Hello. I was wondering if āFeral Womanā would be posted again. I tried the link and it did not work. Thanks!
I was in the middle of transferring my stuff to AO3 because Tumblr is a cesspool. Then I just sort of stopped. Everything about writing feels fractured and poisoned. I used to love it and had a passion for it. Between the current state of the world and how the fandom in general has just been torn apart from the inside out, it's hard to feel connection to these things anymore.
I'm not going to say I'll never write again or share my writings, but to be upfront about where I'm at, I don't have any plans currently to do either of those things.
the confessions blog is calling you out by name PLEASE REPORT THEIR ASS they are so annoying and this space would be so much better if they were deleted and i think that is grounds for a harassment report from tumblr, ok love you
Thanks for the heads up. Iāll look into it. I usually ignore stuff unless somebody tags me directly aka isnāt a lil hideaway pissbaby.
The reward center of these peopleās brains are completely fried to the point they donāt feel anything unless theyāre getting reactions from others. They just wanna feel something and canāt produce pleasure chemicals on their own.
I deadass get secondhand embarrassment watching them be so desperate. Like, not even gonna pretend I feel sorry for them. Just straight up secondhand embarrassed watching them do SO MUCH for just a crumb of attention. Theyād prob bust a nut if I glanced their direction.
I love how unbothered you are about this HAHAAHAA the hate is brain rot at its core. People literally need to go touch grass
whatās weird is this is all started from a post I made basically saying Iāve seen watered down brainrot takes about TLOU and said anybody who wants to be normal about things can fuck w me and otherwise you can unfollow or block if you donāt wanna engage with that kinda energy
cue people Iāve never seen or talked to hopping into my comments like Iām gonna take them at face value and regard every word they type like its gospel. girl idk you! Im not gonna sit here and go back and forth with you just bc you jumped into my comments looking to disingenuously soapbox and argue w people. this aināt Reddit lmao
like, go play with your clit bc youāre not gonna sit here and play w me
It's so hard to really open yourself to the difficult conversations and issues you are very genuinely engaging in, in good faith.
These issues on their face are black and white, but underneath are people who are very messy and full of human failings, good intention and subconscious bias, making nuance and grace necessary. Sometimes, we agree with some things, but not all someone says or does. And articulating all of this is hard, especially online.
I just wanted to reach out and let you know that I see you and your effort.
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hi bb
The internet certainly doesn't lend itself to these sorts of complicated discussions. I have found that many people are seemingly incapable of holding multiple, complex emotions about something at the same time. They don't know how to sit with the discomfort of it, and so they just sorta get rid of it and settle onto a neat, clean, and tidy takeaway. Unfortunately this doesn't align with reality.
Then of course there are the people who immediately start up the hate campaigns the second somebody gives them the energy they give everybody else. The number of people in the fandom who have been run off this site bc of a group of harassing morons is insane.
guys, as much as I appreciate the concern over hate posts about me and the influx of hate anons, the people who wrote the posts are little pissbaby cowards who blocked me, so I cannot see them anyway lmao. additionally, all their friends who haven't blocked me yet in order to take screenshots of my posts and share it with the group chat for further masturbatory grandstanding are so busy jerking each other off that they don't have time to @ me.
so,
Yes, I know they purposefully left my username in their posts so that I would get more hate anons. This is what they do.
Yes, I know they are bending over backwards to misrepresent my posts. They do this shit every single time.
Yes, I know I have moots who have liked posts shitting on me. If you happen to be one of these moots, feel free to DM me with your thoughts. Or don't. I fuck w people that have a backbone, so ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ
These people sub posting or hate posting or whatever you wanna call it will continue doing this just like they do every fucking time. Unfortunately for them, some rando on the internet calling me a racist/Zionist/whatever else after being purposefully obtuse doesn't send me into a panic spiral.
Y'all's takes are still dog shit. QUOTE ME ON THAT ONE AGAIN. Y'all's harassment campaigns are boring. Y'all's pile ons are transparent as fuck.
To all the people messaging me saying they're afraid to like and share my posts bc they don't want the hate campaign sent their way, I get it. Unlike these attention seeking trolls, I don't get my validation from the internet, so the number of likes or reblogs won't sway my opinions or deter me from talking about these HEINOUS LOSERS (to quote my boi).
When I saw the vague posts about white fans claiming BIPOC were making stuff up about racism in TLOU, I didn't know who the posts were talking about, even when one of them said we all know who. And I had already seen your post earlier! But I didn't connect the two because that wasn't what you said at all??? Didn't put two and two together until the callout screenshots
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they remind me of MAGA tbh:
stay in their echo chambers, have an idea and run with it (no need to think too critically about anything, which really expedites the process!), double and triple down when confronted with anything that doesn't directly align with their views, deflect and redirect when it's pointed out, vilify and harass anyone who disagrees, switch up the angle when they're "losing," purposefully misrepresent things so it suits their narrative, etc etc
and again, unless they want to tag me in their shit talking posts, i am not going to see it bc unlike them I don't seek out hate posts about myself lol
I acknowledge that that there is a trope in media of POC characters being killed off with violent deaths, and that itās incredibly racist and contributes to the desensitization of us to violence against BIPOC.
But context matters.
This is a show that takes place in an incredibly violent apocalyptic setting where people die frequently and in very brutal ways. If there is a very racially diverse cast in a show where a lot of people die then some POC are going to die as well. Also, all of the POC characters that have been killed in the show have been the most heartbreaking because they were incredibly well written and likable characters that the audience sympathizes with.
The ātorture pornā thing is just dumb. While the deaths in TLOU are violent, the majority of the violence happens off screen, including Joelās death. Thereās no drawn out horror movie torture scenes, so I donāt even know what theyāre even on about with that part.
im not sure either. and yes, context matters.
a lot of the violence in the series has been off-screen, to your point. I think Joel's death being more on-screen was a purposeful creative choice that drives home the impact of losing him and just how gruesome the event was and the subsequent chain of violence it sets off.
Good faith question anon from earlier with a follow up question if thatās ok:
The posts Iāve seen arenāt saying donāt watch it or that youāre bad for liking it, just that dismissing every critique when it comes from POC is the problem. A lot of the ones I see are saying they still watch, but just want to acknowledge the possible issues as they do.
I know that anon hate is a whole nother beast and I have seen pretty horrible anons on both sides, but for the bigger posts Iām seeing more nuanced takes
Are we just seeing different posts?
that's a definite possibility.
i have mostly seen posts and comments from people saying you're supporting a Zionist agenda if you watch it or you're endorsing violence against POC if you watch it or you're supporting torture porn if you reblog gifs from the episode where Joel dies.
in the midst of legitimate voices and concerns there are people hijacking the conversation for attention and dopamine hits in the form of harassing people online.
okay, this is a genuine attempt to engage, i promise! i'm just too cowardly to go off anonymous. personally, i don't disagree with the core things these people are getting at, even though i really disagree with how they go about it.
it's true the creator of TLOU has drawn from the real-world conflict in gaza. he's on record framing it as like "desperate, conflicted people on both sides" narrative, which i think is fucked up when the reality is there is one side of that conflict that endures greater suffering due to power imbalances, racism, etc. i think that is true. it is my opinion (and obviously does not have to be yours!) that TLOU is deeply flawed in framing a real-world conflict with this āboth sidesā narrative. and i do agree media like this doesnāt exist in a vacuum, it shapes how people understand real-world power, violence, and oppression. i do wish the fandom made more space to discuss how that potentially reinforces the problem, but they're so incapable of doing it without descending into personal drama. they make it about them and not about wanting to actually talk about this because well... this is tumblr so obviously it's curated af and they can't escape their own egos. anyway, i'm not trying to preach here but i'm genuinely curious like, does that not kind of reframe why some people are like, "this is torture porn?!" perspective?
i think the way those two particular blogs that have been named already are going about this is so immature. they made posts on their blogs calling out behavior rather than directly engage with you because theoretically, even if you were calling them out specifically in your original post, i had no idea that was what was happening until they created a narrative saying so and until they perpetuated the drama with their attention-seeking behavior. like publishing that shit on their blogs and claiming they're trying to have a conversation... anyway... i guess i would like to TRY to have a normal convo about this.
i dont know any of the people who are i guess making sub posts about me. again, ive not been tagged in anything, and i dont go seeking out hate posts about myself so lmao. they can continue to circlejerk.
tell ya what. im going to talk about the CONTEXT and TIMEFRAME of Neil Druckmann's actions bc these things matter and are routinely glossed over by people who would rather water things down so they're easier to digest. In depth, complex discussions that acknowledge grey areas aren't as easy as just screaming "ZIONIST!" at anybody who enjoys TLOU, but here's the former:
most of what I see people parroting is an opinion piece from 2020
here is an article from April of this year that does a decent job at condensing Neil Druckman's comments about Israel and Gaza and TLOU
here is an excerpt I think is worth sharing:
The impetus for Ellieās trajectory inĀ Part IIĀ came from Druckmann seeing footage as a teenager of Israeli soldiers being lynched in the West Bank. He couldnāt shake the fact that there were cheers after such violence. āIt was the cheering that was really chilling to me,ā Druckmann told theĀ WashingtonĀ PostĀ in 2020. āIn my mind, I thought āOh, man, if I could just push a button and kill all these people that committed this horrible act, I would make them feel the same pain that they inflicted on these people.āā
Once that anger subsided, Druckmann said he felt disgusted over his own fury. But that made him think about how humanity processes hatred. āI landed on this emotional idea of, can we, over the course of the game, make you feel this intense hate that is universal in the same way that unconditional love is universal?āĀ
In a 2023 interview withĀ Haaretz, Druckmann was keen to note that being inspired by something and basing a game on something are two different things. āIt was inspired by, not based on,ā Druckmann said ofĀ The Last of Us Part IIĀ and the Israeli-Palestinian conflict. āThatās a really important nuance, because my inspiration is like my feeling towards a cycle of violence that Iāve experienced as a child growing up in Israel, growing up in the West Bank specifically, coming to the United States and observing it then from the outside, vs. being in it.ā
āThis game deals a lot with tribalism,ā Druckmann continued. āSometimes tribalism on a very large scale, between two groups that are fighting for landāand again, that has obvious similarities to stuff that happens in the West Bankābut sometimes itās tribalism within its own groupā¦a sense of a group that feels righteous. And when youāre righteous, itās very easy to diminish another group and say, āThey are less than me, and Iām correct and theyāre wrong, and therefore that gives me permission to inflict violence upon them.āĀ
It's possible to acknowledge Neil Druckmann's personal experience influencing themes throughout the story without oversimplifying it and deeming the entirety of it as Zionist propaganda. Him leaning into the worst parts of himself/humanity, being disgusted with his ability to lean so easily into that, and wanting to creatively explore it isn't Zionist propaganda.
I think where people fail to make the connection in many of these statements is TLOU (both games and first season) was created prior to the events of Oct 7.
(IMPORTANT TO NOTE: this current conflict is another facet of an extensive history of conflict between Israel and Palestine. It's an incredibly chaotic, messy, and violent history that cannot possibly be summed up in this post alone. There is also the history of politics in Palestine itself that I recommend you read about.)
Neil Druckmann was born in 1978, decades into what we now acknowledge as the ongoing conflict. His first real exposure to the violence from the ongoing conflict would most likely be when he was a teen, which is what he references in that "kneejerk reaction" comment. The comments about being inspired by and not basing material on something were in April of 2023.
Now, let's talk about his actions after Oct 7. A few hours after the news broke, he posted an Israeli flag on IG with the caption Israel forever written in Hebrew. A few days after that he posted to twitter about a donation to an Israeli based charity Zaka, who purport themselves to be volunteer rescue and paramedics.
Let's take a minute to talk about Zaka. They have a weird history with questionable actions/leaders across the spectrum. Sometime in the mid 2010s they were given some privileges with United Nations. Zaka immediately started fundraising after Oct 7. A few months later a report came out that exposed the shadiness, purposeful misinformation, and mismanagement of funds by the organization.
Sometime in mid October, Druckmann tweeted about a donation to a Middle Eastern Red Cross humanitarian charity that isn't directly affiliated with any entity involved in the current conflict. The tweet highlighted that Playstation matched his donation, and he was thanking them. This tweet included both the Israeli flag as well as the Palestinian flag.
all this to say....
Surprise, surprise: a guy who spent some of his formative years in Israel has a complicated and oftentimes questionable-leaning-ugly conduct about Palestine.
Water is wet.
Demanding that he retroactively apply current circumstances to his past self is not only impossible but also derails legitimate discussion and warranted critique; however, his trajectory is not one I'd readily align with a Zionist.
And bc I know some of you ignorant bitches lack media literacy, I'll make it easy for you:
Fuck Israel and their military state. The Palestinian people deserve freedom and peace, and yes even at times from their own presiding political groups.
Why would you give a shit if someone else thinks media you like is "torture porn"? Why would you blame anyone but yourself if you let that affect your enjoyment of it? If anyone is "ruining" the fandom with "dogshit takes", it's fragile people shitting on others for how their opinions about a fictional TV show or godforbid their tones make them feel.
the logical conclusion of their take is that no POC should be cast in any complex role. sanitized children's shows that require no modicum of thought or discernment seems to be the only acceptable avenue. even then im sure they'd find something to grandstand about bc the entire point of all this seems to be wielding some sense of moral superiority. it's WEIRD.
also, people are allowed to hate, dislike, disagree with any portion of TLOU. they can watch the episode where Joel dies and go "yep, that's it for me" and decide to not watch the show anymore. the issue comes when they make it a personal mission to make sure everyone else aligns with their own conclusion and management of it.
it reminds me a lot of the MAGA crowd tbh. there's no cohesive frame of thought. it's just a bunch of jumbled up "hot takes" that can be adjusted to fit whatever they're focused on atm. there's no rhyme or reason to it.
damn imagine a show that has Gabriel Luna, Rutina Wesley, Isabela Merced, Young Mazino, and Jeffrey Wright (just to name a few off the top of my head) in prominent roles that don't tokenize their race/ethnicity STILL BEING DEEMED ANTI-POC
You have a child's understanding of racism
i just know you're gonna write about me in your journal tonight
damn imagine a show that has Gabriel Luna, Rutina Wesley, Isabela Merced, Young Mazino, and Jeffrey Wright (just to name a few off the top of my head) in prominent roles that don't tokenize their race/ethnicity STILL BEING DEEMED ANTI-POC
y'all hear yourselves????? y'all are the caricatures of the Left that Fox News harps about. what's next? y'all gonna say roles like Nico Parker and Rutina Wesley are DEI hires bc in the game their characters were white????? y'all sound INSANE
