What's the Opposite of Studyspo?

A studyblr run by a useless computer lesbian with self-diagnosed ADHD and dermatillomania. Year 12, UK, she/her.

[treasure-mimic]

Rock stations be like “We only do three things here, drink beer, watch sports, and play the hardest rock in the whole world, and if you don’t like it you can pull that tampon out of your vagina you girl” [plays Thunder by Imagine Dragons]

[treasure-mimic]

Alt stations be like “Tired of that tired pop station, welcome to your new alternative, where we only play the most left of the dial underground artists we can find” [plays Thunder by Imagine Dragons]

[treasure-mimic]

Throwback stations be like “We’re here to bring you all your favorite classics of decades past, doesn’t matter when, 70s, 80s, 90s, whatever takes you back to the days of old” [plays Thunder by Imagine Dragons]

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

It’s possible to like classic rock, obscure indie folk, think there are a million bands out there better than Imagine Dragons, AND think Thunder is still a bop. 

[thylekshran]

reading what gaiman has to say about zira & crow’s sexualities like

[beckettmariner-deactivated20200]

When someone asks if Aziraphale and Crowley are gay and Neil Gaiman responds with two long paragraphs about how they’re technically not human males and they experience emotions differently from us

[lasmokingreblogger]

tbh i’m pretty sure it’s nicer of him not to definitively label them? and also funnier but i’ll get there in a sec

nicer bc it means that if they want to, gq/gf/enbies can claim them, trans guys can, bi and gay guys can, people all over the gender and sexuality spectra can claim and/or identify with them and there won’t be any evidence against their claims.

here’s the funny part, they can all be correct because – JUST LIKE in his and sir terry’s fairytale written for grownups that used to be children – neil has made sure

there is no Word of God

besides jfc why would someone even ask him that, look at them, whatever they are they’re married

[thylekshran]

“There is no word of god except they’re DEFINITELY NOT GAY because they’re sexless uwu I don’t understand how gender sexuality works at all” -Neil

[senshilegionnaire]

lmao did you not actually see either the question or how the question was answered? https://neil-gaiman.tumblr.com/post/169084845106/i-am-genuinely-sorry-to-bother-you-with-this-but that is literally not ‘they are not gay’ it is ‘if you are looking for word of god i will tell you how canon and fanon and headcanon work and you can keep making fun and awesome things about this thing we all love’

[thylekshran]

If there’s no word of god than none of the angels or demons are LGBT or queer at all cuz the show has no text that states that. He can’t have it both ways

[senshilegionnaire]

They’re not straight or cis, for sure. I mean I personally have figured since 1994, when I first read it, that they don’t have genders or could be any gender (I had not heard of agender or genderfluid or genderqueer at the time, and don’t now know when the terms were coined) but are most assuredly in love.

The point he’s trying to make is that fans can have it any way fans want. I mean the beauty of the ambiguity is that I can figure at my core that they’re genderfluid, and may be ace or demi, or even ace/aro depending on day and form– or more likely, totally fluid in every way because they’re NOT human, but always with the deep core of complete love that can be physical or might not be, that makes them an incontrovertible ship in my eyes–

–and I’m not wrong, and neither are the people who say they’re gay, or just gnc, or usually male presenting but not always, or *whatever it is that they could possibly be*.

neil was absurdly explicit in pointing out what the specific *canons* did and did not say. he never gave *his* explicit headcanon, but pointed out that anything he might say about them, given what is *not* stated in canon, would be him Making Stuff Up outside the actual canon.

I suspect he didn’t give his own headcanon because of what else he said in the post– that people trying to make any one interpretation The True One is missing the point, and his isn’t any more valid than anyone else’s. if he gave his own HC, then too many people would claim it as word of god and attempt to use it to invalidate other points of view, identities and identifications that mean just as much to their proponents as anyone else’s mean to them.

in saying his understanding of them isn’t any more valid than anyone else’s, he’s actually validating what fandoms have been saying for years in reverse: that the interpretations they have of canonical bodies of work are as valid as those of the creators, as soon as they’re released into the public eye.

it’s actually a really important stance he’s taking within the narrative of interactions between creators and fans– he’s by far not the first, but he’s got a voice that reaches a lot of people right now, and he’s using it in a social climate that’s more aware of personal identification and validity than any previous time in the history of mass media.

i’m pretty sure ‘you are all valid’ is not him misunderstanding anything, and i have no doubt (given how he started the answer) that he’s aware that a lot of people don’t like ‘nobody is wrong’ because it’s frequently read as ‘you personally are not correct’.

this also means you’re not wrong. XD but– neither am i.

[thylekshran]

please tell me where in the text of the SHOW (the book doesn’t count, because he’s already stated the book and the show are 2 separate canons) any of the angels are in any way LGBT/queer. because either word of god doesn’t count, in which case the show is unbearably cishet (with the exception of Pollution but that’s yikes for its own reasons) OR word of god/book canon counts, in which case he’s queerbaiting us with the lack of textual acknowledgement of the facts of their genders and sexualities. i’m really dying to know what i missed

[gaytranscrowley]

sorry but I’m just-

why would neilman making them canonically gay men make it so trans men can’t claim them? why do you think being a gay man and being a trans man are two mutually exclusive things? why do you not view gay trans men as gay men?

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

In the show Pollution is canonically non-binary with they/them pronouns being used. Neil Gaiman has implied that Beezlebub doesn’t use any pronouns, which strongly suggests that they are also non-binary, and fandom have since taken that and run with it. Furthermore, according to the Neilman none of the angels and demons really have gender because they’re not humans, and most of them don’t even have physical bodies. He’s also reblogged and retweeted a fair bit of LGBT+ fan content so he’s definitely supportive of those interpretations.

It’s difficult to explain, but when he said that it felt wrong for the story I understood what he meant(as a lesbian who wholeheartedly ships Crowley and Aziraphale). Firstly, it would jar with the tone, which is a very, very English style of comedy in which no one ever admits their feelings. Secondly, Aziraphale was based on Terry Pratchett and Crowley based on Neil Gaiman. I think if his personal headcanon is a platonic relationship, that’s kind of understandable. Wouldn’t you feel a bit weird about imagining your dead friend’s author insert in a romantic relationship with your own author insert, even if you have made it clear that other people can? Additionally, he doesn’t know if Terry Pratchett would have wanted that for Crowley and Aziraphale, and it was very important to Terry Pratchett before he died that the TV show be made the way he’d imagined it. 

Neil Gaiman has made it clear a lot of times in the past that he doesn’t believe in Voice of God. This isn’t just an arbitrary thing that he’s come up with to spite gay people, it’s an important principle for him. We’ve all seen what happens when an author starts messing about outside of the canon(*cough* J.K. Rowling). You all need to learn the difference between legitimate homophobes and people who are actively trying to support the LGBT+ community, and in fact have been for a long time before it was mainstream.

[bonethievery]

Petition for there to be more adhd specific positivity posts

[lgbtaudhd]

I LOVE ADHD PEOPLE AND THATS THAT

[the-trans-advice-blog]

adhd gang wya

[lgbtaudhd]

Dabs

[sheriff-haught-sauce]

Greek dude: But…but I brought you a bouquet of olives to win over your heart!

Sappho, lounging on a couch with her girlfriend on her lap, popping grapes into her mouth: Oh muse, singeth to us Despacito.

[sotheangst]

Friendly reminder that Taylor Swift is not part of the LGBTQ+ community. If you want to support lgbtq+ musicians, then here are some list of my favorites:

1. Sufjan Stevens

2. Janelle monáe

3. Hayley kiyoko

4. Kehlani

5. Frank Ocean

6. Girl in red

7. Freddie Mercury

8. Kevin Abstract

9. Troy Sivan

10. Brendon Uri

11. Todrick Hall

12. Holland

13. Halsey

14. Keiynan Lonsdale

Feel free to add on.

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

15. Radical Face aka Ben Cooper- was kicked out of his house at 14 for being gay, and later adopted his niece when he discovered that the same stepfather who kicked him out was sexually abusing her. He’s probably my favourite artist and I really respect him as a person.

He basically makes his music in his shed, playing all the instruments himself, with incredibly complex lyrics and beautiful melodies. Most of his songs are part of The Family Tree, a set of concept albums where each song is about a member of the same family. One of my personal favourites from this is The Mute, the only song I’ve heard written from the perspective of a non-verbal autistic person.

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

I Unfuck My Life: Day 13

*finger guns while slightly dying on the inside* I’m terrible at posting consistently.

I’m still working out my new bullet journal method, which is based on the philosophy of Write Everything Down. Seriously. If you have ADHD you probably know this, but you cannot trust yourself to remember anything. I say this because I often make the mistake of thinking “Who would forget that?”

2 hours later: “Oh. It’s me. I would forget that.”

I dedicate one page per day, like so: 

There are four boxes:

To do- fairly self explanatory

To take- A checklist of things to take to school or anywhere else I’m going in the morning. I literally go through it and check off every item as I’m packing. 

Schedule- What I plan to do during the day.

Time spent- What I actually do. 

[studylizziee]

Personal Statement Advice

*let me amend that title to ‘some quick tips for writing personal statements that I have accumulated, but don’t take my word for it because I have no idea how good mine is!’

General

give yourself time - it takes a while to write your personal statement, what with drafting, editing, sending to other people, and having time to sit on it before going back to work on it. You can’t cram a personal statement! Especially for early entry apps, people tend to do a first draft over the summer of Year 12. I really wish I had because I started in early September and was quite stressed out

keep it 100% focused - admissions tutors want to hear about 2 things: 

motivation: why you love your subject and want to study it for 3+ years

suitability: why should they choose you? What skills do you possess that mean you will cope well with studying at university level and succeed in your field

before you start, do your research

know which universities you’re applying to - different unis want to see different things in a personal statement. The classic example is that Oxbridge don’t really care about your extra-curriculars, and just want to know about your academic interest in the subject. It’s worth researching this before you apply so you can try to tick the boxes for all your unis

balancing different unis - if you’re applying to Oxbridge, generally the guideline is to make your personal statement 80% academic at least. Don’t get too hung up on that though - they only look at it at the interview stage, whereas other unis use it to shortlist, especially if they don’t interview!! So ironically it’s more important to try and appeal to your other unis

What to include

structure for each paragraph - okay this may sound a bit basic and take you back to the horrors of gcse english, but a really useful way of making sure you fully explore all your points is using the PEE paragraph. I appreciate this is too formulaic for some people, but it doesn’t have to be in this exact order. I just used it as a guide to make sure each paragraph I wrote covered these elements

Point: motivation (why subject) or suitability (why me)

Evidence: thing you’ve done (list of examples below)

Explanation: what you learned and link it back to your point. Be reflective!!

okay now on to content - let’s split this into academic and extra-curricular

academic - this is the example section of your PEE, where you get to talk about all the amazing things you’ve done that demonstrate your passion for the subject

reading you’ve done, podcasts you’ve listened to, lectures you went to, work experience you did, societies / clubs you’re part of that are relevant to your subject, summer schools etc

extra-curricular - okay so you definitely can include extra-curriculars, but always link back to the skills you’ve learned from them (and possibly why that will help you in your subject area) e.g. being a captain of x team sport has helped me develop both my leadership and team work skills, because I must raise the morale of my team and delegate roles efficiently

here I have tried to give some examples of things that this person does in their role to develop the skills they mention

also, if you talk about an interest / hobby, try to quantify it - if you do a team sport, are you captain? If you play an instrument, what grade have you reached? If you run, have you done any significant distances e.g. a 10K? It just gives some evidence that you genuinely do your chosen hobby

Actually writing it

where to start - I found it really difficult to start writing that first draft, and essentially only got going when I had a school deadline to meet in early September… I was really freaked out by that blank Word document, but my dad basically sat me down and we did a huge messy plan to create a structure

by the way for me the struggle wasn’t ‘omg idk what to write i have nothing to say’ but more ‘omg i have so much to say but no idea how to express it’. If you fall into the former category I recommend making a list of all the academic experiences you have (see list above). Once you get brainstorming you’ll realise you’ve done more than you thought!

the first draft - use your plan to attempt your first draft. Completely ignore the character/line limit! It doesn’t matter if it’s rubbish, just focus on getting it all out - keep going until you finish writing everything you want to say

feedback - it’s really important to get a fresh pair of eyes to read your personal statement. When you’ve read it so many times it can be hard to spot errors and see where things don’t flow etc. The 3 most important things to remember when asking for feedback:

1. do it at intervals - my head of year read my first draft, then I asked a doctor I had shadowed to read my 4th draft, my head of year re-read it at my 5th draft, and then I finalised it with my parents for the 6th and final drafts (yep I did 7 drafts)

2. re-draft (lots ugh) after you get feedback - decide which bits to incorporate, but don’t be afraid to disagree with the advice you are given! It’s your personal statement

3. don’t ask too many people - they may give you conflicting views which will just confuse you rather than help. As you can see, I stuck to 2 ‘outsiders’ and my parents

the beginning - most people find this the hardest part. The best advice I’ve heard is basically not to start with the start! If you’re struggling, do the middle paragraphs first, and these might give you inspiration for your intro. Try to think of a moment, an experience, or a person you’ve met that really influenced your decision to study your subject, or encapsulates why you love your subject

the ending - okay you’ve given all your evidence so don’t introduce anything too new. Try not to repeat yourself but this is essentially a summary of 1) motivation / why subject and then close it off with 2) suitability / why me

Useful Posts

UCAS Personal Statements by @briefblazeunknown 

Top Tips for Your Personal Statement by @muststudy 

How to Write a Bomb Ass Personal Statement by @joolshallie 

A Guide to UCAS Personal Statements by @jenniestudies 

How to Ace the UCAS Process #4: Personal Statement by @penandanotebook (the rest of this series is really good too so definitely check it out!)

How to Make Your Personal Statement Suck Less by @hstudies

Good Vocabulary to Use in Your Personal Statement by me 

Medicine specific

Top Tips for a Medicine Personal Statement by @help-im-a-medstudent (I actually requested this post and I’m so grateful because it’s amazing!)

Applying to Medicine: How to Write Your Personal Statement by @quilavastudy 

Writing Your Medicine Personal Statement by @conquertheuniversity 

Personal statement advice and qualities that Medical Schools are looking for by @dxmedstudent  

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

I Unfuck My Life: Day 4

I didn’t post on Day 2 and Day 3, for the reason that on Day 2 I went to a party and didn’t really have time to post before I left, and on Day 3, let’s just say that I wasn’t really in a condition to be making inspirational Tumblr posts.

(This sounds much more glamorous and/or wild than I really am. I don’t go to parties often, and when I do it’s the kind of gloriously terrible “party” which involves sitting around a table playing drunk Truth or Dare, people crying on the stairs at 3 AM, and very little else.)

Today, my main Unfucking effort was in sorting out the pile of papers sitting in my ‘To Deal With Later’ pile. It’s very useful to have a ‘To Deal With Later’ pile- yes, it will inevitably become a way to procrastinate on putting things away, but if you have executive dysfunction and cannot rely on your future self to always have the energy to do that, the alternative is so, so much worse. A separate post on my system for organising papers and notes should be found here in the near future.

I learned some Hangul(I’m going to a competition in Korea this summer, which I’m very excited about), read The Night Circus, and went for a run as promised. I couldn’t be bothered to shave before going out and if people noticed, they averted their gaze in a very British manner. I don’t know if anyone else has issues with shaving their legs and armpits and how fucking LONG it takes, or if it’s just me, but it literally does not matter and should not stop you in anything you want to do. Amanda Palmer is a great inspiration in this regard. 

I go back to school tomorrow, so my efforts start properly then. I have two weeks until mock exams.

[the-argyle-shitpost]

unpopular opinion maybe but I think purity culture and cancel culture have gone too far, and they’ve started to become so ugly and toxic. let’s bring back critical thinking, patience with others, and opportunity for growth

[the-argyle-shitpost]

Okay. Holy fuck. This post blew up – on a sideblog where I had, I shit you not, only two followers when I posted this – so I’d like to clarify what I meant when I made this post.

Great question!

1) I am NOT saying we support murderers, rapists, and abusers; people who decide to commit crimes such as those do not deserve our support, and that’s fine.

2) I am also NOT saying we let creators/celebrities/influencers etc say and do racist/homophobic/transphobic etc things and get away with it.

3) I am NOT saying we go back to the “good ol’ days” where openly being racist, for example, was acceptable. I don’t want that. If you reblogged this post thinking “god, yes, I want to say bigoted things again without sjws attacking me for it” tough luck buddy, but this post ain’t supporting that or you.

This post is actually directed to activist communities, particularly online ones. This criticism is coming from someone who is a part of those activist communities because I think it’s time we have an intra-community discussion about how we react to problematic events.

So say a celebrity does something problematic. Let’s use a real-world example, okay? A while ago, Terry Crews came under fire for saying people needed paternal and maternal love “no matter where you get that [from].”

People immediately jumped on him for implying that children of single parents or same-sex parents were lacking, that he was being homophobic, that he’d blown it, that he was cancelled and could no longer be a role model despite his past activism and support of various good causes, and that was that.

From 0 to 100 real quick. From a valid criticism sprouting from his miscommunication and his audience’s misunderstanding – to saying his role as an activist was forever over.

Do you understand how toxic that is? People – even our ALLIES – cannot make a single mistake, not say a single thing out of line without being dragged forth and humiliated and “cancelled.”

We as activists cannot, CANNOT, demand perfection. We ourselves are NOT perfect, we ourselves have done and said problematic things in the past and so we cannot demand absolute perfection from others.

Our response to problematic things and people has to change.

How should we change?

We should educate. When someone, ally or enemy, does something problematic, instead of dragging them or cancelling them or making fun of them we should politely educate them on why what they did is wrong. More often than not? They’ll understand and apologize!

Always assume ignorance on their part instead of malice, because actual malice in the world is rare, while simple ignorance is widespread.

If we come at them and attack them? Very likely they will double down on their position and refuse to change, because of the toxicity of the response they got from this movement. And they won’t learn and grow from this experience and will likely dig themselves deeper in this hole.

We have to be more patient with others. I know it is tiring and frustrating and exhausting to deal with problematic attitudes and comments, which often come in the form of microaggressions, but we have to rise above our initial instinct to lash out and attack if we want any lasting positive social change to be made.

Because we don’t want a society where people are afraid to speak their minds, do we? We don’t want a society where people are afraid they’ll say the wrong thing and be excommunicated from a group forever, do we? We don’t want a fucking authoritarian Twitter regime, do we, where the slightest misstep kicks you to the cub for good?

I know I don’t. I want a society free of prejudices and bigotry, but one that is patient and understanding when people make mistakes. Even when their mistakes cause momentary harm, because it’s going to happen and it sucks, but it’s a part of the process.

Bottom line is: if you do not become a more patient, compassionate, and understanding person, you are going to alienate your allies. You are going to drive away more and more people from this movement because of how toxic the response to even the smallest of mistakes is. Nobody’s going to WANT to be a part of that movement, and for good reason.

Embrace patience and empathy and education. Destroy cancel culture.

[eintsein]

FINALLY but also ithink cancel culture is partly a holier-than-thou approach, i.e. we think we’re increasing our moral standing this way.

[tarysande]

Some things I’m learning on this personal ADHD-diagnosis journey:

Some doctors will dismiss you when you admit that, yes, you got straight As in school and were never a classroom disturbance. 

But that doesn’t erase the truth:

I got straight As because I liked school, liked learning, and wasn’t bored.

When I was bored in the classroom, I wrote novels instead of paying attention; that was quiet. I daydreamed all the time; so quiet. After being caught at this once or twice, my ADHD-sensitivity to criticism (rejection sensitivity dysphoria) clicked in and I realized if I answered a question at the beginning of class, the teacher would ignore me for the rest and never put me on the spot. I slipped headphones under my long hair and listened to CDs. Do you know how many times I listened to Tori Amos’s “Winter” on repeat in math class? How many times I invented “Student Council business” to get out of a class that was boring me to rage or tears? Do they care that, even though you got straight As, you missed more than a month of school days in your senior year because you just couldn’t deal with it anymore?

(Absences, I learned, mean nothing if you have straight As. Lies about how you spend your time mean nothing. Listening to the same song over and over and over to drown out the boredom means nothing.)

They don’t ask if all those papers and assignments that got those good grades were completed in a panic the night before after breaking down crying because how could I be so stupid, I knew this was going to happen, why can’t I stop procrastinating, why can’t I just have more willpower, why I am I such a failure? They don’t ask if you can’t finish work without a deadline, and that if the deadline is too vague or far away it means nothing except that you have longer to procrastinate until you panic. They don’t ask how many times you’ve started something and been unable to finish even though you want to, you really really want to. But you can’t. You know it doesn’t make sense. Knowing changes nothing.

Did you get bad grades? Were you a classroom disturbance? What were your report cards like?

They don’t ask if you’re living up to your potential. They don’t ask if knowing you’re not living up to your potential is the slow poison that taints every other aspect of your life.

#

Some doctors will say, “ADHD involves impulsivity. Were you promiscuous, did you have problems with drugs or alcohol?” And you will say, “No.” They will dismiss you.

They will not ask if you have a history of overspending, of impulse buying even when your brain says, “Sweetheart, you know you can’t afford that.” They won’t ask if you’re able to be patient when you want attention or feedback or praise. They won’t ask if you’ve pretended that some new piece of clothing was older, or bought second-hand. They won’t ask how much of those university loans you spent not on tuition, but on feeding the pleasure center of your brain that just wants more. More pretty dresses, more video games, more chocolate.

They will not ask how much time you spend on the internet, refreshing pages because you just can’t focus on anything else, and refreshing pages is easy, and might mean a little dopamine hit. They will not ask about the intensity of your interests. When you say the word “hyperfixation” they look uncomfortable, like you know a word you’re not supposed to know. Like they might have to take you seriously.

They’ll still dismiss you, though. You got good grades, you’re put together, you’re not fidgeting.

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Some doctors will interrupt you when you’re trying to explain something, and yes, your explanation involves 23 diversions because you’re trying to really explain it. Really explain it so they understand. They will hold up a hand. They will snap, “Stop talking,” and your rejection-sensitive dysphoria will cripple you. You will want to vomit. You will start to cry and pretend you’re not crying. They will say, “I think you have anxiety, take these drugs. They will say, you are depressed, take these ones.” They will not listen when you say, “But the anxiety and depression have a common root; why won’t you listen to me?” They will not listen when you say, “Why are you treating the symptoms but not the underlying cause?”

#

Some doctors will treat you like you’re a drug-seeker, especially if you come in with too much knowledge (because you like learning, because you’ve always liked learning, because maybe you can’t control much of anything but you can read, read, read and cling to that knowledge like a lifeline; you can always be clever. You can always be smart. Less rejection that way.). They may narrow their eyes like you want medication for a nefarious purpose when all you really want is to be able to turn the key in the ignition and start the car. The car is good; there’s nothing mechanically wrong. The tank is full. But without a key, you cannot turn the damn thing on. And because your brain is not always your ally in these things, it whispers, “You’re imagining this. You have the key. It’s in your pocket. Just take it out.” But you don’t have a pocket. You don’t have a key. Telling yourself you do, you just need to find it, just need to manufacture it out of thin air does not make it true.

I’ve learned that to get help, the right kind of help, you sometimes have to turn yourself inside out. You have to somehow accomplish the things your condition makes most difficult: you must accept rejection, you must persevere beyond what you think possible, you must stand up for yourself over and over and get used to disagreeing with people trying to dismiss you, you must not let yourself be silenced.

I have a doctor who is listening to me now. It’s slow-going. It’s frustrating. It’s hard. The last year–more–of trying to make myself understood has been exhausting. But then, hasn’t my whole life been exhausting? Of course it has. I got good grades, I wasn’t a classroom disturbance. No one knew I was suffering. I slipped through the cracks.

The car’s been sitting idle a long time. I’ve probably done some damage to the clutch. But maybe I have a key. Maybe the car will shudder to life when I turn it.

[adhdrants]

I’ve been diagnosed since 5th grade, bc that’s when it affected my schoolwork. They put me on meds, and my grades improved. They eventually took me off meds and my grades stayed high. I was told that’s all that mattered. Maybe not in so many words, but that’s still what happened. I wasn’t distracted, I could remember things, I did well in school, so I was thrown to the wolves. I spent years convinced I was lazy, stupid, useless, a crybaby, because nobody bothered to tell me the symptoms of my own damn disorder. Even after learning that, several years later I’m now realizing that I should probably be on meds, because my grades have been good, and that’s all that matters, right?

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

This is highly relatable. To illustrate- in Grade 8, I was given permission to take Grade 9 Math a year early, online.

What my teachers saw: I studied Math at the back of the class for six months, took it at the end of the year and got 95%. (That’s higher in Canada than it is in the US.) They had more pressing things to worry about, such as the boy with diagnosed ADHD throwing paper balls.

What I saw: I spent five months watching Bones and one month frantically completing all my assignments and learning the curriculum. 

It’s not like I never got in trouble with teachers, because I certainly did- my entire elementary school career was spent reading under my desk. But because I had a gifted IQ, read widely and could easily get good marks on tests, they somehow thought it was acceptable that I wasn’t actually learning. 

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

A note

As it turns out, my first post about I Unfuck My Life got swallowed up by the hellsite. (I distinctly remember posting it.) But the long and the short of it is: this studyblr hasn’t really got off the ground, because I’ve slightly fucked myself over the past few months. Not majorly- it’s not a total disaster- but I haven’t been doing enough of what I need to do, or even what I like to do, because executive dysfunction sucks. I came to a decision that this needed to change.

And then I thought: I’m not the only person in this situation. Why don’t I blog about it, on that blog where I never actually posted anything because I can’t do things consistently and then when I fail I quit? I’m sure that’ll go well. 

So, perhaps optimistically, I present to you: I Unfuck My Life. It does what it says on the tin, I hope. 

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

I Unfuck My Life: Day 1

I didn’t get much done today: I took my little brother for a day out instead, as we’re on a break. However, I did think about the most immediate actions I could take, and what I came up with was:

1. Make schedules and record my time.

2. Get more exercise.

3. Prepare the night before.

1 is something that I used to do which I found helpful. It definitely wasn’t anything fancy: it was a Google doc in which I would make my schedule for the next day, then delete that and start again for the next. Less often I would also write down what I actually did and when I did it. As I’m using a bullet journal now, to start with I’ll be doing the paper equivalent of that. 

As for 2, I’m considering taking up a martial art. This is something that I’ve always found really enjoyable when I’ve tried it, as opposed to simply running or doing pushups, because there’s something deeply satisfying about fighting. It’s also a group activity and a paid class, giving me motivation to attend regularly, and hopefully to get fitter in other areas. To that end, I’ve contacted a dojo although they’ve not responded to me yet. I’m also going to start running more often, and taking long early morning walks on the weekends. The latter is especially good for mental health because I have fantastic hills and forest immediately outside my town.

3 will make it considerably easier to get up and out in the morning. Connected to 1, it’ll consist of tidying my room, laying out clothes for the morning and, if not packing my bag, at least making a checklist on my whiteboard of things that I need to take wherever I’m going. 

[mossdeep-archive]

hey with june around the corner i want everyone to… keep an eye out for pride posts that exclude lesbians specifically. don’t reblog them. just because your identity is in the post, if op excludes the first acronym in LGBT it does not reflect the community. you include the whole acronym or you don’t make the post at all. excluding lesbians shouldn’t be tolerated and if i see that shit on my dash i won’t tolerate it either.

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

To non-lesbians: I sometimes call myself gay, because I’m attracted to the same gender and it’s just an excellent word generally, but “lesbian” is my identity. To me, it includes not just attraction to women, but also gender-nonconformity, sisterhood and solidarity. It has a history and a culture. If that were erased and replaced with a blanket term ‘gay’, I’d feel as though I’d lost part of my identity. 

[rationalisms]

it makes me so so sad that so many people are deterred by a shitty education system from realizing just how beautiful and incredible maths is and how many aweinspiring wonders they’re missing out on like, you just have to take prime numbers as an example!!

prime numbers (numbers that are only divisible by 1 and themselves) have been studied for so long (centuries!) and yet people still don’t understand the pattern by which they function

which makes the fact that they’re the basic building blocks of all other integers so incredible because it means that mathematics which, as a discipline, is built around patterns, order and clear defined rules, literally rests upon something that doesn’t seem to follow any of those things!!

and yet, despite our complete inability to ascertain the exact method by which they are dispersed among non-primes, if you graph their appearances (and there always are more primes, even if you theoretically counted to infinity), the curve is almost impossibly smooth and regular, which suggests there is some sort of pattern underneath the chaos that we just aren’t able to see yet

even more amazingly, twin primes (pairs of prime numbers that are separated by another number) may become rarer and rarer the higher up you count, but there is always eventually another pair of twins to be found no matter how long the empty stretch before that was

it’s so so so beautiful that in an attempt to bring structure into our universe (and that’s what mathematics is, the attempt to explain the laws that govern everything that exists), we’ve stumbled upon the fact that its very essence seems to both obey no law at all and exhibit a regularity that borders on scary

“there is no such thing as a complete lack of order, only a design so vast it appears unrepetitive up close”

[lcgarithms]

THIS. BIG FAT MOOD.

[s21yn-kh-blog]

[physicsdykee]

things like this make me cry because i went so long before realising there was actually a reason for these things and that i’m not just a failure of a person

[missymalice]

“young adult dystopian novels are so unrealistic lmao like they always have some random teenage girl rising up to inspire the world to make change.”

a hero emerges 

[inkgut-deactivated20180603]

And just like in the novels, grown men and women are going out of their way to destroy her. Support our hero.

[freifraufischer]

And it’s not even like it doesn’t happen regularly.  

Teenage girls are amazing.

[queen-of-the-merry-men]

Sometimes they’re not even teenagers

[maveragical]

Reblog every time a girl is discredited/ignored

[thecaboodale]

[spacemonkeyg78]

[gaydhdstudying-blog]

13.05.2019

Back once again after my AS exams, featuring a half-finished Module 4 OCR Physics mindmap, a cup of tea and a book that I bought today with money that I definitely can’t afford to spend. From here on, I’m going to try and post daily, not just when I feel like it. I said that this would be a realistic studyblr but it’s not realistic at all if I only post when things are going well.