they love beyond all reason.”

— Fredrik Backman

[deinlebensbuch]

Keine Ahnung wer ich selbst bin...

[quotefeeling]

“I don’t want you to save me. I want you to stand by my side as I save myself.”

— Unknown

[thoughtkick]

“You deserve a relationship that enables you to sleep peacefully at night.”

— R.H. Sin

[rosalieee]

In mir ist diese Sehnsucht nach Nähe und gleichzeitig geh ich auf Distanz zu mir selber.

[perfectfeelings]

“I think I’m afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy, something bad always happens.”

— Charlie Brown