So, it’s been a while. Let’s catch up.
My name’s Gavin. I was born in a rural part of central Scotland and have lived here for all of my life. That had its ups and downs. I usually felt confined, being so far away from everywhere. I always felt like I was alone. I didn't really bond well with my family, they made me feel even more isolated, sometimes even unwanted.
School was very mixed. I'm gay so you can imagine how difficult it was feeling alone and isolated. I had to internalise all those feelings and try to process all of it. For a long time I hated myself, I didn't understand who I was and why I couldn't be like anybody else. Eventually I came to terms with it, and eventually so did my family. They've come to accept me I think.
After finishing High School I went to College and then onto University studying 3D Computer Animation. A subject I was extremely interested in. I loved using that as an art form. Creating something from seemingly nothing, digitally. Again, I felt pretty isolated there, but I made friends eventually.
When I graduated I got a job at an alternative clothing company (Latex, if anyone is interested.). I was mostly doing random odd jobs helping out while also working on a project relating to my 3D skills with them. I wasn't really that bothered what I was doing. I was just really happy to have a job as it was my first job. Yeah, really, at 21, that was my first job. And it still is today. Though I don't do any of the 3D stuff that I used to like, which I have mixed feelings about.
These last 7 years have felt like 14. My looks have faded. My waistline has grown. I'm a homeowner. In a lot of ways, I feel like I'm a completely different person, living a completely different life. But in a lot more ways, I'm still that insecure 14 year old trying to come to terms with who I am inside. I've not had any meaningful relationships, really. I've loved many. And kept few.
I'm wanting to post more content on here. I want to talk more. Explore more. I want to get a little of who I used to be back. And I don't want to feel like my life is just flying by. I don't want to wake up in another 7 years and realise that I've done nothing.
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