Open Secrets
I'm going to just make this site my journal. A clean break from the old one. Best thing is: I'm connected to nobody I know IRL. It's all virtual from here.
Not that I'm going to share my old blog. But I will share myself here, more openly. But only when I feel it.
Now, i just want to have you know that I'm here. I don't like myself very much most days. I'm 31 years old and yet I don't feel like my age. I have a boyfriend, but otherwise, I have little else. My parents are dead. I keep on minimal engagement with my dad's side of the family. My half siblings aren't that trustworthy. My mom's side of the family is very intrusive. I keep things from them. My boyfriend is the only person left that makes me feel like a real human being again. And yet, I'm scared of that. I want to be more self sufficient, emotionally, that is. He drives me up a wall and yet I still love him to pieces.
I want to be more vulnerable, but it's 230 AM and i need sleep. I love you all.












